Brain and elongation

Good news

well for me,

yesterday night,
as i could not sleep
i just kept doing the cycles
on the different chakras
each time when i woke up

and suddenly
as i was sleeping
i felt a sort of tube
right in the brain
that was just keeping elongating itself

so much that i woke up
and lol even wondered if
i will get an elongated skull

i guess it is the inside muscle of the brain
that moves
when they are being pushed by the kundalini?

Brain muscles massage :)

Ah thank you to God for His Good Grace

i feel sooo good now

a few days ago
i was laying down in bed
and suddenly felt such a strong downpour of wind
ouf of my fontanel area

that i stayed literally scotched
to my bed and
my attention scotched to my fontanel
soooooooooooooo pleasant it was
soooooooooooooo relaxing too .... ah so good it was

i REALLY relaxed
ENTIRELY
(well nearly)
but most than usual

at the very beginning
i could only feel coolness here and there
let's say hands and/or head

now i am happy to say
after a semester
i could feel it flowing on both arms
till inside of hands
and feet too

after a year
i could literally feel
at times
not always
a whole shield
from head to toe

but now
even during the intensive meditation period
i felt "bored"

well i knew not why
but i felt bored
even though i was still feeling this coolness
all over body
and in the best times
as a unified field of oneness from head to toes

but i felt "bored"
no clue why
but yes bored
should i say it again?
BORED! :)))

now i know why!
it is as i read it
it is because ....
i wanted more lol
and because more joy exists
then this stagnation was starting to bother me

so when i felt this strong wind
out of my fontanel area
really
i was all relaxed
and yes
how can i forget writing that
sooo much relaxed
that i was BREATHING THE VERY COOL BREEZE
THAT WAS COMING OUT OF MY FONTANEL
right into my nose
hahaha

sooooo heavenly time it was
this is true relaxed meditation
and joyful state DURING it !

ah soo cool
and right NOW
twice i felt same
while i was working
so cool
that i stopped what ever i was doing
and just stayed with it

ah
and yes it was as strong as the one
when i was laying down
may be a little less
but what was GOOD
and this i NEVER felt so before

LITERALLY SPEAKING
i felt as if my INSIDE BRAIN MUSCLES
WERE BEING MASSAGED

ah God!
hahaha
ah ! i am wanting more

imagine!
we feel so good when we get a massage right?
well i rarely get one
but you get my point

and imagine!
brain is THE PART of body
which is ALWAYS working
EVEN WHEN SLEEPING

and how COME
this muscle NEVER gets a massage?

ah my Good GOD!
i GOT an INSIDE BRAIN MASSAGE
that was VERY pleasurable

that i can say is
my DAY 1 of really PLEASURABLE MEDITATION
MARK THAT DAY
DAY ONE OF BRAIN MASSAGE

yes,
i am trying to practise the attention
in such a way
that first when i feel the energy UNIFORMLY
from head to toes (shield)
then
i try to observe it from afar even more
till result be an empty body

to be honest
i am trying to get the hang of it
so not much on this today
once i really get it

point is
once we feel THAT joy
and THAT unified field
and THEN we put our attention
on events that are so dire like in France nowadays

THEN we can send LOVE
to such criminals
and situation, circumstances
so that it CHANGES for the GOOD

ok
it is SO contrasting
from my anger and hate of yesterday
but it is because i MUST be HONEST
with myself if I WANT TO SEE CHANGE

and we canNOT change something bad into good
UNLESS we PINPOINT IT
and for this you NEED to admit it

anyway
we are human
anger is ok
but the AFTER is most important

so those who laugh at angry yogis
well i laugh at their uptight ass lol
hahaha
and i laugh all the more to angry yogis
ie to myself too
for the times i was angry
and DID NOT follow up ENOUGH
to change anger into LOVE

NOW
LOVE
don't GET WRONG ideas
it is NOT what YOU call love

it is
ah i feel like saying
"celestial love"
"Love born from God grace"

this means
you do not control it
you cannot make it born

remember
like He begets not nor He is begotten?

same here
Love
God IS LOVE
so LOVE comes from HIS GRACE

before
i used to wonder
well how to attract this Grace

and now
yes this COOL WIND
IS THIS OUTER PROOF of
HIS AWAKENED GRACE

for Grace NEEDS to be MANIFESTED
to SHOW us that IT exists, right?

ONCE we feel it
it is ONLY the SIGN that
LOVE within you HAS AWAKENED

BUT
it does not means that
you can FEEL LOVE
for still your hearts needs to open more

BUT it is there
so VIBES are ONLY PROOF of this INNER LOVE
which is PRESENT IN YOU
and ONCE your shield is UNIFIED
then SOMEHOW
WHERE you PUT your attention
THEN
this LOVE follows

and as God Grace
is NOTHING except LOVE and COMPASSION
this very Energy of LOVE
will TRANSFORM the object of your attention
into more love filled being/behavior etc.

because i learned
that hate is NOT a power
it is  the choice of your personality
in terms of behavior

but on the power level
only LOVE is (the power-the transformative power)

and a criminal
you cannot change it with hate
nor you (as personality) can "love" his acts or him lol
that would be insane from you and me

but you as BEING OF EMPTINESS CAN LOVE him

yes!
while writing i got it
LOVE , divine LOVE comes from our Being of Emptiness
which is us, on the upper plane (divine plane)

but we as individual being/manifested being/personality
are not a being of emptiness but a body with thoughts etc.
and from this plane we can NEVER
and besides should NEVER love such people
well unless you be insane

so
if i sum up
Divine Love is Power
and this Power can ONLY stems from us
WHEN we are a Being of Emptiness

and we can be it
ONLY when our field is UNIFIED
from head to toes
THEN our whole body is EMPTY

hm,
anyway for the moment
i say :)

Praise be to God
for my SO GOOD BRAIN MUSCLES MASSAGE
HEAVENLY! :)

Living Being in me

as i was waking up this morning
i learned something

it was not a voice talking
and it was not thoughts
it was not from outside

but i feel kind of saying
that my inside Energy Intelligence
was TRULY awakened
at this very moment
and when i say awakened
i MEAN IT
like in the word : ALIVE
and that my senses were listening
to her

and this energy was not talking
let's say
that the energy awakened presence
itself was a talk
an intelligent talk (may be it is why it is called Life)
that the five senses were at the same time
the audience
and could testify each with their own properties
of hearing for ears,
seeing for eyes
feeling for skin

to live
yes is the right word
to live that talk

let's say an interactive cinema lol
but inside of you

so i wanted to write down the precise
sensation i had
first so that i remember

second,
the content by itself

said like this
it will not ring a bell to the reader
but to me it does

because its weight and worth
are in the reason/fact that I AM THE ONE
who perceived it
so as i perceived it
i know it was TRUE

AS IF I COULD TOUCH IT

usually we touch life with our thoughts
because we filter experiences
with our past thoughts

but here it was like a brand new discovery
in this sense it was PURE and POWERFUL
and TOUCHABLE for me
yes these are the impressions

now
that i wrote down the impression

the content by itself is quite simple
which is why i remember  now
that truth is simple
but it is complicated to go
from our loaded mind to a simple one

in brief
i felt first
that it was saying and showing
and the mind was witnessing it

by feeling it
incredible
how can mind feel it?

yes it means the mind
was no more dead
this is why it could feel it

dead is when it is stuck on image
and alive
is when it can see the movement!
thus the context

see we can manipulate an image
and interpret it
but no more when it is in its context
and the context is a thousands of other images
but ON THE SPOT


the mind was feeling
that the all life around me
was a residual fine rain
and the key word is residual
and that in it
all people were satisfied of it
and were nourishing themselves of it
as if it was the EVERYTHING

like you fight for the 1%
where there is 99% of provision hidden
somewhere else
see?
that kind of feeling

so i KNEW
on the spot how worthless the life was
here

which means not that Life is worthless
it means when you live a narrow minded life
as most do
taking this life they choose not
as Life
then it is worthless
for they are only like hungry people
fighting over a tiny morsel of food to eat

and then
i felt down in me
may be in the belly
at the other end of the mind, Life
which i sensed was REAL
in the sense
that i could with it
use POWER to live the Life
ALWAYS WHILE BEING IN MOTION
AND CREATION

yes like an erupting volcano
and this was showing me
or shedding light in my mind
so that i may witness this fine rain
where i live in

that was the real feeling that i could touch
and its meaning
and there was the real BEING
and Presence of Myself as Life

but upthere
in that fine rain 
it was misery
like a robot world

that's it
i wrote such a long post
to detail what i got
may be
in a 3 second time

have a nice day

ps : i HAVE to say
it was a very TINY part of power i felt
it was soft
nonetheless POWERFUL presence
because i felt as if it was containing itself
so that it adjusts itself to me
if it has been fully powerfully awakened
i think i would have been afraid a lot
to say the least

Godly advice or karma

i learned a very valubale thing today

Godly advice or karma.


i have been trying
to do my best to give advice

and as for me, i advised myself
to give advice in the most clear, sincere and ON THE SPOT
way i can

so that myself i have no regret
of not having adjusted
to the listerners' level of understanding

and not reproach to myself
for not having delivered
in all trust
the piece of advice needed
by the others
so that they may start life on a good basis

so ONCE i have done this
in my belly i feel FILLED UP
which means i did good
really
my best

and then,
i can let go
and i know
if they don't follow the advice
it is about their own mastery

it means
they are choosing
the hard way
the long painful way
to get the learning from life
to grow wisdom for making decisions

the result is same
mastery
they develop either mastery
the soft way

it means
you listen to the advice
and you take it gracefully
and THEN once you see the result
you know you did right decision

this is mastery in the soft way

or
you refuse the advice
you test
life is, i call it, with boomerang effect
you see later
if you have eyes to see
why it failed
of course you learn it the hard way
anyway at least you feel the hard way of life
learning it is another thing
because in the meanwhile you will forget
you have anything to learn lol

it is for those who remember
mastery the hard way

otherwise it is just the hard way fullstop
without any learning.

so once you give advice to them
in the most precise, clear and sincere manner
then, let them choose
if they listen not
then
i learned
it is their karma which is choosing for them.

so when i learned that
i felt no more sorrow for them
because i know
it won't come from my lack of efforts
but it will come from their own freedom
to choose
between godly way or the one of their karma.


and then
oen should leave it to the Silence

Kundalini Mild Arising

meditation result of today

there was a happening with someone
that i was trying to help out
and as most people
this someone was not sincere with herself
so she thought i was doing to herself what she was doing

lol

so silly details are not needed

so on the spot,
i felt really angry and bitter
and sad
for this lack of intelligence
well lets' say it for this stupidity
and lack of trust

for i think the person still gets it not
i JUST wish to help out because she ASKED me for it
and because i care
not because i have any gain from it
i just feel restless when i see people making uninformed  choices
i prefer to tell them
and THEN they can decide
then i don't care for it is THEIR choice
and i have no regrets
for i would have done my job IN ALL TRUST.

but when a person ask me for help
and then change mind in the middle of the path
just because of her own fear
and then ask me not to tell what is true
this i find it aberrant

luckily
i said her what i am writing here
and she got it
no more tension
and the RIGHT information reached the RIGHT person
who WILL BE IN ALL KNOWLEDGE
able to make HIS choice

of course, that is the MAIN goal of mine
to give the people i care
the RIGHT info so that they make INFORMED choices
and yes thereby have the best life opportunity

i feel sorrow otherwise
to see them starting their life on wrong basis
at same time i never impose
because i know decision is theirs
but i want always to make SURE
i explain as clearly as i could
for their own benefit

my weak point for now
is my anger
i am really not diplomatic when angry
hahaha
to say the least

but at least
i see it
and i can correct it:)

and i did !
today,

here is the point of my post

after i felt so much angry ...
i said to myself raising my kundalini and meditating is a MUST

the other times
i KNEW i should do it
and i did not
because i wanted to settle the matter
by my mind
by my emotions
why?
because it felt MORE REAL
i could see the effect of my reaction
on the person or i could anticipate the effect of it on them

while meditating
on the moment gives you NO effect
on the VERY situation past.

but if you meditate
ON the SPOT
it calms you, brings you peace
because it purifies your emotions and mind
thus your both channels and mind too
then as this energy transforms
its effect will be seen LATER
when you will TEST it
when you encounter the very persons

with time
i learned to meditate on the spot
but what i did was meditating 30min at best

but that is not the key
the key is to meditate TILL I calm down
because this means the kundalini would have ABSORBED my tension

second key is to meditate WHILE walking

the walking part has nothing to do with the sitting
it is WAY more powerful in purification

which by the way i never managed to teach it to yogis in paris
i hardly taught the sitting part
that i realised they are so conditioned lol
yea

if you say you teach a new method
they think
oh it is NOT what mataji told us

and if you show them it is IN LINE
with her OWN TALKS
they say
well nothing new

see?
on one hand the conditioning?
on the other hand the uselessness of their perception?
and in the FIRST PLACE
do i ASK you to COMPARE?
i ask you to TEST it for yourself
do you feel cool breeze MORE than usual?
do you FEEL IT DEEPER than usual?

if YES
then,
stop it with your comparison
apply it
and progress you too.
that's all 

if i wanted to explain
which i don't care
because for me a sincere person say it in front of me
to get a clear answer
but when hidden
it means "i don't care"
neither do i lol

so,
point is
till you do not go over your OWN conditioning
you will never integrate bits of yourself into this light
so sahaj yogi are conditioned by their "own" thoughts of what should be or not
as meditation.

for the story
i met a french sahaj yogi in Italy
and there all people in the castle mediated with me
on this method
and were enthused
why?

because they tried it
tested it
noticed it worked
stronger vibes than usual
on the spot effect
for a tcheque girl even had an amazing experience
of feeling a downpour of light on her sahasrara
yes eastern yogi are very much devoted

and the french guy told me
once an indian yogi
had a new method of meditation
he said a bit like yours
he showed it to shri mataji
and she validated him
saying
but do not teach it to all
they won't have the level to understand it

in brief,
you are a true sahaj yogi
you are open to any method of meditation that makes you progress
and you know it is true
for you can test it
and see if you feel stronger vibes
more deeper silence
you see if the person teaching you is progressing

and then you conclude

but concluding before trying
is judgemental
and sheer conditioning

second,
if i may add
once you feel cool breeze
you do not get self realisation FULLY
only 0.00000000000000000000000000001% of it

so while after 10,20,30 years most of sahaj yogi i met are STILL
on that level
having ONLY entered the gate of heaven and this NOT in an ESTABLISHED connection/way either
which means permanent

others i can say are RUNNING into heaven
having passed the door entrance since LONG
and are ascending higher and higher
and of course
their learning will seem different from shri mataji

but in no way the former can benefit from the latter
due to their conditioning
because they are stuck on ABC
and try to judge MNOP by the standards of ABC

had not shri mataji asked them to meditate
in more intensive way
very early
and every day?

YES
so when the base is not there
why do they judge those who are advancing
when themselves they have not established their connection
as others did.

back to my walking meditation
i was doing it
and when i started
of course
my mind was full
attention everywhere except on vibes

so i used intent
i intended to give up on such people
not to care anymore for them if themselves they decide not to care for their own self
i realised that only i can trust what is in the NOW
and that is this cool breeze
so my attention went back to it
and i stayed with it
and i walked so
and suddenly i felt my kundalini arising in my back of the head
it is the back agnya
where the conditioning about society is stored
and

THE KUNDALINI
MILDLY
BUT SURELY
raised my head!

this MEANS
i did NOT
usually when we meditate we straighten our back
spine, head
to HELP KUNDALINI to ARISE

so we USE a self conditionement
to INDICATE to kundalini

we are ready 
by mimicking AHEAD of time
HER work
and tell ok you can pass there lol

and indeed
this time
She arose midly
and i felt my back of head straightening up
as if an exterior hand would do it!

so i was happy
coolness increased
and i went on with my walking meditation


here it is :)
i have found much more about my black out experience in dream
that i wrote in the precedent post
but would write it in another post another time.

yes let's call it so
black out experience
lol is strange the black out happened when i was sleeping hahaha
kiss:x