My Beloved cousin

I have some very funny encounter


I was going out to cinema with a long no see cousin
he came from abroad
like a sun arising

lol as mom said

anyway,
the very night
i received a phone call
of a very curious couple
who asked me what 's up

and as i am quite a sincere person
i told the surprising encounter i had today

but you see
the lady was NOT expecting me
to speak of it
for

she and her friend
expected otherwise

especially because
they happend to see me at the cinema
with that guy

lol
that they were
trying to categorise

why?
why is it so important to categorise a he?

what the challenge is here at stake for them?

when i see one of them
with some other guy or girl
do i categorise their 'partner'

so they calculation went
as such
a brother?
no way too old
a father?
let's see no, not old enough

a secret lover?
you mean another one than her fiancé?!


bingo!
this is how human mind works
PROJECTION

we project on others
OF WHAT WE ARE

if our mind is unclean
due to our OWN weirdo
experience of crossing limits of morality
then we are SUSPICIOUS of the other

indeed
for we suspect from the other
the worse
especially if we don't EXPECT
the other in a new situation 

why?
because it reassures their inner guilt :
oh yea!
then i am not the only one
to have a "romantic affair" after cinema

hahaha

so that is what they were thinking

ONE ALWAYS PROJECT ON THE OTHER
ACCORDING TO ONE'S OWN LIFE HYGIENE
MORALITY
AND ETHICS
SPIRITUALITY IN ACTION

and so on

remember the story of the saint and of the sinner?

two guys at night time met
one was a sinner going to night club to have some "romantic affair" after lol
and the other a saint going to some prayer retreat

the latter seeing the other
thought
"what a good guy,
look at night time going to pray to God"

and the sinner
look at the other
said
"lol, look at him
playing the saint,
i caught you
are you are no more worthy than me
you are planning to chase women
in a hidden way
under your priest garb"

see?

same here
world is a mess
because of the JUDGEMENT of people
which most of the time is ERRONEOUS
and ONLY a projection of their OWN

life ethics, hygiene, moral and low level of spirituality

on the spot
i laughed
after i was seriously angry at such a behavior
but after i remembered
me too i would be judging if i linger on that feeling

therefore i chose to laugh them and let go

so what count for me
is that i had a fun time with my sun
my dear beloved cousin
not seen since so long

he was so happy from me and my family warm welcome
that he invited me to join him
whenever i plan to

you bet my dear cousin
you touched my heart with your heatfelt thanks email
for you are one of the rarest person
whose heart is touched by feeling of appreciation

for very few people
have the ability to receive that which is below the surface/the material
that which is deeper
and that is called a loving feeling of the heart

just to be able to FEEL
this warmth from the other
this ability
to catch the feeling and care

secondly, to admit being touched by it 
and to appreciate it
and merely thank the person

is one of the most beautiful gift of sincerity i have ever received lately

because THAT IS AN AUTHENTIC RELATIONSHIP

such people
when they will get their self realisation
will be WAY further than those who have it lately
why?

because they cultivated below the surface
by using heart for authenticity
than for just being material
under PRETEXT of imposing high standards to others
while themselves being low in spirituality
and even fearing its deepness
due to their western conditioning

the LAST will be the FIRST :x

The Giver

THE GIVER

Wonderful movie!

here for the synopsis : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Giver_%28film%29

Plot :
In the year 2048, after a war, the community has decided to get rid of different races and feelings. All the citizens have had their memories erased; except for the Receiver of Memory. Since the Receiver of Memory is the only individual in the community who has the memories from before, he must advise the Chief Elder, and the other Elders, on the decisions for the community.
Jonas is a 16 year old teenager who is anxious about the career he will be assigned (along with everyone else). He has two best friends: Asher and Fiona.
On the day of graduation, everyone is assigned a career. Jonas is briefly skipped, as he has not been assigned a career. Instead, Jonas is to become the next Receiver of Memory, and progressively receive memories from the past receiver, The Giver. Upon assuming his role as The Receiver, Jonas learns of the Giver's past and of his child, Rosemary. She preceded Jonas as Receiver of Memory, and was so distraught from the memories that she committed suicide, by what the Community calls releasing. They regard its nature as mysterious; the audience learns that it is death by lethal injection. Jonas begins to teach his findings to his friend Fiona, with whom he decides to share the idea of emotions. Fiona, who is unable to fully comprehend the idea of emotion, is unsure how she feels. Jonas then kisses Fiona, an action which is antiquated and unknown to the community, which Jonas gained through memory.
Jonas also shares his memories with the baby his father brought home to their house, Gabe, and develops a close relationship with him after discovering he shares the same mark on his wrist Jonas does, the mark of a potential Receiver of Memory. Jonas decides that everyone should have the memories of the past and eventually, the Giver and Jonas decide that the only way they can help the community is to go past the border of what they call Elsewhere, beyond the community, therefore releasing the memories back into the community. Jonas sneaks out at curfew, and decides to get Gabe at the Nurturing Center, who is to be released due to his general weakness. Asher, his other longtime friend besides Fiona, tries to stop him before he leaves the neighborhood, but Jonas quickly punches him. Asher lies on the ground, stunned, and Jonas rides his bike to the Nurturing Center. He tells Fiona his plan and wants to take her with him, but she refuses and instead helps him retrieve Gabe. Before he leaves, she kisses him and helps him escape.
Meanwhile Jonas's mother and Asher, go to the Chief Elder to tell them Jonas is missing. Guards are sent to contain Jonas, who they say has become "dangerous", but Jonas gets one of their motorcycles and drives off the cliff near the Giver's dwelling into "The Elsewhere". Asher is assigned, by the Chief Elder, to use a drone to find Jonas and "lose" him but when Asher finds Jonas stumbling through the woods, he captures him with the drone. After Jonas implores Asher to think that if he ever cared for Jonas to let him go, Asher drops him into a river, setting him free. Jonas stumbles through the land of Elsewhere, while Fiona has been condemned to be "released" for helping him. Just as she is about to be released by Jonas's father, the Giver steps in and stalls the Chief Elder with memories of his daughter, Rosemary, trying to call out the Chief Elder, in which she succeeded. Jonas's mother begins to cry starting to understand the feeling of love. Eventually, Jonas finds a sled like one he rode in a memory from the Giver and makes his way beyond the border of Elsewhere, releasing memories and color back into the community and saving Fiona because Jonas's father realizes what he was really doing. Jonas and Gabe return to the house of his memories, where people are singing Christmas carols, and his voiceover says that back in the community, he swears he hears music too, or possibly just an echo.

End of wiki quote.



i am in LOVE with maker of such movies
FIRST time in my life that i have so much wondered about the movie maker
DURING the movie

beautiful people who had this soul passion
of sharing their TRUE love for humanity
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Giver_%28film%29
very symbolic
the guy had to reach the far off limit of "human memory"
so that the "awakening" of the humanity happens

of course is very "terrestrial" of reaching a border

but the symbolism is there!

means WHEN you as an individual CONSCIOUSNESS reaches the limit of the mass consciousness
of where you live
then automatically like the monkey group stories
everyone else get easily this awakening each according to his limits

and in the movie
the "wannabe sages" lol it reminds me some "wannabe saints"
think to know truth
but instead of like in the old times using murder and killing
now they use the word of "someone is lost"
meaning they killed someone

so manners, methods changed
but the VERY ACT of EVIL
which is to take someone's life remained

and the hero
like other people, each morning had to get his "injection"
which was to make people forget their emotions
and be only mental people

see this movie showed
that ignorant masses when they behave in an evil way
are forgiven in the hero consciousness for they are being evil (killing people) without knowing it is a killing

you know as the saying goes
God forgive them for they know not

they only know it is the "élargissemnet/widening"
you see calling a murder with another word
just to remove the negative image of the word murder
makes not a murder less evil
but the doers in the movie knew not that it is "evil"
just because they are brainwashed with this other name.

and so it is all ok in the consciousness of the doer

but the one who awakened to his past memories
of who he is
KNOWS that it is AGAINST life and thus evil.

that is TRUE caring for someone's evolution
it is not JUDGING
it is ONESELF evolving
so that one subtle level the other may evolve too

but poor people in spirituality
are like jésus said

you see the straw in the others' eye and not the pillar in yours

very true
most people knows not that when they judge another person
they are actually of no use to humanity
and this is why you see their life is just STUCK
and they turn in cycles months after months
doing the same repetitive things
and Inside having a deep sadness and thirst of a desire for something
they will NEVER get

how sad for them

but true seeker of truth
knows how to LET GO
because they are the ONES who are the evolvers
and by their own evolution
on a subtle levels they give to others
the possibility of having the same FREEDOM and SPACE to evolve TOO

here the hero Jonas
learned
and i had tears in my eyes at the end of the movie
HOW PERSONAL experience
is LIFE

and the movie makers are so wonderful people
imagine
you can make such a movie
only if you have something to pour into it as a message!

nowadays people
do stuff
work,
events

but once is over
what is the gain?
SAME cycle over and over again

because they have NO personal heartFELT message to pour in

they have LOST their OWN identity
while running after the self made illusion.

in this movie
the teacher of jonas
teaches him
HOW TO FEEL
HOW TO ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS OF LIFE
such as colors, music, touching, smell and all

teaches him what strength is?
no theory
hand in mud, it was illustrated by some sky diving
or a guy standing in front of a char

see?
there is this feeling of TRUE LIVED life
is ALL IN ALL in YOUR OWN experience

and whatever people say
for they are BOUND to be narrow minded
except very few
you are in truth
if you are REAL

ENJOYING your life
and having fun

this is HOW humanity is selected by God
it is by the choices people do for themselves
when they EXPERIENCE life FOR itself
then they FEEL ALIVE

but when they do what they are conditioned to do
they just have sour face lol

Cool shining sun rays

wow Kazakhstan!

i felt like writing a bravo to the kazakhstani readers of this blog!
so far reaching thanks to a blog nowadays


i love new countries!


back to essential

i was browsing through web
and again 'by chance' i ended up on a webpage
which was speaking of self mastery
of how to find your soul passion

and follow the guidance of your inner being
for one is helped by other beings of light
which are all around us
and these are here to help you return to your true self
for that your soul MUST find his goal and passion
so that you build up experience

and on the spot
i tried
from heart i believed and prayed to know if is true
can one have such beings of light like NOW all around?

guess what!

Glory of glories!
i saw sun rays coming ouf of the left handside screen of my laptop

you see on the spot it was not as exciting as i am NOW writing it
for on the spot
i felt this light very eery
very light
and yes like a living sun rays
shining sun rays

ah ! **sigh of restfulness**
that is SOOOO pleasing

i tried to touch it
or cup hands to receive it
so cool a light in its glory it was

ah is so eeric

am so happy

imagine
if that is only a spot like moment like this
what could be on a huger scale or on longer time ?

lol was like in cartoon
light shining out of some object

guys i tell you!
LIFE IS FUN !

there is much more beauty than eyes can behold
for sure
in times like this i thank my luck
otherwise if one had to rely on "humanity" lol
one would go to a depression center

hahaha

this is in moments like these
that i can see when i meet people
their real intent

i have realised how i changed
now, i can very quickly read a person interior

and that is way too fun
because the person knows NOT that i KNOW
and they appears so ridiculous

mwhahahahaha


there are other people
that are soooo wonderfully innocent in their search of truth
that they are just lovely without them realising that i found them lovely

indeed pretenders and authentic people
are NOT alike

today i thank the spirit light
for being with me
for without it
i would have since long depressed
at the wannabe saints!

;)

White Tara the Milky beauty

woa
yesterday i did some recording

woa incredible
how one can discover stuff about our own self
as BRAND NEW
while it was all there all the time

i did not recognised my voice!
lol i kind of fell in love with my voice
it was the voice of a child

anyway
do i really sound like a kid when i talk?
unless it be the recording
but it hit hard as if it was a new aspect of mine i had not known

anyway it put me in tender mood about myself
hahhaha


but then it is may be linked
for that night as i was going to sleep
in a vision

i saw such a beauuuuuuuuuuuuutiful lady
i call it an eeric lady
she was all white like milk

her face was bright shining white
her clothes too
her face too
her hair too

all like bright shining milk

she was so awesomely beautiful
when she turned her face to me
just for a few seconds

actually she was standing in a cave
her face turned towards the front

when she turned back
i was stunned by her beauty
and we hugged

she has an ingrained peace in her
a well grounded and solid peace

this reminded me of this quote :

Beauty is truth's smile when she beholds her own face in a perfect mirror.

Rabindranath Tagore

she was perfect beauty indeed

ah there is more to it

but i don't know 

i love her

anyway

i learned she is called "white tara" 

and i read this part : 

Myth of the 1000 White Taras
When the 1000 White Taras are named the tone of the planet will shift from one of fear to one of compassion, of love. It is something like the Durga myth. When the world was on the brink and the Gods threw their hands up in surrender and called on Durga to save this world, Durga came. She cut away greed and avarice and restored harmony. The Gods asked her to stay and be our goddess but she said , "No, that wasn't the deal I signed onto, but if you need me again you can call on me". And so we are. We are calling her to cut away avarice and we are calling on White Tara to remove the fear, thus allowing this to happen, through compassion... through love.

The myth of the White Tara began when she showed up as the tear of Avalokiteshvara, also known as Chenzering, who the Dali Lama is a reincarnation of. She appeared when Avalokiteshvara, the Buddha of all Buddhas, moved into a state of compassion... when his mind and his heart met in wisdom... and the suffering he saw because the the lack of this balance, made him cry. Then he could see Her... or it is said she appeared. For that is who she is, the compassion expressed in that tear. It could be said the tear cleared the eye to see her. She is the expression of compassion. It is time to let the waters flow... let our tears cleanse and nourish... let it dissove fear in all its manifestations especially hatred. Like the water thrown on the Wicked Witch of the west... melting, melting... let the fear melt as we see we are one with all.

When the 1000 White Taras are named, acknowleged and joined... the force will be so great it will spread quickly. Like the 100th monkey theory, when a critical mass changes, the whole will change. The naming has begun...

 

source: http://whitetara.com/myth.html 



Very true
you know i met a friend who taught me yoga posture
incredible
one is called the prayer of the sun
it is nearly same as the muslim prayer
such a fine teaching

indeed all postures and rites
are about balancing your body
and then your subtle body
to get this yoga UNION

and guess what
she warned us
saying
this posture will bring up tears
and you won't know why

to be honest
i did not believe her
i said to myself why i would have tears
especially one always have a reason to cry

well that very night
and for no reason
and the day too
tears where indeed falling from my eyes

and now BY CHANCE i read about these tears in this article about
the white Tara
it is no randomness
but yet is very timely

and about tears and compassion
i end up on this quote which came to my mind :

"We entered the house of Abu Saif - the blacksmith - with the Prophet (pbuh). Abu Saif’s wife was the wetnurse of his son, Ibraheem. The Messenger of God (pbuh) lifted his son Ibraheem, and smelled and kissed him. After a while he went and saw his son again - he was dying. The Prophet (pbuh) started to cry. Abdurrahmaan b. Auf said: ‘O Prophet of God, you too cry!’ The Messenger (pbuh) said: ‘O Ibn Auf, this is a mercy’ - the Prophet (pbuh) shed more tears and said: ‘The eyes shed tears, the heart is saddened, and we only say what pleases our Lord, and we are saddened by your death, O Ibraheem!" (Bukhari #1241)


indeed 
i feel 
the tears clean the agnya 
and hence is the mark of compassion 
of God to you
and of you for your self. 

Glorious universe

:)
i had a very strong dream-vision,
i always call vision
when i know i am more near to awareness
than glued into the dream passively

in vision, is like alive state
you are either the witness or in control.

here this morning,
right before my meditation time

i saw a man who was from some order
that is not importan to mention here

and was showing me the plan of a roman house
the domus
and showed me how the central part of house
the vestibule was representing the most important part
of our own body the womb
and he spoke of some latin words in the roman house
which were refering to the body
like the perineum

lol i had to watch on net what this word means

and he asked me to search and learn 
a bit on the roman traditional homes.

and how people of his order
speak in words which may seem casual to people
like about the roman architecture
but are in truth deep secrets
not for nosy people

then,
while he was refering to the past story of the universe
the scene changed
and it is where i saw part of the universe
yes was wide
he referred to two planets
the first one i forgot which one
but the second one was Venus

and he said these two

ok i stopped to meditate for a few minutes
so cool it felt in the head
it was like the head was cut in two horizontally
and the below part of it was cool air/water
more air ok
let's not say water in case it be false lol

so he was saying that these two planets got destroyed
by darkness
this is why they are as they are now

then,
i saw / he showed me the earth
and the earth was
now all covered by a thin,
but very uniform layer of darkness
all around it
and i could only see a few spot of lights
here and there
less than 10 surely

but he said
it is still thin
so understand that not yet thick
to the point of total unreturning point

then,
the voice of the spirit said to me
"are you deserting meditation?"

believe me
when i heard it
i woke up and went straightly meditate

because i had not heard my alarm
and you know yesterday
before sleeping i talked with my spirit
to show me what i should know about myself

now with some distance
i remember it
and it is his answer

i was slacking in my morning meditation
to be honest, it is so cold
that in winter i like not to feel even colder with the cool vibes

and also after meditation
i feel so empty
that i forget to desire stuff
so that even if i have important stuff to work for
vital and joyous stuff
i get so empty? or forgetful rather
that i just forget to do them
and i edge boredom

so this time
after meditation
i remembered to pray
to the spirit
and ask what i desire
and yes :) i felt happier and filled with my daily schedule
and more enthusiastic

it is with some delay
that i understood the dream

that the earth
is also being covered by darkness
due to this nuclear treat
and past planets have been destroyed
because LOVE were no more

writing it feel sad in my heart
but then,
i remembered that this outer universe
is my own inner universe

that i have been created for it
for this very power is in me as is in you
and in all of us
and if we remember to purify our selves
then we purify our inner universe
and this will in turn EFFECT the outer universe
by way of resonance

when i realised that
i felt indeed
that

i have a glorious power within
and so much worthy is this life within

for it beautify and purify the outside surrounding too.

GLORIOUS

that is the word i learned its real meaning today
and felt it too

so it gave me back my smile
after i started to feel sad about the earth

it just suffice to know
that within is our microcosm
which when purified
effect and manifest itself in the macrocosm

this FABULOUS universe so great it is!
and incredibilty awesome it is that it starts within me :)

now that i see such a beautiful sun shining through my window
i wish you a shiny, cute and comfy coming week end!

kiss:x

ps : some reminder to myself :

we meditate to become the watcher or the spirit and the cool breeze is the holy spirit power
since meditation is actually witnessing the witness
we just do it,and let the shakti get us there(like a boat)
imagine your attention/chit rides some horse..that horse is energy.

since I AM as a microuniverse..the projection of the BIG universe 
as i get more love/power..i can irradiate it to the BIG universe! 
so this is a great power
the GLORIOUS power
and i am the microcosmos of IT!  

imagine that!..the glory of glories!
and IS all in my body/chakras
this is why i felt this morning it was glorious:)

so my  vibes WILL go up and down..but the witness never will
and my job is to STAY with those sensations and be that witness


to echo the glory of glories...
imagine, 

by purifying the vibes (using cycles..then resuming silent meditation)..i PURIFY the whole world!
so GLORIOUS it is !

 
 is a BIG responsability!
 and all i need is to fix it in myself :)

is always about ME ..as spirit.. 
same for YOU!