Everlasting Beauty

There are moments in life
where you realise
that everything is a teacher

actually most of time
i could say i can see myself learning
is like the teacher is an event, or even a movie

which are speaking to me

it is like it was customised
and created to answer to my questions
see?

Remember?
when i wrote once
about a TV commercial
when i switched on tv
it was answering my very question
i had in mind about some coffee brand


now, is same
during the day
there were a LINE of events
one after the other
that were -LITERALLY speaking- talking to me

an outsider would think is just an independent conversation
that i am witnessing between two people

but in truth
in my self
i felt as if both people
were answering to my questions
without them knowing it consciously

is an amazing feeling of closeness

moreover
it was like they were acting my own life
was so strange
cause most of the details were matching my life
and as the conversation was very deep

it was 100% customised for me

Purposely i am not going into the details of it

but i could feel a very warm feeling
in the belly
and it rose up till the heart

and i felt satisfied
it made me feel also more grounded
and peaceful

because it is like an outer confirmation
of what i was feeling inside
and it felt warm to know that
if someone else could put words to it

then it already exist
and if it exists then is beautiful to witness

because i always felt
that if i can witness beauty
then i would feel real rich inside

as if i am somehow collecting it in me
and it won't perish
or as if it is stored forever in me
or as if i lived it for REAL 
i.e. lived it and KNOWING that i am living it

(cause most of time
we live without knowing consciously that we are living a life
is like we live a life unconsciously
that does not leave in you a feeling of sth alive
rather it is empty from Life , is  neutral at best
it does not add to your experience/i.e. it does not nourish you)

and this creates a feeling of satisfaction
or of fulfillment

because i KNOW this Beauty exists
and i am witnessing it
and if i am witnessing it
then it is in me
and it is for me
stored for ever
in me

Sincerity & Honesty

my soul

i dig in people to find some treasure

and all i see is deception

most people are so blind to themselves

that you can never touch them

you can never touch their sincerity

is like no one wants to be his Self

always something else

i feel the true self is found in the very moment

yet, people, it seems, refuse to live the very moment

cause they are using the moment to plan for future

but it is in the very moment

that you can see each other's soul light

not after

after is sheer luck if you meet her again

and even if you were to meet her

you would have forgotten that she has a soul

to be appreciated for

because you would be even more engrossed

in planning for reaching your target

so you will plan even more

thinking is closer

and get even more blind

to the present

so much that you will never see 

the very blessed moment

in the person

in front of you 

this is why you always miss sincerity

though sincerity is ever present 

in front of you

you see her not

Lyrics 

BILLY JOEL LYRICS

"Honesty"

If you search for tenderness
It isn't hard to find
You can have the love you need to live
But if you look for truthfulness
You might just as well be blind
It always seems to be so hard to give

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you

I can always find someone
To say they sympathize
If I wear my heart out on my sleeve
But I don't want some pretty face
To tell me pretty lies
All I want is someone to believe

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you

I can find a lover
I can find a friend
I can have security
Until the bitter end
Anyone can comfort me
With promises again
I know, I know

When I'm deep inside of me
Don't be too concerned
I won't ask for nothin' while I'm gone
But when I want sincerity
Tell me where else can I turn
Cause you're the one that I depend upon

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you 

  

source : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/billyjoel/honesty.html

Belly and the Joy

When you have that warm feeling
that arises from inside your belly
and it goes and touches heart

then you can bet
that you are doing something
that your soul is appreciating

cause is a feeling of joy
that arises straight
and touches your heart
which is the place of Love

and thus you are doing
what your soul Loves..

that is the very nice feeling
of excitement
and being at the right place
and doing the right thing

then it feels like
you are breathing anew

Luxurious moment of Light

ahhhhhh!
Have just been invited for a LUXURIOUS bath time
Warm water ... mixed with Lavender essence

just ONE word
GLORIOUS

Eager to be Monday!!!

okay am hesitating between
a Verbena, Lavender or Jasmin ...

these are such AUTHENTIC essences
i think i will go for Lavender

now,
i had a very nice AHA moment of clarity

was about the Light coming out of fingers

As i got reminded
the fingers show you the state of your chakras
but it had NEVER occured to me ON THE SPOT
that DE FACTO the fingers were the EXTENSION of my chakras see?

and i mean it LITERALLY SPEAKING
not as in descriptive way

this is WHY  i can see LIGHT going out of it
cause it SHOWS the DEGREE of SELF REALISATION
more explicitely is the LIGHT of the SPIRIT
that has PASSED THROUGH THE chakra of the person
it ENLIGHTENED SO MUCH the chakras
that the LIGHT was GOING OUT of the fingers

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
then i felt it was AWESOME
the LIGHT OF THE SPIRIT i could see out of these VERY fingers
isn't it AMAZING?

you can see YOUR OWN spirit LIGHT!!!

AWESOME



Hope i can activate that one day at will
this will be ONLY when it will become stable i guess
a state
that's a beautiful experience

kiss and love:x:x:x

Collective bandhan ... and their paper burning

Yogi never understand
what it means to put attention within
always trying to purify others behavior and never theirs, right?

After doing some mischievousness
of course they think EVIL is outside of them

never knowing it is to be fixed within.

So after calling a collective bandan
where they are calling me "back to mataji"

Mataji is what?
is not the Adi Shakti within?
you think i left my own adi shakti within?

no... they just want to control you, the outside
by misusing bandhan/magic...

cause they want me
the GOOD muslim
to be "BACK" to what they call collectivity

Should i call them back to the sufi realised collectivity?
hmm? that they never entered?
is stupid cause a collectivity is spiritual
is not a concrete stuff just because you have a group
what they are is a "GROUP" of numbnuts not meditating
though they are many

so they were curious about me
thinking : she left mataji, she left the collectivity

i will straighten for the LAST TIME their twisted mind :
still i love them, they are like ignorant kids

see?

1- Mataji is not a person, is not God
2- Adi shakti is WITHIN, you can't leave your own SELF , as your OWN SPIRIT WITHIN IS GOD
3- if you meditate NOT , and i DO EVERY MORNING, you will get affected
and i saw , except one yogi living in their ashram who is actually the only good one, and people think she is stupid, doing well

all of the others, are just going backward in their opening of petals
lol
they have never ever thought about that i bet! the opening ...or closing off... of their petals..

4- Guys, still not getting it? where my spiritual power comes from?
may be from my petals opening? cause i meditate my ass in the morning?
if so, i left nothing? may be except your stupid group of overarching patronizing controllers?

5-instead of behaving like an indian cast
following some guy who has no discriminative power
except sticking to mataji family title
what if I START behaving as stupidly as them, under pretext i am the GRAND....GRAND daughter
of FATIMA?

HMM?

back to earth guys
care for your own practice and meditation
then see if your petals open
so far they are rather drying out

and expect the consequences of your deeds


6- they never learn to appreciate the person for WHO THEY ARE
had they? they would have seen where my wisdom was flowing from
instead of asking me to be less deep...pure jealousy

so why they are afraid of my power?
while they had all the way seen them when i was benefiting them with ?
cause they NEVER took it for their OWN benefit
they ONLY saw YEA IS GREAT
GREAT to use her to BRING BACK OTHER MUSLIMS to worship indian god in sari
and make some dance after roasting some rice in chimney called havan

you think muslims are stupid and to be educated?

there are REALISED SUFI
with POWER of SPIRIT

and when they met me
they thought
ah! a muslim she never meditates
she is so numbnuts
let her use her for attracting others

NEVER EVER THINKING
OR EVEN YET WONDERING
WHERE I HAVE THESE SPIRITUAL POWER FROM
hmm?

May be because i am a REGULAR MEDITATOR
may be because the LAST ONES ARE THE FIRST?

May be i got self realisation later than them
but am ALREADY LEADING THE WAY

as of this DAY
they will have NO MORE muslims in paris
they are not entitled to respect,
they don't know to keep a meditational practice
only bothering by turning muslims into some pujadists hahaha

they are just stuck in marketing
thinking to work for the Glory of some Mataji
while all the way mataji only ask them to IMPROVE THEIR SLACKING MEDITATION
INEXISTANT PRACTICE IN MORNING?

once you do it
then muslims will follow
but this they will never get

and for the prank
they have activated protection i have from Mataji
and each single person having taken part in it
will have to BEAR the consequences of their INTENTION

Good intention, you reap goods
bad intention, you reap bad
that is the POWER OF INNOCENCE

capish?
let's see and wait your lot..

is me who should do a bandhan for you to get your practice right
mediate in morning! and you will see something else above your limited bandhan

and yea, the paper burning...
you are not burning the person ...
you are burning the NEGATIVE vision YOU HAVE INSIDE YOU OF HER

so at BEST this paper burning will make you to love me more?
not sure it will last though
but it can't destroy my so called "negativity" if i don't have any such as THEY thought me having abandoned meditation lol? as i NEVER abandoned it... but this too they will never get it...

and a bandhan can't bring me back, cause i NEVER left?

SEE? cause all the WAY you thought WRONG direction


is ok no more muslim for them in paris
seeking Glory out of themselves hmm?
only, when i see SINCERITY and PRACTICE in them
then they will see GROUPS OF MUSLIMS BY THOUSANDS coming for self realisation

TILL THEN
if the leaders are not ready
NOTHING

and.....mediate ....dear
numbnuts you are ... good at least you made me laugh
don't tire your hands too much with bandhans

with love,
kiss:x