Stand in Awe - Grace & Time

They feel in awe of seeing her

They think she is specially graced

I can say

I am indeed Graced 

Because it is FACT

as true as Kundalini is the Grace

and it is in each of us

so are you GRACED in advance of you knowing and feeling it

Just accept it 

and you are too full of awe inspiring creation

As long as there is Breath there is Shining of a new creation of yours 

your growing light body 

the sparkling diamond being cut in the process

refined again and again 

everyday 

do not forget 

it is not because you are with duties

children and marriage that you are with commonly accepted excuse 

to let your desire for enlightenment being dampened 

Because truth is 

Your FREE WILL 

do not deceive yourself 

time is gold 

why everything in this society has value 

except time?

money, work, family everything

but what about Time as stand alone

it has the most value

as it is waiting for your attention to it

Listen to Time

Land of Illusion

 When in nursery

I had a 'real' nightmare

where a white thin with light energy lady 

was stifled like a stem 

by a male energy not human 

that would stifle her by wrapping itself around her 

and she was like drowning 

like when you know you would die and no one will know 

of that calamity and you are on your own.

Of course I would surely wake up the dormitory by screaming 

and then inside would feel a little bit relieved that it was a dream

and I would see two nurses/assistant taking care of me 

trying to dissipate the nightmare.

Even less may be only twice in a trance like state I would remember that feeling

too vague to remember where it came from and then it would strike me it was same like in that dream.

Today while I was meditating

it is what I saw

Remember the meditation

Spiralling Kundalini awaken like a dragon 

raises from beneath the lake

Lady of the Lake

and in its trail all the dust from the mud 

at the bottom of the sea 

would arise 

and you the awakened one (at least partially)

would just see 

but this seeing is magic

with no other duty that to see 

the light through you eyes is dissolving these particles

atomising the past impressions, trauma and illusions.

And today

I felt and saw in details that same feeling

and finally understood what that nightmare was.

I saw the light thin energy of this white lady 

she is like a stem of a tall flower 

this energy was growing in between a rock 

cleaved in the middle by this stem 

both sides of the rock are the right and left channel

denser energy 

far denser than the lady's 

who is the Kundalini

When I was born 

I felt stifled by the male energy that is overbearing 

on this earth 

too much dense

What a calamity 

when the waters surrounds you 

and you are born in them

you cannot pinpoint the illusion 

as it is all around 

no contrast for you to point at the dualism 

and find your way

Like an external witness looking at that movie 

could say 

No chance of salvation no hope 

if you cannot even have the chance to see you are in an illusion

the Land of Illusion

but the spark of Light

Spirit within you is there 

just asleep but this is the box of Pandora

with the left over 

Hope

Meditation : Devotion and Discipline

 I have been the past week meditating a little more 

3h everyday in the morning

On week end, 8h 

I am told to write truthfully

hence these details.

Gabriel said that only by devotion and discipline

can one have breakthrough 

By Mercy of God 

Self realisation is given

However

Spiritual Hygen is needed

Shielding, and Attention 24h a day : in Pure Awareness 

The latter not there yet.

So I felt relenting a bit

Then one should remain open 

to Grace wherever it comes from

I understood I had to put more attention 

on Heart 

Physical heart 

which is reflected for sure in the centre of Sahasrara

So far

I did it but quality wise was stagnant 

meaning you feel it when you are undergoing a shift

Then I realised I need to let go of mind to BE in heart

even though my attention was on heart

but parts of it where still holding on mind timeline 

So today instinctively through intuitive approach 

my attention was put on my heart 

with an intention to let it BE - only 

indeed it was all cool 

coolness like a fountain overflowing from heart

Same yesterday, though not same approach, 

but while sitting all of sudden signficant coolness broke through my sahasara

like a fountain half cool breeze and half water like density it felt 

I was told Sahasrara is breaking through 

I was told for now 6K petals open 

next day I asked 4K 

Bewildered lol 

I was told it is not constant 

It makes sense

like flowers they close and open during a whole daily cycle 

Still I understand it is not yet stable 

And today 

the vision I had was that of 

A man who was holding my heart in his hand and the heart was all white and a cool white mist was overflowing through his fingers from it.

I am told vision we let them go

Yes there is always a but with me

First satisfy my curiosity and give me good news 

then I let you go

I wait for the good news now : ) 

By the way the past week,

everyday I was having a vision of one of my past reincarnation

I used to see a few a them popping up over the past few years

but last week was in a roll 

I heard that when we are progressing

these past lives appear, as their impression on soul emerges

and we see them

May be we integrate them by seeing them ?

Main point focus should be on Spirit 

if only on cool breeze then you are misled

as cool breeze even may disappear at death time 

so you need to ensure your attention is stabilised on spirit

Cool breeze, Holy Spirit manifestation is a great boon

to help you purify 

but unless you are responsible for your attention 

ON spirit during meditation 

and stablised in pure awareness during the rest of the day

you cannot grow, evolve and remember Who you are 

That's why a yogi once told me

He had a heart attack (figure of speech) 

when going back to his city after a decade or so 

and seeing the yogis were still the same, like frozen in time 

i.e. no progression

Please be considerate of the Grace

It is there

but one should for its sake hold ourselves accountable

by putting our attention in check 

Pure Awareness is the goal.

Bless you