Right now
i am feeling such a vastness in belly
its upper part feels warm and joyfully fizzy
like when your pour some coca cola in glass?
lol and it feels popping up in joy ?
my belly feels same
right now
it is fizzily joyful
and feeling vast and warm
and that warmness is so much expanding
that it feels like my eyesight is also expanding
actually is the both ballons on top of head
reducing
removing themselves from your face
which make your vision expands
this is why the prophet muhammad
could see behind his back
as mentioned in hadith
or when he was being given birth
his mom at delivery could see pillars of some palace in syria or egypt
i don't remember so well
or when he received revelation from Angel Gabriel
he saw everywhere he turned only the Angel Face even at the Far off Horizon
cause is the vastness of the witnessing state of the Spirit
when you are getting out of your identification of your body
and witnessing your limitless existence
of the True Spirit
and while writing that
i feel so much love going up from the belly to the heart
it feels like the belly is a jar
filled with waters of love
and that this pool of loving waters
are streaming upwards
against the physical rules of the Gravity
which are pulling man soul even more on lower astral levels
and when that current of Love
or river or stream of Love goes upwards
it enters your heart
and the heart feels so full
and from the heart goes forth the Order of softness
reverberated back to the belly
and the belly feels even more warmness and fizzy love inside it
is a sort of self nourishing cycle
Self nourishing cycle
like in "nourishing the self/soul"
or like in "nourshing itself"
i guess i can only write
but unless one feels it
this has no comparison to read it from someone else
and i feel very much liberated inside
this happened
like i won a battle over myself
here is the story
over the past few days
i have been dealing with say average people
i.e. who are non realised beings
on a project of saveguarding animals
and during this project
there was the pro animals and the against
i was in charge of the pro side
thing is
i can quickly grasp people's thoughts and intentions
even when they don't speak
is very bewildering
because i know their subconscious "thoughts"
the thoughts they are not aware of
so i had a hard time
to not blame them for their ignorance
you may not realise it
but is hard
to know
and yet not to blame
because see?
people are ignorant
is not a negative word ignorant for me when i use it
is a factual word
ignorant means for me
that they truly ARE clueless about their subconscious prompting
and how their subconscious is affecting their conscious and thus their behavior
see?
prior to that knowledge
i used to feel driven to show people their behavior
in the hope that they want to change
supposing that they want to improve
but when yesterday
i saw this vision
i realised truly what was to LET GO
to LET GO for me now
stems from this vision
by the way
while i was writing this prior lines
i felt so much loving energy moving lovingly in my left swadhistan
such a GOOD LIVING FEEL
really...
lol so funny that a part of body, feels love?
so weird..
anyway
back to my vision ...
yesterday
i saw that each of my breath
i.e. when i breathe out
it was like a boat
an invisible boat to the eyes
and that boat was carrying "parts/expressions of my soul"
soooo beautiful and poetic
i found this vision was
is very refined see?
is like a soft petal of flower
upon which you see morning dew
is fresh, fragile and beautiful vision
you can only feel marvelled by it
so after this vision
my inner voice
explained me
not in sound but in images
that
your breath carries your soulful expression of what you want to give/share with Life
and it goes out of you in invisible format (to your eyes)
but then it is returned back to you..
and that time in a denser format
i.e. in what we call fate
so that you may experience what you sent out of you
back to you
see? how beautiful is that?
this is why what you give is what you receive
this is the boomrang effect
Gives good out of to Life
and Life or God will return it back to you 20 times more or in an unlimited way more
it is said so in the Hadith Qudsi
because the amount of what you give to God/Life
is equals to the sincerity of your desire when you breathed your Life out
ah i feel like dying of Love writing this
because i see it while i am writing it
is so beautiful
it feels like a lovely feathery dream
all soft and pretty
but see?
again, if you send out to Life
complains, anger and try to convince people to change their behavior
you are sending out the expression of your soul
so you are asking for Life to answer the request of your soul
which is to see an answer to your complain, anger and argumentation
in that case
Life ONLY reflects back like a mirror to you
what your soul sent forth as experience request
so then
i realised while being shown this
isn't it better
that i use my breath to EXPRESS what my SOUL REALLY DESIRE ?
you see
telling someone what you dislike and what you want them to change
is still not you
is your REACTION to others' presence/thoughts
so is you being a slave/prisoners' to others' thoughts/behavior
i.e. is you being a channel of reaction to their thoughts
so you are following others thoughts
expressing only opposition to their thoughts
see?
your breath is NOT carrying your SOUL DESIRE
your breath is ONLY carrying their thoughts
in that case
your breath is only stolen
by other entities
who are living through your breath
and you will get hit back by the very thoughts you opposed..
is a kind of self beating LOL
this is why the only person that hurts you is only yourself
and never the other
so beautiful vision of Life
is SO CLEAR TO ME NOW
THAT THERE IS NO ONE
EXCEPT MYSELF who decides how to live my life
same for EVERYONE ELSE
the ONLY difference being the AMOUNT OF SELF PRESENCE/REALISATION
in that breathing out your Soul Desire vs thoughts of others
and this is how
when i saw this
effortlessly
my inner opposition to these people's way of behaving and acting
just got dissolved ...
cause as i realised how the amount of breath is numbered within me
as once this number is gone
death of body arrives
so one better breathes out our soul/light
than useless thoughts that are not even my own light
it is how my own light is stolen away from me
as others' thoughts busy this "space/breath" initially given to my soul
the breath was initially the boat given to my soul to ride
so that it may experience Life back in forms
see?
so
all of sudden
i surprised myself
to see myself
just LETTING GO of what before used to bother me
and create opposition in me
resistance in me
readiness to jump for clearing up conflicts
cause it is not about caring about others
the whole stuff is about caring for your soul
when you care for your Soul to ride the Boat of Breath
then ....
ONLY THEN
YOU LET YOUR SELF SHINE
and this is HOW you are of help and care to others
SO BE YOUR SELF
Love and Kiss to my beloved readers'
