Riding the Boat of Breath ..

Such a nice sunshine...

Do you know why at times we feel toiling
making efforts to get things done?
and feel tired?

and at other times
there is no effort
you just do your stuff
it is smooth and flowing?

because it all depends on who rides the wave of your Breath

see?

Your breath is a given.
but there is a battle for it
among your soul who is the rightful owner of it
who has the full right to ride the Breath

and the others' pestering throughts
which are the alien entities
alien as in "not your soul"

so when you feel tired
is because these entities / thoughts
are battling to ride your Breath
and your body feels this battle
and it gets tired

but when your soul expression rides it
as it is the rightful owner of the Breath
it is all smooth and fast
like there is no time
and is Eternal Shipping to the Horizon of Life

and you breathe slow and deep and effortlessly.

But when there is attacks from thoughts
your breath quickens
because it is stolen by the other entities
they rush to ride the Breath

the more you breathe out
the more you die to the hands of other entities

this is why in meditation
naturally
your breathe slows down
cause your body gets in touch with its soul
and let the soul rides its rightful divinely provided boat of Breath

The Breath and the Soul

Right now
i am feeling such a vastness in belly
its upper part feels warm and joyfully fizzy
like when your pour some coca cola in glass?
lol and it feels popping up in joy ?

my belly feels same
right now

it is fizzily joyful
and feeling vast and warm
and that warmness is so much expanding
that it feels like my eyesight is also expanding

actually is the both ballons on top of head
reducing
removing themselves from your face
which make your vision expands

this is why the prophet muhammad
could see behind his back
as mentioned in hadith

or when he was being given birth
his mom at delivery could see pillars of some palace in syria or egypt
i don't remember so well

or when he received revelation from Angel Gabriel
he saw everywhere he turned only the Angel Face even at the Far off Horizon

cause is the vastness of the witnessing state of the Spirit
when you are getting out of your identification of your body
and witnessing your limitless existence
of the True Spirit

and while writing that
i feel so much love going up from the belly to the heart

it feels like the belly is a jar
filled with waters of love
and that this pool of loving waters
are streaming upwards
against the physical rules of the Gravity
which are pulling man soul even more on lower astral levels

and when that current of Love
or river or stream of Love goes upwards
it enters your heart
and the heart feels so full

and from the heart goes forth the Order of softness
reverberated back to the belly
and the belly feels even more warmness and fizzy love inside it

is a sort of self nourishing cycle

Self nourishing cycle
like in "nourishing the self/soul"
or like in "nourshing itself"

i guess i can only write
but unless one feels it
this has no comparison to read it from someone else

and i feel very much liberated inside

this happened
like i won a battle over myself

here is the story
over the past few days
i have been dealing with say average people
i.e. who are non realised beings
on a project of saveguarding animals

and during this project
there was the pro animals and the against
i was in charge of the pro side

thing is
i can quickly grasp people's thoughts and intentions
even when they don't speak
is very bewildering
because i know their subconscious "thoughts"
the thoughts they are not aware of

so i had a hard time
to not blame them for their ignorance
you may not realise it

but is hard
to know
and yet not to blame

because see?
people are ignorant
is not a negative word ignorant for me when i use it
is a factual word
ignorant means for me
that they truly ARE clueless about their subconscious prompting
and how their subconscious is affecting their conscious and thus their behavior
see?

prior to that knowledge
i used to feel driven to show people their behavior
in the hope that they want to change
supposing that they want to improve

but when yesterday
i saw this vision
i realised truly what was to LET GO

to LET GO for me now
stems from this vision

by the way
while i was writing this prior lines
i felt so much loving energy moving lovingly in my left swadhistan

such a GOOD LIVING FEEL
really...

lol so funny that a part of body, feels love?
so weird..

anyway
back to my vision ...

yesterday
i saw that each of my breath
i.e. when i breathe out
it was like a boat
an invisible boat to the eyes
and that boat was carrying "parts/expressions of my soul"

soooo beautiful and poetic
i found this vision was
is very refined see?
is like a soft petal of flower
upon which you see morning dew

is fresh, fragile and beautiful vision
you can only feel marvelled by it

so after this vision
my inner voice
explained me
not in sound but in images

that
your breath carries your soulful expression of what you want to give/share with Life
and it goes out of you in invisible format (to your eyes)
but then it is returned back to you..
and that time in a denser format
i.e. in what we call fate
so that you may experience what you sent out of you
back to you

see? how beautiful is that?
this is why what you give is what you receive

this is the boomrang effect

Gives good out of to Life
and Life or God will return it back to you 20 times more or in an unlimited way more

it is said so in the Hadith Qudsi
because the amount of what you give to God/Life
is equals to the sincerity of your desire when you breathed your Life out
ah i feel like dying of Love writing this
because i see it while i am writing it
is so beautiful

it feels like a lovely feathery dream
all soft and pretty

but see?
again, if you send out to Life
complains, anger and try to convince people to change their behavior
you are sending out the expression of your soul
so you are asking for Life to answer the request of your soul
which is to see an answer to your complain, anger and argumentation

in that case
Life ONLY reflects back like a mirror to you
what your soul sent forth as experience request

so then
i realised while being shown this

isn't it better
that i use my breath to EXPRESS what my SOUL REALLY DESIRE ?

you see
telling someone what you dislike and what you want them to change
is still not you
is your REACTION to others' presence/thoughts
so is you being a slave/prisoners' to others' thoughts/behavior
i.e. is you being a channel of reaction to their thoughts
so you are following others thoughts
expressing only opposition to their thoughts

see?
your breath is NOT carrying your SOUL DESIRE
your breath is ONLY carrying their thoughts

in that case
your breath is only stolen
by other entities
who are living through your breath
and you will get hit back by the very thoughts you opposed..

is a kind of self beating LOL
this is why the only person that hurts you is only yourself
and never the other

so beautiful vision of Life

is SO CLEAR TO ME NOW
THAT THERE IS NO ONE
EXCEPT MYSELF who decides how to live my life

same for EVERYONE ELSE
the ONLY difference being the AMOUNT OF SELF PRESENCE/REALISATION
in that breathing out your Soul Desire vs thoughts of others

and this is how
when i saw this

effortlessly
my inner opposition to these people's way of behaving and acting
just got dissolved ...

cause as i realised how the amount of breath is numbered within me
as once this number is gone
death of body arrives

so one better breathes out our soul/light
than useless thoughts that are not even my own light
it is how my own light is stolen away from me

as others' thoughts busy this "space/breath" initially given to my soul

the breath was initially the boat given to my soul to ride
so that it may experience Life back in forms
see?

so
all of sudden
i surprised myself
to see myself
just LETTING GO of what before used to bother me
and create opposition in me
resistance in me
readiness to jump for clearing up conflicts

cause it is not about caring about others
the whole stuff is about caring for your soul
when you care for your Soul to ride the Boat of Breath
then ....

ONLY THEN

YOU LET YOUR SELF SHINE
and this is HOW you are of help and care to others

SO BE YOUR SELF

Love and Kiss to my beloved readers'

The Birth of Souls

This morning just before i woke up for meditation
i was seeing in a vision
the birth of souls

i just remember this part now
the rest i forgot

i saw there was space
which was dark
and was surrounding
a sort of "place"
which was in a trapeze like form
and  it was filled with hot hot energy
you can say was like a fireplace

and the borders
which were the junction of this darkness of space
and the fireplace

this fine border
is wherefrom i could see
souls were being born

then when they were born
de facto they fell in that "fireplace"

Humorist Kevin Razy - Terror Attacks & Daesh

... the part about Daesh guy saying to a newbie"You read the Quran?" cracks me up!!!
Aberrattional ending line, where the new terrorists depicted as even more heartless than Daesh itself..
who ends up being afraid of the violence of those they hired...

use English Subtitles

Final Words

Do your best. That's all you can ask of yourself. If you did your best and things just didn't work out, you don't owe an apology to anyone. And you certainly don't need to feel 'bad' about it -- or, worse yet, guilty.

N.

Good bye Past
I am coming New Life

Shakti Arise

No comments on the current craziness in the world
otherwise i feel i will get into GREAT depression
these are sever cases of possessions without doubt


But from what Spirit told me
is ok
the ongoing battle has been won
so there should not be any evil forces
doing these crazy terror acts

i was so sad
seeing my Europe becoming like Middle East

anyway,
as one can rejoice that calm returns

i can now decently give space
to a good vision of mine
about the mediation practice

This time i was meditating at 3am
and by the end of meditation
i saw a vision of Mataji

yes yes my cute lovely spying Yogi
i SEE you
as you see,
i have not left meditation
is only your own imagination
LOL

and am pretty sure
none of you get up early to meditate
instead of getting up at 3 am
you may be sleeping at 3am
may be after having flirted with one guy or two!

hey is ok;)
but don't pretend to be IN yoga while i am OUT
cause i am more IN than you can EVER imagine...
Ponder my words..

Besides hasty judgement,
hypocrisy is what i hate most

back to my writing

Apparently as i was saying
Shri Mataji knows that i am doing GOOD in meditation
as i see her now and then

so i saw her  
she was pushing with her both hands up from shoulders
doing it several times
from neck to up 
2 or 3 times 
like you lift something?    

So she was actually 
confirming about the cycles
that i do

First you need to make SURE
your raise your shoulders
and open them wide 

indeed
once you do the cycles
you know what i talk about if you read my blog
then right AFTER you straighten your spine

and to help spine to be really aligned
you need to raise your shoulders 
so that SPACE be made to let Shakti Arise

Capish?

and if you are a good girl and boy
you will see me soon 
or not ;)

remember
I SEE YOU

and now remember me like that song...

 

Plato's Cave and Samadhi out there

Tonight
my voice
ie. the voice of my subconscious

told me
a metaphor
about my progress

and later i learned
the cool stuff
that actually
the message is given by a demi-god

and the transmission of it
is done through the image selected by
my subconscious

it is how it works

isn't it cool?

anyway,

so i was given
the metaphor of a worm underground
that is how the meditator is

he is like a worm underground

and i was told
that there is only darkness

true, when you are underground
there is no light

and the voice told me
it took me one whole year to open one eye

and i thought
gosh! i put so much effort
and only one eye opened
and it is for what? to only see darkness around?

but spirit told me after
that it is the beginning of awakening

for awakening you need to get
your both eyes open
and of course when you open your eyes
then you realise what?

you realise where you are

and so i remembered
is like Plato cave

when you are living in there
you do not know that there is light out there
see?

and as people are satisfied
with the way they live life
they think is all this about life

but there is more

only if you read Plato cave
you can get the meaning of that worm metaphor

so Spirit told me
is good cause most people do not know
the reason behind cultivation
see?

this is why
once they feel cool breeze
they just get stuck with vibes
that's all

and they NEVER EVER
think of reaching out for more
such as going out of that Plato's cave

again, only if you read it
you will get why people don't seek for more

and if you see for more
lol as i do
i will be told
"She left meditation
she is no more worshiping
she is leaving collective
she is so and so
she is blablabla

she is all that they are projecting actually
from their own dark mind

do i waste my time
thinking of what they are doing or not?

so give me a break

only Time will show
who succeed in meditation
and who get full enlightenment
capish?

so i am doing good
i KNOW the reason for cultivation
and BECAUSE i know it
i know what they do not know
and have the bubbling feeling in heart to wish for more
and go out for more bliss

my best achievement
was that of 2 weeks ago
when i felt the First Samadhi

do current yogi feel samadhi?
hmm?
so only ignorant "yogi" can label me as having left meditation

how can i leave something i never left?

but i see they never left their backbiting
is ok suits their level of refinement
hehehe

 i believe in karma
what you send out to others
is what you get back..

Prophet Muhammad prayer

On First day of Ramadan
in dream i saw the prophet muhammad

actually the voice
was telling how people/muslims of now
do not proper cultivation to grow

It was said
instead of giving out money as donation
and thinking they are ok now

they should do proper cultivation
do proper prayers

lol it reminds me of some arab muslims
who never fast
and get a medical ordinance
for ramadan
saying they are ill
while the whole year they party
and eat food whenever they want

so they give donation
thinking is compensating
their lack of fasting

anyway
in dream
the voice told me
that many century laters
muslims are so stuck with some wrong methods
in doing their salah/prayers

that even if you tell them now
they won't be able to change it
(habits are hard to change see?)

so the wrong stuff
is when they end salah
they do salam on right and left

but is not proper way

they should end if with face straight
and do salam so

and the angel
told me
is just a few times / rarely
the prophet did the right and left "salam"
cause actually people mistook it
thinking it is the way to do salah

while the angel showed me with close up
that Gabriel was talking to the prophet
so as he was listening to him
he moved his head right and left
while focusing on his talk

so i saw the prophet
doing his prayer
at the beginning he stood up
and his back was straight
(which people fail to straighten up now)

then i saw the end of it
he was in sitting position
and his back was straight
(again people fail to keep it straight)

and while he said salam
with his face straight
i saw the cool breeze / breath of life
coming out of his mouth

so that is the proper way to do salah

and of course
as the angel said to me
as centuries have passed
people won't believe it
as habits are hard to change

The Light that makes you feel light

In dream
i was sitting in a cave
and was holding a baby

then i passed my hand over his face
and it started to beam light

then
as it started to attract attention
and people around started to approach me
with bad intentions

the angel who was a man
approached and passed his  hand again
on the face of the baby
so that it hides the light
for the time being

apparently
is about timing

in all cases
from my feel
the baby is the soul
that shines when it gets connected to the spirit

this is the metaphor
about Mary and Jesus
who came to explain what is to be born again

so,
when i woke up in the morning
i felt so much rested
i never felt so good
since may be months

this is actually a light
that regenerates you

i felt like i had no burden
from the head to the shoulders

is like you are used to your burdens
so that you do not feel the weight you are bearing

but when it is removed
then you realised
all along you were carrying weight..

see?

so i remained in bed
and took time to feel
how come  i feel so different

cause i was feeling very light
from head to shoulders / neck
the real meaning of feeling GOOD

and then i could enjoy the surrounding
sun rays entering room, birds chirping, or the wind in trees

i think we can enjoy
only if we feel good

is abheration to seek for joy
from a place of stress