The one i was waiting for...

   i just got a dream 2:30 am :) 

   i woke up so i write it here

   so special it is

   i had a number of packets on my hands like horizontally disposed

   and i put them on a table when i arrived

   they were all mutlicolored

   and is like i knew all of them were gifts packets

   and there was this same voice of a woman

   the same i had in vision yesterday who was showing me some future stuff

  

   and now it is like she was answering a question of my dream

   about myself

   like an unspoken question

   like i was seeking an answer

   and she said

   "it is you, you, YOU, the person you are waiting for"

    

   and each time she said you

   i felt it being hammered on my heart

   and i believed it on the spot at the third time she said you

   and i felt my heart warm and opened with love

   warm love

   and at the third time there was one packet who was like unknown to me and became known

   it was special dream and vision

   becausei felt it in real on my heart 

    this is why i am up now writing it

   also in dream i felt warm opening of my heart

   with love

   like i remembered

   and i accepted gracefully it is ME

   yes i felt a spoof of warm love at the heart

   and i welcomed the me

   it is like i remembered the question and got the answer

   both at same time i was aware of both

   but now that i am writing it i only remember the effect of the answer

   i forgot the real question behind

   and will forget once i wake up

   dream started with unspoken but convened question

   but i knew not

   the answer

   then i got the answer

   and i knew the unspoken question

   as if i was waiting for someone

   adn that very special person awaited was me

   and then now, is like the question is fading away

   but i know the answer

   at the third you

   i felt like i opened my heart to it

   and i accepted it warmly

   and i felt this warmth in my heart

   and joy in the belly at same time

   i just know right now

   that i am happy that it is me

   though i now forget who i was seeking for

   or waiting for more exactly

   it is so strange...

   right now, i know, i was seeking for someone, but i forgot who; but i know now, that it is me

   i forgot who = like the role of this who

   i can't word it

   it is like someone who should arrive

          but i know it is me, like the me for which my heart felt warm love and joy

end of impression on dream,

          this is what is called  pinnacle of wisdom
          to know that The One one was waiting for is me
          

good timing to copy paste this here :

to say that one is spirit and joy
is not true
till one does not experience it 
like in this real dream and happening

because by then, i really felt entirely i am the one
and was just -wholly- happy

and doubt, now i know, 
is when you know not -wholly- that you are the one
and to know it is to feel it entirely
and to BE it 

it is not a mimecking of what one knows what love is
or what a loving action is
but is the I

right now, i know, i was seeking for someone, but i forgot who; but i know now, that it is me

and i learned, that 

At this very moment, one can see through the one who sees through..

 yes, it is true, 
 i, the answer, could see through the other i, the question, 
 that it was me all the way
 the question and the answer 

 were one 
 and could see each other
 and that is full and complete belief 

 it is like in the book i read, 
 i need to write the proper reference 
 from Alain Danielou

 who said, 
 that most people knows not
 that Mind Bliss is when the passion of the Heart is removed, 
 so that you can see your own soul felicity 

 this is why he said people 
 think the other is his or her love
 for they see their soul light
 and are in love with his soul light

 like in the story of yousuf 
 when all the ladies are literally ready to rape the young youssef 
 who is not yet a prophet

 same there
 if you see the other soul light
 you are in love with it 
 and naturally you wish to enjoy it in 3D
 this is stuff is ALL OK 
 PROVIDED you KNOW 
 that what you are in love with is not the other
 but you
 as spirit

 that is the true love
 where indeed
 as sufi says 

 the love and the beloved are one

 may be more could written by me right now on it
 but so far so good
 as it is intuition based
 and not mind 

 as soon as effort is there to recall
 even if words seem true
 it is no more true to me


 kiss:x 


 ps : 

oh..holy of hollies..I have searched for your god's name everywhere..and now I know your name..It is Homer Simpson...and it always was...(from Homer Simpson cartoons)

or..I have searched for God everywhere.,..and now that i found it..I realized that was me all the time..Homer Simpson? 

This cartoon is great

truth given right in the middle of the mud :)) 

aren't lotus from mud?

thanks to this real vision, i got it, i was seeing myself (the i as question that i forgot) through myself the i as answer that i realised.

to SELF REALISED 
is that !
is to see different SCATTERED and DIVIDED part of your soul
as  INTEGRATED AS ONE in the spirit 

well i guess :)

Both feet on forehead

:)
it is small note
just to remember
yesterday or so,
while i was meditating i saw shri mataji on her seat
sitting
because it is a richly decorate seat

and i could see both of her feet approaching
on my face
and then they rested on it
forehead
so is funny is like i see the whole scene
and i also see that i am a precise part of the whole scene
like to different i

anyway i need a good serious long deep comfy meditation
like a bath of meditation upside down
:))

Giving and Receiving gifts

i like making gifts to people around me
because when you make a gift
it is a token of yourself that can be seen
in the eyes of the receiver

so in a way you materialise yourself
to the other in a way that matches his level
while when you are a whole person lol
it is so funny to write it
but when you are a whole person
you can't really be seen as you are

so gifts bring people closer
so that they be able to see each other

second, it makes me feel fulfilled in the belly
when i can create the dreamt reality of the other
that gives me real joy
that they can believe in their dreams
and verify their belief

this is appreciativeness
which is always  there for the observer
be he the giver or the receiver

but when this becomes a habit
a tradition
an expected order
then it is no more sincere,

because it is no more appreciable
yes you do not have anymore the SPACE
to create your joy ahead of time
while preparing the gift
nor you have the joy to receive it
because you have lost the value of it
and you only expect it your right to have it
so when you already know
being the receiver or the giver of the gift
then, there is no more joy

so the key is in being free
free of giving and receiver whenever you wish
based on this simple rule
it can change greatly yourself

not only in terms of "material" gifts
but also a word, a behavior, an attitude
all of these are gifts to the other
on a more subtle plane

so if one follows this rule to the end
just this one
it makes one automatically see
that life is a challenge

for this will lead you
to go against your own
tradition, societal rules and so on

and your life can change
as quickly as you are ready to change
just to follow up one rule

to give gifts
only when it serves your joy

:)