Kitten Smitten with Love

i was given a cat
by a friend
who had to move cities

a baby cat

actually i picked him up
there were others too

but when i saw him
i saw nice light
he was brighter than others

so i picked him up

he is a very special cat
was about to give one of his secrets
when the line got erased hahahaha
so of course i won't give his secrets out
not even a tiny bit

except that whoever gets him
will get a Great Blessing in disguise
sorry can't tell you more

just remember
if i can gift a flower
that never fades ...

what about a cat
who is a Living Being...

anyway
i put his ad out
the lucky one who gets him
will be real lucky

i can't unfortunately keep him
as i travel loads

but he is very special and cute above
any other kitten ;)

and that's his and my secret

kisses to the Lucky Owner !!!
bets are open

I met a Vampire

i met a vampire

a vampire girl
like a spider
she weaves her net
night and day

taking her soon to be victim
in her empathy

then she threw the insect into the web
call all of her pals
to witness her meal

like a vampire
she teases
exposes and ask accounts
to the targetted victim
so she thought

in front of everyone

getting ready
to use peer pressure
in public
to confuse her meal to be

she inflates like a hen
trying to fly with useless wings
seeing herself cheered up
and applauded by her peers

told you
you are fat
you can't fly with fake wings

getting ready to enter the web
and eat her target

in the meanwhile

her karma surfaced
and she got stomped
by a Maha Buddha
in her trail

i heard a creak
and understood she became
some ants meal

Beware my little vampire
too much greediness
will make you fat

fair enough
for you are the next meal

Kisses to my ants' meal;)

Lao Tse

A week ago
as i was resting
i saw in vision the face of a chinese traditional scholar

i had no clue whom he was
given his face and the feel i knew was a scholar

after i saw two students walking under rain

the scholar smiled

and i saw his moustache and smiling lips

was told is Lao Tse :)

and the rain was the Shakti

felt really happy to see him smiling

so was encouraging me in my practice :x

The White Elephant

Yesterday
by sheer luck
i saw some broadcast about marriages
being done among yogi

as spirit told me
one INDEED got matched with a woman from Holland
and she is nearing her 50s lol she cheated somehow on her age

i was awe struck
to see that was SO PRECISE
it happened as i was told

i wish i can develop such awareness
while being awake
this is TRUE POWER OF WITNESSING of Spirit

but for now is just in dreams or visions
not in "real" when i am awake

for the other people
i won't make comments
is their destinies

but for sure
those who match them
they should really really be great in checking vibes
cause they have destinies of people in their hands...

so sad affairs.

after i got asleep

in dream i saw a white elephant
who was standing like for some show case
in middle of yogi crowd
and he was in a way "jailed"
as his paws were put in some glasses of water
so that he stays there and moves not

at some point he fell trying to free himself
the people around got afraid
of him racing them..
and disorder came

people started to race all over

i was not affected by it

i was just not understanding their fears


and in dream the spirit told me
the white elephant is the Innocence which will be lost...
the white elephant is the spirit

and this was about the marriages taking place

somehow
the Innocence is being lost

is not auspicious

Looking back at my life

I have to write
some Praise about Spirit
from my experience

again as i was flipping through old files
i realised
all that GOOD PRECIOUS GEM
MY NEW LIFE is

ALL THAT WAS BAD IN MY PAST LIFE

hardly nothing at first
except when i arrived by the end of the road
and could not see anything else
to help me grow spiritually

then
PAIN started
the pain of knowing something BEAUTIFUL exists as new world
but there is NO ONE WILLING TO HELP ME

the pain of
KNOWING THE SOLUTION IS THERE
even guessing is inside
YET BEING UNABLE TO GET IT

then
the emotions of pain
RECORDED IN CITTA/ in my consciousness
that kept popping up
every day
and even stronger
and making me ill to death

only God knows
how ill inside i was
as He healed me later

and then the pain
of knowing that FAMILY see the pain
but they think they are helping
by wanting you to be like them
YET THEY WERE JUST
IGNORANTLY BEING SELFISHLY UNCARING

cause is what you are
when you want others to look like you

in truth.

and what was GOOD
when SPIRIT POPPED UP IN MY LIFE

I gained health
I got saved from pain, and painful memories

cause i experienced how even strong spiritual teachers
are human being after all
and according to their selfishness they are not matching
what only your own SOUL can match
and that is TRUE SELF LESS CARE

i had realised how selfish a person could become
i realised how the HUGE issue of sufi was the EGO
speaking of Ego and yet not telling you that nothing is bad about ego
except that you are just missing the reality of your own true nature that is Spirit
and that could be revealed and remembered by you in a gentle way

instead of being mocked at
or creating some inside group elitism
illness that i also saw in the so called yogi organisation
rule of thumb organisation is a plea
stay away from it

once spirituality gets organised
be sure it will become some sort of sect at worse
and hold much limitation to your progress at best

groups and a teacher
YET are MOST important to create a GOOD ATMOSPHER
AS an INSPIRATIONAL GUIDELINE

cause it is what i partly miss nowadays

now my current limitation is
spirit does let you FREE
with your FREE WILL

but what i miss most
are real guidelines to feel inspired day by day
so that the next day i become a better version of myself than the day before

i feel i am missing
that motivation to wish for more
as i feel quite broken by what i saw so far of people behavior

what people most lack
is honesty, sincerity and the willingness to give others some space to be themselves and shine their own light

but truthfully speaking
i have no more wish to shine my light
cause i can let it shine
but no one really sees it
nor partake in it

at least
i am grateful that i have a good vision of myself when i look back
at what i was and what i am

now

Ameen.