Leap of faith and orbs of lights

Yesterday night
i dreamt that i - as a personality
using my free will
i threw myself into the ocean

while doing this
i said to myself
i should be crazy
who risks its life like that


and it was all dark around

as soon as i did it!

i saw that i had a ball of light
that is my inner light

and that light sent instantly
offshoots
like ropes of lights
to the other balls of lights
who were still on the shore
because the light is One
so it creates connections

that was tremendous
especially when i understood its meaning

that was the vision of higher astral realms
where realised souls appear as balls of light

the balls of lights
are the realised souls
from higher astral planes
and once you take this leap of faith
and surrender to the Shakti within
then it is the way of real surrender

now i understand
why is fearful to surrender
because you surrender to that which is unknown
total Unknown
**goosebumps time**
lol

no
actually even in the vision
i had not time to fear
but i was calling myself real crazy
usually one aims at safety of a routine
but i was aiming at discovering something new
totally new

because you can't limit yourself
with fears
you need to breakthrough
really

few people can do it
to break through their last fears
that's when blessings and grace of the Spirit
are the only support and guidance left

and is also the final realisation.
that's why also advanced yogis are needed


and that Ocean is the Shakti.
Mother of Creation

ahh i feel good
really

and yes
i also realised
at times you do see in news
or "paranormal" activities
orbes of lights described in skies, isn't it?

to my own amazement
that vision taught me
that those orbes of lights
are these realised souls from higher planes
who travel and reach our lower planes
and are caught at times on camera
those little balls of lights :)

so these advanced spirits
are kind of playing as they want
in the 10 realms :)

and imagine
i felt so much coolness in the whole right channel
and especially JOY in the right heart

usually i feel joy in the belly
or in the left heart
but never ever ever
i would spot joy in the right heart
is so unusual place to spot joy

yes for they are from higher planes
and JUST below are the demi-gods
sugoi isn't it?!
and they do this
because they are STILL wanting to experience
hmm this gives you the meaning and thirst of Life
Experience it while being realised
is just the cherry on top of the cake

by the way
it means there are infine possibilities
when one play on these 10 realms
hohoho
IMAGINE the play ground?!
ah but that is the peeping sight of Tomorrow's Land, neh?

ok i will see

anyway demi gods or not
even them they forget the source
so is most important to always remember
the Source within

i feel just happy for it
i guess

sugoi!
so this is WHY
it explains many things

and yes UFO exist

kiss:):x
ps : and i got that vision
which was from my soul
as to the answer i desired the day before
that was special peaceful day
cf preceeding post


so special appreciative
thank you to my soul
to my inner light
ameen.

kisssi:x

I hear Your Voice

Yesterday
i was very much with attention within
my own company was so peaceful

since a very long time
i did not feel like this
like when you get used to noise
and develop impatience
instead of appreciating how everything around you
has been playing its role

so yesterday innerly
i was in touch with my self
really very much
thing is when you are in touch
you don't know you are in touch
because you are in the flow

so if you know
is like you use thoughts to know
which takes you out of the flow

so is only today
that i really realised how much
in the flow i was with my soul

:)
and i know now
the conditions that led to it

when you have noise in your head
that you are not even aware of
due to some routine
you need a trauma
to break everything in your routine

which leads you for sure
to choose
between mess and silence with your self

i went through both
total mess first lol
that is my emotional side
yes being a woman means you have to catch yourself
when you are emotional
and then with time
this time will reduce
when you are caught within
to end up like to be able to choose on the spot
between being emotional or joyful swim on your path

but when i caught myself
i made the conscious choice
to be in touch with myself

this means not to expect
something from myself
even less from anyone

this means not to find
my needs
nor what is expected from me
also to be done

what it means
is to find your true desire

so i remembered that word
and when i turned within
i just realised
that i should be constant with that single-minded focus

this meant not to expect
an answer from my soul
as per my time/space condition

when i realised that
i also felt that when i had that kind of expectation
towards myself
then
i had a sort of anger within me
which is not known to us
when we do stuff
but it is there
and is well hidden
and we are not conscious of it

this is why
if something happen
we would feel bothered
irritated and angered

because we had that nonesensical expectation
why nonesensical?

because if you are truthful
if you really wish to hear the voice of your soul
and to know where you are
and where you are heading
if you want in brief an answer from God

then,
you should let the path open
for God to answer you
so i had created a channel to communicate with God
by remembering and sticking to my pure desire
single-mindedly without confusing it
with some need or request or expectation
for me or from others

once i created that highway
i had forgotten that to hear the reply
i had to let it unblock
with no roadbloacks

and that is not to leave
any feeling of anger
or more subtly
of space/time timing

most important is the What i wish
the How and When is up to God s timing

then i let it go
by promising myself to be in touch
and just remaining open and aware to the reply

and is the funny thing
when you get the reply
you don't even know
because is so much in the flow

and if the person who witnesses it
is also in the flow
there how can you know?
how can you know finally is there?
as you are with the reply at the same time
a bit like one moment
but not two?

because to know what you see it
you need to be a moment apart from the reply moment
and you are two

but when you are the witness of the moment of the reply
then you are the same moment
and there is no two
but one only

and very funnily
i was watching a very beautiful drama
of course korean drama

they are just soulful

and guess what that very drama
name is
"I hear your voice"...

is only today i realised the coincidence

and during it
in a vision
i saw the vision
of a white lady
mother mary
she represents the pure desire
and in nostalgy
she was passing by slowly
near the desk
and lingering her finger on it

i found that very nostalgic
really
and sad too

even know while writing it
i do feel the throat tightening

it is because
when you feel the presence
of the divine
then is normal you feel so
as it is the pure desire itself

i guess
it is what lacks here

a few days back
i realised that
why i was so knowing
of where i was going till the end of my studies?
is because i was in system that protected innocence
of children and students till they graduate

but once you are out of it
you are into another system
and there
there is not really anymore protection
for the innocence

often i said to myself
why they give us rules during school time
if it is to break them all once you work?

anyway,
after it,
when i was just going in my day
or touching stuff
was like i was hearing and talking
to that voice
that was very faint
but i was conversing
without using tongue
 and i could hear
without hearing a real  voice

like even if i touched
a kitchenware
it was as if it was speaking to me
first i thought the kitchenware
as it is an element
may be it is its voice?
but at same time the reply too
was from same level
but was from within

so the voice was the same
so wherever i looked
it was flowing
a flowing voice
a continual communication

that is very calming

anyway i recommand korean
drama
especially this one
so much to say about it
but the major actors say it all
so beautiful life teaching drama it is

and especially that soundtrack is
really lovely
yea i am in love with that soundtrack
especially the beginning! :)

this dram is about hate/love
choices in life
justice/law
retaliation/forgiveness
transformation of people

except for rare american movies
korean drama are the ones
for those  that are really well made
who make me cry most
so beautiful they are

Honeydew perfume

that is how daily things
look like miracle to me :

a few years back
like today
while eating a white honeydew
i got amazed

HOW ON EARTH
is that possible
that its perfume
which is such a volatile set of molecules
has been safeguarded
looong after it being picked up!

is incredible
imagine
it is a perfume
which is being closed
into a ball
and transpires not
so much as to leave the honeydew
emptied of its scent!

on the contrary
the honeydew preserved
the perfume within
thanks to its bark like skin
it let air comes in
and gave its own scent
by letting its own sap
mix with water and being warmed by sun rays
and magically some perfume is created...

and imagine
won't it be same within a human being?
some bodies after death
smell just rotten smell

others
some particular ones
smell roses
these are the body of the saints

but among the living too
if you cultivate good
at times you do feel
that scent is oozing from the tip of your tongue
like now i taste it while i am writing this
is funny

is because our own ki channel
when they open
they testify
like for the fruits
see?
your used your own sap/energy
in your channels
let it be in its equilibrium
ie balanced state
ie by getting in touch
with the right amount of air
and "sun" which is the spirit light
and this created thanks to the shakti powerful effect
the transformation needed for you to smell good

of course
some says the roses is the mark of Mother Mary
well what is the Shakti?
is the Feminine Power
that Mother Mary embodied
as a SIGN of God
to show you that that which you see outside
in her example
is the same inside you

and some says they
felt the perfume of that or that saint
like jasmine flower and so on

is because in your nabhi all
of these masters
people who have reached mastery
are present in it
not as the mind conceive
but as a network of balls of light
all connected one with the other
to form that Higher Being
that is the SPirit
in the manifesting realm

so those who got annoyed off
by reading me mention Imam Ali
knows that is same as if you are being pissed off
reading me talking about Jesus
for me all the saints are from the Same Source
one does not get without the other
their are from the same Tree Sap
and they form energetically that Harmony
which can be certainly seen,
heard,
and even smelt

and you can never reach that equilibrium
and even less witness that Harmony outside
unless you reach it inside :)

capish? ;)

kiss and love to all:x

Experimenting Shakti for healing - 2

so when i left hands during 2h
by the end of it
the knot felt unknot
and instead a vein going leftwards
started to hurt a bit

later it felt as if this heavy energy accumulated
in the elbow area
and then when down
in the rest of the arm

my body felt really
a weather broadcast
for from heart to face
it flushed HOT HOT HOT
then same from heart to back of ears
and then this arm
felt heavy stone like
with icy pricklings
and then like a watery pipe
being emptied!
and all going out
from the fingers
especially the first three ones
and especially the nabhi one
and later the two others

during this time
i kept attention
on the place of these sensations
and each time to check if
the knot has disappear
from the heart
i took spontaneously
a deep breath from the belly

with the intent
that the shield all over the body
should be a unique one
ie not some bits cool here and there
but one vast mantel of coolness

which was not the case
at the very beginning of meditation
as i could feel that knot

so i kept checking
with the breath
how the knot felt
in its size
and if that belly energy was joining
the heart one
and making one
with it

this process
of feeling
energy stored in elbow
and then being flushed
through the fingers
repeated itself 5-6 times!
and FINALLY
no more knot
no more hurt
at the heart!

so i took a deep breath
and felt it unified from
belly to heart
definitely!

by the end
i completed the cycle
and when i put my hand
on the forehead...
it felt my hands being HUGE
and the forehead like
a tiny dried nut!
into my hand..!!

so why 5 or 6 times
is because each time you
cleanse one layer
another layer
at a new level
comes up
so the purification
is ongoing

so when a new level is reached
you feel the pricks
like a beginners

thing is one should
TRUST that your Shakti
is doing her job
and not care about
you controlling the process
or why this happens etc.

so my intent was
Shakti knows when
to purify or not
and as for me
as my hands are a tool
i just keep them
where i feel is needed
like that seed which bothered me
since loooooooooong
in the heart

so as it as an intensive meditation
i could see its sign today
and now
when i woke up
rigth after
i could feel the fountain
flowing
as a unified shield
from head to toes
and i jsut stayed with it

for the purpose is to stay
with the sensations of the shield
over your body
after having raised the energy

from belly to top of head
to hands back to belly
and then same but through the legs

this is activating the shield

after activating the shield
i did the cycles
AS LONG AS i was not feeling 
it cool
and once i did
i STAYED with the vibes
thus attention on the shield
closed eyes and let shakti purify

so today i stayed may be
15min or so
twice

lazy girl today
hahaha
but i did the most important
to stay with the shield

yesterday was really
to purify that knot bothering me
and heal thereby the heart
and the other good effect
was the right  vishuddhi
connected to it
which healed too

Experimenting Shakti for healing - 1

so yesterday morning
i started the walking meditation
and i felt a knot aching at the heart
so i just hold hands there
as the cupping of hands last not long
i get easily tired
i put right hand there
and left on top of it

actually i realised
it is EXACTLY as muslim prayer
when you are in the standing position

so amazing really
indeed muhammad (pbuh) Wisdom
was divine
by then it could not be explained
for there are level of understanding
this is why in his last sermon
he said
"transmit my words to those that are not present
they may understand better than you"
something along this line

and i had always loved this statement
because it gave me meaning
to seek deeper for truth

so this hand holding
became ritual
without the spiritual transmission
meaning
attention out
on the very ritual
instead of WHERE your hands are pointing at!

like bruce lee
when he shows the moon to his student
and lol hit the head of him
as instead of looking at moon
he was looking at the finger hehehe
we always found that one funny

same with rituals
instead of looking at where the hands are pointing to
we look at the ritual as a stand alone thing in its own

besides in the movie
Tomorrow's Land
there was this say
how the hands heal
when they are in contact with the earth

 anyway
as i had a talk on healing a day before
i said to myself
why not heal that knot i am feeling in the heart
for it often comes back
since past 3 years especially

so let's heal it
and i remembered
that if you put your hand
on the place that needs healing
safer with yourself oki?
for an hour
and this without moving your hands
from an inch
then this heals
so i wanted to try

combined with the walking meditation
as legs evacuate the energy through feet
it must work better!

by the way
this is why i need not to do footsoak
as my energy goes through the legs
out to the feet
and most of time i do feel coolness there
why use water coolness
when i can use my Shakti's?

is like saying
why muslim do ablution
well is on mental form
the use of water
the Shakti is the evolved
and most efficient form
one should strive to feel it
in the feet too

so i let hands on the heart
and walked for an hour
and the knot disappeared
may be for a few seconds only
i sat
and i felt it again!

this time i said
i better renounce it not
like last time
and heal it!
for i felt it was the one linked
to the betrayal stuff
usually who cares to what it is linked
but as for me that is a laaaaaaaaaaaastttttttting stuff
i really wanted to heal it
though for any hurt you feel
you should have same intent
even though you knew not the cause

and the FUNNY thing IS
that this was a happening going back
to my childhood!
when i was just a few years old!
and then the seed grew up
being fed by circumstances
and i kept projecting the betrayl issue on others
without me knowing
it was me all the way who projected it
so no one is to be blamed
as we are just One Spirit
THOUGH
if the Experience happened
you need to be two
to make it happen
and so if I projected it
the other was drawn to it
like a magnet
because they TOO
had the seed in them to betray
and as my behavior authorised this
they felt free to do so

so this is about the process
and the cause
which no one needs really to stop onto
but i did
for i was really curious
and honestly it sucked me
and i wanted really to know
the PROCESS
because i AM curious lol

but promise no more
cause seeking
just BE and Love all in spirit
... oki...juuuuust after i straightened them up lol
hehehe me too i need to give back the change
but i don't intend to stick to that
just for the fun of the moment

oki
then,
i re-started the walking
and this time i did again an hour

i tell you guys
i felt like being a
weather broadcast station!

i felt my eyesight getting wider
like thick clouds went off!
from 45° to 180 ° for sure!

why?
because there are layers
energetic layers
so it feels like the covers are removed
once denser ones were removed
i could see more

and also
the most amazing stuff
is what i experienced about
the energy
moving
from heart to finger tips.

i will detail it in my next post
cf coming post
good night