Energies projection

There is a great thing i literally realised today

that when we see someone as bad
actually the person is ok

this feeling of hate i had against a person
i could have had it with another one
it is just that this person happened to be there
at that moment.

so the energy that i bore in me
on a given time
is way deeper in me linked to
some unresolved issue i had let s say with people breaking their words

so when my inner energy which is linked with this breach of trust
once in certain circumstances awakened
and thus TESTED

it manifested itself outside of myself.

but HOW it worked?

i tell you
it is as if this trunk of energy
starting from my belly (for belly is the center of well being)
is linked on one side to a screen which is projecting on it
a past experience of a breach of trust

and the energy trunk grows up to my brain
and there of course
there is no outlet
if my sahasrara is not opened
it receives not the love energy to dissolve it

therefore
it projects like another screen of tv
but let s call it in a laser like way
it project "an image"
on a white piece of marble/light
which is the other person

so that the person is somehow being
influenced and in a way controlled by my energy
and if my inner energy is repulsion
then this person will feel repulsed
and will flee away seeing me

and this works on her
because in her own consciousness she is feeling guilty
and is not at rest/peace!

so the trigger work.

but if i have the sahasrara opened
and let the energy of love being showered
on my deeper inner past experience of breach of trust
this experience is transformed in love
and the energy emitted out of myself
is love
and it attracts in turns the person
whose behavior will change and become amiable

so it is in the end
all about myself
about my inside.

it is never the other one s fault.

after our period of blaming the whole word
we are actually witnessing and experiencing
the manifestation of our own unresolved energies
inside of our selves
which are like any "intelligent" robot
manifesting themselves
out of us
and chiseling our world outside
and making it at our OWN image.

so if our world is ugly
it is because we have inside of us
some precise energy
which is related to some past unresolved painful experience
which ONLY need
like a child does
to attract our attention
to get resolved/to grow!

therefore
it attracts our attention
by manifesting itself
and popping out into our world
and coloring it, painting it
like a child paint on a canvas

have you ever seen a child's painting?
it expresses his subconscious so spontaneously

same with us
our inner energi-es
pop out
when they are triggered by some parameters/circumstances
and they paint on our canvas,
which is our world/people we meet

and it shows us that it needs to receive Light/Love to grow
and it is NOT the kind of love you think
it is ATTENTION ILLUMINATED
the one that is so
when our sahasrara is opened
and the light pours from upwards
deep down

this is WHY
it is important to have loooong meditation
long enough to let this energy of love/cool breeze
sink inside and transform our "matrix" lol

kiss:x

Chapter 2 : Photography - Nature

NOW the nature,

It was the MOST beautiful time EVER i had

In terms of discovering NATURE

Of course, in central France it was pretty green hills surrounding our village,

The area was Puy du Dome,

I have some nice pic, that i need to insert there, soon.

BUT BEST OF BEST

Was in ITALY !

When i went to the youth camp !

I took so many BEAUTIFUL pictures,

Sheer beauty it was,

Not only there, but also on flicker i need to publish them.

There were so good,

That a guy asked them to me,

For he failed his when he took them from his tablet,

I teased him to give me credit once he publish them on facebook.

Lol, for i sensed he would have pretended them to be theirs

By his convenient « silence ».

Some were really miraculous,

Others just with the right sun light

I need to select them and post them as soon as possible.

Yes, i started to take real good pictures in the youth camp,

For when i used to look at the landscape, i used to say i wish to capture it inside

But this time literally speaking

The camera DID capture it !

as i was taking pictures with my mobile

and yet they were of such a good quality, 

the castle guests who were passing by, 

said, you should buy a professional camera 

and start taking pictures

it would be more awesome:)

What i loved in this landscape at the camp
was that we were surrounded by green mountains
and early in the morning
we could see clouds surfing down from them

once we went for a day walk and when we arrived by the end of day
at the summit of one of them
it was FILLED with mist!

it is what people called it mist.
but i called it clouds!

for when we look at them from afar
we say there are clouds surrounding the summit
but once we are in, we call it mist!

no, for me it is clouds!
and when i was a child
and used to take airplane,
i asked my mom how to walk in the clouds
she said it was impossible
as a man would fall
lol!

dream concretised!

i COULD WALK in the clouds!
that day!:)

also, what often happens,
is that when i used to look at the mountains from the camp,
i thought that their greenery/forest is beautiful

but once i was on the OTHER SIDE
THEN i realised i was part of what i called beautiful!

that is incredible!

we ALWAYS forget what we look at
and don t realise
that we are part of it
when we are on the other side!

so i felt proud
to say to myself
that i am in the place i praised !:)
and that i am part of that beauty:)

another strong impression of mine
was when i looked at these mountains
and could see early morning
LITERALLY speaking the sun rays
which i have by the way
miraculously caught on camera!

so, when i saw these sun rays
falling upon this green forest
the light was so cool and yet intense
that i felt
it was literally entering through my eyes
and flowing like a river all the way in my belly

and i felt fulfilled
can one say nourished?

yes i have not tried
but i guess i could have stayed without eating that day
without having feeling of lack.

another time,
it is when i was really sad and disappointed
at people's behavior in the camp

and when i was looking at the mountains,
i concluded that there is only nature
which is sane
and where i would wish to be with
if i had to make "a permanent choice to be with"

and like for a video
i was seeing how roots of trees
could absorb the elements of the earth
and really integrate them!
this on the spot i found it really relieving, and fascinating

-relieving, because it was like a guarantee to me,
that nature does not segregate, it always INTEGRATE
it does NOT cut links
which is not the case with human beings

so i found safe, considering that,
that at least integration or unity existed in nature.

-fascinating, because it was alive!
it is incredible that roots of trees, in truth moves out
to reach elements around
grasp the soil and made it firm,
take the minerals and integrate them in its sap!

so that nothing was left out.

i liked it:)

with the little time i stayed there,
two weeks
i realised a few things about nature,

such as how much i was not in contact with its natural rythm,

like, one night i felt really cold
and i wondered how come
then i realised that during the day
there was no sun
therefore, the earth/soil had not accumulated enough heat
to give it back at night!

so amazing,
how much i am disconnected from natural rythm of the earth,
when i only have knowledge of heater and tar.

another, big time of mine
was when the youngster invited me to meditate with him
at the hill at 430
i went there
of course it was really cold
don t know if really meditated
but i felt happy
that it is a new experienced i never had
to meditate on an elevated place at 430 in the morning
and see first rays of sun.

i think i have to do a post about this nice guy
for at the end of my stay i thanked him
for i think he might have been the only one
who had a kind nature and was able to display it.
it is not for nothing
that he meditated at 430.

** pictures to come **

:)
here they are :
https://www.flickr.com/photos/127266480@N08/

Chapter 1 : Meditation

Hi there,

My intention to go for a two month journey

Was to develop intensive meditation.

For 10min of meditation a day is not efficient in itself.

As Shri Mataji said in her early talks, which are the best as a guidelines to grow

You need to get up at 4am and meditate at least an hour.

Goal is not vibrations, but Spirit.

Vibrations are the boat leading your personality to get integrated in the spirit.

Getting dissolved in it, if i use correct term.

So the more petals are open,

The more vibes will flow of course.

When petals open more,

It means we get less and less identified with our thoughts

And then bingo,

We are more in touch / identified with our spirit.

Which is pure light but covered with thought forms.

The process is that the more we meditate/i.e. stay with attention undisturbed on the cool breeze

WHEREVER we feel it (means not only sahasrara)

The more our channels get purified

And like for a motorway energy can pass through and cross agnya

And we are thus PURIFIED from thoughts identification.

That is for the process and how it worked.

Therefore my two month intensive meditation is a success !:)

For my aim was not only to use collective to meditate more

For it suffices that i be on my own, that it becomes heavy to get up at 4am

Which means that at some point some individual /personal effort is needed

Without which we cannot enact our pure desire for God.

Unless there be this personal routine established 

Or call it intensity

There cannot be breakthrough or progress

As i understood so far.

First two weeks, i was in central France, must say early meditation was not that early

It was just collective meditation that i joined at 7am.

Lol i tried to get up earlier but was impossible due to our 3am sleeping time

Jesus though it was fun, i was appalled !

And was in deep sleep deprivation.

Once i arrived in Italy, first month, i took part in collective meditation, 7am too.

There vibes were definitely stronger due to the quality of the yogis there.

Still, i could not get up earlier than 6am.

So i could at times meditate 1h before the collective one, as a personal meditation

And do the walking cycles/meditation.

Once my friends were all gone, i shifted to a castle and from there as i was more on my own,

I started to meditate at 4h30.

And it lasted till the end of my stay.

Would you like to hear a funny story :

When i was meditating the first night,

A Spanish lady which came recently, asked me how come so many alarms rang during the night

Lol so i told her,

It was my try to get up and meditate early.

She is a sort of collective type lady, who likes to harmonise things

So she said but this can t do,

That everyone got up at different time

LOL innerly i exploded in laughers

Who are you to tell me at what time i should get up for MY individual meditation ?

Anyway, she wished to join

Which was a good decision

As long as she prevented me not to wake up early.

Day after, we meditate together.

Then, it occurred to her, we can ask the girls dorm to join us for morning meditation

So i invited them all, some were from Belgium other from china.

Let me  tell you Chinese people have great stamina for meditation and devotion

For i often saw them regularly meditating throughout the day

And even at night, ESPECIALLY when they came back late.

One girl got a sort of heart attack

When i announced 430 ! lol

She could not make it

So we meditated all at this time

Next day she joined us.

A friend told me

To help them to increase their vibes

So i wanted in a few words next day

Tell my method to apply some cycles on their different chakras

So that their vibes increase

Of course one of the Chinese woman,

The one who could not possibly get up at 430

And was up thanks to me

Turned her back on me

Not to listen 

for she wanted to stay in silence

Such rudeness !

of course, we gonna meditate 

in silence

i just meant to give 1min indication for HER OWN good!

not forgetting, that i could have remained by myself on my own

to meditate in SHEER silence

without them

YET i DID invite them (see! :) grammar mistake this time;) )

so it is not me who was going to "disturb" their hardly earned 

meditation time!

I felt really heartbroken

That not only i do them good, but not thanking is one thing

But displaying rudeness is another.

So i left them all meditating downstairs

And i went upstairs to meditate on my own.

Yes, so far i had noted that when i meditated on my own

my vibes were strong and i felt good.

Since i started this collective meditation at 430, i had a heartache

So i needed to stay longer with attention on heart.

Therefore, i learned that i was purifying them.

I wondered what is the point, especially when people know it not

And add rudeness to ungratefulness.

A friend told me, that it makes spirit happy.

Anyway, once i was over with my anger,

I wished to have a new group of meditation

Who would like to learn my method and where i could meditate longer as i wish.

Yes it is important to wish,

And it is important not to suppress anger, and

It is all the more important NOT to linger on it.

These are three rules i learned and applied during my stay,

And have lots of anecdotes about them. And how it works out.

So for next post.

Anyway, that day when i meditated on my own upstairs,

I did not see time passing,

I started at 430 and when people started to enter the meditation room,

For the collective one, i realised it was 730 !

So happy i felt !

I did not see time pass,

It was also due to the new music track i got,

Such a beautiful one, i could meditate non stop thanks to it.

A 20min track, repeat it 3 times, and one hour is gone !

So i did probably 1h walking combined with 1h sitting, and 1h sitting in silence without music.

Later on, when people asked and i told them,

Those downstairs wanted to join and the guys which are sleeping upstairs, half of them too

Wanted to join J !

So happy i was, there i had a new meditation group !

So next day we meditated all together

Most of them meditated 1h others a bit more.

So i felt happy that half of castle residents meditated that early.

I had met a french guy who was really happy to hear about this new method of walking meditation

For he was enthused about the increased of vibes

He shared with me too that he had met an Indian guy

Who sort of also develop a method, as he was aiming to increase vibes rate in body

And talked of it to Shri Mataji,

Who validated it

And advised him not to advertise it to other yogis

Except those who are ready.

Hmm, there i realised

Even among those who meditate

Only a few seek for a breakthrough

Others have a faint desire to progress.

Anyway, i might get in touch with this Indian guy

And see, for i am curious.

Who knows,

I feel like travelling a lot next year,

Say

India,

Japan

Canada

Egypt

Yeah !

After the castle, i moved to a camp in the mountains,

There we were only two to meditate at 430.

The second person, was a youngster of 17 J

He was already meditating in the castle with me,

And if one day i missed meditation, for i was sick that day,

The next day, he would come and enquire why i came not J

Ah i really loved that guy,

For his early morning dedication

Imagine he was the only one to meditate that early out of the 60 people in the camp !

Desire, maturity and aim is not the same by the yogis.

All do not remain seeker of truth, truly.

So i went on with this 430 meditation once back in the village,

But he could no longer

For he used to sleep in a tent in the forest,

Which makes things not in favor of early meditation in a hanger ! lol

Still i remain proud of him.

And happy.

So i went on once back down in the village,

With my 430 meditation

Quality i feel had dropped a bit.

In terms of combining meditation.

In the castle, i systematically

Did the walking+sitting with and then without music.

In the hangar, due to the atmosphere,

Lack of light and cold i guess

And also the fact that it is a dormitory + meditation room

I only and mainly did the walking meditation.

By the end of my stay i can say i succeeded to do a whole month intensive meditation

As i call it !:)

Here is my formidable beautiful meditation music

Upon which i used to meditate J

Kiss :x

PS : effect of meditation ?

I felt and also got this comment,

That my heart opened more.

May be when i was purifying the others

And had heartache, it purified my heart and opened it !

Hence when one told me spirit would be happy,

Literally speaking my heart opened J

When i purified others ?:)

Second,

An English lady who had met me a month before,

When she saw me back in the village

She literally stopped me

Took me by the shoulders

And looked into my eyes

And said

« your eyes have changed. You have something of Ganesha/ say Innocence in it »

Best thing is to hear change from people

As we ourselves do not realise it

And once we hear it

It means it is true !

For the Energy is a transformative energy !

And i feel for the lady managing the camp,

She used to criticise the 17 year old guy,

Without knowing that me too i meditated that early

For i kept it secret

As i know if people have no interest in meditation

What’s the use to draw their attention on it.

Somehow she learned about the youngster meditating that early

And reproached him of not being collective !

JESUS !

This is how people justify their jealousy,

And how they like to boss others around

Without bossing themselves around,

Get a hold of your OWN meditation, of your OWN attention

And THEN you can play by teasing people in a light way

But here it was not even teasing,

It was pure silly judgemental conceptualised behavior

About WHAT a collectivity SHOULD BE !

Collectivity is a NATURAL SPONTANEOUS OUTCOME

Of people living together

It is NOT something forced upon

And certainly NOT something that mind can SHAPE through judgement.

Though i have wisdom,

I lack words on the spot

To tell people what i think

May be because i am artificially conditioned to respect their egos

But it won t last long,

This behavior of mine,

For i noted during my stay

How people, who mostly follow their ego, even though yogis,

Are in a position of abusing those who are lenient and kind.

I gotta chisel their ego a bit

Next time !:)

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