Luxurious moment of Light

ahhhhhh!
Have just been invited for a LUXURIOUS bath time
Warm water ... mixed with Lavender essence

just ONE word
GLORIOUS

Eager to be Monday!!!

okay am hesitating between
a Verbena, Lavender or Jasmin ...

these are such AUTHENTIC essences
i think i will go for Lavender

now,
i had a very nice AHA moment of clarity

was about the Light coming out of fingers

As i got reminded
the fingers show you the state of your chakras
but it had NEVER occured to me ON THE SPOT
that DE FACTO the fingers were the EXTENSION of my chakras see?

and i mean it LITERALLY SPEAKING
not as in descriptive way

this is WHY  i can see LIGHT going out of it
cause it SHOWS the DEGREE of SELF REALISATION
more explicitely is the LIGHT of the SPIRIT
that has PASSED THROUGH THE chakra of the person
it ENLIGHTENED SO MUCH the chakras
that the LIGHT was GOING OUT of the fingers

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
then i felt it was AWESOME
the LIGHT OF THE SPIRIT i could see out of these VERY fingers
isn't it AMAZING?

you can see YOUR OWN spirit LIGHT!!!

AWESOME



Hope i can activate that one day at will
this will be ONLY when it will become stable i guess
a state
that's a beautiful experience

kiss and love:x:x:x

Collective bandhan ... and their paper burning

Yogi never understand
what it means to put attention within
always trying to purify others behavior and never theirs, right?

After doing some mischievousness
of course they think EVIL is outside of them

never knowing it is to be fixed within.

So after calling a collective bandan
where they are calling me "back to mataji"

Mataji is what?
is not the Adi Shakti within?
you think i left my own adi shakti within?

no... they just want to control you, the outside
by misusing bandhan/magic...

cause they want me
the GOOD muslim
to be "BACK" to what they call collectivity

Should i call them back to the sufi realised collectivity?
hmm? that they never entered?
is stupid cause a collectivity is spiritual
is not a concrete stuff just because you have a group
what they are is a "GROUP" of numbnuts not meditating
though they are many

so they were curious about me
thinking : she left mataji, she left the collectivity

i will straighten for the LAST TIME their twisted mind :
still i love them, they are like ignorant kids

see?

1- Mataji is not a person, is not God
2- Adi shakti is WITHIN, you can't leave your own SELF , as your OWN SPIRIT WITHIN IS GOD
3- if you meditate NOT , and i DO EVERY MORNING, you will get affected
and i saw , except one yogi living in their ashram who is actually the only good one, and people think she is stupid, doing well

all of the others, are just going backward in their opening of petals
lol
they have never ever thought about that i bet! the opening ...or closing off... of their petals..

4- Guys, still not getting it? where my spiritual power comes from?
may be from my petals opening? cause i meditate my ass in the morning?
if so, i left nothing? may be except your stupid group of overarching patronizing controllers?

5-instead of behaving like an indian cast
following some guy who has no discriminative power
except sticking to mataji family title
what if I START behaving as stupidly as them, under pretext i am the GRAND....GRAND daughter
of FATIMA?

HMM?

back to earth guys
care for your own practice and meditation
then see if your petals open
so far they are rather drying out

and expect the consequences of your deeds


6- they never learn to appreciate the person for WHO THEY ARE
had they? they would have seen where my wisdom was flowing from
instead of asking me to be less deep...pure jealousy

so why they are afraid of my power?
while they had all the way seen them when i was benefiting them with ?
cause they NEVER took it for their OWN benefit
they ONLY saw YEA IS GREAT
GREAT to use her to BRING BACK OTHER MUSLIMS to worship indian god in sari
and make some dance after roasting some rice in chimney called havan

you think muslims are stupid and to be educated?

there are REALISED SUFI
with POWER of SPIRIT

and when they met me
they thought
ah! a muslim she never meditates
she is so numbnuts
let her use her for attracting others

NEVER EVER THINKING
OR EVEN YET WONDERING
WHERE I HAVE THESE SPIRITUAL POWER FROM
hmm?

May be because i am a REGULAR MEDITATOR
may be because the LAST ONES ARE THE FIRST?

May be i got self realisation later than them
but am ALREADY LEADING THE WAY

as of this DAY
they will have NO MORE muslims in paris
they are not entitled to respect,
they don't know to keep a meditational practice
only bothering by turning muslims into some pujadists hahaha

they are just stuck in marketing
thinking to work for the Glory of some Mataji
while all the way mataji only ask them to IMPROVE THEIR SLACKING MEDITATION
INEXISTANT PRACTICE IN MORNING?

once you do it
then muslims will follow
but this they will never get

and for the prank
they have activated protection i have from Mataji
and each single person having taken part in it
will have to BEAR the consequences of their INTENTION

Good intention, you reap goods
bad intention, you reap bad
that is the POWER OF INNOCENCE

capish?
let's see and wait your lot..

is me who should do a bandhan for you to get your practice right
mediate in morning! and you will see something else above your limited bandhan

and yea, the paper burning...
you are not burning the person ...
you are burning the NEGATIVE vision YOU HAVE INSIDE YOU OF HER

so at BEST this paper burning will make you to love me more?
not sure it will last though
but it can't destroy my so called "negativity" if i don't have any such as THEY thought me having abandoned meditation lol? as i NEVER abandoned it... but this too they will never get it...

and a bandhan can't bring me back, cause i NEVER left?

SEE? cause all the WAY you thought WRONG direction


is ok no more muslim for them in paris
seeking Glory out of themselves hmm?
only, when i see SINCERITY and PRACTICE in them
then they will see GROUPS OF MUSLIMS BY THOUSANDS coming for self realisation

TILL THEN
if the leaders are not ready
NOTHING

and.....mediate ....dear
numbnuts you are ... good at least you made me laugh
don't tire your hands too much with bandhans

with love,
kiss:x

Kid Mommy and Kundalini

Had to blog this
i was shopping in a Mart
and 3 times i happen to cross a path with babies or kids
and each time they stopped talking
and started to look on top of my head

how i know?
cause i looked at their eye balls gosh!

anyway
the last kid was the youngest
and she was crying so loud
actually i was so engrossed in my shopping spree
had not even paid attention to her


but i came near to grab my shower gel
:))
she stopped screaming
i thought "ah suddenly is pleasant"
and looked around and saw her

then she bent her head all the way back
and was looking at me
and her eyes went half closed
and then she said "mommy"

wow
that is FIRST time i saw a person melting
really
i had heard of it
that once your kundalini is strongly awakened
it "melt" the person next to you
but on a kid was even more obvious!

really she went soft like a cotton
or a wool pillow
hahaha
don't ask me why i say that
but is like when you are extremely tired
and you feel this extasy of jumping into the most comfy pillow on your large bed!
well was same

so i patted myself
and said yea! indeed
is my kundalini!

first i thought the kid swooned or fainted
hahaha
so abnormal it was

plus really
calling the energy she was saying "Mommy"
was just amazing
that it hit me
i said to myself
"AT LAST someone sees it! of course only kids do"

the kids see what we see not
and they see the Kingdom or Heaven on Earth

kiss:x!

Mastery

spirituality is a dangerous place to be
cause never i saw ANYONE give something
for the sake of God

always some retribution is demanded
one way or another
be SURE it will be demanded

some ask for sex
others for money
others for both lol

stuff is i know myself
when i help someone i do it from my own inner generosity
and that is called compassion

so when you lie to someone
what you do?
you steal him his free will see?

cause you expect him
to obey to you
and as you have doubts he won't
you use lies
and as is presented as truth
the person will agree while being ignorant

this is how lies
help you to bypass his free will

when i was seeking spirituality
i saw how i could be as muslim be slowed down
in my process to find truth

so i ask for guidance from God
to learn truth from non muslim base
cause you see i knew truth is not about religion
but about its very Essence

and religion was slowing me down

but if is undeniable that muslims / or any religious group
that you belong to
put loads of its conditioning on you
and slow down your enlightenment process

a non muslim / or non religious group
has the defect of having no more deep rooted ethics
they will do as their ass wants

the sacredness and nearness thingy
that you find in any religious group is lost
the behavior is just messy, and most of time based on lies
to bypass your free will
and make you adhere to it

that is just a non religious form of controlling

cause ANY being
be he enlightened or not

will at some point
wants to chiselled you to his image
and stomp the beauty of your sincere offering for that path

manipulation is used when you know you can't get it by saying truth
so you lie to bypass the other's free will

see?
Free will is to have the freedom to choose
but if facts presented to you are deformed so that you be more willing to believe in them
isn't it harming your free will?

it is.
so whatever happen
just know

that you can rely ONLY on your own soul

cause most women out of jealousy will not help you
and most men will only be interested for their ego for you to serve
so if you want freedom
just cease to seek a master out of you
cause they are all fake.

if you seek to seek one outside?
where you find mastery?
through your Master Within.

Buddah India and DNA

i had visions just in the first minutes when i started meditation this morning

in the beginning, i saw a Budda sitting over branch of a tree under the night sky and behind him i saw a silver moon, very huge
the silver moon was really beautiful

and then i got another vision
so real
i saw as if i was in India and was visiting some poor quarters or so
and people there
though they were utterly poor
they were so generous cause they built a HUGE cup for me
a sort of vessel that can carry water
was hand made , like they had melted the metal to create it
and i could see thick nails planted in sort of metal ribbons decorating the huge vessel
actually it was so huge it could fill up the square or a market place

and i was surprised they made me that gift for me
while they were poor and had nothing for themselves
was really truly generous behavior 


and in the third vision i saw the color blue and orange from DNA
then i saw these blue and orange bits of DNA exploding


and then i saw the energy going out of the body
and it is how it started to affect life around
 
 
i wondered if  dna orange and blue color?
actuallty yes...to my surprise it is ..

cause DNA is based on 4 proteins chains 2 are orange..2 blue
the re-arrangement of them as adbc..creates the life dna..etc
in billion combinations

anyway..there are only 4 proteins in the dna
which are creating life
in different combinations..etc
of them 2 are blue..2 are orange like in my vision and when they exploded energies went out of it like light  and it affected the atmospher around

the whole vision liberated a good feel...

had to blog it

Hellish realm

In last post was about witnessing
reincarnation from the Above, like from Heaven

that time i had since people who were stuck in hell
brrr...have goosebump so disgraceful it was

first of all their bodies were disgraceful

i think as a human being
we have a real Graceful body
so well balanced and really graceful

in there
i saw it was like midnight time
and the people stuck there
were trying HARD to get out of their realm

so in a way everyone tries hard
to get out of his condition
to get a better life

but trying hard
in the wrong way
leads to nowhere
is like you are stuck
and is really desperate situation

and that is hell

the guys i saw they had only
legs and their body ended up hardly on the navel
very little of backbone

and their legs were up
while trying very HARD to grow something
by pushing even more on their "what remained of their" belly

ah...what to say?
was disgraceful
and i saw so much effort but to no avail

was like sport club?
so much smelly by the men's effort

their body was so disgraceful
cause it was just half..

i just wanted to see no more of it

then i saw the  female
and i saw they had their body
but their hellish level was due to the fact
they were so BAD behaved in groups among female..

and it reflects reality
the girls i knew in the yogi group
they were like schizo?
so well behave in their own company
and so bad mannered when in group
so badly using their power really

knew not that one had one behavior in group
and another when alone
that is to their disadvantage this backbiting in female group
brr.. really not good to see

and Spirit told me
that these men
were actually with their soul separated from the spirit

it made sense...

soul is in belly
which they had
but the higher part of their body was missing
which was where the spirit dwell
in the heart till its evolution on top of head

so yes was really sad to see how hard they were trying

and really to no avail
and again i say it
such a disgraceful body..

a human being should realise he has a really pretty
and graceful body as it is

then i saw and felt
well actually i lived it
how once one dies
it goes through the underword i saw
like central of earth
through an energy vortex actually
and pop OUT on the other side of the earth
through the vortex

and it is how it is an eternal cycle
while for the luckier it is so
for those who are stuck in hell
they are stuck for a long time
cause they can't like go out of it and reincarnate

so i realised that death is not like the end
is not like people who commit suicide
or even at time of dying think
in a glamorous way about another new life
while getting rid of their current life issues
no at all
is just worse actually

cause at least in this life you have your memory
and the blessing of a FULL graceful body
and if you are lucky your awakened kundalini to purify yourself

while knowing that even yogi can get stuck and become demon
as i witness it if they remain stuck in some realm once they die
cause what counts is your state when you die
on that very moment

the state of you when you die
is written in all scriptures
conditions the realm where you wake up