My Story

Writing my story? There is no story, for it is my life, my whole life testimony of seeking Truth, of WHAT for do i exist.

As far as i remember, on the first day i entered into the nursery,

while walking towards of the entrance of the door, i had apprehension, feeling heavy in the belly,

for i was entering into life, without remembering what for i came here. Yet it was important.
How could you start a project without having a plan?  I had forgotten my purpose...

and to reassure myself i said  " it is ok, i still have time, don't worry".

When i entered my teens, my father used to tell me, the stories of the prophets,

how they were sent to humanity to warn people and give those who heeded their warning

glad tidings of salvation.

La ilaha illa Allah Muhammad Rassoul Allah, he said. If you say it believing it with your heart, you enter into

heaven.

so i said it. and I was expecting to be on the spot transported into heaven, up there.
into the Kingdom of God.
i watched myself, and the surrounding, I was still there...

why living life to play roles in it, while i could enter heaven right now and enjoy!  : )
For i wished to know how earth, no how universe has been created, i wished to ask God, for He knows all, everything,
from dinausor era to this period of time where Giants were on Earth and built such immense buildings in Egypt and also all kinds of
other secrets veiled from me. For i wished to knew all and everything that has been created. For if it HAS BEEN created, then it HAS a valid purpose, created to fit
a GREATER plan, a beautiful plan that i wish to peep into.

hey, yes! in heaven you have all you wish for. So why am i still there and living a limited life? to keep up apparences? have i been created to "keep up apparences?"
what a waste of time while the heart yearns for greater things. Yes, i was aware of my heart desire so why should i shove it under the carpet as if it is impossible?
No, if i became AWARE of it then it SHOULD been fulfilled at one point or the other. This is the most honorable thing for which i have been created.
To honor, and GIVE LIFE to MY HEART DESIRE.


When i grew up, i read in the Holy Quran :

“And (remember) when thy Lord brought forth from the Children of Adam, from their reins, their seed, and made them testify of themselves, (saying): Am I not your Lord? They said: Yea, verily. We testify. (That was) lest ye should say at the Day of Resurrection: Lo! of this we were unaware; “ (Surah al-A’raf, 172)

So Allah asked the souls: “Am I not your Lord?” and we ALL replied: “Yes.”

So i wondered why do i remember it NOT? i used to walk down in the street, see people face, and no one seemed to have this light in the eyes, saying yes i do remember.
all their looks were blank.
i felt such a love story of creation it is, i remember that i remember not. so now it is in in God's Hand to make me remember. But again, remember what?

Funny, the other name of quran is  "Az zikr", which means "Remember".
So, true, it does mean that i have to remember something i have been taught "before" and that i forgot now. So i have my task, to REMEMBER
so that i may fulfil my heart desire and enter into the Kingdom of God.


but remember what? hmmm. That is another headache.

Then, i completed my studies with a Master degree. And when i looked ahead, how my future could be,

i saw routine. I saw people going to work, coming back tired, raising a family while facing issues like any other casual person

same livelihood related issues as the former generations of ours. This depressed me! NO, i was sure it is NOT the life i wished for.

Life has more to give. I had more to give to LIFE. But living like this into a closed movie, repeating over and over again

the same tasks, while life is so full of creativity, it is not normal!

I was so happy, when i had walks in nature. I had no thoughts, it was like i enter into heaven, and i, this mind, body,

my past or any plans of future, exist not. Nature is so healing. Making you forget what you are, a bundle of issues with some pinches of joy here and there,
but not fully in bliss, as i was in nature. totally feeling light and happy.

Like when a baby is born, naturally she draws towards it like a magnet everyone's around and they all smile!

and it struck me a saying of the prophet muhammad  (peace be upon him) who said : each child is born on the true religion, but his parents corrupt it.

true, after we all grow up, we lose that light from our face, that beam of light, which used to naturally attract all joy around us and to us.
so i wished back my innocence. Can innocence be given back, when one has an adult mind? For our mind is like a record, it remembers pain
how could i then erase everything and get back that innocence and glitter on the face?

When back at home, i was going into a room when i heart on tv, surah Ar Rahman from the Quran, where Allah was so kindly

speaking about all of what He has created, pointing at only Goodness in His creation, goodness upon goodness, it was all pointing

to the Grace of Nature. and each time after a gift of Grace was enumerated, it was saying, dear ones wake up,  I am pointing you to my favors,

but you "which of my favors will you deny?"

when i heard this i got frozen.

so beautiful it was, and so beautiful and sincere God is towards His creation. Never ever had i ever seen such sincerity.

To give just out of pure joy without expecting in return, except for us to see Him, and see His Favors and be joyful again. 

But then, i wondered what can i do? God is up there, and i am here, a mere human being. What is the link?

It is said in sufi tradition, Allah said :

"I was a hidden treasure and I loved to be known; so I created the creatures and made Myself known to them; so they knew Me."

But how? How could i know God?
and in dream, i got the answer i prayed to God "Give me Knowledge" and i saw myself going into a library looking for books,
and when i opened one, there was intead a note in it, which said "Know thyself"

Indeed, Sages have said "Know yourself, and you will know God".
Who am I? Well, it is easy,
I am Maryam, living in France, studied there, have a family and had such and such a past. What more is need to know? I Know who i am.

Yet, I knew not God...
I had said La ilaha illa Allah Muhammad Rassoul Allah, and was still not in heaven. Right NOW. I wanted Truth RIGHT NOW.
For if it is God Promise that Kingdom of Heaven is here, then why am i not in?
God said so kindly 'which of my favor will you deny?'
and answered "i deny none".

But then, i realied how could I (= a sum of thougths and past experiences and future expectations) may with this personality near God?
So if i was Nature or a baby, I would be into this Kingdom of God.
So, how to purify myself? It is said in the scripture "Surrender to God". But how do i surrender? where is God? to find Him, it is said, i have to know myself,
and to know myself i have to purify myself. For how could an insincere person could purify herself? it is like using mud to clean mud.
To purify, to clean, you need water.

Then, i sought in quran that it says
"when We designated for Abraham the site of the House, [saying], "Do not associate anything with Me and purify My House for those who perform circumbulation 4and those who stand [in prayer] and those who bow and prostrate."

This House of God, Temple, Kaaba is our OWN body, it is ourself!

Indeed, when i decided to read again the story of Abraham, who had FOUND his Lord, when he was seeking Him.

He looked at the sun, at the moon, at the stars, yes : ) even at the statues created by men's hands that they worshiped, and concluded for each of them, they are NOT lasting. they canNOT be The Lord
when he rejected all of this, all of this was OUT of his self,

how can one be dependent upon a power that itself needs its rest, set or is not there when one needs it? 
even less an object to which we GIVE power such as status....or thoughts, or past experience or future plans of ours that is such a waste. 
to give importance to that which we have created!
Yes i got it! I had created an IMAGE of myself, by equalling myself with my thoughts, of past and future.

So i should purify myself of this!
Thus did We show Abraham the kingdom of the heavens and the earth that he be one of those who have Faith and certainty.

So WHERE DID ABRAHAM TURN once he turned outside and rejected everything and found God?
INSIDE.

that was the answer!Then, i was reading the quran with the hope of finding a clue about surrendering to God within,
yes this is all i wanted to find CERTAINTY that God give me the assurance, the PROOF, the SIGN
that i am HIS.

and i found the verse in the quran saying :
2.138
"The (religious indelible) marking (of the believers) of Allah. And who marks better than Allah? And for Him we are worshipers."

Yes, when i read that, yes, it is this! i want that, i want this mark of Allah upon me and be safe and happy and be myself and fulfill my desire
and be purified, in brief i wished for relief to accomplish my honorable purpose of being alive.

and suddenly, this day i felt such a rush of coolness going out of my left arm.
and it started again and did not go away. while there was no window open, and the rest of my body was normal
but then cool breeze was there, on my left arm and then it enveloped the next day my heart, the heart was all cool inside
as if it has been put into cool waters.

it was an intelligent moving coolness, which reappered the next day.
so i sought on the internet, what this cool breeze was and its relation to this verse, so i typed the word "sibghatullah" (the mark of God) and "cool breeze",
and i found out a website speaking of Shri Mataji who explained that it is the holy spirit from within...
I was in awe, for i was feeling it inside of me!

Then, i suddenly remembered, that two years ago, i was meditating in my room under the care of my sufi teacher,
and when i pronounced the word "Ruh ul Quddus" i had felt a cool breeze passing by softly on my face.

and Ruh ul Quddus means the Pure/Holy Spirit in english.
So i understood that all the way, it was there, in me, i just had to desire for it, to get it!

Indeed, i used to see that household appliances, all have their manual , ready to use, to make them work
and i, a human being, such an elaborate creation, i had none delivered when i was born?

As a human being,  we use our mind to copy on nature and create beautiful appliances,
French engineers studied femur bone structure to create Eiffel tower, so that it crumble not on its weight...

so all of this world i live in is man's creation,
but man itself knows itself NOT!
so all secrets must be WITHIN.

And the cool breeze, the Ruh of Allah, the Holy Spirit is the one who is there to purify me from my thoughts of past and futures
which are limiting me to bring me on a path which sets me free to reach my goal of not only accomplishing my pure desire but also of receiving
the Kingdom of God and His Face ultimately once i am thoroughtly purified.

Indeed, in islam, when we pray :
You (alone) we worship; You (alone) we ask for help.
Show us the straight path,
The path of those whom Thou hast favoured;
Not (the path) of those who earn Your anger nor of those who go astray.

And sahaja yoga website showed the three channels which exist in human body,
the left channel contains all of our past
the right contains the future (our thoughts for the future)
once both are purified, we are forgiven all of our "sins"
and the middle channel, is the straight path upon which are showered the favors of God...

leading to His Kingdom, which is the sahasrara on top of head.
as said by Shri Mataji  :

"Lastly, the seventh centre, the most important centre is the
Sahasrara which has got, according to Sahaja Yoga, a thousand
petals. Actually there are a thousand nerves and if you cut the
transverse section of the brain you can see that all these
petal-like structures of the brain are forming a lotus of the
thousand petals. This centre of a thousand petals covers the
limbic area of the brain before Realization like the closed bud
of a lotus. Above this covering is the balloon-like structure of
ego and superego. As the brain is covered completely when these
two institutions join and calcification takes place on top of
the head; that is how we become a closed personality. At the
time of our awakening, of our second birth, this egg-like
personality breaks at the top of the head."

and i could from thereon understand my own scriptures speaking of Purification and Victory :

Chapter of Victory - Holy Quran :

Indeed, We have given you a clear conquest
That Allah may forgive for you what preceded of your sin and what will follow and complete His favor upon you and guide you to a straight path

You can reach the goal of Salvation, which is the biggest Victory
by being forgiven your past sins (all left channel purified) and those to follow/the future (all rigth channel purified)
and once you have freed yourself of your "mondane" way of thinking who you are, you have acquired this mastery, this vicegerency of God on Earth, as spoken of in all
holy scriptures that i all love with all of my heart, then you KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

and this TRUTH sets your FREE.

Indeed, I do not worship anyone else as God, for Allah/God is The Source who has breathe into me, into all of us His Spirit, whose manifestation is the cool breeze/the shakti who brings me back to His Kingdom WITHIN :

"He began the creation of man from dust. [...] Then he made him complete and breathed into him of His spirit and made for you ears and eyes and heart." (Qur'an 32:7-9)

Since, then i keep meditating, so that i may be thouroughly one day purified by the Grace of God to receive His Face.
and this is the way to surrender to the Victory.

And i follow the way Abraham followed. He was named "the upright", for he was on the middle path, the middle channel, which is straight and upright.
And never i could have found the right way to Allah, except by by His Grace :
of literally speaking, taking the "upright way" of which, as my father told me me, the one that ALL prophets have given glad tidings of Victory for those who took it.

So i thank Shri Mataji wholeheartedly for having transmitted this awakening within to the masses.
For without, this Motherly Power, this Very Grace of God, I would have never felt the cool breeze.
And NOW, it is UP to each one of us, to reach the Face of God WITHIN.

All Praise be To God,
Truth sets you free,
indeed.

Ending the descent and Returning to the Sea

Filled with dark and light
My heart takes flight
Not sure where to be
So I return to the sea

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 Return to the Sea

The last page of a fairy tale
has been re-written and changed into tragedy.
Even for one person"s heart who believed in it, it"s been lost.
Love and dreams are nothing more but a sandcastle
that"s short-lived, and breakable, even if you didn"t wish it so.
But even now, I can"t forget
of that song you always used to sing.
It echoes in my chest, and I feel as if I might return to that day
Definitely I can return to it, but right now all it"s been is a chain surrounding me that I will shake off.
Our two worlds are linked together by the blue sea.

"Definitely..."
"Love will conquer all, "
"The constellations that decide fate can be changed."
should completely vanish. All it is, is a cowardly lie.
Like a jewel, the sea which shines bright as it"s nursed
Engulfs everything with kindness and love, and gives seven lives birth and dreams to gaze at.
So I"ve come back here.
I won"t lie to myself any longer.
I have my people to protect, and a world to protect.

Definitely...
The invisible distrust between another is a weakness
to a love with no shape that I want to believe in
Until I can finally feel the love within my grasp.
On a bed of ripples, on the morning you woke up
Everything ended and began again.
Engulfed in the warm, quiet light
my hopes matured, and returned to the sea.
The bell of happiness rings out as the seven seas shine forth.
A miracle of love that it causes is what I love most, and as we want to gaze at each other
we gently kiss

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River flows in you

: )

The first time i named what i felt being a river,
was when i was reading the story of Mary Magdalene, disciple of Jesus (peace be upon them)


but what i felt by then, when i read the story
was that true believers were bold without making the effort to be so
for in the latter case, it would be acting and why act (however SINCERELY), when you can be it?
that is the difference between a life led by ego (however sincere its claim be) and a life supported by divine presence;
between claim and truth, between struggle/fight to possess and Kingdomship
between slavery and Freedom

these inner states are then reflected outside in our relationship and so in the world.

these believers' life was different though
they were free without ANY planning of their own
they were doing what they felt they had to do
by just going with the inner flow of guidance.

That is how it felt.

they were going through life, exploring it, like a river creating its bed in a foreign dry soil
and while passing by, their grace is spread all over,
like the dust left by shooting stars behind them
or like the sprouting flowers when soil is watered

and yet, they never planned such miracles, with their mind
no pre-planning
they just, it seems, followed their own inner call,
a river flowing in their own self
unseen to others
yet existing
themselves, they were mere followers of their own river
just trusting it
taking turn when it took turns
though it may seem inappropriate behavior to lower minds

it seems they were in love with an unseen power and following it
like trains of clouds harnessed to some chariots of wind
a power which was nearer to themselves more they could be near to their own self
and that same power was the most further away from outside eyes
because those eyes had not uncovered it into their own self
while trying to make the true believers deviate from it.

because they could not believe that freedom from suffering exist
they could not stand seeing example of "embodied freedom"
while themselves they had lived so far a life of struggle
"what? has then all my life been hard for nothing?"
"were all of our forefathers wrong?" did they wonder
instead of taking the passing Grace and enter into the Kingdom of God
too. simply.
they made their livelihood to prove that only suffering exist as a way of life
to give a meaning to their past life. to the past life of their forefathers, which they had inherited.whose customs they have inherited.

instead of inheriting from the prophets : )
and thus inheriting the Kingdom of God, this very vicegerency spoken of in the holy scriptures.
the freedom of being their own master.

is it not said, only the meek will inherit the earth?

yes, it is very hard to admit that we have lived so many years in hardship,
toiling.
while easiness has always existed as an alternate way of life
but we had never seen it. we kept missing it.
it demands humbleness to surrender and implicitely it means to acknolwedge
that yes we were wrong, the lifestyle was devoid of grace.

How could it be otherwise ?
does Grace presence manifest suffering in our life
or does it make us gleam with ease, peace and joy ?
as flowers do, as nature does? as any new born does ?

it is just hard to accept to change
because it is dead hard to let go of so many years, even of centuries 
for everything lose its meaning
and we are left with nothing

except Grace

and yet as Grace is a total new territory to be discovered
that the mind knows it not
we are afraid of it
and thus very few are those who accept to trust IT.

So, was i baffled when i read the story of Hajar (peace be upon her)


Ibrahim woke up one day and asked Hajar to prepare herself and the new born Ismail for a long travel. 
Ibrahim and Hajar kept walking, crossed a fertile land followed by barren mountains till they arrived at the Arabian desert. Ibrahim brought Hajar to a high hill called al-Marwa, made her and her son sit under a tree, placed a bag of dates and some water near her, and set out homeward. 


Hajar ran after him and said: "Are you going to leave us in this desert where there is no one to keep us company?" 
She repeated this many times but he would not look back at her. 
She asked: "Has Allah ordered you to do so?" 
He said yes. 
"Then He will not neglect us." She said. 

Ibrahim walked away until he got out of their sight, he raised his hands and prayed Allah: "O our Lord! I have made some of my offspring dwell in a valley with no cultivation, by Your Sacred House, in order that they may offer prayers. So fill some hearts among men with love towards them, and provide them with fruits, so that they may give thanks."

I was struck. SO BEAUTIFUL.
people do not understand. these are not stories of the past. closed and not to be dwelled upon.
these are total real, to be repeated over and over. but into our own life.

i said to myself when i read it the first time,
there was no blaming from hajar, nothing at all, no accusation, no ill-thinking
while women are so bent on doing so, no backbiting, no criticising of circumstances
while so much could have been said.
not forgetting that Abraham first wife was sarah (peace be upon them all)
and it was hard on her to see hajar and her son, while she had none ...

YET, the only reference and the only concern was "is it from Allah?"
i love that.
and same, Abraham answer was only on that which was true and not on side questions/issues.
for they would be taken care of by Allah,once they have taken the first step to believe it would be so.

and that very desertic place has become a place of pilgrimmage and so on.

But the symbolism, in even the name Hajar and the event that followed the departure of the Prophet
is even deeper but it would take another log entry to speak of it.

Just the purity of thoughts, and a ready mind to adjust to new circumstances
and the readiness of both, of Abraham and Hajar, of just following God's guidance
made them enter into new stages in life, which effects are seen even centuries after.

Deeds supported with Grace keep growing even after people are gone.


and so believers faithfully followed their inner river
themselves they became, they embodied this river
and their likeness in the earth
was that of a river watering desert lands
parched lands, needing so much this very water of Life.

Hence, when Abraham left Hajar and Ismael,
the water started to flow ...

Hajar went on nursing Ismail and drinking from the water until it was all used up. She became very thirsty and the child was crying. She left him on the al-Marwa hill and hurried to the nearest hill, as-Safa. She stood there and started looking at the valley keenly so that she might see somebody, but she could not see anybody. She descended from as-Safa, crossed the valley running and reached al-Marwa hill. She stood and started looking but could see nobody. She kept running between as-Safa and al-Marwa seven times. When she reached al-Marwa for the last time, she was exhausted, she sat next to the baby. Then she heard a voice. She stood up and said: "O whoever you might be! Have you got something to help me?' She saw an angel, Angel Jibreel, digging the earth until water flowed ! She built a little basin around it. She scooped water with her hands, drank, filled her water-skin, and nursed her baby. The place from which water flowed was Zamzam. 

Muslims till this day drink from the holy water of Zamzam, and during Hajj they walk between as-Safa and al-Marwa seven times to commemorate this event.

Some Arabs traveling through Makkah saw birds flying around alMarwa. "They must be flying around water." They said. When they arrived at the water, they found Hajar and asked her: "Would you allow us to stay with you, and use the water from your well?" She agreed and was pleased by their company. The people sent for their families, settled there and became permanent residents. 

 source : http://www.islamicity.com/media/ancmts/docum1.htm

What happened "outside" with this flow of water, is a testimony/metaphor/sign (=ayah)/evidence
pointing at what happened "inside" of hajar and her son. At the reward earned, at the transformation they underwent by following inner guidance and receiving the water of life INSIDE.
The outside is JUST a sign for others, who came seeing the sign of the presence of water/sign of Grace outside, to come near it. yes to near themselves and humble themselves, ask for permission to receive that Grace. Grace cannot be given from one person to another, but the beginning of Grace is that the path/conditions are made easy for them to turn inwards so that they too learn to overcome their OWN inner obstacles and then enjoy that River of Life that shall sprout in themselves too.

Our Lord! and raise up in them a Messenger from among them who shall recite to them Thy communications and teach them the Book and the wisdom, and purify them; surely Thou art the Mighty, the Wise.

And who forsakes the religion of Ibrahim but he who makes himself a fool, and most certainly We chose him in this world, and in the hereafter he is most surely among the righteous.

When his Lord said unto him: Surrender! he said: I have surrendered to the Lord of the Worlds.

The same did Abraham enjoin upon his sons, and also Jacob, (saying): O my sons! Lo! Allah hath chosen for you the (true) religion; therefore die not save as men who have surrendered (unto Him). 

Or were ye present when death came to Jacob, when he said unto his sons: What will ye worship after me? They said: We shall worship thy god, the god of thy fathers, Abraham and Ishmael and Isaac, One Allah, and unto Him we have surrendered.

This is a people that have passed away; they shall have what they earned and you shall have what you earn, and you shall not be called upon to answer for what they did.  

And they say: Be Jews or Christians, then ye will be rightly guided. Say : Nay, but (we follow) the religion of Abraham, the upright, and he was not of the idolaters.

(holy quran 2:129- 135)
source : http://www.usc.edu/org/cmje/religious-texts/quran/verses/002-qmt.php

See? NO ONE can earn Grace for you. You have to get it for your own salvation.yourself for your self.
why is it so? because you have to SURRENDER, to that Grace, which signs is that it PURIFIES you, and makes you UPRIGHT.
this Grace is the Gift that Purifies you, and is the True Upright religion, if religion should be called.

what purifies/cleanes dirt? Water.
what is upright? Inner Guidance - Straight Path

That Inner Water of Life
Follow an Upright  Path (not crooked - literally speaking STRAIGHT)
Purifying you from man-made customs accepted as true by your mind which have brought you down to a life of suffering/slavery to them

so that mind too becomes filled with Light- Enlightened.

Smile, be happy, there is too much to be alive for to be drenched in depression
Listen to the beauty of the winds, the intensity of the warm sun, the hearkening beating heart
As golden eyelashes bat away the rays of the bright clarity of the inferno above, 

we beam ourselves

The deep and dark pupils of eyes, understanding and knowledgeable, take in this luminous light
We raise our arms to the white, glacier like formations overhead, taking in its chill within ourselves
Become one harmony, love

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River of spiritual life force energy and Conscious Intelligence.

God's Ways

I always wondered why God does not walk down the hall making sound,
"Here am I coming, so all of you watch my doing : I am going to make this flower grow,
I am going to make this child grow, I am going to give life to so and so.

Or I am going to make these petals of the very flower you are watching open little by little."

Because He is well entitled to that! Hey it is God.


It is never like that. It just happen.
In silence, with delicacy and with the right proportion of water, sunlight, minerals the flower opened, not more nor less. Too much of any elements and the seed rotten, too less and it goes dust, and yet it works!

And same for the baby, he grew up magically in the womb of his mother without her caring an inch for it to take its form!

Yet I never saw Him claiming attention to that coming miracles.


Even for the first time, when i read a comment about religion, it was said
"Look at this flower, it is from God's work, it is His sign."
and i was, sincerely wondering, hoping to get the sincerity of that writer pointing at the sign of God, for i knew not why he was talking of a sign of God, that is SO CASUAL to see a flower.

Where is God work in that?

Yes, i can admit this and say it, out of blind belief, because i do, mentally, believe it.
But HONESTLY where on earth it is written it is God's work? Or were there a trumpet which had been blown to tell me this is from His Hands?
I heard no one saying so, nor saw any preparations prior to this work, which would have caught my attention. Why could i not know, i am well worthy to know, for i am worthy enough to wonder about God's Presence, no?

Yet, i could NOT explain where this discrepancy was coming from.

While, yes, a human being, will do ALL the noise it is possible to do to catch attention,
like taking a stick and hitting a frying pan to call everyone to witness his great work.

Yet, it is not so with God, why?

It just happen, independently of anyone paying attention or not.
But it happens.
Why?

Because it is honestly a generous Love.
As this extract refers to it :


When the question comes, 'How much do you love me, and how much do I love you?' it has come to be a trading in love. 'I love you, but you do not love me' is as much as to say, 'I have bid so much, and I expect a return of love'. This is trading in love, and trade cannot lead anywhere, because it makes one think of the self, and love is beyond that. 

To love is to give; it is not to take at all. The true lover never speaks of what he has done for his beloved, for he loves for love's sake, not for the sake of a return.

source : http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/VII/VII_9.htm
Commentary by Pir-o-Murshid Inayat Khan


This is why it is so SILENT !

It is like an invisible servant which comes and set the setting of your dream, with everything perfect, when you will enter that dream world. But you are not seeing the Settler of the affairs.

 If you wish to learn true love, then for sure, Only God has it.

So instead of looking for the Settler of the dream, we get lost in the dream itself! : )))

 The nature of life on earth is illusory and in the Sanskrit tongue it is called Maya or illusion, and every soul having the spark of the divine love, forgets the use and the purpose of that spark and begins to love itself most.

By a keen study of human life, man will find that as a rule, when he claims that he loves, in reality he loves himself, he loves his own benefit in life, he loves another for the help that other gives, for his goodness, for his kindness, for his service, but in all this he surely loves himself, and it is for himself all the while he thinks he loves another.

It is a very high stage in the path of love when man really learns to love another with a love that asks no return, when he does not seek love for the sake of love in return, then love becomes pure, the lover gives, and gives and gives, but even that is not the purpose of life, it is still greater. 

The Perfect One who is the source and origin of the whole creation, is the Perfection of Beauty. All beauty on earth or in heaven belongs to Him, and the purpose of the creation of every soul is to progress in the path of love until the soul arrives at a stage where it may find the Perfection of Beauty.source: http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/archives/cupid.htm
Commentary by Pir-o-Murshid Inayat Khan

 But how can one get it? Especially when we have always lived, whatever denial we may put here and swear that we love our family, it is NOT true love, unless we have learned the way of God, the one sanctioned by His Grace.

And its effect are then upon us :

To what does the love of God lead? It leads to that peace and stillness which can be seen in the life of the tree, which bears fruits and flowers for others and expects no returns, not even thanks in return. It serves, and cares for nothing else, not even for appreciation. That is the attribute of the godly.

source : http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/XIII/XIII_9.htm


Stillness and Peace. That is such an honorable presence. And when it emanates from a human being, it is as if this person has no features of its own. No trait of character that you could ----pinpoint.
It is most probably like trying to pinpoint which drop of water that i poured into the sea is mine.

The Merging in the Divine and be colored into His color, has certainly brought with it a new form of creation:

“Were We then wearied out with the first creation? (No) Yet they are still in doubt about a new creation”
(holy quran, surah Qaf, verse 15)

What is this new creation spoken of? This transformation that we undergo when His Grace showers Itself upon us?
What is This Grace? A Power? An Energy?
How to receive it?
How to be SURE it is a trustworthy power?

Seeking Freedom

Replica of the Face of the Statue of Liberty

http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/1208916679/1-1-replica-of-the-the-face-of-the-statue-of-liber

"as if Lady Liberty is lying down, sinking into the grass."

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and right-doing,

there is a field.  I’ll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass,

the world is too full to talk about.

Ideas, language, even the phrase "each other"

doesn’t make any sense.

From Essential Rumi by Coleman Barks

Freedom is found in that field, where knowledge of right and wrong ends.

In the miraj of the Prophet muhammad (peace be upon him and his family) he came to the Lote Tree, 

where knowledge ended :

It comes from the Qur'an chapter 53, An-Najm (The Star), verses 10-18 and alludes to Muhammad's night journey from Mecca to Jerusalem and then through Heaven.

"The Lote Tree of the farthest boundary," as it is called, is believed to be the farthest anyone can travel in Heaven in their approach to Allah; beyond this none can pass. The following are the Quranic verses from which this term is derived (Quran 53:10–18):

10 So did Allah convey the inspiration to His Servant what He (meant) to convey.
11 The heart in no way falsified that which he saw.
12 Will ye then dispute with him concerning what he saw?
13 For indeed he saw him at a second descent,
14 Near the Lote-tree beyond which none may pass:
15 Near it is the Garden of Abode.
16 Behold, the Lote-tree was shrouded (in mystery unspeakable!)
17 (His) sight never swerved, nor did it go wrong!
18 For truly did he see, of the Signs of his Lord, the Greatest!

source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lote_tree

It would never occur to us that there is something more fulfilling than words. 

This is why we are always thinking, planning and rejoicing to convey meaning through words. 

Playing with thoughts.

But Beyond Words/Thoughts/Actions what is there? 

For an idea repeated becomes a thought which itself becomes an action which ends up in the form of a shape in this world (it is how skyscrapers are built, the idea is born in the head of a designer and lo! a year later you see a building on the exact spot where there was nothing. Magic, isn't it?!).

It is exactly same thing with our thoughts, they exist. 

And our mind, yes, is full of them. 

Beyond thoughts, of what is right and wrong, 

once we have abandoned, them...

...but Impossible!

and what about my conditioning, my truth, my religion i was born into, I KNOW it is TRUE

will the mind say, no rather scream back. It will continue, i have to gauge, to measure, to JUDGE what is right and wrong!

For my safety... and then allow this, whatever it is, to enter.  

Yeah, safety of ego. Safety of a world, into which you wish me to be my own prisoner. 

and when the moment of death will come, you will exclaim like Pharaoh did :

[...]and when the drowning overtook the Pharaoh, he exclaimed: "I have come to believe that there is no deity save Him in whom the Children of Israel believe, and I am of the Muslims (those who have submitted themselves wholly to Him). "  


Now? – (You surrender now) when before this you always rebelled and were of those engaged in causing disorder and corruption?

(holy quran, 10:90-91)

Until and unless, we have NOT surrendered to the Spirit WITHIN,
we are NOT safe.

As for conceptualisation/self-labelisation of surrendering to The Truth has it ever helped you?

La ilaha illa Allah - There is no god but Allah

No. Because it is meant to be LIVED, and not lived according to worldly standards of our mind!
but according to the standard of the Spirit of God...

For it is NOT a concept, why are you trying to conceptualise it? over and over again?

Unity is NOT a concept

It is to be LIVED, to be PROVEN.

Allahu Al Hayy - Allah The Living

While lower feelings such as superiority or envy are meant to separate - there is the other, and there is i, ok and it is dead OBVIOUS i am better than him, no kidding,  I AM BETTER than him, i SEE it.  And here the mind chatter goes on with all its proof based on my own standards. But never on the standard of the spirit, the standard of Truth, against which my deeds will be measured...
why wait when it is too late, when deeds will be measured against the standard of truth?
why not making headway, by making Truth our standard of action now?

But this is not meant to be done by our actual servile mind. it is dust to do that. It is to be done BY the Grace of God... where to find it? ; ) that is the next and right question...

Till then, in response to our lower attitude to divide, it is sure that,

Kindness and Love are meant to Unite.

and that is the only Truth for us to embody...
where  the phrase "other" makes no more sense,
for from the state of separateness, we enter the one of unity,
where there is only The One.

and it is not rosy words. 

One can only Love, True love, because one knows that we are all One. 

Remember ? we are all from the same spirit of God breathed into us, there are no TWO different spirits but ONE. 

Like a cell has all of the DNA in it, 

so MY spirit like yours has the same material, praises of God within.

It is JUST that our soul, which is a part of that spirit sent on "lower realms" has forgotten that its origin is that very spirit, Glory of God. So...it is veiled from this Glory of God, this very Glory which solve all of our problems, this very Glory to which every elements bents, to which sea split out of Love when it sees It, to which winds take a new turn in their affairs, or to which mountains split asunder, because they ALL saw a Face of Glory that YOU as soul saw not because you are in darkness (yes that very darkness spoken of by all religions) are veiled from your OWN Glory within that you are bearing while being UNAWARE of that treasure within.

When Moses (peace be upon him) split the sea, he had faith, he knew it, and was unveiled from the Existence of the Glory of God within. He had faith.

While mountains and trees and seas split, bend and crumble out of Love while seeing that very Shining Power of That Presence (Ash Shahid), of that Love( Al Wadud)

you are the guy who is unaware of it,
this is why you see in people's eyes dullness and such transfixed eyes as if they just go deeper in their loss of light.

and till we do not REMEMBER that who we are, whom we belong to - not with a false mind, 

but with the true Mind - then, only then, the soul KNOWS it is the spirit and it gains this Peace, 

yes this very abode of Peace, As Salam (The Peace).

and the traits of your face soften, and your eyes regain their joy and your face illuminates.

Hence the words of Peace given to those who will enter the Heaven :

Peace! - a word (of salutation) from a Lord Most Merciful! 
(holy quran 36:38)

 

So, unless one turns towards meditation in the search of the stillness, emptiness inside.
As any Master did-yes as the prophet did, prior to his prophethood...in the cave of Hira -
we will always be the slave of our mind. And the soul will never know its origin, being veiled to the Glory Within, it will never know Peace nor Joy, it yearns for.

Once the soul is aligned with the Light of the Spirit, The Rope of Allah - The Grace of Allah,
and keep ascending till it may rest in that Garden of Peace
then, there it is said the word is too full to be spoken of.

As the poet, uncovered it, that emptiness is full,
so full, a new kind of fullness, that words fall short.For it is no more their kingdom nor abode.

Indeed, in a world of concepts, words are kings.
When, we are in another world, then who is the King of kings?
This other world, HAS TO BE BEYOND the one we know, live in, build in these very buildings,
it HAS to be a world BEYOND the world of the mind,

it is the world of the Spirit.

It exists, doors are still open for us to enter,
it is the Kingdom of God

where the soul used to be,
where the Lord asks all of us : Am I not Your Lord? and we all answered "Yes, you are!".

It was in that world, that we have to return to

Willingly or unwillingly.
Face brightened in joy, or face covered by gloom.

The first one is the mark of God on people face, the soul having known who it really is, who we really are,
It is the Victory spoken of in the Chapter of "Victory" (Holy Quran - Surah Fatah).



The second group of people are those who will realise that they lost the light inside, given to them in Trust,
the Amanat (The Trust).


Do your soul, right now, is not feeling a sense , an acute sense of emergency?


The Feel of Lying on the grass ... Lying in the Grace?

Ascending in Love

https://youtu.be/T94PHkuydcw Ascending in Love or falling in love?

What did the moon say to the night?
what did the night whisper to the moon?

these are all imaginary dialogue
secret dialogue
into which it seems no one can pry into it

but who made those dialogues ?
the heart of those observers or lovers
who longed to hear for the echo of the love they are feeling within, in the first place.

but once the echo is heard
all sanity is gone
they think it is the echo which was their initial object of love

while it has only been an awaited answer
when they were diving within.

Never an element has ever been alive
no more alive than a statue molded by the hand of a man.

Yet, as much as it would be idolatry to give life to a statue
this very statue is so much alive
when it is not a statue.

"
-Do not try to bend the spoon.
It is impossible
Instead realise the Truth."
-What Truth?
-There is no spoon."

And the spoon bent.

(Movie Matrix)

Because the statue or the spoon ; ) have never existed of their own accord, in the first place,
as an independent entity from Our Real Self Within.

they are the call of the heart echoed
and never love has been parted in the first place
to be found;

but it has for ever existed within
and just yearning of it to be revealed, brought Itself to be expressed.

For if there had been no one inquiring,
how would It have revealed Itself?
It would have just remained in silence within Itself
may be waiting for someone to ask,
to answer.

A silent call to draw nearer to It, to the Source and not to remain stuck in the manifestation of It.
That call that no one answers, because one keeps getting amnesic, once one has asked for Love,
and keep falling in love for the signs pointing at the Source.

Yes, a call in front of a full audience
who hears not.
because it has fallen in love with the echo answering their question,
but having forgotten The One behind it.

As soon as the echo has expressed itself, people forget that they are the ones
whose very heart has given birth to that expression.

Question and answer
Longing and melting in
are both face of the same coin - Love.

If there were no question, to melt into love
there would be no answer/way to reveal its depth.

By prying, looking into the matter,
we chisel with our own sight, the marble till it shows a face.

but we do not worship images, that we carved
we do not fall in love with the piece of art

the master,
like Pygmalion who fell in love with the statue of Venus
or, Narcissus with his own reflected image in the lake in the Metamorphoses of Ovid

are those who have given birth to their longing
in the form of a piece of art,

and have in the process forgotten,
that all of this has just been an answer to their inner inquiry
into themselves
into the one and unique beauty within
the Spirit

taking thus their own revealed beauty into the world of creation and manifestation
for the Source of Love
forgetting, it was only the birth of an answer to their desire to know themselves,
to witness an inner aspect of ours according to our level of understanding, inquiry

but never to be mistaken as the source of Love.

an answer created From (The Source of) Love, For Love (to witness it), In Love, With Love
and Returning back to Love too.

Clinging to it, is falling in love with the manifestation/illusion,
because it will go away
and one will die of sorrow like narcissus did.

Things are bound to One Master Only, and that is The Source of

Love,
Al Wadud.

Like Clouds slaves to their Creator

it is never the creator who is slave to them,
the creator never runs after them
the creator out of His Love, creates them,
they bearing witness to Him/The Source.


Allah is
The most beautiful Creator of creators (holy quran, 21.17)

Tabaraka allahu ahsanul-Khaliqeen

For Grace, Freedom lies in this creation of His, hence the

Beauty

while other creators are slaves of their own creation.
clinging to them out of forgetfulness, wishing to possess them, bind them, enslave them,
thereby enslaving themselves to illusions.


Have you ever associated feelings of oppression to nature,
while being there?
no, its creation is made with such Ahsan, Beauty/Gracefulness

Generously giving which makes anyone, ANYONE feel soothened by

nature...

or feel happy in the presence of a new born baby,
whatever your religion be.

For, when born, we are born on our true nature/religion
only parents corrupt it
(saying of the prophet muhammad - peace be upon him)


Had one not inquired into this Beauty out of Love,
the answer would have not swept onto the shore like waves do.

Bringing with them the answer from the depth of the Ocean.

Is  the shore not often refered to "consciousness"
by the psychologues?
or by the dream interpretors?

it is because from the depth of Seas, of the unconscious part of ourselves
comes the answer on the shores of our consciousness.

Besides, is it not said,

Say: "If the ocean were ink (wherewith to write out) the words  
of my Lord, sooner would the ocean be exhausted than would the  
words of my Lord, even if we added another ocean like it, for its aid."
(holy quran, 18.109)


What is the difference between the Ocean and the waves, when the waves are from It?

They have just been called out of the Ocean to let 

the answer express itself according to the questioner's level of inquiry;

drawn like a magnet out of the sea, out of Love to answer the 

call of the questioner or the lover.


The night merges in the day
and the day merges into the night

they take turns into each other
as if to know each other better from within

though it be still the same sky
yet, it has been centuries that each of them are merging into the others
as if time was not enough to know the other side

often, it is said when two people marry,
the woman become like the husband, she takes in, his color
in behavior or manner
and the husband takes in the color of his counterpart

so better choose your partner to elevate you
and not draw you downwards.

but night or day sky
they are always in ascension
the whole universe is,

and for mankind?


Does mankind not wish to go beyond shores of his consciousness
or depth of his own seas,
yes go beyond?

as it is said,
to take the color of Allah?


Allah says :

صِبْغَةَ اللَّهِ ۖ وَمَنْ أَحْسَنُ مِنَ اللَّهِ صِبْغَةً ۖ وَنَحْنُ لَهُ عَابِدُونَ

The “sibghah” of Allah, and who can be better than Allah in “sibghah”? And we are His worshippers 
(holy quran 2:138 )

Sibgha means to color or to dye.

Kun faya Kun

(Be and it is)

Ya Nizamuddin Auliya, Ya Nimzamuddin sal ka Qadam badha le, Hadon ko mita le, Aaja khaalipan mein, Pi ka ghar tera. Tere bin khaali aaja khaalipan mein. Rangreza Rangreza Rangreza Rangreza Kun! fa ya Kun!, Kun! fa ya Kun! Kun! fa ya Kun!, Kun! fa ya Kun! Kun! fa ya Kun!, Kun! fa ya Kun! Kun! fa ya Kun!, Kun! fa ya Kun! Jab kahin pe kuch nahi bhi nahi tha Woi tha - Wohi tha - Wohi tha. Woh jo mujh me samaya, woh jo tujh me samaya Maula wahi wahi Maaya. Kun! fa ya Kun, Kun fa ya Kun! Sadaq Allahul Aliyyul Azim Rangreza rang mera tann mera mann, Le le rangai chaahe tann chaahe mann. Sajra savera mere tann barse Kajra andhera teri jaan ki lau... Qatra mila jo tere darbar se O Maulaa... Maulaa... Kun fa ya Kun, Kun fa ya Kun! Jab kahin pe kuch nahi bhi nahi tha Wohi tha - Wohi tha - Wohi tha. Kun fa ya Kun, Kun fa ya Kun! Sadaq Allahu al Aliyyul Azim Sadaqa Rasool ul Nabi ul Karim Sallallahu Alayhi wa Sallam Ho mujh pe karam Sarkar tera, Araz tujhe kar de mujhe mujhse hi riha, Ab mujhko bhi ho deedar mera, Kar de mujhe mujh se hi riha, mujh se hi riha Mann ke mere yeh bharam, Kacche mere yeh karam, Leke chele hain karhaan Main to jaanu hi na. Tu hai mujh mein samaaya Kahaan leke mujhe aaya. Main hoon tujh mein samaaya Tere peeche chala aaya, Tere hi main ik saaya. Tune Mujhko banaya Main to jag ko na bhaya, Tune gale se lagaya, Haq tu Hi Tai Khudaya Sach tu hai hai Khudaya Kun Fa Ya Kun...! Kun Fa Ya Kun...! Jab kahin pe kuch nahi bhi nahi tha Woi tha - Wohi tha - Wohi tha. Jab kahin pe kuch nahi bhi nahi tha Woi tha - Wohi tha - Wohi tha. Kun Fa Ya Kun....! Kun fa ya Kun, Kun fa ya Kun! Sadaq Allahul Aliyyul Azim Sadaqa Rasool ul Nabi ul Karim Sallallahu Alayhi wa Sallam Sallallahu Alayhi wa Sallam

O God's friend, Nizamuddin! O Nizamuddin, the friend of poor. Advance your blessed feet. Appear! Making the boundaries disappear, may you fill this void, the abode of your Beloved. Its empty without you, come fill this void. O Dyer, O Dyer! We dye in Your color. Be, and it is! Be, and it is! Be, and it is! And It is! Be, and it is! And It is! Be, and it is! And It is! When there was nothing nowhere, He was the One, only One. He is the one Who is in my soul, He is the one in your soul, Dear Lord is the one that is the Mystery (all around). Be, and it is! Be, and it is! Allah the Sublime, the Magnificent says the truth. Color my heart and my mind with Your color, the Color Divine! In exchange, take all that is mine. Morning showers its blessings (when) I adore You, and it purifies dark night soul of mine. My spirit's nourishment comes from Your sanctuary, O Master, O Beloved... Be, and it is! Be, and it is! When there was nothing nowhere, He was the One, only One. Kun fa ya Kun, Kun fa ya Kun! Allah the Sublime, the Magnificent says the truth His Messenger, the Generous Prophet says the truth The blessings and peace of Allah upon him. It would be your generosity upon me, my Master, I pray to you, please free me from the bonds of the self, Grant me visitation to my True Face - Free me from the bonds of the self, freedom from the self. With vanities of my mind, burdens of my misdeeds, Carrying, where I am going? I have no idea! You live within me, and now, where have You brought me? I live in You, I have only followed You, I am but Your shadow. You created me, I did not fit within the world, But You embraced me, Only You are the Truth. Only You are the Real. (You Command) Be, and it is! Be, and it is! Be, and it is! Be, and it is! When there was nothing nowhere, He was the One, only One. When there was nothing nowhere, He was the One, only One. Verily, when You will anything Your Command only is, "Be," and it is! (Please intend noble aspirations and direction for me). Allah the Sublime, the Magnificent says the truth His Messenger, the Generous Prophet says the truth The blessings and peace of Allah upon him. Benediction of grace and peace upon him.

Full lyrics of the song and its approximate English translation, "Kun Faaya Kun", sound track of the Hindi film Rockstar (India, 2011). Lyrics: Irshad Kamil, Music: A. R. Rahman, Vocals: A. R. Rahman, Mohit Chauhan, Javel Ali

source : http://www.mysticsaint.info/2011/10/kun-fayakun-full-meaning-rock-star.html

True love

I am amazed at the meaning of hindi love songs.

Remember, all that is out is in, and all that is in is revealed outside (of us).

Usually, people just stop at the outside, and yes, should probably yearn for such love story,
while thinking why it happens not to them but only in the movies.
i even read one comment which said, "ah yeah, but that is a movie you can do whatever you want"
yeah, but the writer is a human being too, and it is the produce of its mind to be able to turn its character as he wants.

why not for a change we do same with our life?

i don't think that people do not wish or seek for love,
there is all kind of love people seek for.

but the best of it, is true love. The Eternal one.
and it DOES surely have as much heavenly feeling than any such love story movie,
actually, more than ever, for it is Heavenly Love.

It is just good, to start seeing them as an invitation to turn inwards FIRST,
then, once we did it, we reflect it outside too, into our own life.

Exalted is He who created all pairs - from what the earth grows and from themselves and from that which they do not know.

(holy quran, surah yasseen, ayah 36)

This i always believed it. 
but zooming in ourself first is the key, till one does not love our self truly, one cannot never display that love outside. 

it is only because a person is oblivious to that inner joy, inner love, that it will be oblivious to see Love passing by. Because Love just gives love, it does not compel, it will never compel you to love. 
so what you will see as a casual moment that passed, actually, it was surely a moment of Love that you missed, only because you were blind to it. 

La ilaha illa Allah
There is no god but Allah

Allah is Al Wadud, The Love
As Samad, The Eternal 
Ash Shahid, The Witness, The Ever-present, 

 we cannot give lie to Him being not so, 
if we see not love, it is because we need to turn inward to find it, 
it is our shortcoming that we see outward, not His lack of Presence.



We are the soul, in a body , 
on its journey, literally speaking, to ascend to unite with the Spirit - Ruh of Allah - which is the Breath of God
and in that very Breathe, is The Life, Al Hayy
that is what is about the Union talked of here and there. 

Knowing that we are ALL bearing this Breathe of God inside of us :

"When I have fashioned him [Adam] (in due proportion) and breathed into him a Ruh from Me, fall ye down in obediance unto him." (holy quran 15:29)

And [mention] when your Lord took from the children of Adam - from their loins - their descendants and made them testify of themselves, [saying to them], "Am I not your Lord?" They said, "Yes, we have testified." [This] - lest you should say on the day of Resurrection, "Indeed, we were of this unaware."

 (holy quran, The Heights, verse 172)

Who is unaware that it has The Breathe, The Command of His Lord into Him?

The children of Adam, Adam is this creation of Allah made of mud, that body.
that body is given life, and has into it, this very trust of God to which we acknowledge the authority given to it by Allah  IN US.
As soul we bow down to the Ruh of Allah in us. and thus we TESTIFY of OURSELVES.

We do NOT testify OUT of our selves.

For when i had enough of seeking truth and did not understand what was real surrender, what is true submission.

i decided to read again the story of Abraham, who has FOUND his Lord, when he was seeking Him.

He looked at the sun, at the moon, at the stars, yes : ) even at the statues created by men's hands that they worshiped, and concluded for each of them, they are NOT lasting. they canNOT be The Lord
when he rejected all of this, all of this was OUT of his self, 

suddenly he said : 

But when it[the sun] set, he said: "O my people! I am indeed free from all that you join as partners in worship with Allah. Verily, I have turned my face towards Him Who has created the heavens and the earth Hanifan (Islamic Monotheism, i.e. worshipping none but Allah Alone) and I am not of the Al Mushrikeen (those who worship others besides Allah)."
Then, i wondered, he found Allah. but where? 
he looked outside all the way, and found nothing worthy of being worshipped. worthy of True Love : 

When the night covered him over with darkness he saw a star. He said: "This is my lord." But when it set, he said: "I like not that those who set."




 how can one be dependent upon a power that itself needs its rest, set or is not there when one needs it? 

even less an object to which we GIVE power such as status, that is such a waste. 
to give importance to that which we have created.
YET, it is what we do, in everyday life, we are self-important, by extension all that we touch, we think is important, it is ever-lasting, if it breaks or know some misfortune we cry, while it was in the first place created by us. 

that is silly. 

Allah has breathe His OWN Breathe in us, in ibn Adam (=sons of Adam) as a soul in body, we are completely unaware that we have even to start that journey back to our origin, The Spirit. 
For it is at that VERY point, that WE HAD TESTIFIED to its presence in us, to this trust.

and Once we rememeber this, hence the other name of quran (Az-zikr = The Reminder), 
it reminds of what? of something that we have FORGOTTEN. and where is this Knowledge, this certainty, that Allah gave to Abraham (peace be upon him)? 

Thus did We show Abraham the kingdom of the heavens and the earth that he be one of those who have Faith and certainty.
http://www.islamawareness.net/Prophets/ibrahim.html

So WHERE DID ABRAHAM TURN  once he turned outside and rejected everything and found Allah?
INSIDE.

There HAS to be this REMEMBERING coming from INSIDE of us , AS truly as it has been PUT , BREATHED into us. who can dare say it is false?

for us, to bow, testify, as we did :


 "When I have fashioned him [Adam] (in due proportion) and breathed into him a Ruh from Me, fall ye down in obediance unto him." (holy quran 15:29)

And [mention] when your Lord took from the children of Adam - from their loins - their descendants and made them testify of themselves, [saying to them], "Am I not your Lord?" They said, "Yes, we have testified." [This] - lest you should say on the day of Resurrection, "Indeed, we were of this unaware."

and those who have testified after having remembered that which they have forgotten, with certainty,

then all the heavens and the earth are theirs :


this is the vicegerancy that we have been trusted with.
and the meek shall inherit the world.


That is about the soul remembering its origin, in the spirit. that is the real yes real true love story, for that which is Eternal and never leaves.

Hindi Lyrics Translation

Mere Haath Mein

Here is the song 'Mere Haath Mein' from movie 'Fanaa'.

mere haath mein tera haath ho

When my hand is in yours,

saari jannatein mere saath ho

all of paradise is mine.

mere haath mein tera haath ho

When my hand is in yours,

saari jannatein mere saath ho

all of paradise is mine.

tu jo paas ho phir kya yeh jahaan

When you're with me, what use have I for the world?

tere pyaar mein ho jaayuun fanaa

May your love annihilate me.

mere haath mein tera haath ho

When my hand is in yours,

saari jannatein mere saath ho

all of paradise is mine.

mere haath mein tera haath ho

When my hand is in yours,

saari jannatein mere saath ho

all of paradise is mine.

tu jo paas ho phir kya yeh jahaan

When you're with me, what use have I for the world?

tere pyaar mein ho jaayuun fanaa

May your love annihilate me!

mere haath mein tera haath ho

When my hand is in yours,

saari jannatein mere saath ho

all of paradise is mine.

tere dil mein meri saanson ko panaah miljaaye

May my sighs find a shelter in your heart;

tere ishq mein meri jaan fanaa ho jaaye

may your love annihilate my life.

jitne paas hai khushbu saans ke

As close as fragrance is to breath,

jitne paas honthon ke sargam

as close as melody is to lips,

jaise saath hai karwat yaad ke

as close as the twists and turns of thought,

jaise saath baahon ke sangam

as close as arms entwined,

jitne paas paas khwaabon ke nazar

as close to me as my dreams,

utne paas tu rahana hamsafar

stay that close to me, my life's companion.

tu jo paas ho phir kya yeh jahaan

When you're with me, what use have I for the world?

tere pyaar mein ho jaayuun fanaa

May your love annihilate me.

mere haath mein tera haath ho

When my hand is in yours,

saari jannatein mere saath ho

all of paradise is mine.

rone de aaj hamko tu aankhein sujaane de

Let me cry today; let my eyes swell.

baahon mein le le aur khud ko bhig jaane de

Take me in your arms and let me drench you with my tears.

hai jo sine mein qaid dariya voh chuut jaayega

The river imprisoned in my breast will break free,

hai itna dard ke tera daaman bhig jaayega

and the pain is so great, it will wash down to your feet.

jitne paas paas dharkan ke hai raaz

As close as my secrets are to my heart,

jitne paas buundon ke baadal

as close as raindrops are to the clouds,

jaise saath saath chanda ke hai raat

as close as the moon is to the night,

jitne paas nazaron ke kaajal

as close as kohl is to the eyes,

jitne paas paas saagar ke lahar

as close as the waves are to the sea,

utne paas tu rahana hamsafar

stay that close to me, my life's companion.

tu jo paas ho phir kya yeh jahaan

When you're with me, what use have I for the world?

tere pyaar mein ho jaayuun fanaa

May your love annihilate me.

mere haath mein tera haath ho

When my hand is in yours,

saari jannatein mere saath ho

all of paradise is mine.

adhuuri saans thi

My breath was incomplete;

dharkan adhuuri thi

my heartbeat was incomplete;

adhuure ham

I was incomplete.

magar ab chaand puura hai falak pe

But now the moon is full in the sky,

aur ab puure hain ham

and we are made whole.

http://www.hindilyrics.net/translation-Fanaa/Mere-Haath-Mein.html

; )
i wonder if you still thought that love story was outside first ?

or inside and then it transpired outside?

For that which is inside has to transpire outside at one point or another, 

because the spirit is in everyone. we are literally bathing in it, but are unware of it.

for sure, if we set running for love outside without having fixed it inside, it shall always be like running after a mirage in a desert.while our soul mate is always in front of our eyes for us to join it.

Origin

I often used to hear that in science or in other domain,  people are in the search of their Origin.

; ) i used to wonder, what's the point? for, i am here. i exist. i am in the present.
the origin is the past, what do i have to do with the past?

but now, so many years later, i have understood, when i used to say i am not only a body but also a soul,
i was partly right. for i am a soul which has been "separated"of its origin. The Spirit.The Light.
and once my soul "goes back" to its Origin, then it has liberated itself, freed itself from the shackles of slavery of this life.

though this sentence bears meaning for me, it may hardly be helpful to others.
because i will always be detailing about my own quest, in this blog. what i saw from my own eyes.
these are the moments that i have been, consciously or unconsciously, choosing to experience during my journey here.

but others may not need it, for they have certainly made other choices. but it feels good to just write it at some point. who knows? it may eventually be beneficial in some ways or others.

Yes, ; ) that is the thing, those seeking for their origin were right. and me saying what's the point of it, by then, i was right, for i knew not about the spirit.

but now, it is very important to know that one has to return to his origin, to KNOW where one comes from.
for it is that certainty of knowledge which will save us. NO ONE can nor will take care of us, or take our own individual responsibility of our soul.

Each soul is responsible of itself. But for sure, helpers and guardians come to everyone's path to help us find the way back.

that is now a certainty, we HAVE to find our Origin :

Inna lillahi wa inna elaihi rajeoun
To Allah we belong, and to Him is our Return.

returning to Him in joy because we are willingly returning to our origin
is not the same than returning to Him with a gloomy face, having been unconscious of the treasure within,
which IS indeed within, the treasure of the Spirit.

because is it not said in the holy quran,
"Come willingly or unwillingly" ?

but for both kinds of return, return is ordained.

but then, we choose the state in which we return.
with Faces lit with the light of joy of this inner discovery -- an EXPERIENCED discovery by a soul, which is then called "well-pleased returning to its Lord"

or

with a darkened face, a face expressing the gloom of a self-reproaching soul,which has missed its joy to know its Lord :

like the famous saying "Know yourself , and you will know your Lord".

My Immortal

The Spirit has always been there to heal the soul from its self-inflicted wounds and illusions.