Amazing Script writer beauty

What to say
i have watched such a BEAUTIFUL movie ...

i don't even dare to name it..just to keep it a bit longer in myself..

is just so beautiful

the script writer must be an alien? someone otherworldly? a time traveller?
i don't know
let me dream a bit longer

the actors, the main lead male and female
awesomely true

and the content..so deeeeeeeeeeep and spiritual

and the character so opposite and yet melting in each other
like day and night to make it a whole day

the music
and soundtrack .. especially one or two instrumentals
so nice, it seems they are there to touch the string of your soul
to make it arise

is another movie
i cried for .. remember i hardly ever cry for movies

except for Interstellar and a bit less but still for Cloud Atlas

but that movie is another Level

if i cried for Interstellar and Cloud Atlas
was for the pain the main lead was inspiring
like the cry of his soul for the Truth

but as i said that movie is another Level
i cried for its content
because it was just SO true

and i cried
because it was for the FIRST time
i saw it in "real" life
out of myself

so that i could say
"ah so it DOES exist"

i cried cause it was like a mirror
of myself
of my own appreciation for Life

i don't have the right words for now

plus this movie
is just as deep as i am used to express myself
contentwise i would say is the number one movie

now, you ask
but what is this movie?

well..Joker..this time
is my movie and i keep it
in me

...a bit more longer

and i really think i have to buy it
and to watch it at will

i never watch twice a movie

EXCEPT this one
because the actors emanate such a nice vibes in their role
that you feel the roles are real
i felt infused with their aura/acting

is a FIRST
for a movie
i tell you


plus
you feel such a nearness
closeness

is as i had said
it feels like

i am taking in ALL THE BEAUTY of this movie i am seeing
TAKING IT ALL IN ME

and then
it feels like
NO IT JUST UNCOVER IN ME THAT VERY BEAUTY
WHICH WAS ALREADY PRESENT

BUT THAT MOVIE
ACTED LIKE A MIRROR
FOR ME TO SEE IT

cause i think
the soul
just wishes to see itself
in the other

but the other
does not have that space
to share with you

except for my best friend

but i would say
even the yogi i met
though they are blessed
by this "space" / thoughtless awareness

they don't see its value
cause it is a FREE space
they don't know how to use it as a mirror
to see others beauty

and see that the other beauty
is your OWN beauty

this is why i say
when i watch this movie
i feel is my own beauty i am seeing...

so do i feel so with any amazing beauty
i see in the other
cause i don't feel it is a loss to me

as people do
and end up feeling jealous and envious

jealousy is an immature gross feeling
which shows
that you have not yet sorted out
that this beauty you are seeing in someone
it is all YOU, all in you after all

i think i definitely have to go for movie making
and i dream to meet such script writer
and work with them

is powerful
to meet such AUTHENTIC SOULS

....about souls

i am much more since two weeks in touch with my own soul
and that is communicatively speaking

 like today
once i finished meditation
and take a deep breath from belly
i let me soul give me any message it has for me

cause i said to it :)
now that is your space
i meditated
is now or never if you want to give a message

cause you see?
we have a soul
our part of authentic Self
which just happens to wish to move its way back to the Source

and it just wait to be listened to

but we don't

we just listen to our remnants thoughts
and we reproduce MORE THAN 93% of them everyday
cause
if i am not mistaken
the habits are stored in our cortex
and we just reiterate them
like robots

is so sorry
not to really live the Life

am sure
there is a smoother and more fuller way to live Life

people ask
if i have found what i am seeking...

rather they should ask themselves
if they dare to seek something better?
cause they think they "arrived" and reached their destination

but self realisation (like as in having some kundalini strands awakened)
is just an entrance door
to something greater

how could it be all that is?
this is how religions went wrong,
and this is how cults are born

is like mixing up the means with the purpose of life

and thereby
missing out so much more possibilities
to live, and breath in a more FULLER & more beautiful Life

which will become
actually
the beautiful Realm

that eyes have never seen
and ears have never heard of

where you would live in..
Petals

Spirit and Yogi..

Do you know what is shaitan or demons?

Or why some mind games exist
saying if God exist, then why he created a devil , if he is so good?
all many kinds of mind challenges like that exist

especially set by atheist people
but they are good
cause they force sincere seeker to think about
the duality of life

this topic is for other time

now,
i had a dream
where i was with the yogi
and the spirit was witnessing the actions of everyone

then as i talked to the Spirit
he got angry by their behavior

instead asked all of us
to compete
the swimming pool was so unclean
(swimming pool water is your own water,
your own purification
as to how much you practised purification
here using Shakti - if unclean means you are in want of purification)

so as swimming pool of theirs
was unclean
i went to another
brand new all clean

and they on their side competed
and i competed on my own
and then spirit call us both as group

and i happened to be the winner
even breaking some world record

then Spirit told me

"do they think I will be happy
with their low magic of paper burning
and burning shakti?"

"they considered you only as low muslim"

"it is ME who knows if you have value or not
NOT them"

"so do not believe their lies"

i can tell the even tiniest unease i was feeling
i had it no more
as it is like a dead rope linking me to them
was broken
and they could no more affect me
with their low mentality

instead

they are now reaping their deeds..

Remembering who I am

Had a nice dream life lol
today in dream i was seeing much of
my past life and a bit of my future life

was very much real

even seeing the names i had in my past

i find it cool
hehehe
cause i can google it
and i find those names
hey it feeds my curiosity


but the best of best
was when i was told

'she is recovering her memory
and know who she is"

that is the best part
cause the true memory and ID
is you being the Spirit as true nature
and not some past lives

but when you are recovering your memory
about who you are
as Spirit

then in the process
you DO start remembering also
the stored experience of your past lives

as you are recycled into creation
see? (unless enlightened)

:) i am remembering...who I am :)
so happy!!!