Candle wax

oh this is incredible!
i remember to have written that after a long time of meditation
i could see beauty when i go outside

but also it happened now while i was inside home!

so amazing feeling :

you know the candle wax?
sometimes it just remain in the pot
and you cannot get rid of the remainder
you try hard to remove it and it stick like hell
and you give up

well i had given up since long to remove it lol

but today by accident
i let it on top of the oven
which heat melt the wax on the candle holder !

and then, it was so soft
that i could let it slide and remove it!

but you know what hit me
is strange to say that
but i say it even though

when i saw the wax melted
and so "submissively" sliding away
i found it being "so innocent"
that was such a beautiful feeling for it

i really wish to write it as the impression remains:


one it was like i was saying myself
look ! it is so innocent! and i was so hard on it
thinking it is just a wasted wax unremovable
you know like a misjudgement
lol if i can talk of this for an object
but really there it felt not like an object
but something alive
truly

also
the way the wax got removed
so graciously
i just had to slid it aside with a light finger pressure
and gone!

and then it hit me
it is same with the heart of people
you cannot hammer to teach them some change

but when the right condition
like heat for this candle
are gathered
then
the heart softened by themselves

in real life
you could use the heat of God
the one provided by the vibrations purifying your heart
which is the softer way

or alternatively,
if you refuse to practice
you refuse the soft heat on the subtle level of vibrations

then, it is on the grosser plane
the one of manifestation
that your heart would have to test the heart of the crisis
to learn the hard way its softness

for everything is under transformation
what is solid becomes liquid and then gaseous
and so on back and forth
all is there to get transformed
nothing can remain stable in the elements

so the Spirit gather together the right condition
to allow change to take place
but
if you resist it

as it is said in quran
"come willingly or unwilling"
and the elements responded "we obey"

Then He directed (Himself) towards the heaven while it (was) smoke, and He said to it and to the earth, "Come both of you willingly or unwillingly." They both said, "We come willingly."
quran 41:11

i am right now in love with this verse
i remember in 2006
while i was doing my training in a company
i was just going out of the room
and i saw drops of water hanging on the ceiling
about to fall

and this verses
came alive in my head for these drops of water
and i realised the elements are truly submitted to the Order of God
for they came willingly

by the way
Order is not only Command
order is literally speaking to put order from chaos
and the order of God is both


and when i was removing the last remainders
of the wax
this one was totally liquid by then
so as i was removing it with the handkerchief
as strange as it may seem to read it
i felt love for it
as if i was doing a mix of
thanking it, and healing it in myself

for myself months before
i judged it being worthless and too hard to be ever removed

that was really an alive communication
right now
lol i think i would have even kissed it
as it looked like so beautiful innocent to me

i swear
:) i feel so happy writing it
lol with a bit of tears in the eyes if i keep remembering it

it is really alive

it is true
everything is alive

The most beautiful people

You know the most beautiful people
are those who are themselves
they shine

like the hang drum musician
or the others i saw on the streets today
so cute
4 musicians playing an old music
with trumpets
and an old lady
clothes all in green
and she was dancing

tell me
i said to myself
isn't she beautiful?

she was beautiful to me
because she was being herself
just to enjoy what she knows she likes
and she felt not destabilised by the outside
by us those who were observing her
for some were amused of seeing her

but even writing this
i feel my heart so deeply grateful
for such kind of people
they are just themselves
and then their own light shine

what yogis may forget is
that everyone has a soul
and its light shine
when one hears its voice
for it shows the path
that is beneficial to our growth
the one if we follow will help us
to build the experience necessary to grow

and how you know you have grown?
when you are no more stuck in the same circumstances
over and over again
when you do not have the same disputes
for dispute and anger always appear, it's a constant in our life
as we say it is a play, a game
but still
isn't evolution about transformation?
about no more being the same old self?
but growing
this growth is proven
if our external circumstances are changed
if we have changed and emitted light

for some people change
but they are not growing
it is just apparences which change
inside they are all the same
and this is an illusion

but real change
is the one of transformation
where your own presence emit peace, light, joy

but a realised being
may have a connection between his soul and his spirit
that those 'other' people have not
yet, most of them so far i have seen
have not found their life purpose
their AUTHENTIC life purpose
the one that makes them feel enamoured by life
the one that makes them vibrate
and wish them to go on living to create a better world
a PERSONAL life purpose
for automatically
if you find your life purpose
then,
de facto
without your planning
you will benefit the rest of humanity.

during my studies
my interest shifted to spirituality
little by little
till i postgraduated
and i realised that i had lost interest by the end of my studies
in the diploma i had prepared
so funny
and such an awkward situation

because my aim
without me knowing that it was my aim
it was just to follow my inner interest
spirituality and its link with my OWN experience of it

and once i got it
once i got this tiny self realisation
i jerked back again in reality of life
and all went blank for me

how to find interest in life
when you had lost it for something that you found?

so paradoxical

later i learned
before self realisation
my dreams were my guides
giving me clues for what is real

now that i have gotten the real
i had no more such vivid dreams
for remember my dreams were my teachers
thanks to them i could see that this life was not real

but now, THIS very life is REAL
this very life is the scene of my vision
and no more my dreams
why?
because now, i can raise above it
and be my OWN master and CREATE my OWN dreams in REALITY

such a huge discovery for me
i understood it only this week

and yes
i realised what i LOVE most
and NOW i am gonna test this Power of God
and SEE
HOW it can help me in my new found goal?

for on my own
i am SURE i cannot
so much deepness and richness is needed for that
well one will see

till then
i hope everyone will find his or her goal
and honor it
this way you will honor the others
and thus honor Life

i don't know why i have this nostalgic feeling
as if it is the end of a certain time for me
testing time surely
but innerly
and right now
i feel really grateful to everyone
for all the positive and negative experience i had
because without them
i would have never learned
with my life
the true meaning of forgiveness,
of letting go
and of love

how all of these are linked?

well i learned that EVERYTHING has its RIGHT and WISDOM to be in our life
anger, disappointement, liking and disliking
because they exist in us
our role
is not to GIVE INTO THEM nor to HIDE them / avoid them

first i learned
to let them have their place
not to scoff them in me
if i am angry
then let it be

second,
i should recognise
ON THE SPOT
that now i SHOULD LET GO
meaning forgive this anger
by meditating ON THE SPOT
so that the anger be dissolved
and be integrated/grown enough
to be integrated into the light in me

third,
if LATER
i STILL feel angry
this feeling and the person having caused it
i should thank
for thanks to them
i can re start my purification job

of course
as a human being
i will be excessive and be rebellious
and get stuck at times
but VICTORY is when i overcome it
and not because of mental effort
but because of the effect of this Power of God
of these vibrations
the negative feelings will be transformed into light

yet,
if again and again
the same scenario repeats itself
it means that i still have not progressed
and that something is wrong with my practice

there it is
i said it all
and i feel  happy to have shared it

kiss:x
good night


ps :
a sentence came to me
our soul seeks to experience and fulfill
dreams and romance (its desires)
and it is that which gives us the energy to work for it



i.e.
the soul gives us its desire/goal
which is still a dream and it is precious to us
the latter activates our left channel
and it gives us the energy to work for it
that activates the right channel

with this

ONE THOUGHT   -
ONE EMOTION

we create our dreams in this reality
and we become thus our own master!

Hang Drum - eeric music

Today after a long time
of having stayed home
for lately there is much to do
and also because i resumed my challenge! :)

40 day intensive meditation
like never before !

i had already made it in Italy
but now if i can make it in France
as is harder
i will feel truly rewarded

ah yes
i went outside
after such a long time
in town center

oh
so beautiful
everything i looked
seemed beautiful to me

like the way the orange, yellow and red leaves
where covering the walls
or the roof of houses made of stone
or even some green trees in the alley
and the pavement ! made of grey bricks

and the music i heard
an eeric music !
i swear
i just got mesmerised by it
specially i went to the bank to withdraw money
and by the CD

the instrument is called hang
it looked like a shield from middle age
yet the sound is so eeric
i was surprised how a flute like sound was coming out of this instrument

and there was no button
nothing
just steal
and yet sound was coming out of it
where the musician was applying his hands
so magic

even now i feel enamoured by it

and even the musician
was so engrossed in his practice
that all of his body was moving in rythm
so harmoniously

i really felt doing this instrument
a music with which you are so attuned
that your body is the prolongement of it
and like the music
so rythmically and harmoniously moving

finally
i asked the guy the name of the instrument
and he asked me to guess from its name
i could not find
as he asked me to still try out
i said china lol
though the instrument looked like not from there

he was nice
he asked me to have a second guess
i told him the outward instrument looks like
the one of middle age
and to my surprise
he told me it is very recent
only 13 year old discovery!

amazing
but i believe it
given the sound of it

so eeric..
anyway
he said hang is from switzerland origin
and it means hand
so suitable a name!

Hang drums or "hanghang" as they are known in plural form are very unique and very exclusive pitched percussion musical instruments. They are made from gas-nitrided steel, look like flying saucers, and sound a bit like Carribean steel drums. If you want one you are required to travel to Switzerland where they were invented and pay upwards of $5000 for the privelege of becoming an owner. The inventors of the instrument are the only ones who make them and their service is based on personal customization and high-end exclusivity. It seems funny for a hand percussion instrument that looks like a UFO and is played on the lap to be so expensive to obtain, which is why we can make one for about $30 out of an old propane tank.

Read more : http://www.ehow.com/how_7917062_make-hang-drums.html

here is a bit more info about it :

The Hang (German pronunciation: [haŋ],^[1] plural form: Hanghang^[2]) is a musical instrument in the idiophone class created by Felix Rohner and Sabina Schärer in Bern, Switzerland. The name of their company is PANArt Hangbau AG.^[3] The Hang is sometimes referred to as a hang drum, but the inventors consider this a misnomer and strongly discourage its use.^[4]
The instrument is constructed from two half-shells of deep drawn, nitrided steel sheet^[5][6] glued together at the rim leaving the inside hollow and creating a distinct 'UFO shape'. The top ("Ding") side has a center 'note' hammered into it and seven or eight 'tone fields' hammered around the center. The bottom ("Gu") is a plain surface that has a rolled hole in the center with a tuned note that can be created when the rim is struck.
The Hang uses some of the same basic physical principles as a steelpan, but modified in such a way as to act as a Helmholtz resonator.^[7][8] The creation of the Hang was the result of many years of research on the steelpan and other instruments.^[9] The inventors of the Hang have continued to refine the shape and materials and have produced several variations over the years.
The name Hang comes from the Bernese German word for hand. It is a registered trademark and property of PANArt Hangbau AG.

source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hang_%28instrument%29

i can't wait to listen to the CD
but already the visual of it
is very auspicious
as first impression
when i looked at its cover

zen atmospher
sitting near the open root of trees
with some multicolored sunrays radiating the face
of the musician

i always noticed
when i go outside
after more or less time of seclusion
the atmospher is just beautiful
colorful and pretty

i just wish to observe
and my joy rests in that
it is like the observing is my joy
like i am doing what i am seeing
as if i was absorbing what was around
and feeling nourished by it innerly
even though i am not the direct doer

today with the beauty of the place
of this town center
though it was urban aera
and the music
i felt like walking in a dream
from A to Z
like floating
and the éclat of beauty i could see outside
was like i was feeling its richness in my spirit
so alive it was


look at this muscian his name is daniel waples
in edingburgh 2012
he gave a short explanation of the instrument
and played it
isn't it eeric? middle age like?
i am definitely in love with the sound of this instrument.

and i like the harmonics of the sound
and the flowing magical atmospher it creates
it really makes me feel i am brought back in middle age
besides middle age is my preferred time line

and well, i like the real innocent joy on the face of the musician
same kind of peacefulness was emitted from the guy i met today

i just love it!