The most beautiful people

You know the most beautiful people
are those who are themselves
they shine

like the hang drum musician
or the others i saw on the streets today
so cute
4 musicians playing an old music
with trumpets
and an old lady
clothes all in green
and she was dancing

tell me
i said to myself
isn't she beautiful?

she was beautiful to me
because she was being herself
just to enjoy what she knows she likes
and she felt not destabilised by the outside
by us those who were observing her
for some were amused of seeing her

but even writing this
i feel my heart so deeply grateful
for such kind of people
they are just themselves
and then their own light shine

what yogis may forget is
that everyone has a soul
and its light shine
when one hears its voice
for it shows the path
that is beneficial to our growth
the one if we follow will help us
to build the experience necessary to grow

and how you know you have grown?
when you are no more stuck in the same circumstances
over and over again
when you do not have the same disputes
for dispute and anger always appear, it's a constant in our life
as we say it is a play, a game
but still
isn't evolution about transformation?
about no more being the same old self?
but growing
this growth is proven
if our external circumstances are changed
if we have changed and emitted light

for some people change
but they are not growing
it is just apparences which change
inside they are all the same
and this is an illusion

but real change
is the one of transformation
where your own presence emit peace, light, joy

but a realised being
may have a connection between his soul and his spirit
that those 'other' people have not
yet, most of them so far i have seen
have not found their life purpose
their AUTHENTIC life purpose
the one that makes them feel enamoured by life
the one that makes them vibrate
and wish them to go on living to create a better world
a PERSONAL life purpose
for automatically
if you find your life purpose
then,
de facto
without your planning
you will benefit the rest of humanity.

during my studies
my interest shifted to spirituality
little by little
till i postgraduated
and i realised that i had lost interest by the end of my studies
in the diploma i had prepared
so funny
and such an awkward situation

because my aim
without me knowing that it was my aim
it was just to follow my inner interest
spirituality and its link with my OWN experience of it

and once i got it
once i got this tiny self realisation
i jerked back again in reality of life
and all went blank for me

how to find interest in life
when you had lost it for something that you found?

so paradoxical

later i learned
before self realisation
my dreams were my guides
giving me clues for what is real

now that i have gotten the real
i had no more such vivid dreams
for remember my dreams were my teachers
thanks to them i could see that this life was not real

but now, THIS very life is REAL
this very life is the scene of my vision
and no more my dreams
why?
because now, i can raise above it
and be my OWN master and CREATE my OWN dreams in REALITY

such a huge discovery for me
i understood it only this week

and yes
i realised what i LOVE most
and NOW i am gonna test this Power of God
and SEE
HOW it can help me in my new found goal?

for on my own
i am SURE i cannot
so much deepness and richness is needed for that
well one will see

till then
i hope everyone will find his or her goal
and honor it
this way you will honor the others
and thus honor Life

i don't know why i have this nostalgic feeling
as if it is the end of a certain time for me
testing time surely
but innerly
and right now
i feel really grateful to everyone
for all the positive and negative experience i had
because without them
i would have never learned
with my life
the true meaning of forgiveness,
of letting go
and of love

how all of these are linked?

well i learned that EVERYTHING has its RIGHT and WISDOM to be in our life
anger, disappointement, liking and disliking
because they exist in us
our role
is not to GIVE INTO THEM nor to HIDE them / avoid them

first i learned
to let them have their place
not to scoff them in me
if i am angry
then let it be

second,
i should recognise
ON THE SPOT
that now i SHOULD LET GO
meaning forgive this anger
by meditating ON THE SPOT
so that the anger be dissolved
and be integrated/grown enough
to be integrated into the light in me

third,
if LATER
i STILL feel angry
this feeling and the person having caused it
i should thank
for thanks to them
i can re start my purification job

of course
as a human being
i will be excessive and be rebellious
and get stuck at times
but VICTORY is when i overcome it
and not because of mental effort
but because of the effect of this Power of God
of these vibrations
the negative feelings will be transformed into light

yet,
if again and again
the same scenario repeats itself
it means that i still have not progressed
and that something is wrong with my practice

there it is
i said it all
and i feel  happy to have shared it

kiss:x
good night


ps :
a sentence came to me
our soul seeks to experience and fulfill
dreams and romance (its desires)
and it is that which gives us the energy to work for it



i.e.
the soul gives us its desire/goal
which is still a dream and it is precious to us
the latter activates our left channel
and it gives us the energy to work for it
that activates the right channel

with this

ONE THOUGHT   -
ONE EMOTION

we create our dreams in this reality
and we become thus our own master!

Hang Drum - eeric music

Today after a long time
of having stayed home
for lately there is much to do
and also because i resumed my challenge! :)

40 day intensive meditation
like never before !

i had already made it in Italy
but now if i can make it in France
as is harder
i will feel truly rewarded

ah yes
i went outside
after such a long time
in town center

oh
so beautiful
everything i looked
seemed beautiful to me

like the way the orange, yellow and red leaves
where covering the walls
or the roof of houses made of stone
or even some green trees in the alley
and the pavement ! made of grey bricks

and the music i heard
an eeric music !
i swear
i just got mesmerised by it
specially i went to the bank to withdraw money
and by the CD

the instrument is called hang
it looked like a shield from middle age
yet the sound is so eeric
i was surprised how a flute like sound was coming out of this instrument

and there was no button
nothing
just steal
and yet sound was coming out of it
where the musician was applying his hands
so magic

even now i feel enamoured by it

and even the musician
was so engrossed in his practice
that all of his body was moving in rythm
so harmoniously

i really felt doing this instrument
a music with which you are so attuned
that your body is the prolongement of it
and like the music
so rythmically and harmoniously moving

finally
i asked the guy the name of the instrument
and he asked me to guess from its name
i could not find
as he asked me to still try out
i said china lol
though the instrument looked like not from there

he was nice
he asked me to have a second guess
i told him the outward instrument looks like
the one of middle age
and to my surprise
he told me it is very recent
only 13 year old discovery!

amazing
but i believe it
given the sound of it

so eeric..
anyway
he said hang is from switzerland origin
and it means hand
so suitable a name!

Hang drums or "hanghang" as they are known in plural form are very unique and very exclusive pitched percussion musical instruments. They are made from gas-nitrided steel, look like flying saucers, and sound a bit like Carribean steel drums. If you want one you are required to travel to Switzerland where they were invented and pay upwards of $5000 for the privelege of becoming an owner. The inventors of the instrument are the only ones who make them and their service is based on personal customization and high-end exclusivity. It seems funny for a hand percussion instrument that looks like a UFO and is played on the lap to be so expensive to obtain, which is why we can make one for about $30 out of an old propane tank.

Read more : http://www.ehow.com/how_7917062_make-hang-drums.html

here is a bit more info about it :

The Hang (German pronunciation: [haŋ],^[1] plural form: Hanghang^[2]) is a musical instrument in the idiophone class created by Felix Rohner and Sabina Schärer in Bern, Switzerland. The name of their company is PANArt Hangbau AG.^[3] The Hang is sometimes referred to as a hang drum, but the inventors consider this a misnomer and strongly discourage its use.^[4]
The instrument is constructed from two half-shells of deep drawn, nitrided steel sheet^[5][6] glued together at the rim leaving the inside hollow and creating a distinct 'UFO shape'. The top ("Ding") side has a center 'note' hammered into it and seven or eight 'tone fields' hammered around the center. The bottom ("Gu") is a plain surface that has a rolled hole in the center with a tuned note that can be created when the rim is struck.
The Hang uses some of the same basic physical principles as a steelpan, but modified in such a way as to act as a Helmholtz resonator.^[7][8] The creation of the Hang was the result of many years of research on the steelpan and other instruments.^[9] The inventors of the Hang have continued to refine the shape and materials and have produced several variations over the years.
The name Hang comes from the Bernese German word for hand. It is a registered trademark and property of PANArt Hangbau AG.

source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hang_%28instrument%29

i can't wait to listen to the CD
but already the visual of it
is very auspicious
as first impression
when i looked at its cover

zen atmospher
sitting near the open root of trees
with some multicolored sunrays radiating the face
of the musician

i always noticed
when i go outside
after more or less time of seclusion
the atmospher is just beautiful
colorful and pretty

i just wish to observe
and my joy rests in that
it is like the observing is my joy
like i am doing what i am seeing
as if i was absorbing what was around
and feeling nourished by it innerly
even though i am not the direct doer

today with the beauty of the place
of this town center
though it was urban aera
and the music
i felt like walking in a dream
from A to Z
like floating
and the éclat of beauty i could see outside
was like i was feeling its richness in my spirit
so alive it was


look at this muscian his name is daniel waples
in edingburgh 2012
he gave a short explanation of the instrument
and played it
isn't it eeric? middle age like?
i am definitely in love with the sound of this instrument.

and i like the harmonics of the sound
and the flowing magical atmospher it creates
it really makes me feel i am brought back in middle age
besides middle age is my preferred time line

and well, i like the real innocent joy on the face of the musician
same kind of peacefulness was emitted from the guy i met today

i just love it!

Breakfast time

during breakfast time
i was drinking my tea
and when i lifted it up
and drank it

while drinking it
suddenly i got the impression of nearness of the energy within
as if it was not me , the thought, who was lifting it up and bringing it to my lips
but the interior energy

while the thoughts was the witness to that
and could be witness to it
because information passed through it
that : this is my need, to drink something

it is so strange
especially if i read this few days later
i may not get why i felt this moment so special
because it all depends where my attention is
if it is inside and deep
then i can catch this very impression while reading it
otherwise it has no meaning no pertinence

besides
this proves also
that only when we are simple
that we can be deep
otherwise it is impossible to be so

so we have to learn back
to become simple people

what we like, we take it
what we dislike, we leave it
and we settle things as much as we can
according to our ability on the spot

so that we don't be overloaded
in our thinking


this very feeling of nearness
i only got it once in my life
may be 10 years ago
when i was praying
i suddenly felt
that closeness
of a presence, of an inner presence
and on the spot while i was praying
i understood
no rather this energy made me witness its closeness
this is how i understood
that if i am standing, then it is not by myself, but because i am being supported to stand
and if my clothes are hanging so naturally
not too tight not too messy in the atmospher
lol like in the space
but rightly adjusted to the body
it is because of this intelligent presence
who knows it alls and do it

but it acts according to the needs of our soul
and if we are not in touch with our soul
then the energy can't do much for us
because it only serves (our needs)
therefore
if we are in touch with our inner self, soul,
and thus with our needs

then, our attention is rightly put
and then, the energy follows


incredible
but truly now i understand
why my uncle used to say
"your energy goes where attenion goes"

therefore,
you have no more to "care" for the effort
that you should initiate
but you have to only put your attention rightly on your soul
so that your energy follows
and care for you


one should learn that gradually
otherwise a great leap from meditation state to active life
is quite impossible
at least for me

Glorious amber

so wonderful light!

the sun light is soo beautiful since past two days

sunrays passing through amber color like leaves

that is really glorious!

pictures to come :)

Dance practice!

we have been preparing an indian dance
for about 3 weeks?

it is the 4th time in my life
i am learning a dance show

so i tell you
i am BAD lol

my coordination sucks
and body attitude
and all that goes with it
like the right timing to direct eyes


BUT
i enjoy the dance
somehow

of course
i was very happy from
our teachers
yes i call them so
for they taught us


i saw the difference
from day 1 and this last day

lol
night and day!

also it is so incredible
so many points

in a brainstorm
i would say

teachers help us to see ourselves
same in dance
same in any thing else in life BY extension

people act like a mirror

of course
i saw them preventing themselves to laugh
at times
to all of us when we pass under x-rays for checking our steps lol

but that was all fun!
if i had made a movie of myself
when i was training
even now i can't stop laughing
SO MUCH WEIRDO i was !

so yes,
first BIG thanks to the teachers!
and of course to the group
because it is what it makes the atmosphere of joy

1-yes the mirror
i was talking of
it is like you can be TOLD actually what you are doing WRONG

and of course like in life
if you are willing to listen
then you can CORRECT yourself

 2-the body language
of course this thing is known to most of us
especially we are taught all of this at school
but in dance
it is even more FINER
for you have a SPEED
an accumulation
NOT at your rhythm but at OTHERS rhythm!

that is what makes you learn more
HOW to adapt to your environment

like, for instance
what made me each time pouf with laughter
at myself
was my TOTAL lack of coordination

hehehe
like someone rightly told me
my mind KNOWS the move
but my body follows not !

it is because as in italy a teacher told me
i think in martial arts
"you think that your body is following you
but it is not,
it is still in the same place"

true, why?
because of the HABIT
the body habit is in the beginning (when you try to change it)
RESISTING you
for it has acquired in its memory a way of acting
so in mind you are thinking you are doing this
but in truth
it is ONLY in your mind
your body is NOT following!

INCREDIBLE i say
INCREDIBLE i repeat

this is HOW we MISS experience of life too
so much we live in mind

besides,
dancing balance me more
for i am naturally a mental person
and the body coordination i shockingly felt
i LOST it

for i well remember
how i used to be free doing these SIMPLE moves
when i was a child

and NOW
i NEED to learn HOW to be natural in body gesture!
lol

i insist INCREDIBLE!

3- the "irreverence of the child"

i love that word
it hit me
when one of our teacher said it

she said
when you dance
one see that you are in your mind
so learn to have this irreverence while moving
as children do :

they JUST do it
without caring for the before and after part
or if it is well, or in the right order

see?
this reminded me
how also
once we grow spiritually
there is no more boundaries
of good and bad

of course one day you will act with this irreverence
and of course people in society
or even those who call themselves yogi
will find you rude
but who cares

it is about you enjoying with the joy of a child
and it is between you and the universe
as long as you are grateful to It
all is ok.

4- the ATTENTION
gives power

yes
even more true in dance
sometime we have had to have PRECISE move or patterns with hands
and what made mine approximate
was that my ATTENTION was NOT TILL the FINGERTIPS!

again,
i say
INCREDIBLE

and then when i put attention till the fingertips
or use the right timing with eye contact

first the teachers themselves could feel
the difference in IMPACT on the audience 
second, ME TOO
i could feel in myself more opening, and joy

5- ATTITUDE
change in body gesture leads to change in our attitude in life
for it works on your personality
and even chakras

like i had the tendency
to always have a hunchback lol
i exaggerate
but i need to

because if i open up myself
i felt it was too much
like unconsciously now
but it refers to my childhood
when i started to grow
i wished to remain unnoticed
unlike to others girls i found were too noisy and look-at-me attitude
so as opposition to them
i acted so

but what was consciously done by then
became unconscious over time
and impeded me

for the way we hold ourselves
influence our readiness to respond to life on the spot
for the way you hold your back will make you more or less prone to act on the spot
and even EXPRESS your joy

lol have you ever seen someone with a hunchback
expressing his joy lol

so this opening up
leads us to more light and light giving

true,
when i hold my shoulders back
and stay straight
i literally feel face lit up
and yes naturally i will smile more
for i am FACING people

and when you FACE people
you unconsciously allow them to speak to you

if you cover yourself up
you will create a barrier for them
and you won't send the message to Life
"here my arms are open to you, come " lol

but that too refers back to my past
when i used to see such noisy girls lol
i had no arms open attitude to them
i preferred to go unnoticed
 so that that "kind of life" gets not on my face lol

but still,
this is very much fruitful to have artistic practise
because it reveals stuff on your personality
you can change on the spot
as you have to re-learn it

and also,
of course
it just gives you joy to be in a joyful atmosphere
with human contacts

6- teachers
we are ALL teachers to each others in real life
if JUST we all had this attitude to learn from others
to see them as our mirrors
we would evolve more rapidly

but what happens is that in real life
teachers are also students
and sometimes brat students lol

so other students naturally won't see them as teachers
even less as mirror to them.

but in truth,
we are ALL mirror to each others.

if you see a defect in someone
and can't let it go,
meaning you are still thinking, talking and even deciding according to it
be it consciously or in a more or less hidden way
then, it means it is no more the other who is a trouble or at fault
but yourself who need to change and correct what needs to be corrected.

this is why i have always loved people who told me
how they saw their mistake and how they changed
because this means they have introspective qualities

of course,
we can from time to time
blame others lol
we are human, it is a process
but KEY is NOT to linger
and know that we have at some point to let go

and AGAIN
the let go is NOT to stop talking of it
this stop talking should be a RESULT
NOT a decision

and the result is THERE
only if we ON THE SPOT
raised our energy and put it on energy SUFFICIENTLY long enough
to get our thought silenced
and thus to get us imbibed by the vibrations
who will transform them into something more beneficial to us

this is the letting go.

may God help me to apply this more systematically!:)

kiss:x

my Bowl broke down! lol

today earlier during the day
i happened to see my bowl in the sink
and said to myself
it is not pretty neither easy to grab
but strong though

later today, it fell and all broken!
while i had it from a few years already!
sort of unbreakable one in my head.

so today
i indeed got confirmation
that WHAT happens outside of me
is what i had thought of
and the universe granted me

and it happened
that while i was picking up its pieces
i remembered my last lesson
about accepting one's responsibility
lol nothing heavy
but this :

i.e. when you ask something
and the universe gives it to you
just say "thank you"
and do NOT judge

otherwise the magic just stop
because when i judge the universe
then it stops

so i naturally
this time no forcing
happy that it was natural

this time
when i picked up the pieces
i checked inside
out of curiosity
any thought related to this bowl
and remembered my thought of this morning :

i was dissatisfied of seeing it
though not believing it would break as it is strong!

and it happened!

so,
sum up :

once we are realised

1- be careful of your thoughts
for your thoughts are powerful
and what you think
you get it, if you universe allows

in THIS way you are to be responsible
meaning, you need to keep sound thoughts
and not delves into worries

2-if you wish for something
THEN wish it ONLY
if you are READY to get it

lol
not asking
getting it
and then blaming or judging universe

3- what is judging universe

it is to be a cry baby
to get something
and instead of thanking It
you ask for MORE security and guarantees!

like you get a gift
and suddenly an idea or worry comes up
emerges into your mind
and while thanking universe you add a condition
such as "thank you but can you make it ok so that i have no trouble with this gift"

this is NOT a thank you
this is a JUDGEMENT

and from what i learned
you are NOT smarter than the universe

this leads me to

4- Thank you
say thanks to the universe
and be happy (this is the the let go part- you just enjoy the gift)

5-keep asking :)

and you will see
as i learned it
that like this you will cross the limits
of what are called good and bad

not because you are bad lol
but because you are just learning to INTEGRATE
everything that comes up your way

though by time
people may start judging you
for they progress not

you know
as a matter of fact
as you are experiencing this power of the Universe

that nothing is bad
except what we make it so

of course it is easier said
than done

but till we have this awareness
we can try and do the best we can each time
and keep on progressing
into integrating more experiences

and as you saw
only accepting the universe results
is the way of not judging

but again
don't take me wrong

FIRST you have to WISH FOR
and THEN let the POWER enters into action

NEVER the POWER will use intent
hello?!
the power is ONLY there to give your SUPPORT
but you HAVE TO DO YOUR JOB : intent, wish, desire

and then
God says
Be and it is ;)

kiss:x