I can't be bothered at times to post.
But I have to. It has to be shared.
Apology for spellings, sometimes I post draft and come back for reading it again.
So just know that for a new post; changes are bound to happen within next minutes due to typos correction and grammar.
But I take this blog at times like a notepad. It is because there is so much to catch up and post, that I can't be wasting time with details.
Even though I wish I had added some pictures.
The Prophet ﷺ said:
“One salat in Riyāḍ al‑Jannah is better than one thousand prayers in any other masjid, except for al‑Masjid al‑Haram.” — Jamiʿ at‑Tirmidhi 3916
This narration highlights the immense spiritual reward of praying in this blessed area.
A narration states that Aisha (RA) said:
“If people knew what is in this place (Riyāḍ al‑Jannah), they would fight over it with arrows.”
Meaning, this place is fully of energy vortex. So praying there, is praying in a place full of great blessings.
What about rain that falls on rock, vs rain that falls on soil?
That's the same with blessings, being self realised and there, you absorb. the blessings as the dry soil.
Non realised, only by Grace, the moment may open them to being touched by it.
Self realised are sustained already by Grace and blessings are their inheritance.
First day, I was sad to learn again entry pass issue to enter the tomb of prophet. By luck, a lady guided me to the prophet's praying place. And the path just was open till I passed then closed behind me. Remember nothing is guaranteed there, access keeps closing and opening, like in a maze. And ahead of me the path kept opening and behold I arrived at the area where was the mihrab of the prophet. Unexpected.
Like the vision I had a day again during prayer. One of the vision I had was:
While I was praying, I saw myself in white. Entering the masjid where prophet tomb is. And there was lots of particles of light in suspension around me. Like plasma of light. And the path was open/empty as i was walking.
Hardly I got that vision, next day it is what happened :)
There was another place that gives access to the mimbar (sermon place) and mihrab (praying place) of the prophet. I could thanks to God, have access to it everyday. There, I could go and sit and meditate.
It was my luck I hit the bull eye of the exact spot where to pray for best boons.
Now, meditation was impossible as in sitting and taking your sweet time. It is just your luck if you get 15-20min as I did or less 5 max. Anyway, full of joy when I left.
The first time, I saw a scene, where
I saw the prophet (saw) in white with long green turban with his companions sitting in circle around him in sunny day in this mosque. This mosque was uncovered by then. And he was giving to one of them a tasbih (chaplet). Then i saw a door with a green curtain with written Allah on it in gold to enter.
During meditation, another time there, I saw Lady Fatmah (peace be upon her) she was working on my left channel, heart area. After I saw a whole range of angels sitting in row like during prayer on my left side. They were all in white.
It was peaceful/smooth in there despite the external noise. Surely because light quotient is higher, so less interference. I'd say.
Natural grace.
The most beautiful vision of my stay.
Then, once I arrived in Mecca. I was waiting to leave hotel and just resting till then. But it was getting late. And in my vision I saw the same face of the angel of Kaaba and the Kaaba and the angel was asking us to come as it was getting late : ), I realised it was the same angel I saw last time while taking off.
Here are couple of visions I had, to honour them, I write them here:
There was a man covered all in a white shawl. And he gave me a book. Then took out his hand on top of my head. Apparently, it was some saint who blessed me in Mecca. He was not realised though.
Then in next vision i was with eyes, making people direction change, like they were sleep walking.
I would say like current flow, redirecting them with power of attention.
Once I circled the Kaaba, I dreamt of the majority of the people there:
In dream i was in a crowd, like here around the Kaaba,
And there were like other wordly people, ie they look like not human.
Then they came on me and put me down on the ground, as in a a mark of devotion
But at same time,
Like vampires, they were trying to suck on my neck
Then i rose above like a ball of light to escape
There was an element of light , or body of light at the end of the vision.
This showed exactly state of most of people there, they need energy, they come with devotion. However they attack right and left channel of yours to get energy. If you react and repulse them or put your attention on 'oh their good action' then your vessel is emptied. This vision confirmed that I chose the light and rose above that world. Remember my state at the start of my stay? Well, I kept attention within, and its energy saved, helped me to transform into light and rise above the world of desire, which is a battle ground for energy harvesting. No one has it, except those who cultivate.
I started with the end :); but let's also mention the rest in no particular order.
First time I did circumbulation, my hands and feet were so swollen. That's when spirit said that I have to do more cycles to expel the negativities that are popping up. Not forgetting that I am also absorbing the others from people circling. It was tough.
So miraculously, every day, every day, however crowded it was. SO much so on the blessed night of the 27th, access to Kaaba was closed as 2.5 mio limit was crossed. To avoid any injury, masjid access was closed. I still managed to reach the area, and got access that night like every single night to the Kaaba.
Incredibly enough, God's miracle. Each time I arrived, so crowded, so much you have to move step by step, soooo slowly, and each time I was somehow redacted in the flow leading to, behold, the direct access to the Kaaba.
Because the mosque is so huge and it has so many levels now, and extensions you have no guarantee where you'll end up praying. It depends on the flow. So people where on say floor one and escalator entry was closed to go down to Kaaba. And guess what, I was there entering the direct space to do circumbulation at the Kaaba.
Each time. I had no hope or desire, if i can even make it, given the crowd. Yet, God always guided me to the Kaaba place. Myself I was dumbfounded. One day, I was just walking through gates, after gates and somehow ended up at the Kaaba gate..
All the gates led to the Kaaba in my case. Magic really. Grateful for the Grace and blessings.
So my training was, as sitting meditation is like nearly impossible, may be 1h if I have the right to remain in the women area. I focused on the walking cycles, walking meditation during the circumbulation. So I could from 6pm to 6am be at the Masjid. And half of this time doing the circumbulation. I kept doing my cycles during them, with whatever happen, Attention Inside or top of head while feeling the sensations in the body.
The Attention inside. Whether people tried to scam me (yes new scamming mafia from Afghanistan, India and what not) or pushing or whatever. I DID NOT CARE. I kept focusing on the sensation, raising energy via the cycles and staying with attention on sahasrara while extending it on the sensation in the body.
First day I drank coffee and such, huge mistake, toilets are a no no there.
Next I heard if you drink zamzam water, never you have to leave for restroom. True.
So I kept circling doing the prayer of mama e Ibrahim, which importance I explained in the very first post about Mecca-Medina.
During one of the last circumbulation, I was so much into this state of Presence.
And then I saw a man curly haur in white ihram stopped and looking at me in the crowd of tawwaf.
Rassoul Allah saw was doing his tawaf in his time with Allah ko Hazir (All Present) n Nazir (All Seeing) jan ke. And in his circumbulation, he halted and saw me. While in my time and while doing my own circumbulation, I saw him.. Like mirroring dimension? Rather crossing of dimension planes?
And i was doing also tawaf in my time Allah konjazar n nazar jan ke.
One witness two different times
One pure awareness
So he (saw) can see through my time and me through his.
By this siffat, i.e. attribute of Presence, we were both hazir and nazir, ie present and seen the One Only Moment that is the Awareness where all the space and time happen at once. Mind blowing. And why won't Awareness be mind blowing? It has all in the Palm of Its Hand. All of the moment, as long as you keep the end of the deal, take care of your attention. Be Watchful, Vigil-ant, hence the tahajud, the Vigil Prayer.
And then i saw him again while doing mylast two nafl after tawwaf at maqam-e- ibrahim and he (saw) was doing the nasal with me on my left hand side.
And in front of Kaaba in my vision, I could see the line of light from Ibrahim down to all prophet light down to Muhammad (saw) and to me, as same light, witness line.
Because The Spirit is One, Light is One, and that is the inheritance to all of us. This is why the prophet has been sent to all of humanity. It is the final chapter for all the prophets sent at all time to each of their people and now bottlenecked and tied back to each heart connecting to this one and only light within, without through times, with vehicle being our own body and means our attention. So precious.
My stay was amazing. Every day Kaaba, every day 5/6 hours of walking meditation, of just keeping attention purely on one goal pure witness. I can say muslim practice, places of worship, community, ramadan, where I had care for nothing except drink zamzam eat very little once and here I go., everything was set up formidably. Simple life. Just remove what is between you and Spirit, remove the I and your light shine.
Muslims, Islam provides best vessel with correct space for intensity during this month and place. My meditation enhanced 10,000 times. Now challenge is to maintain it once back in the normal world.
I was honoured to be the guest of "Ar Rahman". In Medina and Mecca during Ramadan.
I was sure, upon arrival this time no challenge, I know the places and customs etc.
Oh God, how wrong I was. It was challenging all the way through and very very very intense.
I went through an intense training. And it bore fruits.
First, I cannot recount all of my 'bad' experiences. However, I can say my hate and anger were at their peak. People thinking they were at some fish markets, French Algerian, morrocan. God forbid. Others thinking they were doing a favour to God by being there. Ticking off the box. And no whatsoever respect for the other guests of God. Me, me, me.
Yet, I was seeing all their defaults, because my sight was clear. But I was blind to myself. As Jesus says, you see the straw in the others' eye but not the pillar in yours. Meaning?
People take it as self beating, ie instead of finding faults in others
find faults in you. lol. No, it means, the biggest fault is your attention misplaced, that is the pillar in your eye. I was seeing them as ego not as spirit within. And trust me, I was the one in the wrong. Hence, I could clearly feel the right vishuddhi and left heart off. Morning all good, end of day all wrong.
Then, I tried next day to tone it down. But it was like underground hiding of same emotions. Still not cleared. May be a week like this. And I realised I need to keep pushing on my attention being in the right place. ON THE SPIRIT.
Only then, I can see the spirit in the others.
Being in the place where Noor, blessings of God is showered all around you
and being off, is very very unblessed. Let me tell you why,
during ramadan and these places, the reward of any action is multiplied by 10,000.
i.e. good but also bad.
And I am not there to shoot myself in the foot, but there to see where I need to correct my attention, so that I get my meditation, purification and sadana enhanced towards enlightenment.
So my only concern was HOW.
Challenge nr 1, so crowded, next to impossible to meditate. For that you need to sit down. However, after the obligatory prayer, you are pressed to leave the place. And while in the past I never understood, this behaviour as it wasn't done in kindness but very rudely.
I understood it is for care of movement of crowd. Do not oppose the flow. Just go with it.
also, the way they do it, they do not focus on well being of pilgrims as individuals but as collective so no obstruction create accidents. this being said very much room for improvement for the comm and the manners there from the locals. However, they managed grandly more than 2.5 millions of people daily in Mecca. So hats off.
However, understand it is not about their ego, overgrown egos like mushroom with no chances of salvation except by grace of God. Only Grace can save, categorically. While praying taraweeh, I saw the Kaaba in front of me, sinking down the soil, till her roof could not be seen.
I connected by then with Her consciousness. People come, some push as a group just to go and touch the stone, while they are not at all seeing old and fragile people or the neighbours they are crushing. Told you, the attitude is blind, I am sinless now that I touched the stone, what a lucky man and woman I am. I don't care that I crushed others in my way, in truth I am willing to crush them, as it is the way to victory to tick the box.
And please don't bother with the sins multiplied by 10,000. They are leaving Mecca with a great loss. But they are happy in their ignorance of having being so selfish. As long as they are happy.
That's what I observed.
On the opposite, others were using their left channel, to cry, pray and beg God but also full of hope and connecting and surely God knows better they get what they want/desire.
However, the Kaaba sank. The Kaaba represents the divine feminine. That is why Mother Mary's fresco was left in it after Mecca victory by the prophet Muhammad and all other idols removed.
The stone represent the coccyx, the Ka. Ka energy of Kundalini and Ba the Spirit, the Pure Awareness.
God's Power (Divine Feminine) and Pure Awareness (Divine Masculine).
This pilgrimage is the one done in yourself, first as intention so that the place provides you the Power created by the community to balance these two so that you may get self realisation and enlightenment.
However, the Kaaba sank, under people sins, weight, taking taking and then misusing energy once back in their life. Where is the pay back?
Your attention. What you receive in your cup, pour it back to your Inner Self.
But who would tell them?
There is an article by imam Jaffar as sadiq that is the grand grand son of the prophet Muhammad (saw) and he was on the astral place when I was in Medina visit the prophet place. Happy to have had his blessings.
Here is what he said in some narrative:
'The story is usually summarized like this (paraphrased, not verbatim):
A man came to Imam al‑Ṣādiq (as) saying he had performed Hajj. The Imam asked him a series of questions: When you put on iḥrām, did you intend to detach from worldly desires? When you stood at ʿArafāt, did you witness the truth of God? When you circumambulated the Kaʿbah, did you intend to circle the throne of God with a pure heart?
After several such questions, the man said: “No.”
The Imam replied: “Then you have not performed Hajj.”
This narration is used by scholars to teach that the inner intention determines the spiritual validity, even when the outward ritual is complete. ' End of quote.
In previous post I stated the trip was free.
Please, it is always an exchange, energetically.
You don't know how much I helped out.
God energy is best as it is Free
and it keeps giving through us.
So your thoughts about money keep them where they belong
i.e. in the material world. And stop letting them hover over this blog.
Another point, very much recurring,
I have been brought up in such a way
that it is absolutely normal and a pleasure for us to serve.
Guests are our own family. It is another matter that people in this era,
have lost all sense of natural service and gratefulness.
We subconsciously expect from others (receiving), as we do to others (giving).
Not because we are stingy or greedy,
but because this is how we are raised.
However the ego in that era has gone backwards.
Example:
How and what we do to them?
Wherever I lived, I accommodated people who were roofless, one of them even in precarious situation not knowing if she could even be allowed to remain in the country once her temporary visa expired. There was never a second thought for me to accommodate them. Though I knew the latter only since a day or two.
Spontaneously I did what I felt was right. But also grow from learning how people act in this era.
Therefore, for the materialistic readers, not getting it:
I sheltered them for free.
And never even thought I was doing them a favour, nor thought it was done for free.
Why? Because I did not sense I am doing them a favour, it was my pleasure.
However you see me writing this now, as I learned how people give shelter and think they are doing a favour to the people and to God. What you do is for your own self. Capish?
Next, I never did one thing, said another and expected another for their accommodation.
I sheltered them, was happy to do so, end of story.
This too I learned, weak people have a tongue saying one thing, mind hiding another and heart expecting something else. Very misaligned. And then crying about their loss while having a guest.
And the listener, equally blind, or deaf should I say? Not able to ask the so called guest if it is true statements, such as are you underpaying your rent, are you stealing food? No just like that one side of story followed by judgement. 'You know it is not good for your soul to do that'... Judgement and no discernment. What can we say of the level of insight and fairness of these yogi?
That is the level I experienced say 10 years ago?
Now, it still need to be stated here, as it seems people don't seem to move past these false impressions. They do good and think they do a favour to God or got stolen, or got bad end of the business. Next, they don't even bother to apologised or right the wrongs. Instead they are afraid and distance themselves in case they be stolen again...
If you consider God as a business, then please continue with your struggles and coming to terms with a past that is getting heavier and painful by the day. Stuck in past loops. Pierce them either by letting them go, which is true forgiveness or by discussing it if you can't do it on your own.
For your peace of mind and heart, I'll let you know what happened:
The guy's son was a drug addict and was always hungry, stealing food and then accusing the guest behind its back. Rent was paid as per agreement, however the landlord was thinking may be, more could be paid but could not dare to ask. Then he ended up crying and accusing the guest again behind its back.
And the listener thought also he was doing favour by feeding the guest on visits, because assuming the guest was hungry and needed more food.
All the way, everyone were stuck in a narrative of their own, a lie and story happening behind backs.
Years later, the guest tried to contact each of them
to give gifts, and meditate with them to enhance their level of meditation and provide healing.
To let the energy unblock their blockages. Because that was for the repayment of the help given at that time. But their fear of being stolen or taken advantage of make them refuse any meditation and meeting to receive the gifts, hence losing them.
Now these same gifts are granted to complete strangers. Why?
Because the guest is 'filthy rich'. Materially and Spiritually and it gives to whoever crosses its path.
Had the truth be spoken in the past, story validated. The landlord son might have been saved from his addiction, because that's what my energy would have done, healed him. And had the listener, had listened to both sides of story, he would have realised that he was accusing someone who had such an honourable background. And could have benefited for his family of future healing sessions.
Why ? Because what is brought into the awareness, is what is healed.
What is left in darkness is festered, rotten and it stinks.
Now, have you grown out of your misperceptions? Have you seen your habits amended? Have you realised it is not honourable to remain stuck on the material consideration as this means your own attention is stolen from you.
---That is the true theft.--
You are letting your attention being stolen by material, sensorial, considerations,
ie the left and right channel.
So please stop hovering over my blog with the past as a dark cloud above your head. It does not fit a yogi. You are better than that.
As for me,
I keep moving forward.
And I thank God that I have been raised by loving and generous parents,
while they did not even placed tags on their action, 'this is generous, this is service, this is this and this is that'.
Finally, those who try to teach me and wash me to Indian culture.
Remember I am not Indian
I am Spirit within.
And on the material level, I am more Indian than you are
as that is the spirit of the culture that is already in my blood: Good manners.
Kisses to you
Hope you make it in this life time.
