Boredom

i realised that actually i feel bored
when things goes into routine
and seems no more working

and i had forgotten!
that joy is the key

JOY/Love is the ONLY power
that works

which means
if i do something
without joy then it will bear no fruits

this means NOT to submit to the task like a slave
and call it joy
or force joy upon myself

this means to INITIATE a VERSION of that task
in MY MIND that would BRING JOY
and eventually i could FEEL JOY in my heart

this changes everything

so now, lol
i took part in a game to win a week end somewhere in some castle

so what i did
is first i imagined myself at this place
wondered FIRST
WHAT joy is close to this scene to me

so for me
it was the stone of the castle
i like the touch of it

the wind of the place
that gives sensation of freedom up high
a castle up high on a cliff

and under the sea
the waves sound is fabulous

and of course
a good green forest nearby
to feel refreshed in the morning

while having my breakfast in the garden!

;)
as i felt the joy of the version of the scene
then, i let it go
in the silence


i have to win !
for otherwise why i would have felt the joy?

if i felt it, then it is real

it is JUST the timing of it
that i am not in control of

as i have been told
you do your share : the WHAT
and let GOD care for the : WHEN (why, who etc.)

The Spirit

i had today a nice dream

ah that was beautiful and glorious
i saw the spirit
raising like a huge flame
and it raised in front of shri mataji who was next to me

and he raised so that she too recognises its grandeur   
as she did, she bowed to it 

i liked that

that was truly real scene for the word Glory

now somehow i will do what i can, to get this too   

i have to , because this kind of glory i have never seen it in daily life
i just wish dream does not faint in my mind otherwise i forget my drive  
out of boredom at times

(why?
cf next post)

it was beautiful 

because when i look at it again
first, nothing else existed in the attention 
except 

only this great and i don t know for what reason, beautiful flame it was, rising

third it was really powerful and especially superior on its own

and when i look back at it , there is no question rising or doubts if it was good or not and to what limit

i can breathe well         

Conscious and Subconscious

Have ever heard of people playing a role?
or again that life is like a drama, role play?

i JUST understood today its REAL meaning! :)
feel SOO content and fulfilled :)
yes findings like these are bread like to me,
well rather sweet than bread lol

it functions like this..you do to other what you would WANT to yourself,but you're afraid to do/experience this by doing this to yourself

so.... the human being found a way!
that  is projection !

PROJECTION !!!

"we think of the other the way we think of ourselves"

here is a little story,

at midnight a pious person was coming out of a church/mosque/ saint place
and he met a guy in the street

his first though, "oh the great guy, he is so diligently working out himself to keep vigil at night in prayer."

and when this other guy met the pious one,
he said to himself with a malicious face " ah, this guy playing the pious but in truth no better than me,
sneaking out at night to go to discotheque"

LOL
when i heard this
i laughed a lot

and it was a revelation,

it means we think of the others, the way we think of ourselves.


same about the rest of our life
we are wholly experiencing ourselves at all time
by doing unto the other what we are afraid to do/admit to ourselves of our inner/hidden desires/personality.

why afraid?
for we have a logical mind which is afraid for it can't manage to control the inner deep power of his inner desire.
it knows that it is SO STRONG that it will defies its logic.

thus this BLOCK
which is too traumatising to self experience (i.e. being experienced by the consciousness)
will be soften by being projected i.e. being experienced TOWARDS the other!

BY PASS way to experience it

so our subconscious is projecting on the other
to know itself
by passing the block between the logical brain and the inner desires of the individual

THUS

THIS IS HOW WE PROJECT OUTSIDE
THAT WHICH IS INSIDE OF US!

why the need for this self experience?
ah, suddenly it becomes clear, isn't it?

SELF experience
before i could not get what  SELF experience
it is the subconscious trying to know itself
while the conscious, as the name point at is CONSCIOUS of this EXPERIENCE

knowing how it works..automatically makes the ,,inner,, being understood


and the block was about

lack of communication between mind/soul/spirit..etc 
orin other word

 the conscious vs the subconscious reality


third, 
this projection creates a ,,connection,, between the conscious and subconscious - mind and soul?

this connection is
a medium to communicate between both.

CONCLUSION : 

so we always,,project,, the inner ,,outside,,..to ,,see ourselves,,

so the pious guy wanted to see his own piousness
to see what his piousness looked like :)

and the disco guy wanted to see what his depraved life looked like lol

true a mirror cannot see itself
it NEEDS a second person to be able to see HOW it reflects WELL!
so far so good

BUT 
when our attention FORGETS THAT! (man forgets, so use remembrance - quran/islam)
when it forgets the rule of the game : to know yourself, to experience your self
as a mirror would want too

and starts thinking that it is the beauty of the other i want to possess (one of the 10 commandments not to transgress -judaism)
or the ugliness of the other that i want to wipe off ( do not judge or you will be judged - christianity)

then it is HOW our attention got corrupted
and we forget WHO we are.

see ? all of the religious teachings AIM at bringing man back to :

THE PURE BLISSFUL AWARENESS OF THE PRESENT MOMENT BEING EXPERIENCED

- dedicating this clarity of revelation to my husband to be :)
kiss to you ; ) and HUGE love

-petals