Average meditation lesson

some people at meditation center
are real weirdo

my weekly experience
:))

i arrive
lesson starts
and the guy
speaks speaks speaks speaks
45min later still speaking...

and after :
let's start now speaking of Shri mataji biography
speak speak speak
no speak speak

1hour later since beginning of our lesson ... :

ok let's balance ourselves.

let me fall from my chair
right now
imagine me falling from chair!!

will he EVER EVER EVER
say
let's MEDITATE

for i expected meditation
to start there
at least
please...

no balancing is just starting now
when meditation starts?
5min before the end?

lucky me
during all his speak time
i was meditating

yet,
as appalling as it may be
there is everything except meditation

for the person could ask us
to raise our energy
and then talk
like this we would have something activated

meditation had not even started when i had to leave
yea well you see at quarter past an hour of a speech
i presume that people want to meditate at some point no?

i have quota of fun - FULL great!
my quota of individual meditation - FULL great!
yet qualitywise quota of collective meditation is far from full


hmm,
 
oh but wait,
i see hope in the horizon ...

To the Spirit in you and me

I am so happy that Shakti exists
i was so ignorant of Her being in me
and Life pain pushed me to receive Her in gift

I was still ignorant how to properly cultivate Her in me
and you the Spirit
taught me what i knew not

so that me too today
and yesterday
i realised
that one day i will indeed Receive the Full Face of God
in all Its Glory
and it will beam out from me as it beams out from you

is just that i knew not
and how can i knew?
can a dead mind know anything new?

never in any life times

you taught me
that if i turn my full attention, my full face
on my Shakti within
then, She too will turn Her full attention, full face on me

for,
you and me
are God within

yes,
you are god within, but you must watch it, in order for him(or her) to watch you back
for...
what YOU LOVE..always LOVES YOU back

and i saw in vision
that the turning of our full face towards Her

was like
a seed that was turning its full face towards the sun
and AS me,  the seed, was watching the sun rays
this allowed the sun rays to sink in me
and nourish me
and this is the Sun watching me back

for
what i love, always love me back

and this is how
the seed opens up its petals
not by a hand that would have made it dust
this is the human way to force things to open

but by the divine Hand
who opened up the petals

had the seed remained face turned on its own
thoughts of "how to"
it would have never turned its Full Face towards the sun
and would have never been nourished

and it is so
that you, the Spirit,
showed me that for sure
this is the way

to  be given the Face of God
and that God is already within
and no mind form, can indeed realise it
only a fresh new mind divinely shaped can
and this is the beginning of enlightenement
sinking from the mind from head to toes
showering you as if you were one piece of a wet clothe
wearing one clothe is the path to the Unity within

wearing patched clothes is associating thoughts as your masters
above the One and Only Master that is the Spirit within
and Spirit clothes you in One Garment from head to toe

if i ever have to give one advice
is to be honest with yourself
this is how you will learned from Life
and as Life will teach you
and if you are an honest good student of Life
then, you too when you will share your experience
will be teaching others
and only those who have set the Spirit as Goal
will be pleased by your teachings
and not bothered

for you are meant to be pleasant
but not pleasing people

you are meant to teach
not because you are a teacher
but because you were a good pupil from Life who is your teacher
and a good pupil
when he shares
without effort and fluently
his words feel like teachings to others
while they are just honest testimony of his or her Life

i am honest and the only thing i expect is respect
there is no respect
means there is no sharing, no teaching
which will be gracefully accepted

i value the teaching of the Spirit
and will keep sharing it
because that is true sharing is for

generosity starts from heart
and heart is the center of your Life experience
what experience your heart gather
is what it is willing to pour out
so that it may be filled again anew

Life is so sacred
how can one demand to a student of Life
to be less of a teacher?
are you asking him to be less of a student?

for remember
only good students, make good teachers

and the seed is not even conscious of itself
being a student or a teacher
it just follows in all honesty its path
of turning her face to the Shakti
and at her tur the Shakti will give her
when the time will come
the Face of God

for this is my aim
this is why i life for
has never been a lip service
and will never ALLOW myself to please others

i am pleasant but not pleasing
i am honest and i expect to share
if this sharing becomes a teaching
so be it

but never try to usurpate Life Itself
and teach me HOW i, as a seed, should grow
capish?

seed grows and opens up her petals
by the divine Hands of God
not by human hands

otherwise seed will become dust
and if seed dies not, its petals opened by hands
will be spoilt
and the flower will die

Live the Life for your OWN Glory
for you are ALL the Glory of God within
and really writing it
it pains me to feel
how much imitation is around
and no authenticity

do not try to look or be "perfect"
perfection emanates from you when you are natural

be natural
lovingly, spontaneously, smilingly share your OWN life experience
just be yourself

do not assume attitudes
what works for one does not work for another
this is why is paramount to be yourself

concern with yourself
not with others
be honest

you are in charge of no one but you
from personal experience today
i saw how life is short

is funny
since i got self realisation
i never had met so many people myself included
on the verge of death

i always knew
that is not death that afraid me
is if i would be saved after death

and for people that i love
is not their death which afraid me
but is being unable to ever meet such loving people again

for their spirit shines
so much :)
that i am in love with that and got used to it

and yes i know
what i love in them, is the part of me that i am seeing in them
so they and i are like one
this is no for nothing
that i had seen my own face in the other

but if such good loving people die
my mirror would disappear
and i would never ever be able to see such love again

because very rare are those who are superior to you by Love
because they have realised it they are Love
this is enlightenment

so how can one not be ambitious enough
to wish for full self realisation
for full enlightenement
for full Love

as it produces such beautiful Loving people?

me too i want to be like these
me too i am
is just that i know it not ...yet :)

Sun rays width changed

as i was working
again suddenly
i saw these very sun rays coming out
from front of me, more
from my left handside

this time the rays
were of a 3 cm width

they have changed size
before they used to be 1cm

i am so much writing
nowadays
i don't have time to update the blog everyday
i need a software which translate into text what i say
hmm, a reliable one
may be will be quicker

i had one
but of no use
a stubborn app
which knows not when to start
when i wish it to start lol
hope to find a decent one

have a nice summer? day lol
i feel already in summer

kiss:x

Cinderella -spoilers

Ah beau-ti-ful movie that this Cinderella from Disney

when a child i was very fond of reading such magic stories
but nowadays Disney just contribute to create a world full of magic
by adapting so finely such classics

the effect of the dress movement
the sparkling colors
of course the beautiful and so well chosen music
in the background
and i am certainly forgetting much precious details

ah in times like this
i wish i have a tape recorder of my heart
and then i press a button
and everything is jotted down there

because i can't rest
till i write it down
some stuff were so much becoming evidence to me
that i HAD to use my mobile phone
just to write it

imagine
i think i am the girl
who uses most her phone in the world
as a notebook to my own self
instead of using it as a phone

incredibly funny seen like this
grossely,
i write to myself all the time hahaha
yea read like this is really funny hehehe


so let's start with the movie itself

Cinderella is a 2015 American romantic fantasy film directed by Kenneth Branagh, from a screenplay written by Chris Weitz. Produced by David Barron, Simon Kinberg and Allison Shearmur for Walt Disney Pictures, the story is inspired by Charles Perrault's eponymous fairy tale. Although not a direct remake, the film borrows many elements from Walt Disney's 1950 animated musical film of the same name.^[5] The film stars Lily James as Ella ("Cinderella"), Cate Blanchett as Lady Tremaine (the Wicked Stepmother), Richard Madden as Prince Charming, Sophie McShera as Drisella, Holliday Grainger as Anastasia and Helena Bonham Carter as the Fairy Godmother.
Cinderella had its world premiere on February 13, 2015, at the 65th Berlin International Film Festival. It was released on March 13, 2015. The film was both critically and commercially successful; it grossed over $474 million worldwide and received praise for the performances, particularly those of Blanchett, Bonham Carter and James, the direction, visuals, and its faithfulness to the spirit and magic of the original Disney animated classic.

Plot[edit]

Ella lives with her wealthy parents on a beautiful estate in a peaceful kingdom. From a young age, she is taught by her mother to believe in the existence of magic, allowing her to befriend many animals on the estate, particularly the mice. Everything is perfect until her mother contracts an illness and dies. On her deathbed, she makes Ella promise that she will always have courage and show kindness to others. Years later, when Ella is a teenager, her father marries Lady Tremaine, the widow of an old acquaintance, who has two daughters: Drisella and Anastasia. Ella welcomes her stepfamily, despite the stepsisters' unpleasant attitudes and her need to protect her mouse friends from her stepmother's cat, Lucifer.
Soon after, Ella's father goes abroad on business, promising his stepdaughters gifts of luxury. His own daughter merely asks for the first branch to brush against his shoulder on the way. While he is gone, Lady Tremaine begins to gradually reveal her true cold, cruel and jealous nature, persuading Ella to sleep in the attic and let Drisella and Anastasia have her room. Soon they receive word that Ella's father has fallen ill and died. Desperate for money, Lady Tremaine dismisses the servants and forces Ella to do all their work; later she refuses to let Ella eat with the family. One cold evening, Ella sleeps by the fireplace for warmth. The next day, she rises with her face covered in cinders. Her stepsisters consequently mock her as "Cinderella" - a taunt in which Lady Tremaine joins.
Crushed by her stepfamily's cruelty, Ella goes for a ride into the woods, where she encounters a hunting party in pursuit of a handsome stag. She meets one of the hunters, who claims to be an apprentice named Kit who lives in the palace. Unknown to her, he is actually the only son of the land's dying king. Despite never learning her name, Kit (a nickname given to him by his father) is enchanted by Ella's charm, kindness, and unique outlook on life and becomes infatuated with her. On learning that he has little time left, the King insists that Kit find a bride at an upcoming ball. Although Kit is required to marry a princess, he can't get over the mystery girl, and he persuades his father to let every eligible maiden in the land attend.
When the ball is announced, the Tremaine family is ecstatic at the prospect of marrying into royalty. However, when Lady Tremaine refuses to buy Ella a new dress, Ella fixes up an old pink dress of her mother's with help from the mice. On the night of the ball, Ella tries to join her stepfamily on the way out. Lady Tremaine, claiming that her mere presence will disgrace them, goads her daughters into helping her rip up the dress before leaving without her. Ella runs into the garden in tears, where she encounters an old beggar woman, who reveals herself to be her fairy godmother. She uses her magic to reveal her true form and subsequently to turn a pumpkin into a magnificent carriage, four mice into horses, two lizards into footmen, and a goose into a coachman. She then transforms Ella's dress into a gorgeous blue gown, complete with a delicate pair of glass slippers before sending her on her way with the warning that the spell only lasts until midnight.
At the ball, the entire court is entranced by Ella, especially Kit. She wins the coveted first dance with him, whose true identity she is pleasantly surprised to learn. This irritates the Grand Duke, who secretly promised Kit to a specific princess—a fact that Lady Tremaine overhears. After dancing, Ella and Kit tour the palace and grounds together. But before he can learn her name, the clock begins to strike twelve, forcing her to flee and accidentally drop one of her glass shoes at the palace stairs in the process. She manages to get away before the stroke of midnight and hides the other shoe in her room as a memento, reasonably content that her one night will become a beautiful memory.
Soon after, the King dies, but not before giving his son permission to find the girl and marry her if he wishes. After Kit becomes king, he has it announced that every maiden in the kingdom is to try on the shoe. Ella goes to her room to get the other shoe, only to find her stepmother waiting with it in her hand. Lady Tremaine has deduced that Ella is the mystery maiden. She demands to be made the head of the royal household if Ella marries Kit. She also demands that Ella ensure that Drisella and Anastasia get proper husbands as well. Ella refuses, so Lady Tremaine smashes the shoe and locks her in the attic. She then brings the shattered shoe and identity of the mystery girl to the Grand Duke and blackmails him into rewarding her with the title of countess and advantageous marriages for her daughters. The Duke takes the shattered shoe to Kit, hoping to persuade him to forget the mystery girl, but this makes Kit more determined than ever to find her.
The Grand Duke and the captain of the guards lead a mission to try the remaining shoe on all the maidens in the land, but it fits none of them. When they arrive at the Tremaine estate, the shoe fits neither of the stepsisters. The officers turn to leave, only to hear Ella singing ("Lavender's Blue") through a window that the mice opened for that purpose. The Grand Duke tries to leave anyway, but one of the men reveals himself to be Kit in disguise and demands that the captain investigate the sound. Once Ella is found, Lady Tremaine forbids her to try on the shoe on the grounds that she is Ella's mother, but is overruled by the captain. Ella then curtly tells Lady Tremaine that she is not, and never has been, her mother. She and Kit are finally reunited. Kit recognizes Ella even without the shoe, which fits perfectly. The Grand Duke and the stepsisters plead for forgiveness. Ella leaves with Kit after forgiving her stepmother, who leaves the kingdom with her daughters and the Grand Duke.
At the wedding, Kit and Ella are crowned as the new king and queen. The Fairy Godmother narrates that they become the land's most beloved monarchs, ruling with the courage and kindness Ella had promised her mother, and they live happily ever after.

source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cinderella_(2015_film)



as for my own impressions
jotted down freshly from the movie


i love the fairy part
when she threw her wand up in the sky
it formed a ladder up to it
in the form of the dna structure


and prior to it

she was an ugly shrivelled old woman
and suddenly she transformed herself into
this beautiful sparkling younger fairy

as if it showed as a metaphor
how everything is meant to evolve to a higher beauty
if it follows this ascending course of her wand, oups, of the dna evolution

in the same track
all of the little present creation
was handily transformed to a higher more evolved role
to serve the beautiful princess
indeed she is the princess of her own life and dream
as her parents made her be so "in spirit"
though as it was said in the beginning of movie
yes a princess but without realm, castle or title

this too become materialised
thanks to her own fuel of "bravery and benevolence"
she fulled her dna to ascend enough to
make her dream, what she believes in
such as these both valued taught by her mom
and supported by her father
to be their little princess of their kingdom

marvellously,
at the end,
she indeed  becomes the princess of this very kingdom
not because she was not already a princess
for she has been developping these qualities in her own self
and nurturing them
but because the balance, the right alchemy was missing
between bravery and benevolence

indeed, life, such as impersonated by her mother and sister in law
taught her how to practice benevolence
after having "claimed" in it all of these previous years
and she succeeded in it all the way

yet, what was wanting in her
was bravery
to say no to those who plan against the interest of the kingdom
and interest, even the best at "heart" which is a thriving and strong kingdom
with military allies
is NOT the truth
for the truth of this very kingdom is listening to its heart

and the heart of the kingdom is in need of contact with its inner self
impersonated by the prince and princess to be

the prince being in need of more benevolence towards its people
and this benevolence being to appointe a loving queen to it
vs a queen for a military alliance
and this requires to be in touch with its loving heart to go against its own tradition and expectation from
others and all ethiquettes stuff





and for the princess was about to get in touch with her own bravery
and say no to this unjustly behaving mother in law

to say no to someone
when it takes too much control over your life

is not only for you 
but is also for all of your own kingdom
you are in charge of your own kingdom
if you want to become its princess
see?

such a wise metaphor this cartoon is

and her first realisation was
when she was serving them out of benevolence
till the day pain hit her heart
and she realised "the power of the word"
which lowered her
literally by naming her as such :

when she was called cendres + souillon
which means in french ashes+ a very unclean girl
hence her name cendr-illon, the french for the cinderella

hence she realised that day
thanks to the pain inflicted
by the in-laws
that benevolence limits are those were bravery should start
and this
in the name of her own true self
who she is (like when she asks the prince if he is ready to accept her as she is)




in the name of her own inner and later
literally speaking outer kingdom

for the outer is created
by the resonance of the inner

and she created the kingdom
which looked like her




this is why by the way
yesterday i realised
something

though i watched the movie only today

is that negativity
in truth
exists not

somehow i saw as in a vision
in front of me
that our qualities
our godly qualities
are many
and are like test tubes
filled with their liquid of light
and we as a computer
should learn to level the test tube liquid
to an optimum level
so that a baricenter
our own balance be reached
and we act as a "working" human being/living computer

let s say you have two test tube
one filled with the liquid say of intelligence
and another filled with the liquid of honesty/sincerity

in my case
i was so much used to use  honestly in action
that i forgot to use intelligence in action

meaning
i kept giving excuses or assuming
people acted so and so because of this and  this excuse
but life helped me to realise
that i should now be using and levelling up
my other test tube
and that is the one of using intelligence
to see people as they are
and stop giving them hundreds of excuse

so incredibly well timed this cartoon is today
the word was said by cinderalla in the cartoon
when the prince asked her in the forest
why your mother in law acted so

she said sth like "is all that she can/or is able to do"
and her state showed her "all"...

i found what a true yet painful reply for her
if she had heard it

is all, indeed her evolution at present,
which only let her be of that 'low level' towards life


oh yea back to my right synergy
of test tubes aka our godly qualities that we are meant to impersonate
once the fine balance found
there is, we realise, no more "lack"

what lack was
was actually
disproportionaletly used test tubes
if you use more benevolence but disregard/pay no attention to bravery
your balance is wrong
and magic happens not

and there is not a test tube called "poverty"
poverty was just only benevolence being used
and bravery forgotten
once she started to use it more and more
it developped enough for her to reach her balance
and become a princess

inbetween
the accumualted let s say good karma of her benevolence
let her meet her fairy
ie her own benevolence in shape of a magical woman
who can be called her past good deeds impersonated into a fairy
hence this power accumulated by good deeds
become the fuel of her magic
when she needed it most in her dire time
to attend the royal party 


the transformation of the pumpkin
and lizard and mouses into higher evolved stuff
cf evolution in action lol
as her dna ascending ladder symbolises
evolution

they have evolved to serve the humanity
here the princess at hand

but as goes the rule
the magic itself is not eternal
only till midnight
remember is the reward of her good deeds
(like the milk she gave to her when she was a beggar)

so magic is a temporary path
created for you to enjoy till you are there
as the lizard said by the way to her

and is for you the opportunity to
live your dream
at least to work for its next step

there so many others signs i could just down
like how sad is
but that is evolution teachings
the mother in law could only see her own two daughters
as her savior in terms of richness
but could not see cinderella as her already easy peasy savior
as she was from the same family
she made her own path harder for nothing
because blinded by jealousy

this is why i firmly have ever believed
that all we need is there
right under our own eyes
for everything is like universe
in each group microcosm
there is this jewel, this sun
which is your savior
and gives you the clues to evolve
but rare are the people who have eyes to see
because of their inner blindness they are victims of
till time is gone
and people who were jewels to their evolution too

but hey this is evolution
and is natural
but all the right question is
how much did you benefit from it
how much time you saved
and used constructively

other symbols
i love saying it in german
schmetterling
butterflies on her dress
they represent like freedom in spirituality
yes like when i used to see the kundalini like butterflies in the sky

yea this is on the dress of the princess to be
her clothes are like in islam
a metaphor of her action
action towards her freedom

so is her next dress symbolically blue
like the schmetterling flying up high in her spring time blue sky
sparkling sky

or have you also noticed
when at his dying bed the dying king
say to his son
now you are free
for he learned to put his attention within his own kingdom
when he said
father why do we need outside alliances
should we not see own riches
we already have it all in us, within

ok these are my words
but he said something along these lines

same with cinderella
she is the metaphor of the slave girl
who became free at the end
by finding and fighting for her inner truth

to find truth
you have to believe
in some values
and try them out
and fight for them
and then you can really test veracity of your belief
the one you put in them
and the beauty is
wherever you start from
with whatever belief
in whatever value

you CAN find truth and
see improvement in your situation

if no belief
be it EVEN disbelieve
you CAN T come to a fruitful conclusion

so the worst are not disbeliever
i would say believer and disbeliever
both have merit to believe in something
for disbelieving in sth is believing in something else

the worst are those who have no standing
nothing
for they have no desire

may be this is why hypocrisy
is the worst
for is the greatest self cheating
for your built nothing
neither for you
nor for the others

another fine point
is the cleverness and refinement of this cartoon movie
the screen writer
put a human face on cinderella mother in law
he made her not just a block of evilness
from which you can't see beginning and end of it

he showed how
evil is sth that you subtly spread
like a cobweb
under the feet of others

watch well
she was subtely
degrading cinderella
by rationalising her degradation
(like live upstair under roof, more fresh air
while is so unclean and cold etc.)

so that she feels not that her decision
which were flagrant decision against her daughter in law
be taken as such
she used social sweetness to break her position

so that cinderella home became her home
not in terms of sharing
but in terms of possession
in terms of excluding the other for replacing it with another

and this cinderella noticed it not
till her heart broke
when she saw that all her benevolence
was not EVEN felt, noticed or recognised
therefore NO appreciation
but was only aimed at using her up
and degrading her

only the pain
let her know the limit of benevolence
and stupidity of not fighting for her values
which are courage AND benevolence

therefore
we KNOW always
how to act
how to fix our own limit
once we SEE and recognise
natural limits

this is the way to identify your relationship
with people
not because of social standards of what "goodness"
should be
otherwise at this rate
you will become and remain a slave

true freedom
is earned
by being true to yourself
to your chosen value
that you test with your life
against Life Itself!

so, the mother in law
ended up turning everything upside down
and even victimising herself!
saying she ended up with a daughter of another man
while she is without money to support herself and her own daughters

see the narrow mindedness?
where it leads to ?
it leads to your own misery
this is how misery exist
for we have somehow accepted to lie to ourselves
and not see the situation as it is

had she with an open heart accepted
the gift from life
and appreciated it and thanked Life
for having got a roof and a loving daughter
she would have only reaped goodness from the fate of her daughter in law
for we all know the destiny of that child

instead she preferred misery for her daughter in law
and reaped it and shame for herself too


see
this cartoon was filled with gems
all the way for me to pick up
and was delicious really
and at times jsut some scenes
with the syngergy of music were so well timed
and well done
that i could just feel and see my own thought forms
on the spot
my own imagination
unfolfing, unrolling like a beautiful leaf
and showing all the magnificient possibilities of life

was glorious golden
schmetterling
unfolding of life
in myself
and in front of myself
and in the cinema screen

also i read somewhere
when in indigeneous culture
you went to see true shaman
for your lack of joy in life and your afflictions






when did you stop singing?
when did you stop dancing?
when did you stop being charmed by stories?  (aka fairy tales lol)
and the last one,

when did you stop finding comfort
in the soft field of silence...


and at the end of the fairy tales
cinderella
no :) as name bears power
the new princess
turned back and say "i forgive you"
to the tyrannical mother in law

and she and the duke and her daughters
left the kingdom... as said in the fairy tales

meaning
these sufferings... as it was said at the start of the movie
left the kingdom...
and they departed
where?

may be like the lizard and the goose
they got transformed
this is why they "departed"

they could "depart"
only because she let her (pains) go
logic
but is how stuff are transformed
when you entrust them to God Hands of this Soft Silence in you
and He surely transform your life into a new one
otherwise why do we say "to be born anew" and "to enter God Kingdom"?

lol hey apparently
was your own kingdom allllll the way
you were just not, like in this movie, ready to see it

and i just know this....


and they lived happily
ever
after...

i bet you thought they literally left
to some outside kingdom?
no? :))
i know you did
because your attention was outside
and not inside
for nothing is lost, all is transformed...
- Lavoisier (French chemist)

Movies are projection of our desires

i understood one thing
that we project the part of us which
we feel is missing in us

in fact it is not "missing"
is just not yet into our power
to manifest it out
and experience it

like
obvious example are movies
asian, indian movies
show love stories among a man and a woman
be honest

in india
in average traditional society
women are servants at least
respected mothers at best

but no freelance lover
to the spouse to be before marriage
and even less flirty wife after marriage
her role with time becomes that of a matrone
at best
for in most of cases they remain in a servant like position
if not kitchen slave like one

i am giving gross example
but in essence is true
you won't see a to be wed girl
as in bollywood
and EVEN LESS a wife as such

why?
because this love life is missing there
for family and tradition and mother in law
have a heavy weight and limit such behavior
of course i am not for excess of unhealthy behavior
but i am pointing at the projection

projecting in movies
the weakest part of us
that need to be manifested and to exist
because we had not found in us the
tool to make it happen
no outlet other than movies

same to my dismay
i learned that in japan
porn industry is very much developped
more than in west

why?
because the sex life is missing there
japanese people are all smiling in real life
but is hard to have the guts to flirt there
so they manifest it by using this porn industry
as an outlet as a support

so an outsider
which see bollywood movies
or any other movies
like american with their national heroes

will say oh what a loving, or heroic
people they are
in fact is just what they are reaching out for!
lol

they are in need of materialising
this love in their life
this flirting
this heroic deeds

in a way
movies are excellent for self knowledge
of a country
if followed up with self reform
if you know ah ok is my weak point
then you can understant it is your desire
and you can fulfill it
by manifesting it truly in your life