Universal dreams and meditation

i had a few great dreams lately i forgot to wrote,

i had the dream of an old man who was about to die
so he wrote a letter to rumi in a newspaper sharing of his sorrow of life nearing its end,
then rumi answered to his letter saying
what he did of his life
he answered that he was the advisor of the king
and used to spend all of his time interpreting dreams.

(somehow that matches me, if i spend time to interpret people 's dos and don'ts.)

then, i saw both of them under a night starry sky
and then, rumi asked again
who he was
again he answered interpretor of dreams
he asked again with pressure
and then he answered : i was the liberated one

(yes, because the guy was sooo engrossed in his life/MEANING
for yes people in islam drive me NUTS when they don't understand what DUNIA means;
it means ONLY FALSE identifications of yours with your experience/role/ID/job etc.OK?!
hehehe.
- so the guy i repeat had identified himself with a role, and had forgotten that all the way
he was The Spirit - The Liberated One ALREADY).


and then, i saw like a white smoke, not smoke but can one say
a sort of white spirit of his?
ascending upwards to the starry night sky
it was symbolising his liberation

and one could see like eyes of God
watching him
they had turned like thunder

so rumi said to him
it is not of any use to get emotional
by seeing those eyes

(in a way they are just being so thunder like
because of his own perception reflecting his forgetfulness of who he IS.)

then, i think the scene ended.

anyhow, when i got up in the morning,
i rushed to go to meditate
because i did not want to end up dying like a waste
really
and also i did not want that all my past meditation becomes nothing
because i was slacking

so i did one hour walking meditation

during it, when hands in front of belly

i rememebered the ok mantra

so i realsied that if one does not start with it

the energy cannot rise to the sahasrara

like if we take the example of runners, each on a starting line

ready to race. and each having like say a kundalini behind them

and they have to run upwards to the sahasrara

it cannot happen

UNLESS they are authorised to go

so the ok word

is the one that authorised

well seen like that

it is the image i got

also,

when it is said if we have a problem we use the ok mantra

and turn it in our own belly

not on the outside

it reminded me

like in cartoon

you have a sort of huge marmite (in french, same in english?)

where the magicians turn the water inside

and then you see versions of real life?

so it is same

we are suppose to be like the outer witness of these images

which are mere images within the pot/marmite.

and then, we can just say it is ok

and the image of the scene changes.

then, during the walking one,

i felt a united field, like a balloon extended

except for the forehead

then, i started the sitting one

to let it sink

for about 45min

it was all cool

except on the face and forehead

and of course on the heart area

it was at the end like a stone put on the heart

so i cupped hands for a while

then, i ended with some projections of what will give me joy in life.

oh yeah,

for the precedent dreams,

i had seen a paiting,

a living painting

where there were all of the prophets

and i was watching it with a friend of mine

and i was asked to pintpoint which person was which prophets

so i saw jesus, john the baptiste and moses first as long as i remember

otherwise,

today in the meditation,

i saw the status in stone of saint pierre

with feathers behind him

was he an angel?

also he got his right hand in the middle of his body,

you know like a half namaste?

saint pierre in wikipedia is the symbol of ? i forgot.
will check later.

hm, good production of the day, isn't it? :)

kiss:x

Lying in Grave

this morning just before getting up
it was like i was awake in myself and as if it was death time like lying in a grave
and it was all dark
and i was wondering 

and now
where i go?

as i knew i could choose the place where i will go.
 but it was just all dark

so when i woke up i was startled to be there again.

while i was sure it was over
over for something new i mean.

...........

so only the body was lying down
i am not my body.

but this is the realisation 
i did not have on the spot

on the spot i was thinking i was that body
and that death came over.

so if the nails i cut
are not me
why would the body that dies 
would be my death?

seen like this it is clear.

and it is also clear 
why we think we died.
lol the dead one thinking about his death
proves he is not the dead body! lol

it is just that because i still 
have not the mental power 
of realising that i am NOT that body
and if the body goes away
i am not finished.

the fact that i be so accutely attuned to my own individuality 
is for the benefit of experiencing life from within elements of a WHOLE.

so this identification 
should only be for the sake of the experience itself.

but to KNOW once with heart, mind, soul (is that what Buddhist call citta?)
that i am The Light of God (Essence?)
it is the true remembering

and ONLY when it happens in this VERY life
while being ALIVE
then 

at the death time
we can REMEMBER it. RE- MEMBER it.

otherwise how could you recall it at leisure
i like to say summon it
summon this light
if you had no prior experience to recall it?




but as we get used to the individuality (for the sake of experiencing life)
when it ends
we think that we end too.

while we only shift in worlds.
according to what we reap in our consciousness(?)
i guess.



hmm.

so we are this light
and have to remember it 
BY the way of experiencing it.

         

And if God's light shows up
everybody would be scared
and run away
in lower incarnations realm.

i wonder how come we could run from fear of the light?

is it because the light uncover us?
because it uncovers us to our own light ?
and as we are not "used" to it
it hurts?

like when someone switches on light
while you are sleeping in your room at night?

so it is a question of getting used to
by way of experiencing 
our own light.
bit by bit.

while if it is just turned on 
all of a sudden
we are hurt.

seen like this
all "bad" experience in life  
is only the sign that light is being uncovered in us
and we are experiencing its hurt
as it is disturbing our habit which had not same amount of light ?

we are in a way being upgraded
and the more we resist the more we suffer.


  

Indian message

I like this writing,

that's so very true and sincere.
i like it.

and of course,
the key advice , cf the end.
that is actually like in meditation!
.............

Friend do it this way – that is,
whatever you do in life,
do the very best you can
with both your heart and mind.

And if you do it that way,
the Power Of The Universe
will come to your assistance,
if your heart and mind are in Unity.

When one sits in the Hoop Of The People,
one must be responsible because
All of Creation is related.
And the hurt of one is the hurt of all.
And the honor of one is the honor of all.
And whatever we do effects everything in the universe.

If you do it that way – that is,
if you truly join your heart and mind
as One – whatever you ask for,
that’s the Way It’s Going To Be.

Passed Down from White Buffalo Calf Woman

* * * * * * * * *

The most important thing for white people is freedom. The most important thing for Indian people is honor.
The white world puts all the power at the top. When someone gets to the top, they have the power to take your freedom. In your churches there is someone at the top. In your schools, too. In your government. In your business. There is always someone at the top, and that person has the right to say whether you are good or bad. They own you. No wonder Americans always worry about freedom. You have so damn little of it. If you don’t protect it, someone will take it away from you.

When you came among us, you couldn’t understand our way. You wanted to find the person at the top. You wanted to find the fences that bound us in. Your world was made of cages and you thought ours was, too.

Everything looked like cages. Your clothes fit like cages. Your houses looked like cages. You put fences around your yards so they looked like cages. Everything was a cage. You turned the land into cages. Little squares. Then you made a government to protect these cages. And that government was all cages. The only freedom you had was inside your own cage. Then you wondered why you weren’t happy and didn’t feel free.

We Indians never thought that way. Everyone was free. We didn’t make cages of laws or land. We believed in honor. To us, the white man looked like a blind man walking. He knew he was on the wrong path when he bumped into the edge of one of the cages. Our guide was inside, not outside. It was honor. It was more important for us to know what was right than to know what was wrong.

We looked at animals and saw what was right. We saw how every animal had wisdom and we tried to learn that wisdom. We looked to see how they got along and how they raised their young. We did not look for what was wrong. Instead we always reached for what was right. It was this search that kept us on a good path, not rules and fences. We wanted honor for ourselves and our families. The only time freedom is important is when others are trying to put you in chains. We had no chains so we needed no freedom.

We had always had our freedom, so you had nothing of value to give us. All you could do is take it away and give it back to us in the form of cages. You took our honor and gave us your freedom. And even you know that is no freedom at all. It is just the freedom to live inside your own locked cage.

Excerpt from the book “Neither Wolf nor Dog. On Forgotten Roads with an Indian Elder” by Kent Nerburn

* * * * * * * * *

“When you are in doubt, be still, and wait;
when doubt no longer exists for you, then go forward with courage.
So long as mists envelop you, be still;
be still until the sunlight pours through and dispels the mists
– as it surely will.
Then act with courage.”

Ponca Chief White Eagle (1800′s to 1914)



So long as mists envelop you, be still
So long as mists envelop you, be still
So long as mists envelop you, be still

like during meditation, 
you put your attention on vibes
till this very power activates itself
and as you stay with it
you get still

well the sunshine...
i still have to experience it :)

-petals notes.