Finger of God

ok i was trying over the past few days
to wake up at same time
meaning not 30min or 1h after

just same time

so today
i was like half asleep
and i did my cycle and trying to meditate
while still lying down

lol ridiculous

anyway
as i got a vision

i saw that there was a huge shiva
yea bit blue color body
and he was pointing his index towards my head

a bit like in this fresco painting of Adam Creation
by MichaelAngelo

Actually in the vision
i was trying to adjust my forehead
to the poiting of the finger
to be sure
that light goes through it
and like this i would get total enlightenment

and mind would become luminous

by the way writing it
luminous
is more like CLARITY in mind
it just make more sense to say it
is a bit like usually most of mind is clouded
and you jsut need light enough
so that it be lit fully
and you just see things at hand/in the present

then
of course i woke up
to do the walking meditation
followed by the sitting one

but yeaa
was tempted to stay in the bed
just to see the rest of the vision


ps : neeeeeeeeeeeed my arabicaaaaaa!!!

Intuition

is only by confronting myself
to new situation and people
that i realised new changes
which took place in me

in terms of perception
and use of say "power"
for everyone is like a seed
and thus EVERYONE has powers
or call it skills manifested

once it has germinated.

the new stuff i saw
is that when i looked at stuff
i kind of see the energy or aura?
around it like a halo?
and this is how i know
that i can grab it or not

also in terms of intuition
it got sharper
and difference is NOW
i can ON THE SPOT
decide ACCORDING to it

before i was like asleep
i could feel intuition
and yet not have the will to follow it
was very much observer of my own life
thinking i can't change it
stuff are as they are

now the intuition is being acted upon
spontaneously
on the spot
so the present moment is being caught
if i can express it so

third
i astonishes myself
by the new changes in my look and life style
is like i can see myself going through phases
of self care

stuff that i had never really paid attention to before

is like i am following a scenario
specially written for me
to act in a movie

and it looks normally flowing
is not like i have to "think"
as to what next i should do

yes definitely i don't recognise myself :)))

yet
is very much agreeable
because i am in self discovery adventure

kiss kiss

TV speaks to me

hahahaha

incredible synchronicity

since a week
i got my eyes and mind caught with the idea
of trying the Arabica Café

ok i let it go

then, i got guests
they came buying a packet of Arabica

ok i let it go

then, i felt like sitting in my couch
okay i want café arabica hehehehe

and i KNOW what kind of mix i want
the Italian one
some vanilla ice cream
and you pour onto it
some arabica coffee
hmm....just saw it yesterday on tv...yummy

and NOW
that i was checking for some arabica to buy
i was about to say is ok let it go cause i can just buy some casual coffee..

and tv spoke to me!
through the ad.. "Buy a quality coffee"!!!!!

WTF???!!!!

hahahaha

i thought TV  was speaking DIRECTLY TO ME

IS DECIDED

GOTTA buy that Arabica Quality Coffee and pour it on some Vanilla ice cream

hmm.... yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmy!!!

VID WARNING : I would add MORE WHIPPED CREAM !!!!!!

count on me!

Buddha Light

hm two days ago
as i was going to sleep
in vision
i saw balls of light
swirling upwards

of course as usual
i did not realise it was a vision
as i was in it
only when it ended i remembered
was different

so i was that ball of light
and i was following its movements upwards

then when it ended

i saw a black/tanned man
sitting in meditation style...

...it was buddha actually

amazing vision

Challenge

i wonder what beautiful new challenge
i can pick up?
something new of course
a new exciting project

i learned lately
how much i can affect positively
some people's life

that's powerful

same time now i want something new
hm yes something i can be proud of
cause it brought some beauty and easiness
and has ability to spread
cause it is fed by good attention

oh by the way
i was sitting
and a kid came near me
he sat next to me

he looked at me continuously
so i just smiled to him
and all of sudden
he spoke to me and said
"maman"

and he was waiting i reply to his call
i was just dumbfounded
trying to recover mentally
i said nothing

i felt he saw me
actually i felt afraid was new
plus he said it loud
and people were wondering why he called me so

i swear it hit me deep
cause he was speaking to me
i swear he was calling me

he was seeing his mom in me
the word "mother" all of sudden
felt so universal to me..when he called me so

 (you see is what is pure attention about
is to put your attention ONLY and WHOLLY on what you are saying
then you feel the universal power of it
but when you say something and yet part of your mind is wandering
on something else, what power you think it has?...think hard.)

so that boy has all of his mind there
when he said maman
and not to some human, not to some image,
not to my body,
but to "what is here"

you know
like when you become amnesic
and someone comes to you
and call you
by your name?

it hits you
because you recognise your name
you knew it
but somehow you were trying hard to forget
while pretending to recover memory
yet still praying deeply to go on playing hide and seek?

yet you are trying hard to
remember your name?

i felt like that
and i felt caught

the word maman
spontaneously came out of his lips
liek when i spontaneously happen to speak in urdu with some guy who doesn't even speak it!!!
because of the feeling of nearness ...see?

so now it feels like
the inside mother of the boy was looking at the inside mother of me
and calling herself cause she had found herself in the other
as in a mirror