The Crown and the Furnace

 Right after meditation yesterday 

I was going to sleep and in vision 

I saw a diadem 

surely on head of shri mataji 

but weirdly enough,

this time focus was on the crown 

not on She

instead she was a bit like faded 

so focus was brought on the crown

zooming on it

there was a red stone 

and in it I could see 

the reflection of a fire 

a bit like when you look through glass and see the fire burning behind the glass

and just before seeing the fire

I saw the light 

the spot of light was travelling to the forehead 

The crown representing the sahaswrara

now that I think of it

the crown forms does represent flams leaping 

just forged now in some gold metal and fixed.

And the light spot ascending

ported by the kundalini at its end,

is the soul from the belly 

which when meeting the spirit in the heart

got en-lightened

Noor 'ala noir

light upon light

ie

light of the spirit upon the light of the soul.

and the process of this soul being purified

goes through the fire purification 

at the fireplace of the Agnya,

hence the red stone.

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Right attitude in cultivating righteousness

 Best summary of key basis to self purification - from the intent perspective

Letter: 24/The Trap of the Opposites 
  
 

        beloved bhakti, 
  
    Love. Anger, violence, greed or envy cannot be overcome 
    by the cultivation of their opposites. 
    Because anger itself will cultivate its opposite. 
    And violence will be present in its cultivated non-violence. 
    So always be aware of the hypnotic spell of the opposite. 
    It never solves any problem. 
    Because it is beating around the bush. 
    Do not fall into the trap of the opposite. 
    But understand anger, violence or greed or anything else 
    directly. 
    To seek the opposite is a way of escape. 
    To seek the opposite is cowardice. 
    Live with your mind as it is. 
    Do not try to change it. 
    Be brave to face it and to understand it. 
    When the light of awareness falls on anger, or greed, or 
    envy, there is a change. 
    Awareness acts as a catalytic agent. 
    And then anger does not change into its opposite. 
    It is not that violence becomes non-violence. 
    But there is no-anger. 
    There is no-violence. 
    And when there is no-violence, there is no-mind. 
    And an altogether different dimension opens its door. 
    The dimension of the spontaneous. 
    The dimension of the Divine. 
                                                                       22-5-1971. 
  

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Sun Disk and creation

During meditation I saw shri Mataji in a white sari

Then I saw a black thread necklace with a Huge golden disk - like sun 

Spirit said that the black thread represents the blackhole 

and the disk the sun

suns that got created and scattered into the creation, 

representing thus the Big Bang.

At the end of meditation, I again saw shri Mataji face 

in the white clouds.

Fire Kundalini

 Since three days, 

whenever I close my eyes

I just see a huge fire

yellow flames in the center

and red one on the outside

flaming the whole time

myself I am sitting in front of it

at some point 

last time

it dawn on me 

after I felt a big hit in the mental space

that with fire we carve images in the mind

these are hypnotic 

we live in these images 

another world is a dream

the life we live is in an hypnotic mental state 

where we have created these images and this dream 

but we, as attention, got so much sucked in 

that there is a symbiosis between the mind and the image in the fire

once I jerked back out of it

then I had a good headache

imaging being plugged for years

once you are unplug 

how do you think your mind will feel?

that was like this.

This is why the more you look for something

you will never see this thing

because you are it

once unplugged

then you can see the fire

and that thing will be in the realm of the fire

from there you can see it

Underworld and the Higher Self

 At the beginning of my meditation 

 I saw myself sitting in meditation with the root chakra in touch with the earth 

I could see the earth from a vertically sliced perspective

there below a drop of water was engulfing a hell like realm in it

and linked back to the root chakra

Before flushing it

with attention I made sure that it remains contained in the plasma drop 

like the foetus is in a plasma

then I enlarge the plasma to get a bigger bubble around it

so that when I flush it, it does not disperse but remain contained.

At the end of my meditation 

I saw the Space 

the stars 

and the outlined body of a meditating Buddha 

sitting in the above

in the constellation 

as his body was all made from space and stars 

and the outline was made in a shiny silver like colour

lent from the star light surely

I feel like calling it my Higher Self.