I was honoured to be the guest of "Ar Rahman". In Medina and Mecca during Ramadan.
I was sure, upon arrival this time no challenge, I know the places and customs etc.
Oh God, how wrong I was. It was challenging all the way through and very very very intense.
I went through an intense training. And it bore fruits.
First, I cannot recount all of my 'bad' experiences. However, I can say my hate and anger were at their peak. People thinking they were at some fish markets, French Algerian, morrocan. God forbid. Others thinking they were doing a favour to God by being there. Ticking off the box. And no whatsoever respect for the other guests of God. Me, me, me.
Yet, I was seeing all their defaults, because my sight was clear. But I was blind to myself. As Jesus says, you see the straw in the others' eye but not the pillar in yours. Meaning?
People take it as self beating, ie instead of finding faults in others
find faults in you. lol. No, it means, the biggest fault is your attention misplaced, that is the pillar in your eye. I was seeing them as ego not as spirit within. And trust me, I was the one in the wrong. Hence, I could clearly feel the right vishuddhi and left heart off. Morning all good, end of day all wrong.
Then, I tried next day to tone it down. But it was like underground hiding of same emotions. Still not cleared. May be a week like this. And I realised I need to keep pushing on my attention being in the right place. ON THE SPIRIT.
Only then, I can see the spirit in the others.
Being in the place where Noor, blessings of God is showered all around you
and being off, is very very unblessed. Let me tell you why,
during ramadan and these places, the reward of any action is multiplied by 10,000.
i.e. good but also bad.
And I am not there to shoot myself in the foot, but there to see where I need to correct my attention, so that I get my meditation, purification and sadana enhanced towards enlightenment.
So my only concern was HOW.
Challenge nr 1, so crowded, next to impossible to meditate. For that you need to sit down. However, after the obligatory prayer, you are pressed to leave the place. And while in the past I never understood, this behaviour as it wasn't done in kindness but very rudely.
I understood it is for care of movement of crowd. Do not oppose the flow. Just go with it.
also, the way they do it, they do not focus on well being of pilgrims as individuals but as collective so no obstruction create accidents. this being said very much room for improvement for the comm and the manners there from the locals. However, they managed grandly more than 2.5 millions of people daily in Mecca. So hats off.
However, understand it is not about their ego, overgrown egos like mushroom with no chances of salvation except by grace of God. Only Grace can save, categorically. While praying taraweeh, I saw the Kaaba in front of me, sinking down the soil, till her roof could not be seen.
I connected by then with Her consciousness. People come, some push as a group just to go and touch the stone, while they are not at all seeing old and fragile people or the neighbours they are crushing. Told you, the attitude is blind, I am sinless now that I touched the stone, what a lucky man and woman I am. I don't care that I crushed others in my way, in truth I am willing to crush them, as it is the way to victory to tick the box.
And please don't bother with the sins multiplied by 10,000. They are leaving Mecca with a great loss. But they are happy in their ignorance of having being so selfish. As long as they are happy.
That's what I observed.
On the opposite, others were using their left channel, to cry, pray and beg God but also full of hope and connecting and surely God knows better they get what they want/desire.
However, the Kaaba sank. The Kaaba represents the divine feminine. That is why Mother Mary's fresco was left in it after Mecca victory by the prophet Muhammad and all other idols removed.
The stone represent the coccyx, the Ka. Ka energy of Kundalini and Ba the Spirit, the Pure Awareness.
God's Power (Divine Feminine) and Pure Awareness (Divine Masculine).
This pilgrimage is the one done in yourself, first as intention so that the place provides you the Power created by the community to balance these two so that you may get self realisation and enlightenment.
However, the Kaaba sank, under people sins, weight, taking taking and then misusing energy once back in their life. Where is the pay back?
Your attention. What you receive in your cup, pour it back to your Inner Self.
But who would tell them?
There is an article by imam Jaffar as sadiq that is the grand grand son of the prophet Muhammad (saw) and he was on the astral place when I was in Medina visit the prophet place. Happy to have had his blessings.
Here is what he said in some narrative:
'The story is usually summarized like this (paraphrased, not verbatim):
A man came to Imam al‑Ṣādiq (as) saying he had performed Hajj. The Imam asked him a series of questions: When you put on iḥrām, did you intend to detach from worldly desires? When you stood at ʿArafāt, did you witness the truth of God? When you circumambulated the Kaʿbah, did you intend to circle the throne of God with a pure heart?
After several such questions, the man said: “No.”
The Imam replied: “Then you have not performed Hajj.”
This narration is used by scholars to teach that the inner intention determines the spiritual validity, even when the outward ritual is complete. ' End of quote.
