That was me all the way

 That was me all the way

All the way that was me

The hell and the heaven

the reward and the failure 

the pain and the happiness

To be honest 

We all understand the words

Thought level 

However

the INSIGHT FELT

i.e. the experience PLUS the on spot feeling of seeing it

is what makes it your own

For no one can see it for you 

except you

I knew, rather I thought I knew

that is the illusion

it is not I thought I knew

we often equal thoughts to knowledge

Now

I can say that I know.

This is blabbering for most readers 

as it is just ex-pressed inside out like a lemon 

so no one tastes the lemon here 

except the writer or some others on the same wavelength

Because we are always separated as me vs you

not as in antagonism rather as De Facto we are all on our own 

that we do not remember that what we are experiencing we have done it to ourselves

Bless my mom

In my inspiration I explained her something 

But her vibes make me feel that she truly understood 

so what I was explaining to her she explained to me by her mini realisation 

we all exchange vibes, it is nourishment 

the combination of it all 

gives you your reality 

Anyway

Take Israeli - Palestinian conflict

If I tell you

the Palestinian baby boy called x is actually a reincarnation of an Israeli soldier

who had to take that experiencing and ask WHY

why to me, why such cruelty

To understand if you remember

that you were the one on the other side

you used to be that soldier

now you are here to experience your own hands 

in the present 

what gift you sent to yourself from the past

see how grim the future is?

At the end

can the Palestinian boy blame the Israeli soldier who is the figure of the past?

It is just time lag

two worlds colliding right now 

you don t know but you know it is true

if you feel it

You are the one being cruel

You are the one being the victim

and this schizophrenia is the result of your forgetting

Same in my current situation

even if I am the one saying it

the SILENT INSIGHT 

FELT by my own mom 

HIT me and became my own insights

ANY HELL 

and ANY HEAVEN 

I am experiencing is mine

I did it to myself for myself to get the answer to the WHY 

Now it is another matter if this settle

Of course not all Palestinians are Israeli in the past

but who knows how many are

Some babies you would ask 

why they die

they 'signed' contract to get speedily some huge points earned towards their remembrance

All infinite possibilities

but not to do guess work

rather for you to remember that 

You are here to remember

and you need to conquer hell and heaven in you

to remember that you are neither this nor that

but indeed above 

What is above hell and heaven?

Your awareness that you are Free to Be Present.

Fine line

 Conscious needs subconscious to manifest

Subconscious needs conscious to manifest

The former something new - creative

The latter to see itself

the fine line between both ? 

The shore.

Sand vs Sea 

Conscious vs Subconscious

Gums vs Teeth

Subconscious vs Conscious 

The rivulets or the nerves are the touch point

were drop by drop life flows to manifest itself.

Heart chakra and thought reading

Interesting Learning Experience

A lady could feel through the heart chakra my thoughts 

Random thoughts, but charged emotionally 

are those that are surfacing and captured by her heart chakra

In her goodwill

she decided to ask a third person to step in 

and assist me 

All good

and not good.

All good as I can see how this works 

But also what options are and how level of maturity 

in potential use of powers differ still from one another

based on Free Will

One option

I read thoughts and is ok I let go 

Another one, I read thoughts and and I judge 

signs being upset, offended or happy etc. seemingly with no apparent reason

Here it was 

I read them

and I assist

However the third person assisting was awkward 

it is like unnatural; immature assistance

Feeling? Trying to open a flower with your hands

you spoil it

Best way is to let it happen naturally 

don't force the outcome.

Hence good heart chakra 

however managing such power is a learning process 

coming with its own challenges.

Comparatively, 

in the current situation, I play with my thoughts more or less unaware 

example:  To discover depth of a feeling; I will let my thought form and I will dig into its depth 

by plastering the handpicked emotion I desire

But it is a play, just for me to know and experience it.

However that good lady

took it as a responsibility upon herself 

thereby took it seriously to be in charge and to step in 

Now end of story.

Separately, meditation let you see the following

Waves of energies emerge

one of after the other such as in ocean

who cares? no one, not even I care.

If not stuck, another matter when you have to let it go as inheritance of pure mistaken conditioning.

In the former; you see it is mere energy, let it form itself on the soil, that one is raising here and curving there due to these emotions and energetic waves, hence the relief (surface protruding), hence the face you have.

That is just the playground of these male/female energies in you.

Again who cares? Let them recede like waves. And keep moving.

If I don t care; who are you to care more than me about me?

Don t try to help, meaning your own Mother cares more than 70 mothers if you know what I mean.

Just do what you spontaneously feel called for and let it be.

Patronising, I know better than you, assumptions etc. are all unbalanced mishaped by product of these ways paved with good intentions. Human is fondamentally good and immature. It has to grow like a baby but his attitude of having an opinion about everything is what destroy his chances of growing or at best delaying them.

Now the seeing; 

Rather the observing of these energies blooming 

when you observe you see the energy need and direction 

its yearning and its shape 

you breath in and let it happen

That s how observation in Silence make the best potential happen for that seeded energy.

The not so good part?

Most don t see any point in silent observation or if they see they forget to instill power in the seed

rather more correctly, they forget to believe what they perceive

I.e. they observe with no love

Love through your perception 

will allow inception of that idea in the seed

and that seed will grow 

for sure 

and unknown takes over

who are you to think that it will follow your will 

the seed may or may not sprout

may or may not grow into a seedling

Just enjoy the process

However to complete the picture 

I agree

During storm

No tree ever grew.

So let it go.