Check-in for Heaven

yesterday
again before sleeping i meditated
this time i prayed
to truly let go

because i so quickly forget
to let go
really it needs bravely to let go

is really easy to be brooding
but to let go
is such a new effort

anyway
if i don't let go
what would make me different from others?
is really important to be brave
even if on the spot
the power felt in that position
is satisfying

but is temporary

after you are stuck
really

but now i contemplate
to let go
on the spot is like the feeling of being defeated
but i guess
as i have not succeeded it yet
after it should be a liberating feeling.

anyway
once i prayed so
i saw in vision

that i was in space
or in the starry sky
and there was a scroll that unrolled
and i signed it

actually :)
was the check-in for heaven
is funny vision

but it shows
that to enter heaven
you should have light vibes

if your vibes become densers
then you go back to hell
it makes sense

and i don't like playing yo-yo
with my eternal life..

so one should always meditate
regularly and
let go even more often.
Ameen

The Living Buddha :) at 2:48am

as i was going to sleep
i saw a buddha or its statue in lying position

and i saw light raising up from its belly like a cool fire.

i got the vision when praying to my spirit
that i should love myself more

i never post at 2:48am
even less when i am deliciously ready to sleep

but as is so important
i felt the need to post it :)

sleep time now
kiss:x

Bargain between Earth and Heaven :))))

here is the most beautiful bargain
i ever heard of
lol

my fiancé is always head in the air
meaning that
once he is focused in one stuff
he just keeps doing it
and forget the real life reality

so he is out of touch with earth plane
lol
i need to call him back on earth

may be he is some kind of air balloon?
always in the sky? in the heaven?

and me
once i am off with work
some kind of sleep deprivation
makes me never maintain my early morning meditation
at same time every day


at some point he said
"
I need you to remind me of the earth
while you need me to remind you of heaven"

woa this put a blank in my mind
i found that spontaneous saying
totally beautiful...

and is so complementary

because i am such a reasonable person
down to earth really
lol
when i have something to do
i just plan it well
somehow i do the best i can
so that the moment be given  the best i have

and he
from the earth point of view
is the most messy person i have ever seen!
lol
not messy in the negative sense
but messy from the earthly point of view

because he is in heaven
head in the sky
floating in the air-borne dreams
and once he is fully devoted in his dream
and working hard for it

you can be sure
that the earth gets angry!
:)))))

because somehow
the earth needs its rain
and if the rain is too much stuck in the clouds
then is no good for the earth to remain thirsty
lol
kapish?

becoming poetess now
hehehe

anyway
i end up on this beautiful poem
i got reminded of
while writing this post today:

look at love
by Mevlana Jelaluddin Rumi
English version by Nader Khalili

look at love
how it tangles
with the one fallen in love
look at spirit
how it fuses with earth
giving it new life
why are you so busy
with this or that or good or bad
pay attention to how things blend
why talk about all
the known and the unknown
see how the unknown merges into the known
why think separately
of this life and the next
when one is born from the last
look at your heart and tongue
one feels but deaf and dumb
the other speaks in words and signs
look at water and fire
earth and wind
enemies and friends all at once
the wolf and the lamb
the lion and the deer
far away yet together
look at the unity of this
spring and winter
manifested in the equinox
you too must mingle my friends
since the earth and the sky
are mingled just for you and me
be like sugarcane
sweet yet silent
don’t get mixed up with bitter words
my beloved grows right out of my own heart
how much more union can there be

 source : http://www.poetry-chaikhana.com/blog/2011/09/23/mevlana-jelaluddin-rumi-look-at-love/

Thank You for

thank you for the attention
thank you for the care
thank you for ever listening
thank you for Your presence

thank you for the safety
thank you for the hope
thank you for the forgiveness
thank you for erasing thoughts

thank you for a new life
thank you for new experiences
thank you for new bulk of joy
thank you for material life

thank you for the answers
thank you for the purification
thank you for Your patience
and thank you for giving me patience

thank you for explaining
thank you for securing
thank you for forgiving
thank you for helping

thank you for the humor
thank you for the kids
thank you for the birds
thank you for the trees
and thank you for the rain
they were all truly loving.


thank you for teaching me balance
thank you for teaching me to be fair
thank you for teaching me to let go
thank you for Your appreciation
thank you for Your protection

i apologise in advance
for not being as good as i aimed

but thank You again
for instilling Hope in me.

Ameen.

wave length and particule of light

as i was reading about the birth of jesus
and how first the shepherds and then the magi

witnessed the light that came out to them
and in it how the angels also spoke to them
word of peace

and how the magi were follwing the star
that was indicating them the birth of jesus
and likewise how they were warned by the child
in their dream how to not return to Herod
but make their way out back home

then i felt
that indeed light is a particule
and is a wave

because it takes place
as an event does
so is a particule

and it has a wave length
that takes more or less time to reach
the souls of those who are still asleep
in darkness

so when the light hit them
it has taken time as much as the very souls were far
asleep in their darkness

so if now in that present world
we realise this
then somehow i felt
that very light is still there
and still spreading
as it spread at his birth

like stars in the universe
when you see a star light in the universe
is not an event happening now
is the star's light which has travelled billion years
to reach you so that you can only now see it

so what you see now
of the universe
are images of the past
which is beautifully amazing


so that light of spirit
like a wave length is still there
is just that before you could not see it
and is ever present as a wave length
though it has happened in the past as a particule

Sci fi

Weirdo and funny vision
but still very true

i saw myself being scanned
especially the brain
was like surrounded by scientists
they were only interested by scanning the brain

was very real
lol
i freaked out a bit

then,
the guys sitting on their computers
checking the result of the scan
were amazed
i wished i could see what they were saying

and when i looked at their screen
which was showing
the result of my brain scan
i was only seeing rays of light
coming out of it
and reflecting on their face

and it was said
that as the kundalini opens more petals
it manifests itself as light
the very petals opening
let light flows out

so that showed what was happening
in my brain

as for the weirdo scientists stuff
the subconscious uses this as symbol
to show that my own mind
is "investigating" about signs of the kundalini's work

i.e the light of the spirit..iluminating the brain..or consciousness

so the scientists present in the vision
are symbols for the experimental factors
or the examining mind, seeking proof of God.

Leaf speaking

this morning
i was sleeping
and heard my inner voice
who said to me

when you hear even a leaf
speaking to you
listen to it

then i woke up

i liked it.

Hearing my own inner voice

 

 

Tonight as i was sleeping

i saw space

i saw a star

a zoom in on its surface

and could see a few impacts on it

and its relief in great details

i could have touched it really

was very real

then i was shown all the phases

of a moon

put in a chronologic frieze

i loved that

the voice was about to show

the "deep universe"

but somehow i forgot

or started to wake up

but i remembered the voice said

few and even fewer people take interest

in learning about the stars and universe

symbolically

 

truly meaning, 

that very few people got that about the universe

because very few really cultivate themselves

or cultivate the Tree of Life.

the images were very real

as i could see the relief, thickness

and fineness of the details on the star.

so was definitely an out of body experience.

and yes i got that vision

because i had asked a question to my spirit

before sleeping

lol i forgot what question i asked

but is the third time

i am testing my sincerity

in asking

and is third time in a row

the spirit does answer

so i feel happy

so is good 

if it is in a row

it means it starts "establishing" itself

i just have to continue with my practice

as a good girl! lol

after i woke up to meditate

during the end of my meditation

i heard my own voice telling me

what to start eating to counter the hair loss

it came so naturally

that on the spot i was not surprised

after meditation

i checked on internet

and it was true!

 

was my own inner voice

which said to drink early morning

before eating any thing else

brussel sprouts water

so guys 

i tell you 

i hardly ever ate them

may be once in my life

and never ended the plate lol

ok i will it 

is precious

is from my own spirit 

and i KNOW it will work

and i checked on internet

is very much full of folic acid and vitamin B

really good for hair 

and when i was about to sleep

i had my own inner voice saying

"i adore you"

 

that surprised me 

to have heard it

and even more to hear that

but i felt happy that now i can hear more often

my inner voice

 

kiss