and then
when i went back
every bits came back like a puzzle
and i realised that there were signs
but i could NOT SEE those
only once it was over
and his mask fell off
i realised but everything was already there
for me to see
but i was just blind to it
you know why?
because we choose to be blind
as i dislike very much treachery
i shoved it out of my life
but doing so
i ended up being blind to people
who are treacherous
so much that it shocks me
that such fraud
on such professional level
may exist
and this line might be shocking
to read
but one should love treachery
it does not mean
that i say woa cool let be like that
or how this should be promoted lol
i am not insane
no
to love
is to love unconditionally
it means to acknowledge its existence
and not shove it away
as if it is not part of creation
treachery and any other negative stuff
which are obviously bad are bad and remain bad
that's it
BUT
i should learn to acknowledge their existence
cause they are there
so that i may see them
this is why i repeat
this is why
i could not see the signs
how something will show itself to you
and thus protects you
if you refuse to see it
and acknowledge it?
it can't connect with you
as you refuse the connection
and its very existence
see?
if i had acknowledged the existence
of such bad stuff
like treachery etc
then i would see their signs
all pointing at them
and once i see these signs
then i could let them be
and move on
while moving on
i can save myself from much
headache and fraud
by getting caught in the very thing i reject...
second point about this love
and that one forget
is that it transforms...
this treachery
once i acknowledge its existence
i can see it
once i see it
i can let it go
and literally move on
(go out of the office
as if i had fire on my ass lol!)
and once i let it go
then that light transforms
the ugly face of treachery
which then disappears from my life
this is why Love is IN-clusive
is not EX-clusive
likewise
when people think of separation
is because of fears of something they reject
cause they find it ugly, unacceptable
of course
is ugly
of course is unacceptable
but then what after?
you are only required to acknowledge its existence
once you do
then you can move on
let it go
and LIGHT
on its own
do the rest of job for you
it transforms this very ugly thing
and this is why it is gone
cause you saved yourself
by yourself
from it
you are
you become your own savior
is so true
if the word savior exists
is because of the danger that exists
but if you hate so much the danger
that you don't want to acknowledge its existence
then
how can you use the word savior?
once when i was in uk
i remember
i was waiting at the bus stop
and i asked a question to myself
and my self answered to it
saying
the question and its answer
both are the same coin
is just the two faces of same coin.
danger and savior
are two faces of the same coin
you can't get one without the other
and why this ?
lol
i start thinking
i had a very fruitful day
is funny
cause i got this answer i am about to write
to a question that i am asking only now
again it proves to me
all answers are given to us
but we do not see them on the spot
is only later
if we are lucky
we realise
we got the answer
so why this?
why getting that weird duality?
of danger and its savior?
well
as i was driving
i got that answer to that question
i did not even ask lol
actually
i was driving
and saw my bracelet
which was on arm
and when i saw it
i said to myself
when i bought it
i was so enthralled by its refined designed
that i connected myself to its heart
this is why it stood out from all the other stuff
in the store
and i saw in the bracelet
that it has its own heart/light
a core
and as i connected to it
and liked it
my attention is IN it
but when i saw my arm
first i saw my shirt
and as my eyesight went from the shirt
down the way to the bracelet itself
i saw for the first time
the beauty of it as a whole
not just the beauty of its core
but the whole impression/atmospher it creates
when it is worn
see?
then i realised on the spot
this is why God sent his light
in multitude
in so many hearts of people
is to be able to see Himself
from another point of view
so that He may perceive Its own beauty
'cause if He had just remained
on His own
HE would have known only His core essence
but as HE dispatched his light
in every single thing
then He could use the Perspective of One
to see the Other
this is why in sufism
this saying is well known
"I was a hidden treasure
and wanted to be known"
(this is why He created creation)
this is how i ended up
seeing the whole beauty of a bracelet
when i was seeing my arm
but when i was jsut seeing my bracelet
i could only see its core beauty
and then i realised
this is why in business
for i had always wondered
finding it strange
that business who are specialised in selling a product
WHY do they require market study?
if you love a product
then why asking a third party view?
normally
your love of a product
should bring you so close to it
that you need not an outer perspective see?
then i understood
cause the company is so much engrossed
by its core business
that it NEEDS a third party to SEE
the general stuff
to get an overview
to see stuff from another perspective
to gain another global view of its product
cause attention is One
and if it is STUCK IN
then it is engrossed
and it cannot detach itself
raise higher to see the whole picture
but if attention is ABOVE
then it can rise above
and get that whole picture
and take decision more wisely
finally
why this duality?
we need duality to see each other
without danger
there is no savior
because of the danger, the need of a savior arises
and without savior
there is no danger
because the very existence of savior, points at the existence of danger
likewise
creation has been created
to be able to mirror the existence of the other
once this existence is acknowledge
then Light/Love Power can transform it
otherwise bad remains bad
and even get worse
for the one who keeps denying it.
and i just understood
that line of quran
that i NEVER EVER made sense of
this is in 55:43
"this is the hell that the guilty one/wrongful people deny"
then the line, immeditately responding to it :
"which of the favors of God, will you deny?"
see?
i never quite understood
what the favors were about
bad is bad
that's it
is because bad becomes even worse in our life
when we keep denying its existence
so it is precisely this bad stuff that will hit us
as this frauder
and this is the hell you kept denying
to be honest
if i try to acknowledge to myself
that all the bad stuff DO exist
then there is a certain work colleague
that i want to butt his ass
cause he is a real lazy coworker
i just dislike laziness
because it makes you break your word
and put other people in trouble
and made them hanging onto you
is so unfair
but right now
my inner self
i feel it revolting itself in my chest
hahaha
and saying no no
no way
jsut butt his ass no love for him
hahahaha
i can HEAR my self
saying it
and even see her
crossing her arms
and pouting
and shaking her head
"no no no"
"no way! just butt his ass!"
hehehehe
is funny
but i have to be honest
so the solution
should be that i should acknowledge to myself
that what i start hating
i.e. his total lake of commitment at work
and sheer laziness
EXIST
that i canNOT change them
so i should not be oblivious to them
they are there
that's a fact
and then
just let it go.
if the Power of Love
find is the right timing
then It would change his ass
but i can't lose precious time
and get even worse results with such a colleague
i can console myself
thinking,
who knows may be he got a lobotomy?
hence his absent-mindedness?
but in truth,
he does it on purpose
i hope then he will get what he deserves.
because my inner self
is still rebellious!
nah!
;)
