Interstellar - Spoiler

Interstellar is a 2014 epic science fiction film directed by Christopher Nolan, starring Matthew McConaughey, Anne Hathaway, Jessica Chastain and Michael Caine. The film features a crew of astronauts who travel through a wormhole in search of a new home for humanity. Brothers Christopher and Jonathan Nolan wrote the screenplay, which had as its origins in a script Jonathan developed in 2007. Christopher Nolan produced the film with his wife, Emma Thomas, and Lynda Obst. Theoretical physicist Kip Thorne, whose work inspired the film, was an executive producer and acted as scientific consultant.
Warner Bros., Paramount Pictures, and Legendary Pictures co-financed the film, while Syncopy and Lynda Obst Productions served as production companies. Cinematographer Hoyte van Hoytema shot the film on anamorphic 35 mm and IMAX 70 mm photography. Filming commenced in late 2013 in Alberta, Canada; Iceland; and Los Angeles. The film features an extensive use of practical and miniature effects, while Double Negative created additional digital effects.
Interstellar premiered on October 26, 2014, in Los Angeles. In North America, it was released in film stock, expanding to venues using digital projectors. It was successful at the box office and received positive reviews from critics, who gave particular attention to the film's scientific accuracy, musical score, visual effects and performances from Matthew McConaughey, Jessica Chastain, and Mackenzie Foy. At the 87th Academy Awards, the film won the Best Visual Effects award and received four other nominations — Best Original Score, Best Sound Mixing, Best Sound Editing and Best Production Design, as well as several other awards and nominations particularly for its visual effects, cinematography, musical score, and the performance of Mackenzie Foy.

Plot

In the near future, crop blight has caused civilization to regress into a failing agrarian society. Former NASA pilot Cooper (Matthew McConaughey) runs a farm with his family. Murphy (Mackenzie Foy), Cooper's 10-year-old daughter, believes her room is haunted by a poltergeist trying to communicate with her. They come across a malfunctioning Indian unmanned aerial vehicle that they salvage for spare parts. They soon discover that Murphy's "ghost" is an unknown intelligence sending coded messages using gravitational waves, leaving binary coordinates in the dust that direct them to a secret NASA installation led by Professor John Brand (Michael Caine). Brand reveals that a wormhole, apparently created by an alien intelligence, has opened near Saturn and leads to new planets in another galaxy that may offer hope for survival. NASA's "Lazarus missions" have identified three potentially habitable worlds orbiting a supermassive black hole named Gargantua: Miller, Edmunds, and Mann, named after the astronauts who surveyed them. Brand recruits Cooper to pilot the spacecraft Endurance to recover the astronauts' data; if one of the planets is habitable, humanity will follow on space stations. Cooper's departure devastates Murphy, and they part on bad terms.
On Endurance, Cooper joins Brand's daughter, biotechnologist Amelia (Anne Hathaway); scientists Romilly (David Gyasi) and Doyle (Wes Bentley); and robots TARS and CASE. They travel to Saturn and enter the wormhole, heading to Miller, but they discover that the planet is so close to Gargantua that it experiences severe gravitational time dilation: each hour on the surface is seven years on Earth. A team descends to the planet, which proves inhospitable as it is covered by a shallow ocean roiled by enormous tidal waves. As Amelia attempts to recover Miller's data, a wave hits, killing Doyle and delaying the shuttle's departure. When the others return to Endurance, 23 years have passed.
On Earth, the adult Murphy (Jessica Chastain) is now a NASA scientist helping Brand with an equation that will enable NASA to launch the space stations via gravity. With his last breath, Brand admits he already solved the problem and determined the project is impossible. He concealed his findings to keep hope alive and put his faith in "Plan B": using frozen embryos aboard the Endurance to start humanity anew. However, Murphy concludes that Brand's equation could work with additional data from a black hole's singularity.
Low on fuel, Endurance can only visit one more planet before returning to Earth. After a tense vote, the team selects Mann's planet, as Mann is still transmitting. However, they discover it is perpetually cold, covered with icy glaciers, and inhospitable. Mann (Matt Damon), who always knew Plan B was the mission's true goal, faked data about his planet's viability so Endurance would rescue him. Mann breaks Cooper's spacesuit visor and leaves him to die, and flees to Endurance on a shuttle; Romilly is killed by a bomb Mann set to protect his secret. Amelia rescues Cooper using the other cargo shuttle, and they arrive at Endurance in time to witness Mann docking improperly. The airlock explodes, killing Mann and causing serious damage, but Cooper uses the cargo shuttle to get Endurance under control.
Nearly out of fuel, Cooper and Amelia plan to slingshot Endurance around Gargantua on a course toward Edmunds on the other side of the black hole while many years will pass on Earth. TARS and Cooper detach their shuttles into the black hole, sacrificing themselves to collect data on the singularity and to propel Amelia and CASE by dropping the ship's mass. They emerge in an extra-dimensional location (although often considered a tesseract, it is stated multiple times that it is a 5-dimensional area - therefore saying that it is a 'tesseract' is like saying that a cube is located within the boundaries of a square), where time appears as a spatial dimension and portals show glimpses of Murphy's childhood bedroom at various times. Cooper realizes that the wormhole's creators are future humans transcending time and space, who have constructed the tesseract so he can communicate with Murphy as her "ghost" and save humanity. Using gravitational waves, Cooper encodes TARS's data on the singularity into the adult Murphy's watch, allowing her to solve Brand's equation and launch the space stations.
Once the data is transmitted, the tesseract dissolves and Cooper finds himself traveling through the wormhole, coming into orbit around Saturn. He awakens aboard a NASA space station and reunites with the now elderly Murphy (Ellen Burstyn), who has led humanity's exodus. Satisfied that Cooper has kept his promise to one day come back, Murphy convinces Cooper to search for Amelia, who is implementing Plan B with CASE on Edmunds's desert, hospitable planet. Cooper and TARS, who was also rescued from space, steal a NASA shuttle to travel to Edmunds's Planet.

source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Interstellar_%28film%29





Very Beautiful movie "Interstellar"

**spoilers**

i loved it
it is my second best movie
after "Cloud Atlas"
only second best
because i need to give a ranking

but it is not less, if not even more, deeper.

i just jot own what i loved.

movie mixing scientific references:
such as black holes, singularity! even that lol
i had read a book about it a few years back
so i was so eager all along the movie

to see what the main actor gonna find
once thrown into the black hole.

though most of time i was guessing ahead
what was going to happen
as i am sharp
yes yes throwing myself roses
but true
so i guessed it right lol


there are so many fine details
and beauty of the message
main message being

they went to space
to find a place
a new earth to live upon

one scientist called the Higher Beings
which communicate with them
by giving clues and info

or even "who placed this planet under our nose"
"right now, when and where we wanted it to be"

all of these were mild clues to these Higher Beings, Intelligence
which are in the 5th dimension.

at the end,
when the main actor was thrown into the black hole
he found himself in the back part of her daughter library

where he was the "one" or "the ghost"
that was communciating with her

so the point is
there is no "they"
there is only "us"

the 5th dimension
is the human being having accessed it
and helping out the ones in the 3rd dimension
and these "Higher beings" can pinpoint the right INFO.

the concept of gravity
which is the one "thing" which is a common thread throughout time
the only thing that can impact a dimension
and the impact can only be perceived
through the feel of Love
meaning,

if the person which is a being from the 5th dimension try to communicate
he is linked to people through a bond/tie
of intimacy/Love
which would haved developped


as the woman scientist explained it so well
when she had to explain the choice of a planet
to go and save her lover
a scientific speaking of love
cf her quote

but above else
i loved her showing
that this perception is based on sth
so this sth DOES exist
as it is eliciting a decision of a direction to give to a spaceship

and this thing is Love
and this "feel"
provides 

a relaxed openness of vision
leading to a closer perception
of reality
of how to gear our acts and choices

toward signs that only the person
in his deepest fiber
knows are meaningful

like the main actor's daughter books falling
by themselves
for others was not important
because they had no link
no perception of the event
which "touched" them

but for the girl yes
it did

and from this place of sensibility
the inspiration came to her
as to understand
decode
the pieces of information sent by her father
from the "other side"

be it literally
or scientifically speaking

by the way
one had this gut pressure
while watching the father from behind
the library trying to save humanity
to help it survive
and evolve
by finding out this right INFO
on time

as she said in the movie
no one believed me is not me
who found the formula
for the INFO we kind of channel them
by being rightly on the right time "inspired"
is not like our mind is as much infinite as the universe is
does it? :)

there are a few more stuff i loved

the key one
being

how the man went out
in the universe
to save humanity

and how he saved it
by returning back home
literally speaking in the back part of his library
and in truth,
he found truth, in himself

so beautiful
he went in the universe outside
the macrocosm

to discover
once he fell
that he is the micro cosm
where he has access to all time and space

and this library
is the symbol
of the akashic records

which gather all knowledge of humanity.

 

Kingsman - spoiler

Kingsman,
first the review
second my notes
enjoy :)

Kingsman: The Secret Service is a 2014 spy action comedy film, directed by Matthew Vaughn, and based on the comic book The Secret Service, created by Dave Gibbons and Mark Millar. The screenplay was written by Vaughn and Jane Goldman. The film stars Colin Firth, Samuel L. Jackson, Mark Strong, Taron Egerton and Michael Caine.
Kingsman: The Secret Service follows the recruitment and training of a potential secret agent, Gary "Eggsy" Unwin, into a secret spy organisation. Eggsy joins a mission to tackle a global threat from Richmond Valentine, a wealthy eco-terrorist. The film premiered at Butt-Numb-A-Thon on 13 December 2014, and was theatrically released in the United Kingdom on 29 January 2015. The film received positive reviews, and has grossed over $249 million worldwide.

Plot

During a raid in the Middle East, a probationary secret agent sacrifices himself to save his team. Feeling guilt over the loss of his comrade, Harry Hart, a.k.a. "Galahad," personally delivers a bravery medal to the agent's widow and his young son, Gary "Eggsy" Unwin, saying that if they ever need help, they should call the phone number on the back of the medal and deliver a coded message.
Seventeen years later, Professor James Arnold is kidnapped by unknown assailants, led by Internet billionaire Richmond Valentine and his henchwoman Gazelle. One of Hart's compatriots, "Lancelot," attempts to stage a rescue, but fails. Valentine, known for his philanthropy, continues to meet with various heads of state and VIPs; some of whom go missing afterwards. He also announces a giveaway of SIM cards, granting free cellular and Internet access.
In London, Eggsy is now an unemployed young adult living with his mother, infant half-sister and an abusive stepfather. Despite being intelligent and capable, he left training for the Royal Marines and lives an aimless life. After being arrested for stealing a car and taking it for a joyride, Eggsy calls the number on the back of the medal. Hart arranges for his release and tells Eggsy about the existence of Kingsman, a secret intelligence agency for which both he and Eggsy's late father worked. In the wake of Lancelot's death, the agency opens a vacancy for a new agent, and Eggsy agrees to apply. He joins a group of other candidates, including a woman named Roxy. Training is overseen by "Merlin," a senior Kingsman. The candidates are eliminated one by one until Eggsy and Roxy emerge as the final two. However, Eggsy fails his final test, and Roxy becomes the new Lancelot.
During this time, Kingsman have been investigating Valentine in connection with the VIP disappearances and notes that Arnold is no longer missing. Hart tracks down Arnold and confronts him about his abduction. A chip implanted in Arnold's head explodes, killing him; Hart is injured during his escape from unknown assailants. Undeterred, Hart poses as a billionaire and dines with Valentine, who explains his views: humanity is akin to a virus, global warming is the Earth's equivalent of a fever, and Valentine intends to do something about the problem before the virus kills the host.
Hart tracks Valentine to an obscure hate group church in Kentucky, where Valentine and Gazelle are conducting a test. They broadcast a signal to his SIM cards, causing everyone in the church, including Hart, to become uncontrollably violent. A mass brawl breaks out, with Hart the sole survivor, while Eggsy, Merlin and Arthur—the Kingsman's leader—watch via video link. Valentine approaches him, and they discuss his plan: to broadcast the signal worldwide, using his satellite network to cause a massive culling of the human race, saving the Earth from further damage. Only a select few that Valentine has deemed worthy of living—those who have sided with him and thus received the protective microchips in their head, and the VIPs he kidnapped—will be spared. Having revealed his plan, Valentine kills Hart.
Eggsy returns to the Kingsman headquarters, where he discovers that Arthur is one of Valentine’s converts. After avoiding Arthur’s attempt to kill him—killing the group leader as he does so—Eggsy teams up with Roxy and Merlin. Roxy pilots a high-altitude balloon vehicle into the stratosphere to disrupt Valentine's satellite network with a missile, while Eggsy and Merlin directly assault Valentine’s mountain bunker. Roxy knocks out the satellite and Eggsy fights his way through Valentine’s security forces, while Merlin detonates the security chips, killing all who were part of Valentine's plan. Eggsy then fights and defeats Gazelle before killing Valentine and saving the world. In a mid-credits scene, Eggsy, now a full Kingsman, reaches out to his mother, offering her a nicer house and a chance to get away from her abusive partner.

 source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kingsman:_The_Secret_Service


i watched the movie Kingsman
here are some key stuff i jotted down
well i like for my own pleasure to write what strikes me
so is not really tailored for the readers' review
as it lacks consistency

so, just see them as notes

above all
this movie is a great lesson
of how a movie can manage to make people laugh on a planned mass genocide
of humanity..

though i absolutely were amazed at the violence of it,
except for the fireworks part when people's head were exploding.

there were many interesting stuff in it

the main one
was how sim card
were using low waves
to trigger violence
by removing inhibition
from men
and once these waves are let loose
in man

well violence push in full force

the bad guy called valentine
trying to take the "best people" in his "ark"
and to make feel these ones good
over the genocide of others
called them "the elect" like for those of noah's ark

and actually symbolically
he was, as the word was mentioned,
in the movie,
behaving like the antichrist
pretending to be a christ-/prophet like savior
having a God sent Ark

to a confused mind
one could say
well if all the signs are  there
like him wishing to save the earth from
an over crowded and polluting population

as he as crazy as he was
had the ability to clearly express it
to drag people, even some Kingsman gentleman in :

see the wording about virus and fever.


Hence one learn
that a kingsman is not by title
but by his manners

hence the gentleman head of Kingsman
became a treater
and the surburb hero
the most loyal one
and real Kingsman

as "manners make a man".

so this is how you can make
a genocide logically acceptable
provided your own survival is at stake

but never someone who takes himself
in charge of "saving humanity"
would be called a "savior"

a savior
is the one who has saved the others
by protecting them from his own harm
that he contains INDEED in himself
as
the SIM card showed
inner violence and impurity
till not he purified himself from it
as any other does

for as the movie shoed
the sim card
"merely" removed men's inhibition

which means in man a great stock of violence
is contained and remained unpurified
and is lodged especially in the forehead
like in some new age stuff movies
one can find in youtube

this low ID of man/ the non evolved part/dna of him
from his animalistic background
is called the "reptilian" stuff

so once we purify ourselves from these
animalistic and violent energies
which are within us

we recover our access to our
diving nature
which is not to be gain from the outside
but "gained" as in "access gained within"

and thus once gained back
this divine nature
by itself
like sun does
shines
and this shining
like the sun rays
elicite life to thrive

and therefore you become a source of blessing
to yourself
to the others
to the environement around you

and this is the "awaited savior"
the "mahdi"

which is personified
as much as one is purified.

Where is the path?

Truly is a wondrous state of affair
while seeking truth
i knew not
but i was testing the truth of my own beliefs

i was seeking to validate the truth of my beliefs
but all along i thought
i am seeking something new, apart from my current beliefs

thinking, somehow
that some more beautiful and accurate new beliefs
would be gained to perfect the current ones
or my current beliefs were right
but just wanting in deepness

in a way it meant
i thought that my current beliefs were perfect
just not completed

but in truth
seeking means while wearing the clothes
to pass through the fire
and if the fire burns your clothes
than your clothes are not pure

like in hadith.of fatimah.
she is the only one that crosses the path
and the fire burns Her not.

yet, as the clothes i was wearing
where my only shelter
once they were burned
i had no others

indeed
in dream i saw and felt it for real
that i was walking on a path
and the clothes i was wearing got all burned
and there was Abraham on the path

now i know
Abraham represents the religion of fitrah
of the true nature
Then We inspired you: 'Follow the religion of Ibrahim, the upright in Faith'.

upright?
means the straight, upright path
which is ONLY the path of the kundalini
arising in the central channel of our subtle system

while the two other paths
of right and left channels
of action and devotions
are not straight
but their combination
are to be submitted
to the test of the purification
by the fire

so i had lost hope
that i could find truth
as the clothes were my path
and once the path is burned
how can you thread further?

that's the end of your journey
really.

but then,
in the midst of that undeniable reality
that i was pathless
my path being to find truth

i was in anguish

while
it meant simply
as an answer to my seeking:
there is no path to seek the truth
as you are the truth

but how can a corrupt mind
could accept that?
a mind used to slavery of an imaginary path
even though this one was burned
could not overnight evolve
and see itself being the path

how could it?
how could it recognises himself
despite all the pointers?

like of that dream i had
showing me
and me feeling it so deeply
that a new self of mine emerged
from the current sad one
and this ever present self in me
was pure joy, light and brightly shining
like sun
that that joy is my true nature ?

how could i have accepted that ?
how could a blind see itself
even if he is told that he is the one that matters,
and the one that is?

because so far my self
has never brought me that blissful joy
so how could i believe that?

well it had not brought it
because i had never believed it
but was believing in some exterior source of joy

so now that i had failed
i was angry at this joyful self of mine
saying to me 'it is ME'

holding this glorious joyous self of mine
responsible
for if it was ever present in me
as it was showing me
so why had i not experienced it so far
but only sorrow then?

because all along
this shining joyous self
could not go against my belief
to seek for an exterior source

how could it?
as i had done a choice
a choice means you pick up something
and get tested for it

while the thing you pick up not
is silenced

so now
that i knew this inner joyous self
is there

i mixed up everything
i thought if it was there
then i should not have been in such a sorrowful state

 while the right experience and conclusion

 i should have come to :

it was there
but i chose to seek something outside
i sought it
it got tested
my belief failed the test of truth
i was in pain

therefore i should have chosen the inner true self
which true nature is joy.

instead,

i argued :

if my joyous self was ever present in me
then i hold it responsible
becausean ever present truth
don't let falsehood be.


but i forgot
that rule of game
was my free will :

i had chosen to discard It
not willingly
but because i remembered It NOT!
and not chosing something,
is STILL a CHOICE

hence why the quran says
"Remember"!
why sufi do the "zikr= remembrance of God"

and to be honest to free will
one should act like an honest scientific
is like finding the "unknown" in the equation...

(like how to remember 
that you have to remember something?
is just the first difficulty 

and the second one
is once you know you have to remember
you know NOT WHAT.)


...choose an hypothesis
test it with your life
and once failed
admit that your choice was wrong

and when the answer is given
accept it

and don't rebel to ask account
to an ever present truth of not
having manifested its true nature

how could it?
had this very truth in me manifested itself
while my inner choice was wrong
i would have believed that my choice/hypothesis was thus the right one...

(and this is why NEVER EVER a religious follower
can prove his religion is the right one
it will NEVER EVER get any DEFINITIVE sign from God
for God divides NOT, it UNITES as it is already ONE)

and the effect of it
would have been my destruction
because i would have with full force
implemented my beliefs while they were unapplicable
and certainly when you push the wrong buttons of a machine
the machine is destroyed

this is why
when truth manifests itself not
is also for our own good
even though it may contains great sorrow for us
because this very Truth
silently wait in us
in a corner :)
that we accept to let go
so that in its silence
it may walk to us
and manifest itself as it IS.
.........

so while in great sorrow
of having lost my path
i was standing at the door entry of my garden
it was summer time
and i could see flowers having blossomed
green grass
and trees bearing fruits and green luxurious leaves
and sun shining over them

still, observing this
and yet being in full anguish
of having no more path to seek truth
and thus with no more reason to live

i wondered
how if God who was ever Present
could in the sameparcel
gather a spot upon which sun was shining
within it a garden of life blooming


while me who was standing in the same parcel
i was not experiencing same richness with my inner garden?
nor could feel any sun shining on me

how could it be
that on the same parcel
blessed life was blooming
while i was receiving not such blessings
of divine attention

that was such an accute pain
for around me
everyone was living their own life
with their own path

but i was pathless
and knew not how to go on living

now i know
it is because they were still
in the illusion of having a path
and fulfilling it
while having not set the intention to test it

while i had tested that my path
existed not
but i was not understanding
that it was not a punishment
but that without knowing it

i had sought to test it
without knowing i was doing that
and it got tested
my illusory path and life
got tested
and they passed not the test

one may think is a failure
when our path fail test of truth,
isn't it?

but no
it was the biggest achievement
ever

by not passing the test
only then
i could give it up
not by will
but by the reality of the test itself
which burned it

result was
that my path got burned
and there was no path

but by then
my difficulty was
how to go on living
if there is no path
then how could i grow
and go on with life

for i needed to SEE a PATH

it is only
when the sun started
shining on me too
that i saw my garden blossoming too
that i realised
that i was the path

no belief
ever
can be the path

only the actual you
IS.

it is when i started to feel
the holy spirit within
--within without

Sooo helpful people!

Indeed our day reflects
our meditation in the morning

is incredible

here is my today's experience

well is not incredible eventwise
but humanity-wise

i was shopping today
and once i paid
i realised i bought a frozen item by mistake

so i asked to just change it
and well it was impossible
and i tell you also that i could not at the end exchange it lol
so no suspense

but what was incredible
was the utter kindness of the first cashier
for she was all smiling
while i tell you
try to shop at 6pm in paris
is a drama there! hahaha
impossible to even get time to smile and chit chat
given the crowd
and despite themselves,
the cashiers grow grumpy

then, out of nowhere
the head of the store
who was leaving for home
saw me
while i have not EVEN asked him anything
and he wanted to solve my problem
taking literally the ticket out of my hand
i was astounded

especially when it is 6pm
and you are leaving your work place
usually you don't care for customers
especially if they bring you their problem lol

so here was contrary
he came by himself
while he was supposed to leave his job place
and took upon himself to solve my issue

but could not
why ?
because once you buy frozen stuff
they can't proceed to exchange
is the rule

anyway
i was about to leave
and a third person came from behind
a woman
and she stopped me saying
"may be i can buy you your article"

i could not believe that
finally she could not
as she was very very very bio oriented lady

but i was literally amazed at her kindness
and i told her
whether you buy it or not
i really find it very kind from you

and she said
well i heard you
and thought if i were in your shoes
i would love someone to do so to me

wow
i tell you
this lady's kindness and attentive care
for someone literally a stranger
to consider her as her own self
is never seen
first time i ever see this with me

and again
i conclude
that indeed
if ourselves we purify our energy
then we open new doors in ourselves
and as we are a universe in us

the universe out
ONLY reflects the state of the inner

so in times of such Grace and Kindness
i thank God
for that is exciting new experiences
of seeing that it works!
purification works!

and equally
but with delay
obstacles in life are also means of wonder
and with the right attitude of excitement

to see
HOW GOD is going to CHANGE your surrounding
your obstacles
your lacks
your sorrow
your worries
your sadness

into its oh so long awaited happiness

but what happens
is
that we reject all of the obstacles
onto others
which is normal
for the other too is at fault somehow
BUT
as a spiritually aimed person
who wishes for personal evolution

after the natural human judgement
at others
one should learn to MOVE ON

and the moving on
can only happen

IF we use
this golden opportunity to FEEL our OWN sadness
and bring it to the altar of God within
and to let it be flown over
by his/her vibrations

and in this very emptiness
the obstacles are transformed
so are the people around

never one can change someone
is like the matrix spoon
trying to bend the spoon
one should bend/bow within
so that the spoon outside bow too
for we are the spoon

why?
for the spoon out is the universe
that is in us
and we are this whole universe within

hence all is indeed one

ah ! feeling so much better
after having written it!

Blue Tara

another experience when i was meditating

my intention was this time
to clean all the remainder of any right vishuddhi blocages
for we better settle stuff on this earth
than to store them in our body
and get reincarnated in weirdo life scenario hahaha

indeed,
for i felt a very light prick on the right finger
and i decided the above

which is very very much illusive
to say "light" prick

for i tell why

my intuition says
when it is light
it is not necessarily minor
it means just it is deep down
and the kundalini is working it out
to bring it to the surface
and purify it

for remember
any "small" matter
can easily cause a catastroph
as much as getting you reincarnated
so is never a small or light matter
as one may thing

but the "light" prick
does mean that it is not a stuck blocage
in deep mud lol hahaha

so i stayed at this chakra
and hold it loooooooong
during my walking meditation
remember?
the walking one is way more efficient
in terms of purification

and yes i hold it
till i felt it all cool
till this coolness spread to all other fingers
and whole hand too

and guess what happened
as hardly as i sat down
and closed eyes for the sitting meditation

i saw myself standing
near a group of people
and my head stretched itself to the far away group
and asked them
"why don't you see me?"

it was like the me of this vision
was as the spirit identity
who was bewildered
that that which is present - as my true identity- i.e. the spirit
is not seen, while is so obvious

and lo! it was no more my head i was seeing
once it came back
it was all blue!
a female head with beautiful eyes carved like in stone statue
wide open
and such a nice smile on her face
i would call it a serene smile mixed with wisdom
for it has such a self knowledge/control

then after meditation
when i was going to start my day
i felt lots of rain drops! on my back
at the right side of it - near the right heart level
so i said to myself
neh, is for sure the cool breez no rain lol
so no need to verify by touching

and yes each time when i challenge
lol it puts me in doubt
so it became so intense
that i literally thought droplets were falling
and that at this very place my shirt was WET
lol so i HAD to touch it to check
and of course! i lost my challenge  i had to verify!
hahaha

anyway
it happens again after
at the right ribs

so later came the knowledge
that this is the right vishuddhi which got purified
from any old resentment i had
and i bet it was related to 5 years ago
for it was the very first time i learned
that people could be betraying
in a way you can say was my first betrayal experience


for you see
the thing is
if you don't purify it
then you experience your NEXT experience
through this VERY filter of betrayal
and hence you cannot "let go" on the spot
and after you NEED to use meditation

to purify it
but this requires adequat discipline
and persistence
for it to be healed for good.

all praise be to God!
i am so happy it is healed!

how so?

well,
when we have experiences with people
negative one from our perspective
what happens
is that once the matter is over
this trauma and "negative" energy
REMAINS in us
in our ki channels

and UNLESS and UNTIL
we purify it
by bringing them INTO the emptiness
we cannot heal ourselves from future "bad" experiences

so the emptiness heals these left over unbalanced energies
in us
and this is HOW one is healed and balanced and acquires NEW
qualities
which are not NEW
but only were clouded by this past trauma

hence the numbnuts who says
"well meditation is not everything,
you gotta develop qualities"

i tell them
you are already the pure spirit within
what qualities you have to develop?
you want to force a pooh out of yourself? hahaha

and pretending having such qualities?

you just have to CARE for yourself
instead of caring for the ass of the other
if he or she is doing well or not
is NOT your affairs
your affairs are YOUR OWN SELF

once you clean yourself
really
you do a favor to the others
by shining more purity
and being less a pain in their ass
and creating more compassion thereby for them

true compassion
is not the one in word or in deeds
for they are meant to be an extention
of the essence of this compassion in you
which is this spirit
and you can only let it shine compassionately
if yourself you are compassionate to yourself
by treating your blocages
in order to let emptiness absorb this trauma you had

and then
may be one day
make your presence so lovable
that one can see this cool and soft gracious energy
overflowing from you

i think it is how we have standards
we see beauty
like this light for me
and it suffices to see people after
and you can on the spot tell
where they are in their evolution
as regard to this light

it is nothing bad to be
on different level of evolution
this is what makes the beauty of Life
and i love it

but that which is bad and sorrowful
is to remain STUCK to a level
for it means one refuses evolution
and that is sad
for oneself
and for the others

and how do you know that you are stuck?
when you are not letting go of your past "bad" experience
and you keep repeating it like a disk even months after!
so much that even months after it is "sticking in your throat"
lol
this idiom exist not for nothing
it means you have to purify your clogged throat chakra
and of course the agnya as you can't let go

for life thrives only when we are in movement
let it be an ascending one.

and for the wet rain
lol as if a rain could be not wet
but i call it so
it was situated at my right channel
so indeed it was linked with the right vishuddhi purification

and the blue face
was the one of the blue tara

hm, is very beautiful
to be given such gifts after meditation
it is like kids who get mark after their school work
they want more so they work more
is rewarding


and yes color blue of the face
for the vishuddhi color is blue.

:)

kiss:x
ps :i know not much of blue Tara
but will have a look


Tara
Though Tara & Kali are same yet their complexions are different. Kali complexion is dark whereas Tara complexion is blue. Tara killed the demon 'Hayagreeva'. She has Lord Shiva lying under her feet like a corpse. Her bluish complexion's beauty is magnified manifold by her three eyes, which appear like a blue lotus flowers. In her four hands she has a scissors, a head (skull), a lotus flower and an axe. She wears tiger's skin on her body, and has a necklace of skulls around her neck. She is considered to be very violent in nature, but her eagerness to shower blessings on the devotee is infallible too. So she is the most merciful. Tara or Ugratara is worshipped for the attainment of powers of speech, pleasures and even salvation. She is also worshipped for the destruction of enemies. Tara is worshipped in the night and is an another appearance of Shakti. She is considered to be the ruler and presider of miraculous effects and accomplishments.


source : http://www.freewebs.com/jaidurga/informationonmataji.htm

Lovely shots! fell in love with them:x
and i love the mantra and the devote singer voice too
was told that when she was still in her mother womb
her father used to recite her this mantra nearing the womb
every day. :)

Beautiful cool light

:)
ah that is soo cool!

let me start so
it is like a cool, slow and lightly moving ray of light

oh so beautiful it is!

thing is i see it more and more often now
it comes out from my laptop screen
i noticed it is when i asked myself a question
and am working on it
and then this cool sun ray appears

is so beautiful
i feel mesmerised watching it
ah so beautiful
i have tears in my eyes

the other day
i got up for the early meditation
and i was wondering about why i have found this sun ray
so beautiful

so i was focusing on its light
and the feeling that it gave me

the feelings associated to
the description above
was "kind" " and "soft" definitely

and its slow moving
makes me feel
now i can say
like a cloud moving

and by then
it hit me
i said it is "gracious"
this is why i love it

so i wondered
why it was so different from
the light of the day, of the sun

because the sun light is
very heated, strong

while this light
was very cool, and eeric

the former is
Glorious

the latter
is Beautiful serenity

like sun
and moon
lights


in islam
the attributes of God
are divided in two groups
Jalal and Jamal
Jalal is the Glorious heated energy in those attributes of God
and the Jamal is the Cool beautiful ones


and suddenly
when i thought of the word
that fit it most
"Grace-ful"

suddenly,
i saw Mother mary
she was sitting in a bent way
and in its place
i saw after a foetus in a womb
with a dim cool light
reflecting on it
so that i see it

so i said to myself
it is the same light of Grace
the one out of my laptop screen
is the same than the one on this foetus


it was a foetus in its very early stage
enlightened by a dim light

just like this :

Playing

I was in the metro
and suddenly someone grabbed my hand
lol
it was a kid
hhehehe

he was actually in his push chair
and all of a sudden he grabbed my hand
and then my finger
and the guy standing next to me
lol himself got surprised that he watched my face
to see my reaction

well
i was laughing
and sure ended up playing with the kid
ah so cuteeeeeee he was

it is about the innocence
the child recognised the shakti in me

hence the grabbing and the smiling and the playing

of course,
i know if i have no discipline for morning meditation
then i have nothing

oh God,
is my plea
please make my meditation
truly disciplined ray

ameen!and so be it
as one says lol

The Feeling of True Humanity

:)

i had a very meaningful dream
i had been told once
that part of dreams we have are like our past lives coming at the surface
and we only have to let go

very easy cleaning :)

but true, at times if you have nightmare
it won't be that easy
i can guess

anyway
in my today's dream
it was about some life of mine in middle age
of which i saw détails
precise détails that were blocking me
and instilling fears
in this very life

hm can't really go in détails now
as myself i have to work this out

but main point is
there was the Healing!

which took place in the dream
and that i felt in real
while i was sleeping

i saw a woman and she was from her forehead
emitting a ray
and this ray was showing this past life trauma
to a guy
from forehead to forehead
i must say very precise and fast way to transmit info!
and is true
it exists!

anyway, this very guy who was my good helping friend
saw the issue i got in the past
and somehow in the dream i was this middle age lady seeing
this current scene too

so odd now i write it
it is like the past was witnessing a present
the past : the middle age lady with her in the "now" trauma

and the present : the guy and the lady with the current knowledge and Healing
at hand

you see the past middle age lady
she was actually just in the "now with her past"
because she was reliving , i feel, constantly this very trauma again and again
like a tape

and me the true actual person in this very life
was not knowing this
and was thus with a background noise
which was this past tape
just living it again and again too
BUT without knowing it
and without knowing the solution, the Healing
and thus being tied up to it
and not being free of following my own flow

my feeling is this lady transmitting from her forehead
was my Higher Self

for i already got this experience
far before my self realisation
and i know how true it is
this forehead to forehead info
and i had been told already
that this very lady was me

and somehow there was happiness in the air
but as by then i had no clue
of vocabulary such as Higher Self
i guess it would have had been of no help to me
to know that

anyway
back to this very dream

how the Healing took place

so in the dream
my old self
was crying out
how she could NOT be free of a certain trauma
that it was impossible for her
for she was tied by this certain person impact
and could not get rid of this hurt
let's call it so

and in the second scene
my Higher self was transmitting
this very past self scene to a guy
lol let's call it my knight lol
for it was his role
to help me be free

and there was the actual me
the one sleeping dreaming
and witnessing all this
and now writing it

beautiful play
when one think of it
very astute
Life is a real mysterious engineer
i tell you now lol

now the beautiful thing happened!
the Healing

the guy who was witnessing the very info
by the mental transmission
was also reliving my life context
in which this hurt happened

so he knew truth
truth here
was to know the hurt in its context
that is life

and while he was witnessing it
he was also KNOWING the feelings
that i was feeling

therefore
he developped "empathy"
and all the way he was holding my hand
during this past life transmission
and in my very own heart
i was feeling that this very empathy
was Healing me
because there was no interruption
by some judgement, question, laughs
and so on
as people do in this very life

it was plain EMPATHY

ah !
even writing it
i feel so good and happy

and in the very dream
when i realised that empathy feeling
i realised that it is the key to Healing

that the human touch
the skin to skin contact
with real empathy

is a Healer in itself

you know why?
because it is REAL
the skin to skin contact
even by holding hand
is an act of PRESENCE

the present BELONGS to you
and in it
you are thanks to the correct, SINCERE, attitude
of EMPATHY

just making space for the other
which is in hurt
to let her know that you know
and that you are there
and so she can too let it go

of course she can let it go
why?
because you being there
= you as LIFE you prove you are there
and you have to do nothing
the error is to be in the judgement
the judgement kill all of our dreams
and add load to the past hurt/karma

one just need to be there
for the other
to feel our presence
(for she had forgotten the present as she was only reliving the past
so she only needed room to be made for her to have the opportunity
through the empathic silence = which is a bridge
from past (thanks to the role of the feeling) to the present (hence the ABSOLUTE
need of SILENCE, SO THAT this transition HAPPENS for her to come back from her
coma to the present!)

and i mean it
our pure presence
will provide this SPACE, ROOM

to enable her to FEEL the PRESENT , the NOW
for the person was STUCK in some PAST without knowing it

so you JUST need to be PRESENT YOURSELF
so that she too MAY BE PRESENT
like waking up from a coma

there is no other solution
than

THE KNOWLEDGE OF THE HURT
+
THE EMPATHY ONLY (no judgement for ROOM is needed for the person asleep to transfer herself from past to present this lost part of her soul.***)
+
and the most essential one for the transmission of this Healing
THIS HUMAN SKIN TO SKIN TOUCH

i guess i just learned
what is TRUE HUMANITY

ah bring me tears in my eyes
so beautiful it is


***a soul is lost
because it is not in the light
and is like a soul has different parts/lifes it had in the past
and one by one
you have to integrate them to the light of the spirit
this is HOW soul remembers that it is only the Light

and indeed
in the end of the dream
i saw how slowing
the bits of my heart who were black
i.e. in darkness
i.e. in ignorance of its present light

were shining

and that is
when awakening takes place
bits by bits


pps :
this is WHY when people JUDGES the others
now it makes me laugh
for NOW i KNOW
they are FAKE

why?
because they are ONLY projecting
their OWN inner limitation, hate and frustration to the other
"Under pretext" of wishing the other an improvement that he or she is not doing

Life works NOT like that

jugement is the PROOF
of your OWN VERY OWN UNRESOLVED INNER ISSUES
and you use the pretext of SERMONING the other
to CONTROL him
INSTEAD of settling your OWN issue

as for me
i learned a few days ago
how some people had
let's say it plainly sex out of marriage

i give this very example to be concrete and plain

on the spot
i judge it
for i am human
and i said is very wrong
for it is NOT my standards

BUT
after i stopped judging
and let it go

the reason?

because it is NOT my affair
if i had gone further
it would have meant
my initial judgement which was human
(because i was merely applying my own life standard to see the other's life
through the lense of mine)

would have been transformed into a dictatorship over the other
by keep judging him by my standards

here the key word is KEEP judging

where is the let go?

the KEEP judging
transform a natural human judgement into a dictatorship
a controlling attitude over the other
for some inner personal gain that one harbor in a hidden way
that one admit it or NOT
is ALWAYS this.

so up to you
to let go
if you want Healing in yourself to take place :x

have a nice day!

ppps

and if you really wants to help to improve
the state of someone that you deem is lacking a quality
is not by judging
or sermoning in a dictatorial way

for that is FAKE
not for the other
but you are doing it for yourself
even if you are not aware of it

but true help
is through empathy
and you can do this
only
if yourself you have the correct and sincere attitude
with yourself
than
you just KNOW how to apply it to the others too

My Beloved cousin

I have some very funny encounter


I was going out to cinema with a long no see cousin
he came from abroad
like a sun arising

lol as mom said

anyway,
the very night
i received a phone call
of a very curious couple
who asked me what 's up

and as i am quite a sincere person
i told the surprising encounter i had today

but you see
the lady was NOT expecting me
to speak of it
for

she and her friend
expected otherwise

especially because
they happend to see me at the cinema
with that guy

lol
that they were
trying to categorise

why?
why is it so important to categorise a he?

what the challenge is here at stake for them?

when i see one of them
with some other guy or girl
do i categorise their 'partner'

so they calculation went
as such
a brother?
no way too old
a father?
let's see no, not old enough

a secret lover?
you mean another one than her fiancé?!


bingo!
this is how human mind works
PROJECTION

we project on others
OF WHAT WE ARE

if our mind is unclean
due to our OWN weirdo
experience of crossing limits of morality
then we are SUSPICIOUS of the other

indeed
for we suspect from the other
the worse
especially if we don't EXPECT
the other in a new situation 

why?
because it reassures their inner guilt :
oh yea!
then i am not the only one
to have a "romantic affair" after cinema

hahaha

so that is what they were thinking

ONE ALWAYS PROJECT ON THE OTHER
ACCORDING TO ONE'S OWN LIFE HYGIENE
MORALITY
AND ETHICS
SPIRITUALITY IN ACTION

and so on

remember the story of the saint and of the sinner?

two guys at night time met
one was a sinner going to night club to have some "romantic affair" after lol
and the other a saint going to some prayer retreat

the latter seeing the other
thought
"what a good guy,
look at night time going to pray to God"

and the sinner
look at the other
said
"lol, look at him
playing the saint,
i caught you
are you are no more worthy than me
you are planning to chase women
in a hidden way
under your priest garb"

see?

same here
world is a mess
because of the JUDGEMENT of people
which most of the time is ERRONEOUS
and ONLY a projection of their OWN

life ethics, hygiene, moral and low level of spirituality

on the spot
i laughed
after i was seriously angry at such a behavior
but after i remembered
me too i would be judging if i linger on that feeling

therefore i chose to laugh them and let go

so what count for me
is that i had a fun time with my sun
my dear beloved cousin
not seen since so long

he was so happy from me and my family warm welcome
that he invited me to join him
whenever i plan to

you bet my dear cousin
you touched my heart with your heatfelt thanks email
for you are one of the rarest person
whose heart is touched by feeling of appreciation

for very few people
have the ability to receive that which is below the surface/the material
that which is deeper
and that is called a loving feeling of the heart

just to be able to FEEL
this warmth from the other
this ability
to catch the feeling and care

secondly, to admit being touched by it 
and to appreciate it
and merely thank the person

is one of the most beautiful gift of sincerity i have ever received lately

because THAT IS AN AUTHENTIC RELATIONSHIP

such people
when they will get their self realisation
will be WAY further than those who have it lately
why?

because they cultivated below the surface
by using heart for authenticity
than for just being material
under PRETEXT of imposing high standards to others
while themselves being low in spirituality
and even fearing its deepness
due to their western conditioning

the LAST will be the FIRST :x

The Giver

THE GIVER

Wonderful movie!

here for the synopsis : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Giver_%28film%29

Plot :
In the year 2048, after a war, the community has decided to get rid of different races and feelings. All the citizens have had their memories erased; except for the Receiver of Memory. Since the Receiver of Memory is the only individual in the community who has the memories from before, he must advise the Chief Elder, and the other Elders, on the decisions for the community.
Jonas is a 16 year old teenager who is anxious about the career he will be assigned (along with everyone else). He has two best friends: Asher and Fiona.
On the day of graduation, everyone is assigned a career. Jonas is briefly skipped, as he has not been assigned a career. Instead, Jonas is to become the next Receiver of Memory, and progressively receive memories from the past receiver, The Giver. Upon assuming his role as The Receiver, Jonas learns of the Giver's past and of his child, Rosemary. She preceded Jonas as Receiver of Memory, and was so distraught from the memories that she committed suicide, by what the Community calls releasing. They regard its nature as mysterious; the audience learns that it is death by lethal injection. Jonas begins to teach his findings to his friend Fiona, with whom he decides to share the idea of emotions. Fiona, who is unable to fully comprehend the idea of emotion, is unsure how she feels. Jonas then kisses Fiona, an action which is antiquated and unknown to the community, which Jonas gained through memory.
Jonas also shares his memories with the baby his father brought home to their house, Gabe, and develops a close relationship with him after discovering he shares the same mark on his wrist Jonas does, the mark of a potential Receiver of Memory. Jonas decides that everyone should have the memories of the past and eventually, the Giver and Jonas decide that the only way they can help the community is to go past the border of what they call Elsewhere, beyond the community, therefore releasing the memories back into the community. Jonas sneaks out at curfew, and decides to get Gabe at the Nurturing Center, who is to be released due to his general weakness. Asher, his other longtime friend besides Fiona, tries to stop him before he leaves the neighborhood, but Jonas quickly punches him. Asher lies on the ground, stunned, and Jonas rides his bike to the Nurturing Center. He tells Fiona his plan and wants to take her with him, but she refuses and instead helps him retrieve Gabe. Before he leaves, she kisses him and helps him escape.
Meanwhile Jonas's mother and Asher, go to the Chief Elder to tell them Jonas is missing. Guards are sent to contain Jonas, who they say has become "dangerous", but Jonas gets one of their motorcycles and drives off the cliff near the Giver's dwelling into "The Elsewhere". Asher is assigned, by the Chief Elder, to use a drone to find Jonas and "lose" him but when Asher finds Jonas stumbling through the woods, he captures him with the drone. After Jonas implores Asher to think that if he ever cared for Jonas to let him go, Asher drops him into a river, setting him free. Jonas stumbles through the land of Elsewhere, while Fiona has been condemned to be "released" for helping him. Just as she is about to be released by Jonas's father, the Giver steps in and stalls the Chief Elder with memories of his daughter, Rosemary, trying to call out the Chief Elder, in which she succeeded. Jonas's mother begins to cry starting to understand the feeling of love. Eventually, Jonas finds a sled like one he rode in a memory from the Giver and makes his way beyond the border of Elsewhere, releasing memories and color back into the community and saving Fiona because Jonas's father realizes what he was really doing. Jonas and Gabe return to the house of his memories, where people are singing Christmas carols, and his voiceover says that back in the community, he swears he hears music too, or possibly just an echo.

End of wiki quote.



i am in LOVE with maker of such movies
FIRST time in my life that i have so much wondered about the movie maker
DURING the movie

beautiful people who had this soul passion
of sharing their TRUE love for humanity
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Giver_%28film%29
very symbolic
the guy had to reach the far off limit of "human memory"
so that the "awakening" of the humanity happens

of course is very "terrestrial" of reaching a border

but the symbolism is there!

means WHEN you as an individual CONSCIOUSNESS reaches the limit of the mass consciousness
of where you live
then automatically like the monkey group stories
everyone else get easily this awakening each according to his limits

and in the movie
the "wannabe sages" lol it reminds me some "wannabe saints"
think to know truth
but instead of like in the old times using murder and killing
now they use the word of "someone is lost"
meaning they killed someone

so manners, methods changed
but the VERY ACT of EVIL
which is to take someone's life remained

and the hero
like other people, each morning had to get his "injection"
which was to make people forget their emotions
and be only mental people

see this movie showed
that ignorant masses when they behave in an evil way
are forgiven in the hero consciousness for they are being evil (killing people) without knowing it is a killing

you know as the saying goes
God forgive them for they know not

they only know it is the "élargissemnet/widening"
you see calling a murder with another word
just to remove the negative image of the word murder
makes not a murder less evil
but the doers in the movie knew not that it is "evil"
just because they are brainwashed with this other name.

and so it is all ok in the consciousness of the doer

but the one who awakened to his past memories
of who he is
KNOWS that it is AGAINST life and thus evil.

that is TRUE caring for someone's evolution
it is not JUDGING
it is ONESELF evolving
so that one subtle level the other may evolve too

but poor people in spirituality
are like jésus said

you see the straw in the others' eye and not the pillar in yours

very true
most people knows not that when they judge another person
they are actually of no use to humanity
and this is why you see their life is just STUCK
and they turn in cycles months after months
doing the same repetitive things
and Inside having a deep sadness and thirst of a desire for something
they will NEVER get

how sad for them

but true seeker of truth
knows how to LET GO
because they are the ONES who are the evolvers
and by their own evolution
on a subtle levels they give to others
the possibility of having the same FREEDOM and SPACE to evolve TOO

here the hero Jonas
learned
and i had tears in my eyes at the end of the movie
HOW PERSONAL experience
is LIFE

and the movie makers are so wonderful people
imagine
you can make such a movie
only if you have something to pour into it as a message!

nowadays people
do stuff
work,
events

but once is over
what is the gain?
SAME cycle over and over again

because they have NO personal heartFELT message to pour in

they have LOST their OWN identity
while running after the self made illusion.

in this movie
the teacher of jonas
teaches him
HOW TO FEEL
HOW TO ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS OF LIFE
such as colors, music, touching, smell and all

teaches him what strength is?
no theory
hand in mud, it was illustrated by some sky diving
or a guy standing in front of a char

see?
there is this feeling of TRUE LIVED life
is ALL IN ALL in YOUR OWN experience

and whatever people say
for they are BOUND to be narrow minded
except very few
you are in truth
if you are REAL

ENJOYING your life
and having fun

this is HOW humanity is selected by God
it is by the choices people do for themselves
when they EXPERIENCE life FOR itself
then they FEEL ALIVE

but when they do what they are conditioned to do
they just have sour face lol

Cool shining sun rays

wow Kazakhstan!

i felt like writing a bravo to the kazakhstani readers of this blog!
so far reaching thanks to a blog nowadays


i love new countries!


back to essential

i was browsing through web
and again 'by chance' i ended up on a webpage
which was speaking of self mastery
of how to find your soul passion

and follow the guidance of your inner being
for one is helped by other beings of light
which are all around us
and these are here to help you return to your true self
for that your soul MUST find his goal and passion
so that you build up experience

and on the spot
i tried
from heart i believed and prayed to know if is true
can one have such beings of light like NOW all around?

guess what!

Glory of glories!
i saw sun rays coming ouf of the left handside screen of my laptop

you see on the spot it was not as exciting as i am NOW writing it
for on the spot
i felt this light very eery
very light
and yes like a living sun rays
shining sun rays

ah ! **sigh of restfulness**
that is SOOOO pleasing

i tried to touch it
or cup hands to receive it
so cool a light in its glory it was

ah is so eeric

am so happy

imagine
if that is only a spot like moment like this
what could be on a huger scale or on longer time ?

lol was like in cartoon
light shining out of some object

guys i tell you!
LIFE IS FUN !

there is much more beauty than eyes can behold
for sure
in times like this i thank my luck
otherwise if one had to rely on "humanity" lol
one would go to a depression center

hahaha

this is in moments like these
that i can see when i meet people
their real intent

i have realised how i changed
now, i can very quickly read a person interior

and that is way too fun
because the person knows NOT that i KNOW
and they appears so ridiculous

mwhahahahaha


there are other people
that are soooo wonderfully innocent in their search of truth
that they are just lovely without them realising that i found them lovely

indeed pretenders and authentic people
are NOT alike

today i thank the spirit light
for being with me
for without it
i would have since long depressed
at the wannabe saints!

;)

White Tara the Milky beauty

woa
yesterday i did some recording

woa incredible
how one can discover stuff about our own self
as BRAND NEW
while it was all there all the time

i did not recognised my voice!
lol i kind of fell in love with my voice
it was the voice of a child

anyway
do i really sound like a kid when i talk?
unless it be the recording
but it hit hard as if it was a new aspect of mine i had not known

anyway it put me in tender mood about myself
hahhaha


but then it is may be linked
for that night as i was going to sleep
in a vision

i saw such a beauuuuuuuuuuuuutiful lady
i call it an eeric lady
she was all white like milk

her face was bright shining white
her clothes too
her face too
her hair too

all like bright shining milk

she was so awesomely beautiful
when she turned her face to me
just for a few seconds

actually she was standing in a cave
her face turned towards the front

when she turned back
i was stunned by her beauty
and we hugged

she has an ingrained peace in her
a well grounded and solid peace

this reminded me of this quote :

Beauty is truth's smile when she beholds her own face in a perfect mirror.

Rabindranath Tagore

she was perfect beauty indeed

ah there is more to it

but i don't know 

i love her

anyway

i learned she is called "white tara" 

and i read this part : 

Myth of the 1000 White Taras
When the 1000 White Taras are named the tone of the planet will shift from one of fear to one of compassion, of love. It is something like the Durga myth. When the world was on the brink and the Gods threw their hands up in surrender and called on Durga to save this world, Durga came. She cut away greed and avarice and restored harmony. The Gods asked her to stay and be our goddess but she said , "No, that wasn't the deal I signed onto, but if you need me again you can call on me". And so we are. We are calling her to cut away avarice and we are calling on White Tara to remove the fear, thus allowing this to happen, through compassion... through love.

The myth of the White Tara began when she showed up as the tear of Avalokiteshvara, also known as Chenzering, who the Dali Lama is a reincarnation of. She appeared when Avalokiteshvara, the Buddha of all Buddhas, moved into a state of compassion... when his mind and his heart met in wisdom... and the suffering he saw because the the lack of this balance, made him cry. Then he could see Her... or it is said she appeared. For that is who she is, the compassion expressed in that tear. It could be said the tear cleared the eye to see her. She is the expression of compassion. It is time to let the waters flow... let our tears cleanse and nourish... let it dissove fear in all its manifestations especially hatred. Like the water thrown on the Wicked Witch of the west... melting, melting... let the fear melt as we see we are one with all.

When the 1000 White Taras are named, acknowleged and joined... the force will be so great it will spread quickly. Like the 100th monkey theory, when a critical mass changes, the whole will change. The naming has begun...

 

source: http://whitetara.com/myth.html 



Very true
you know i met a friend who taught me yoga posture
incredible
one is called the prayer of the sun
it is nearly same as the muslim prayer
such a fine teaching

indeed all postures and rites
are about balancing your body
and then your subtle body
to get this yoga UNION

and guess what
she warned us
saying
this posture will bring up tears
and you won't know why

to be honest
i did not believe her
i said to myself why i would have tears
especially one always have a reason to cry

well that very night
and for no reason
and the day too
tears where indeed falling from my eyes

and now BY CHANCE i read about these tears in this article about
the white Tara
it is no randomness
but yet is very timely

and about tears and compassion
i end up on this quote which came to my mind :

"We entered the house of Abu Saif - the blacksmith - with the Prophet (pbuh). Abu Saif’s wife was the wetnurse of his son, Ibraheem. The Messenger of God (pbuh) lifted his son Ibraheem, and smelled and kissed him. After a while he went and saw his son again - he was dying. The Prophet (pbuh) started to cry. Abdurrahmaan b. Auf said: ‘O Prophet of God, you too cry!’ The Messenger (pbuh) said: ‘O Ibn Auf, this is a mercy’ - the Prophet (pbuh) shed more tears and said: ‘The eyes shed tears, the heart is saddened, and we only say what pleases our Lord, and we are saddened by your death, O Ibraheem!" (Bukhari #1241)


indeed 
i feel 
the tears clean the agnya 
and hence is the mark of compassion 
of God to you
and of you for your self. 

Glorious universe

:)
i had a very strong dream-vision,
i always call vision
when i know i am more near to awareness
than glued into the dream passively

in vision, is like alive state
you are either the witness or in control.

here this morning,
right before my meditation time

i saw a man who was from some order
that is not importan to mention here

and was showing me the plan of a roman house
the domus
and showed me how the central part of house
the vestibule was representing the most important part
of our own body the womb
and he spoke of some latin words in the roman house
which were refering to the body
like the perineum

lol i had to watch on net what this word means

and he asked me to search and learn 
a bit on the roman traditional homes.

and how people of his order
speak in words which may seem casual to people
like about the roman architecture
but are in truth deep secrets
not for nosy people

then,
while he was refering to the past story of the universe
the scene changed
and it is where i saw part of the universe
yes was wide
he referred to two planets
the first one i forgot which one
but the second one was Venus

and he said these two

ok i stopped to meditate for a few minutes
so cool it felt in the head
it was like the head was cut in two horizontally
and the below part of it was cool air/water
more air ok
let's not say water in case it be false lol

so he was saying that these two planets got destroyed
by darkness
this is why they are as they are now

then,
i saw / he showed me the earth
and the earth was
now all covered by a thin,
but very uniform layer of darkness
all around it
and i could only see a few spot of lights
here and there
less than 10 surely

but he said
it is still thin
so understand that not yet thick
to the point of total unreturning point

then,
the voice of the spirit said to me
"are you deserting meditation?"

believe me
when i heard it
i woke up and went straightly meditate

because i had not heard my alarm
and you know yesterday
before sleeping i talked with my spirit
to show me what i should know about myself

now with some distance
i remember it
and it is his answer

i was slacking in my morning meditation
to be honest, it is so cold
that in winter i like not to feel even colder with the cool vibes

and also after meditation
i feel so empty
that i forget to desire stuff
so that even if i have important stuff to work for
vital and joyous stuff
i get so empty? or forgetful rather
that i just forget to do them
and i edge boredom

so this time
after meditation
i remembered to pray
to the spirit
and ask what i desire
and yes :) i felt happier and filled with my daily schedule
and more enthusiastic

it is with some delay
that i understood the dream

that the earth
is also being covered by darkness
due to this nuclear treat
and past planets have been destroyed
because LOVE were no more

writing it feel sad in my heart
but then,
i remembered that this outer universe
is my own inner universe

that i have been created for it
for this very power is in me as is in you
and in all of us
and if we remember to purify our selves
then we purify our inner universe
and this will in turn EFFECT the outer universe
by way of resonance

when i realised that
i felt indeed
that

i have a glorious power within
and so much worthy is this life within

for it beautify and purify the outside surrounding too.

GLORIOUS

that is the word i learned its real meaning today
and felt it too

so it gave me back my smile
after i started to feel sad about the earth

it just suffice to know
that within is our microcosm
which when purified
effect and manifest itself in the macrocosm

this FABULOUS universe so great it is!
and incredibilty awesome it is that it starts within me :)

now that i see such a beautiful sun shining through my window
i wish you a shiny, cute and comfy coming week end!

kiss:x

ps : some reminder to myself :

we meditate to become the watcher or the spirit and the cool breeze is the holy spirit power
since meditation is actually witnessing the witness
we just do it,and let the shakti get us there(like a boat)
imagine your attention/chit rides some horse..that horse is energy.

since I AM as a microuniverse..the projection of the BIG universe 
as i get more love/power..i can irradiate it to the BIG universe! 
so this is a great power
the GLORIOUS power
and i am the microcosmos of IT!  

imagine that!..the glory of glories!
and IS all in my body/chakras
this is why i felt this morning it was glorious:)

so my  vibes WILL go up and down..but the witness never will
and my job is to STAY with those sensations and be that witness


to echo the glory of glories...
imagine, 

by purifying the vibes (using cycles..then resuming silent meditation)..i PURIFY the whole world!
so GLORIOUS it is !

 
 is a BIG responsability!
 and all i need is to fix it in myself :)

is always about ME ..as spirit.. 
same for YOU!