Before sleeping
i was just wondering about
what i can do of my life
or how to give it a meaning.
Before waking up,
this is the dream i had :
First i saw the image in the full screen of my mind
of a nuclear explosion
i saw a black and red mushroom
growing
either was its power equivalent to three of them
or three happened
after i saw the earth all around red
red dust while it was exploding
a bit like mars
during this i had no particular emotion
i was just seeing it
may be a shock that it ends so
all of sudden.
but nothing else as emotion
as the vision was taking its whole space
in my mind,
and i was just observing it.
after
i saw on tv (tv is a metaphor for the screen of my mind)
a morrocan looking girl
she was tanned
she said
"if we could give to everyone
blessings (to masses)
instead of hatred
then will this be avoided?"
and the way she asked this
she looked very innocent to me
and also the way she said it
now i think of it
it looked like another me
like the Big me looking at the small me
The Observing me looking at the clueless me
the one that is an individual
was it so?
i write from feeling and intuition
i looked at her
and said in myself
as thought
if of all people
she is the only one i see
standing out by such words
then still it is worthy
it can work
because i saw that she was seeking
but she knew not
so i thought if i tell her about
the cool breeze
she would explode in happiness
and be delighted
to get that solution
for
for now she has no solution
but she has great desire
and conviction
that something can work
and is a concrete hope
is not a withered wish
from all the masses i saw
i see no one else stand out
only that morrocan girl
because she had a genuine
and strong desire for avoiding that destruction
and even if she had no solution
no clue
she knew the solution is in giving blessings
so she said
and this hit me
if instead of letting hatred which affected people reply with
we provide them blessings
then see how the balance can change in favor
this is automatic
and it hit me as an obvious solution
the girl was like in a band of music
singing
though she was not so good a singer
but she liked music and singing
because she felt happy
after i saw her
distributing some juice
in some jar with straw
for free
people queued up to get one
as is free
still thinking she is nut
to give it for free
what will it bring for her
but she was happy to give it
because she knew when they grab
the jar
their mind
is re-wired
and re-directed
to something else
so is like you gain
or save the soul.
after i saw her
trying to produce
colors
like paint
i saw a blue color
she produced
and then used them
to paint jars
and sell such different items
at the end
i saw only one style of item
only last pot was there
and was being sold in front of everyone
as to celebrate the success of it
people were happy
they had sold everything of that style
though other items where still there
to be sold
i think was to collect fund
this sales was for that.
then i woke up
and then i saw a vision
or my inner voice
saying/meaning that :
this is such a clarity of goal
as everyone has come for a goal
yet
is like i saw
how waves after waves of ambiant
thoughts and worlds
washes the shore of our clarity/of our goal in mind
and waves submerge it
and it becomes opaque
and then the shine produced by the clarity of our goal
disappears
engulfed by the waters
and we forget that simple thing
we are made for
to live for
we lose the shining goal
and we forget that we are forgetting
as the waves keep washing over
one wave washing off the precedent
topping on it
and covering up our clarity of mind for our life goal
as clouds are rushed by winds
and cover the sun.
