Butterflies

Today, we went to the park,
and we all just slept on the grass and did some of sunbathing lol.

may be had i meditated before,
i no longer remember,

but suddenly when i watched the sky
it was all purple and green like butterflies flying
like being aspired upwards
billions of it
everywhere

then, later i watched the grass
and it was same kind of vibrations or pulses
this time it was like a white mist of it

like a whole sky vibrating
and the whole earth vibrating

this is how i realised they are alive
and always changing / moving upwards.

i tried to look at human being
but i just saw solid forms
so, i realised may be it is either they are lacking vibrations
or because i cannot see multicolored vibrations.

Love is always there

i did not know what love was
i felt always insecure
for i knew not how to integrate all that i met into oneness

so i imagined
that love
is the capacity to always be there
despite all of my excess
it HAS to stick there
otherwise how i could feel protected and reassured?

feeling of insecurity
could have been laughed at
for very strange reasons

may be the reasons
were just laughing at me
for not seeing that I AM that Truth inside

but on the spot
it was of no help to my ignorance
actually it was felt as being cruel

therefore,
i imagined love
love to be fully integrating all that was evil in me
always patient and forgiving and especially, still after all my blunders,
be loving

so that shamelessly
i feel confident enough
to keep improving

why should one cover one's defects
when one is meant to be transformed into something more beautiful?

so first one should face our own defect
see what could be laughable
and accept that
and never think that it made love to forsake you
just this thing is sufficient
to know that love forsakes not

so that at some point
you have by this choice
made and accumulated enough space
for transformation to happen

love is always there
but you just need
to be lenient with yourself
to give the required space
for the alchemy to take place.

To be colored in the color of God

Collective meditation is the intensive way to get speed up the process of purification/vibrations
later, the individual one only need to feel its own call/passion within and respond to it

so once the ablution is done,
offering still remained to be done
and it is up to each one of us, up to each individual to do it

i love his eyes in the beginning of the video
once his inside has literally been beaten up (as you will see it throughout the video)
it is like this was necessary for him to go through all of this
for his eyes to find the softness and innocence of a fragile new born one
and only lovable one is , in truth

so is the power of divine love
which is compared to the Mercy of a Mother
cannot bear to see his children
go through the rough path
while they could go through the easy one

sometimes
human nature is so
that they cannot learn the easy way
they want to try the stick before
on individual level it is called tragedy
on the mass scale world wars

yet, humanity needs not to suffer
nor to reach the pitless bottom to learn to love
or find back the never lost innocence
it just requires humbleness to make space for it

and for once, listen to it
for it has been always there.

and it just wait for us
in silence
to receive it
to welcome it
for it will never force itself upon you
so good mannered it is

thus yesterday night,
i suddenly felt a sort of rush of wind
on the sole of my feet
i realised that it was intelligent for it was trying to move up inside

this woke me up,
for i did not realise what was happening
and then, suddenly the room went dark
this is when i realised that it was a cloud of light

and it never forces itself on you
yet you have to attune yourself with it.

Few months ago, i was afraid
and just rejected it.
This time, i was still afraid, for i was not expecting it
but did not rejected it, i kept observing

Lol,
if we go to sleep expecting nothing
then for sure if something good happen
we are scared
for we are unprepared

but if we go to sleep
expecting Grace
if something good happen
we can attune to it

so this is the state into which i will sleep next time
expecting good
and observing the sensations or watching what i see.

it is all about choice
and we are to choose
and then, let it happen.

somehow,
these past few days were very blessed with these continuous meditation spots
day after day
and it ended up the whole "trip"
with a, what i call, "angel in disguise",
at least it is the impression that this "beggar" gave me

in the metro,
he was playing his small piece of music
and as over the past few days,
all i see and feel repulsion for
i pinpoint the feeling inside of me
so that on the spot i envelop it with love

so when the beggar was playing of his instrument
and i felt a bit of irritated because it was not really a beautiful music sound
and it was so much noisy with the metro
i used "i love you" mantra inside of me upon the disagreeable sensation i was feeling inside

at the end,
the beggar who was near me
said Hallelujah
Lol which wake me up
whenever i see people interested with some religious behavior
i am curious as to their way of seeing life
for i was expecting some misery coming from him at the end of the song
like the previous beggar i heard
but he was praising God
which really attracted my curiosity

and then, he turned towards me
and gave me his hand
so that i shake it
lol : )

and as if i was in dream,
well, who knows, i am in dream,
i was shaking his hand
LOL
then, he pointed his finger to the sky
and said, are you christian?
to which i said yes
then, he said,
then, you are ok

then, he left and resumed his work
of asking people the money for his music
while i was expecting him to do same with them.

so this made me think,
this is a very exciting meeting
when we meet each other
and speak to each other on unsaid words
and then, wear again our mantle of daily chores
as if nothing happened.

it is like our light
shines for a second
before we go back consciously or unconsciously to amnesy.

for him, i wonder, which one was it,
the conscious or unconsious one?

we are all like that,
it is just that we are deeeeeeeeep asleep.

Discernment and Judgement

When one has found the standard of Truth
or saw what it was like to have a sneak peek into Truth
into its atmosphere
when you breathe it
or see it and feel it

it suffices you come back to your former level
and you see all of it with new eyes
and you can tell
no that is fake, that is fake and that too.

the power of discernment is there
for you need night to know what day (light) is
and vice versa
so dualities are aimed at increasing your discerning power
but never to judge
dualities are there as help for you to get sharper
and what you DO after with it
is YOUR CHOICE

but most of time people get carried away
and don't know that they have choice
seeing duality
or seeing darkness after the light
they think it is their life role and mission
to criticise, judge
either for the sake of it
for lower reasons of being always right
or even for noble reasons of making the world a better place

but all of these reasons are FALSE
for judging IS judging

judging is to try to bend the spoon from the outside
it is to mix up The Source with the manifestation
it is to go into the corruption of Attention and give unto it
it is to react to the falsehood with our emotions
call it as you wish
but these are the processes which are taking place
we are judging.

but we HAVE CHOICE
discernment is one thing, judging is ONE choice
and Loving is ANOTHER.

let us dwell into the Loving choice following the discernment period
this one we hardly imagine it to be a choice
for let us be honest

i never understood how i could LOVE
and even unconditionally
if i see a really irritating situation, circumstance or person
i am sorry, but in NO WAY i will say i love it.
for i KNOW that i am feeling irritated, angry or even NOT OK with it.

yet jesus peace be upon him said,

We see the straw in the eyes of others and we do not see the beam in ours

 meaning,

"to not cast judgement on others so easily and yet overlook our own faults."

Yet, ON THE SPOT,  i always see the BEAM in the other, and not the straw and i saw it into them and NOT in me (always on the spot) ...
so how come?
yet, the idiom HAS TO BE TRUE.

so how come?
it is because i chose judgement after discernment
and not love
and also because i forgot that everything is pure spirit, me and the other
so the other is always meant as a MIRROR INTO ME
and the mirror role is NOT to burden me... for it is a world of transformation and change
it is meant for me to see the VERY fault i see in the other into me
not that i should find it into me
for on the spot i SEE it (so it is already found)
but the exterior is giving witness as a mirror does to my interior
and without asking myself further question (and even less wasting time to judge)
i should do my share, and use my power to purify myself of it

so when seeing what irritate me in the other
i should close eyes (if need be) and turn inside and see
where i feel the pain/irritation in the body
very often we are able to pinpoint it
and once done, this is the proof that you have located the place to be purified inside of you!

half way
you are half way
if you came so far, it means you did NOT CHOOSE judgement (which is to throw your attention outside and let it glued with the falling and destruction of the world which is bound to perish, so you saved yourself once your turned your attention inside)

once your attention is turned inside,
you have located your pain
and this is basically painful because the energy is stuck
like a knot is made
knot upon knot
how could you undo it?
you never managed so far with your own hands or mental tricks
like for a flower
you can never open its petals with your own hands
your will crush them and the bud will be all bruised and no petals would be freshly opened in their fresh morning beauty

so what you have to do is
just to put your attention on the knot (of pain)
and where you direct your attention,
is where the vibrations/the pure power of divine Love
will flow
and this SAME power which opens flowers' petals
will open the knot of your heart (if the pain is located there for instance)
and it will undo the impossible knot, for it can locate the thread and loosen it

and then, your energy will FLOW

and lake becomes clear
Cristal clear
and when energy flow
there is no more blocage inside
thus no more irritation outside

thus you have purified the "other" in yourself
and you have purified yourself from this trapped pain
you saved yourself
and you learned to love by choosing to love and not judge

this is why it is said
"Allah we ask your mercy and not your judgement"

for the Mercy/Grace is so much more vast
while judgement is so tightening

this is to choose to do ourselves good
and do good thereby to others too.

and this is how we love for the other
what we love for ourselves.

Vantage point and witnessing consciousnesses

It is marvelous,

look, in school, the first time i learned that every 21 days women period would restart again,
this was a stunning discovery for me,
for i learned that the body was under a very specific and precise law
sure, a woman can forget about it, but the "clock" of the body will still do its work
so it IS INDEPENDENT and based surely upon a power that is TRUSTWORTHY, due to its precision in completing its work.

then, today it occurred to me,
as we are all (table, animals and human beings) made of the same energy,
we are all consciousnesses, yet with different level of development,
then, seeing the order or chaos is just a matter of perspective
and perspective/viewpoint is also in itself a consciousness which is living and materialising a landscape/ a reality.

so a human being having a higher consciousness than (the one stuck into) its body
can WITNESS the body consciousness in action
can witness its order in action

and soo, unless and until
one raises ABOVE our current state of more or less blind consciousness
we canNOT witness the order and precision that we are into our daily life too!
we are also certainly living a controlled, precise and perfect life at all time
but we do not know it
for we cannot witness our own current consciousness in a way
so our witnessing power is lost or covered
and we are lost with it
and believe that we are not under this same law of precision and harmony than our body internal clock is submitted to..

so, only a RISE in perspective
a rise in witnessing
can allow us to see our major and precise and individual role
into the great functioning of the universe
on the macrocosm level

as we could witness it
in our body on the microcosm level

so only raising of vibrations to witness consciousnesses
i.e. raising of vantage point
will bring the correct witnessing
of what already is.

Truth once and for all

I am inspired

I want to establish myself FIRST in that meditation
so that it be felt as a permanent vibrations at ALL times

second, i want them to be strong

third, i wish to shift from my current mental evolution
and see everyday a new me and witness a new me
not only in skills but also a shift in worlds
and see myself ascending

i wish to know all the hidden truths
all the secrets of the universe
which I KNOW are no secrets when eyes finally open
they are secrets till i decide not to turn inside
so i know ALL is there

also, i wish to GET certainty in witnessing what happened from A to Z
to the True message of islam
from A to Z
i wish to witness it with my own eyes
no small stories, no reported ones, nor any doubts
the PURE NAKED TRUTH
and smash falsehood down to where it belongs and should remain forever.

from THAT place of TRUTH,

above all,
i wish to break all limits and barriers that ever a mental state has created and will create
for barriers have been created to be broken
so that one flies

and i wish to get to the crux of the matter regarding the corruption which crept into the current islam
which has i KNOW NOW nothing to do with the true message of the prophet.

finally, i wish the inner self assurance that i am on the right path
for i do NOT wish any deviation from it
esp. not to lose right track while believing i am doing good

there is a very keen sense of love
and an even more obvious aspect of Grace that i have not yet experienced
and definitely it is also part of my goal.

Finally, I rebel against those who do not know their own pure desire within
for i feel if they knew it they would never ever be miserable.

it is just that we are afraid to shine
for it is so easy to remain an anonymous personality
and yet so terrific to break all the shackles
it is terrific when you know you have the power to change everything
and turn the world upside down
for normally, like every average person, you accept the consensus to not go out of your fake world
for you prefer a factice comfort zone, a well know path, however torturing and miserable it be
to letting the Truth within you bursting out.

you keep containing it and choking it
but either you LET IT OUT
or it will certainly consume you.

for Truth is here to shine out
and make the rest of creation shine out
if you stand in its way
then you will be like an ant which will be crushed by the foot of angels soldiers coming their way.

like in the story of sulaiman alaihi salam.

as usual, great stories remains misunderstood
while urgency is beating at your door everyday
but you cannot manage to hear it
for you keep dozing off.

Boston Bombing

I condemn Boston bombing,
I condemn the "muslim" bombers,
and I condemn EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO is siding them.



Tell me where does this killing come from?
since when it is ok? to kill people

it is a sort of exported virus from middle east coming there in west,
as if the 9/11 authorised the start of such massive killing to be a gradual "casual" thing
in the us, and Europ.

but WHO, for GOD SAKE, WHO told these "muslim" bombers to do that?

for there is a WHO.
WHO and HOW can one sleep at night after this?
WHO and HOW can (one) take such inhuman action?
WHERE does this "trend/way of living" comes from?

it cannot come from a HUMAN RACE
even less is it from a muslim teaching.

if these "muslims" follow that "modern killing",
then for what reason?

let's say , even in the most religious scenario,
muslims. praying to Allah.
from WHAT thoughts have they launched this action of killing?
how could they say, they love the prophet?

had they have lived at his time,
he would have never glanced at them.or turned his face towards them.
and let me tell you for sure,
they would not even recognise him/his descendant in this Time
because they have not recognised him inside, so how could they recognise him
if they were to meet him.

so ALL is AGAINST them,
EVEN their own religion is bearing witness AGAINST them

so WHAT are they following?



honestly, i can't read the articles,
even less the daily news,
i hardly started read the article about a woman having lost her leg
while she promises herself to have a dancing career.
as much as i am amazed at the revelation of her powerful will of living life
and not falling into deep misery
as much i am stunned, at the doers, planners, and giver of orders.

how do they sleep at night?
they are not, and canNOT be human being.
they must be possessed.

it will never ever occur to a casual, average person
to even harm a pet
so what about HUMAN BEING?
and this in MASS.

and, in truth, what are they seeking,
the results speak for themselves, the killing of the innocent, and the maiming of hundred of people, without counting the mental harm,  is the fruit of their action,
so why they want that kind of fruit?
a fruit which contains all the bitterness, sadness and shock of that moment.
why such a fruit?

where does it come from?

Jihadist

I don't know where the insanity is coming from

but ONE thing is clear :

if you kill, then you lost your humanity
by killing the other

and if some numbnuts wish some quotes to prove what it is already COMMON SENSE

if you kill one person, it is as if you have killed the whole humanity - quote of hadith.

Finally,

had it occurred to you,
that jihad is an inner struggle?

the "greater jihad" that the prophet muhammad talked of
was : the fight against your own ego.

for this is the REAL purification
you are meant to do

no purification
no growth.

and what is the purification?
purification is when ego/thoughts/head/mind commands not

for ALLAH COMMANDS
and so you have to obey the Light of Allah.

but HOW on earth can you obey this Light
if you are NOT connected to it?

to CONNECT to it
is to be connected to the Rope of Allah - spoken of in the scripture
and THAT is the Kundalini awakening,
the Buraq, upon which the prophet ASCENDED...

once awakened,
this Power of Allah
purifies you
meaning,
it purifies your THOUGHTS
it purifies you of your ego which made you a SLAVE

this is why Quran speaks of freeing SLAVE
this is an UPTODATE Book
so learn it

it just goes from the grosser form, the outside (slave in physical meaning in old times)
to slaves in subtler meaning, the inside (thoughts and what they once materialised made you slave of)


once you have cut the ropes of slavery
the shackles of slavery as zakaria alaihi salam speak of
you are then free

as jesus says
Truth sets your Free

and for this sanctification/purification of the Body/Mind/soul/heart
it is the Holy Kaaba,
which has been given as SYMBOL
as to the AIM
one should turns to
and that is the

inner purification of your House
the body is thus called the Temple of God

And Allah loves those who purifies  themselves
(and not those who kill others and themselves!)

Allah had forbidden the prophet to EVEN pray into a mosque
for its people were such corrupted minded one
who loved hypocrisy and violence
instead of the message of true submission

He ordered him to pray
where people loves to purify themselves
and He was not only talking in the gross form (wudu/ablution) but also the INNER WASHING

so once we really learn to submit to the Power of Divine Love within
THEN
only THEN
the emptiness, symbolised by the inside of the Holy Kaaba
becomes your true state
from which all inner fights of gods (thoughts which were leading you astray, for you cannot serve godS, nor several thoughts, but ONLY ONE)

and this UNITY
is the Witnessing
the strengthening of your OWN inner capacity
to witness

LA ILAHA IL ALLAH
There is no god but ALLAH.

and the next numbnuts who kill himself
thinking to do a favor to himself and others
let him consider that he is creating hell by his own hand
and is no service to himself, even less to rest of humanity,
and even less to Allah...

Ascending music

How could sounding joy sounds
could raise
where are they coming from?

they are beating the ground
and advancing like bare footed on the natural soil

and the flute is like the soul
who for the first time uses its voice

and it mingles
and its beat, its rythm is aligned on the one of the sounding joy

................


a far off of sound comes
it feels like a blend of eastern and western music
when east meets west
and it mingles and together have fun


it is like in a traditional dance
both dancers are holding their hands into the center
so the tension keeps them joined
while at the same time
the fun is to extend arms and step back as far as you can
and whirl

sounding joy of the soul
is the one which gives birth to "parole"/"words"
it is the articulated joy.



..............

and the japanese sound,
it is like the one who has learned to take a step at a time
and unfold that which has not been noticed so far by a gross vision

and then it is the one who send it back to the fresh air of the mountain
it keeps not what it has found

: ) and again, the voice of a soul cry
and so is soothed by another understanding one,
a more feminine one.

and it balances
like time
from one side to the to the other
and it keeps growing to its destination
this is the silent growth

and these are the silent prayers and conversations
that each human being has with itself
but even if every one has it
they do not hear each other
and agree to pass by each other
indifferent, every day
and time keeps flowing
what they are missing
no one knows
except when nothing remains to be discovered

it is when all hopes are gone.

is there still someone hearing him or her?

Effecting the flame

The meditation with the cool breeze as support helps to transform the mind
and thus the way we touch and modify the elements within
such as the fire

this is why during meditation
it may appears that the flame of the candle is three, four or many opening like a lotus
it is the effect in the within (element) that we can witness on the outside (element)

so it has to be same with the life we live
we are living for sure in the now
the life we have chosen for ourselves
to the degree of inner purification

the inner purification
makes you free enough to go for conscious modification
vs unconscious ones, to which you are bond/slave to.

limbs

in meditation it felt
like people got caught up into their own lies

like when a person lie to another
and keep lying in order to make his story consistent
this pretending makes him at the end believe his own lies
so that he gets amnesic! and really believe that it belongs to him/ the idea belongs to him.

and it looked like so,
from the outside to the inside
let's make a zoom in

it is like people's limb act and move on their order
and the limbs are in truth just made of elements (earth, wind etc.)

and yes the elements have their own nature, characteristic
this is why hand will move so, while joints have other charasteristic of movements/freedom of it
and all of the movements we see through the limbs are just equals to the limbs characteristics

but at some point,
what was at the beginning a show, or a witnessing of possibilities
to be enjoyed
ended up being aspired by the mind as a self identification
like the mind was like a hover, it aspired into him the movements of the limbs
and then equaled the limbs to himself

this is as of this moment that one ends up believing that his experience is his identity
and we go from the wide awareness or ever present witnessing to the narrow identification to such a limited world (of the body)

in truth, an arm is an arm
a hand is a hand
they are as they are equals to their own nature / elements they are made from
and are in no way equals to an identity of the self
this unconscious link we add, is what makes the vision obscured

actually, we make complicate that which is simple
everything are as they are, they are all ok, into their own nature
they are all at their place.

well, that is not the exact deep feeling/evidence i got,
but i tried to near myself to that which i could now recall.

Locate the pain and love it

When you face an issue

outside

remember unity inside is needed to realise Truth ultimately,

so GRASP that moment when the division comes on the surface (of the consciousness or in life)/tension you feel

and CHOOSE love within

locate the pain inside

and where you feel it

send it love

this is how you love all in compassion

(for it is not about loving the outside, 

it is about fixing it inside through love

that is the big difference

on the former case you will either go nut

or you will end up loving and accepting the unacceptable shit of others lol

while on the latter you will learn to be tolerant with yourself and thus the others

for the sake of Unity of Truth)

Devotion and Truth

o my soul i have found devotion again

it is not for me to be part of a religion
but part of the spirituality

i cannot deny therefore my background/ the ground from which i stem
as much i cannot deny the corruption of my own land / mind and body

but what i know
is that only the holy references in islam
all of them, yes, i found them all into the christianity and hinduism
like a thread you can follow.

and it is not important to cross-reference just for the sake of it
no, for it helps in no way to play with concepts


but it shows the thread of unity
the diversity of faces and forms, though the essence is same
the diversity of faces is needed like a bud opening, for the essence to be touch in its deepness
and entirety while opening and letting perfume diffuse around

yet people fight above the forms
while they are all from the same
and this very same Divinity is ----installed---- within
THIS is this very ESSENCE i wish to say, INSTALLED within
so great, it is installed within
and you just need to recognise it.

of course, how can one recognise It/this Mark of Unity
when one is in conflict within?
conflict within is reflected in ANY type of conflict we are involved with on the outside

and UNLESS we do NOT AIM for the UNITY within
we can NEVER recognise it

and of course! wishing to see unity within
is already a barrier!
for it is the i which seek the unity
but this make two! lol

so it is true, one cannot reach the unity within
for one IS IT.
and one can REALISE it, ONLY if one make the "effort" to make NO effort towards it.

this is WHY letting go is the key word.
discipline is not of this or that ritual, discipline is of that constant letting go to finally
SEE WHO WE ARE

and devotion is the intensity with which,
rather i wish to say the velocity with which
you progress to this Truth

you just need to rekindle the flame
and see it roar
touching the sky, as the skyscrapers boldly try

but this One is a Real One,
it DOES touch the sky
and then, you keep having another one
and keep touching it at its turn
and so on

there are so beautiful articles
i need to post them.