Attention is the wave and the particle

 Important thing about the agnya

the attention should be seen like a particle of light

that hit the object

and return to us its wave

to be stored into our ego or superego.

By the way, that pretty much answer the 

question if the atom is a light or a particle, honestly.

Back to the main point, 

therefore, the intent behind the attention 

is that which you reap for yourself.

Intent, judgement that hit the objects by a loaded attention

will return you back a wave that would be quite asymmetric.

such as fear, and other imbalances, judgement and other imbalances.

Example: You see someone doing something funny

you instantly judge it

and that data returns back to you and is stored in your system.

No harm there.

Yet, next time you want to take part in say a talk,

you will feel fear of being laughed at; that is stored in your system

through your previous experience.

You are judged by which you judge.

So this is why the letting go is a key element in our attention.

As a human being, we cannot suppress such hasty judgement,

but as a work in progress, we can remember to forgive, ie let go of the embedded judgement 

in our attention,

so that in the future, the attention be so bright, liberated, unloaded, that we just are in the moment,

and just enjoying the moment.

The whole purpose of life

is to remember our Divinity; how we are the expression of it

and also to embody it to help others to remember theirs too.

Isn't it paradoxical on one hand to pretend that, 

on the other hand to see same people feeling envious, jealous,

and. thus not wishing the good for the others that they have been asserting as philosophy of their life before.

This point I never got it.

I had definitely felt these feelings too

but. again; how long do you stay with them?

You can let them be passing shades 

or become your fossilised identities.

Kundalini Fire at Agnya & Computer Download

Amazing happening 

Yesterday night

all of sudden I got awake

and as soon as I opened my eyes

I got an intense extremely quick flash of light

it was all red in my vision in the background.

And then there were a non stop succession 

of rapidly scrolling images on top of that 

I would say may be thousands of them!

I couldn't even see the images, so fast the speed was!

It was like thousands of computer files being downloaded!!

Impossible to have time to view one single image

so incredibly fast that download was..

This lasted at least 15 to 20sec (?) or less or more

no idea but that was my first time having such experience.

After this I could also feel electricity going down towards the heart 

due to me going back to sleep there were couple of occurrences 

where I could feel this electric activity 

I even saw myself sending messages lol on WhatsApp 

and then once I woke up I did not see any message sent 

and got panicked what if I had sent them to the wrong person 

describing the happening!

Anyway at this point, dream and reality were one I believe.

Luckily, nothing sent in the middle of the night hahaha

but the senses were for sure extremely heightened after that during the sleep.

The spirit explained that the red background I saw was the Kundalini Fire

and that is very rare to see that 

as very few people have seen it

also the images were all of my past and future

and I could see them, as the Kundalini passed through the Agnya.

Now that I think of it,

it is true that Shri Mataji explained 

that thoughts are like waves 

and when kundalini passes through Agnya 

it straightened the waves!

Also it makes even more sense

when you are your thoughts

you are into them

meaning you are identified with them.

How ?

it is like when you are riding a car

you cannot see the car from the outside.

This is the most close example, I can come up with the thoughts identification.

If you are identified with your thoughts,

you are in them

you can't see them

meaning you can't observe them from the outside

only then you see that for what they are

and are not limited or confined by them 

so here in my nightly explosive computer download 

I'll call it so

thoughts, of the past and the future where seen, from the exterior.

And this time, 100% seen from the exterior, as in pure awareness.

First point being; the pure Awareness of my own thoughts - which I experienced.

The second point, I'd like to highlight is the Power.

That is a mix of electric feel - no element of pain involved - with the sensation that it is so vast and alive.

Incredibly enough, in it located in a human being!

what a hidden wonder!

Lol a bitliek Dr Who phone box, where the inside is bigger than the outside.

No wonder that a human being in full power 

would be more powerful than any nuclear technology.

The third point I'd like to mention

is it is independent from you, the you as your usual day to day self.

so it is indeed a power that is in you and yet not dependant of you, the personality

while being the true you at the same time.

So the only part is the mastery of awareness that is missing.

Once you are freed from the bondage of your thoughts,

then with that Risen Power

where you direct you awareness, 

you can direct and move mountain of power I feel.

I think this is the meaning of reference by Jesus 

when he said you can move mountains if you have faith.

and faith should be understood as a Being in you

to have Faith

is to have the Kundalini Awakened

Once you have it Arisen 

like in Quran in chapter Muzzamil

it says O you enshrouded; Arise in the Night

The meaning in that verse is the command to the Kundalini to be cultivated 

at night 

the vigil at night 

will help it arise

you can't force a seed to arise 

you need to make it grow by watering it 

same here.

Also, the redness of the vision

reminded me of Surah Ar Rahman 

1. When the sky is rent asunder, and it becomes red like ointment:
2. Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

This verse came up in my mind.

One should understand that scriptures are meant as a coded text for all levels

from the average man understanding to metaphors which height matches the height/source of revelation.

So it would be unnecessarily fussy to explain the meaning to masses

and nor would it serve any purposes as even then it has to be experienced.

So no point in talks.

Scriptures are also more like rain that water your breakthrough

and also a roadmap to check where you are going through.

Lady Fatima (pbuh)

In the little fire lit house I could see Fatima (pbuh)

it was said "She is not the Queen of Heaven for nothing".

Though her destiny was to marry Ali (pbuh),

Had she not guarded her virginity by being cautious of the man/suitor who presented himself 

in front of her door

the marriage with Ali would not have materialised.

She kept the door shut to him.

From there the lesson that applies is that spiritual people 

should guard their spirituality

when at their door any worldly suitor shows up.

Spiritual people marry the heavenly chosen one,

and guarding one's innocence is one's own responsibility 

till the promised auspicious match happen.

Going for a person who does not cultivate what I would. call an earthly marriage, 

however nice the person is, would be signing one's own spiritual death.

Kiss

The Crown and the Furnace

 Right after meditation yesterday 

I was going to sleep and in vision 

I saw a diadem 

surely on head of shri mataji 

but weirdly enough,

this time focus was on the crown 

not on She

instead she was a bit like faded 

so focus was brought on the crown

zooming on it

there was a red stone 

and in it I could see 

the reflection of a fire 

a bit like when you look through glass and see the fire burning behind the glass

and just before seeing the fire

I saw the light 

the spot of light was travelling to the forehead 

The crown representing the sahaswrara

now that I think of it

the crown forms does represent flams leaping 

just forged now in some gold metal and fixed.

And the light spot ascending

ported by the kundalini at its end,

is the soul from the belly 

which when meeting the spirit in the heart

got en-lightened

Noor 'ala noir

light upon light

ie

light of the spirit upon the light of the soul.

and the process of this soul being purified

goes through the fire purification 

at the fireplace of the Agnya,

hence the red stone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VR5dlAfgn5I

Right attitude in cultivating righteousness

 Best summary of key basis to self purification - from the intent perspective

Letter: 24/The Trap of the Opposites 
  
 

        beloved bhakti, 
  
    Love. Anger, violence, greed or envy cannot be overcome 
    by the cultivation of their opposites. 
    Because anger itself will cultivate its opposite. 
    And violence will be present in its cultivated non-violence. 
    So always be aware of the hypnotic spell of the opposite. 
    It never solves any problem. 
    Because it is beating around the bush. 
    Do not fall into the trap of the opposite. 
    But understand anger, violence or greed or anything else 
    directly. 
    To seek the opposite is a way of escape. 
    To seek the opposite is cowardice. 
    Live with your mind as it is. 
    Do not try to change it. 
    Be brave to face it and to understand it. 
    When the light of awareness falls on anger, or greed, or 
    envy, there is a change. 
    Awareness acts as a catalytic agent. 
    And then anger does not change into its opposite. 
    It is not that violence becomes non-violence. 
    But there is no-anger. 
    There is no-violence. 
    And when there is no-violence, there is no-mind. 
    And an altogether different dimension opens its door. 
    The dimension of the spontaneous. 
    The dimension of the Divine. 
                                                                       22-5-1971. 
  

source: http://oshokala.bizhosting.com/ol24.htm

Sun Disk and creation

During meditation I saw shri Mataji in a white sari

Then I saw a black thread necklace with a Huge golden disk - like sun 

Spirit said that the black thread represents the blackhole 

and the disk the sun

suns that got created and scattered into the creation, 

representing thus the Big Bang.

At the end of meditation, I again saw shri Mataji face 

in the white clouds.

Fire Kundalini

 Since three days, 

whenever I close my eyes

I just see a huge fire

yellow flames in the center

and red one on the outside

flaming the whole time

myself I am sitting in front of it

at some point 

last time

it dawn on me 

after I felt a big hit in the mental space

that with fire we carve images in the mind

these are hypnotic 

we live in these images 

another world is a dream

the life we live is in an hypnotic mental state 

where we have created these images and this dream 

but we, as attention, got so much sucked in 

that there is a symbiosis between the mind and the image in the fire

once I jerked back out of it

then I had a good headache

imaging being plugged for years

once you are unplug 

how do you think your mind will feel?

that was like this.

This is why the more you look for something

you will never see this thing

because you are it

once unplugged

then you can see the fire

and that thing will be in the realm of the fire

from there you can see it