Final Words

Do your best. That's all you can ask of yourself. If you did your best and things just didn't work out, you don't owe an apology to anyone. And you certainly don't need to feel 'bad' about it -- or, worse yet, guilty.

N.

Good bye Past
I am coming New Life

Shakti Arise

No comments on the current craziness in the world
otherwise i feel i will get into GREAT depression
these are sever cases of possessions without doubt


But from what Spirit told me
is ok
the ongoing battle has been won
so there should not be any evil forces
doing these crazy terror acts

i was so sad
seeing my Europe becoming like Middle East

anyway,
as one can rejoice that calm returns

i can now decently give space
to a good vision of mine
about the mediation practice

This time i was meditating at 3am
and by the end of meditation
i saw a vision of Mataji

yes yes my cute lovely spying Yogi
i SEE you
as you see,
i have not left meditation
is only your own imagination
LOL

and am pretty sure
none of you get up early to meditate
instead of getting up at 3 am
you may be sleeping at 3am
may be after having flirted with one guy or two!

hey is ok;)
but don't pretend to be IN yoga while i am OUT
cause i am more IN than you can EVER imagine...
Ponder my words..

Besides hasty judgement,
hypocrisy is what i hate most

back to my writing

Apparently as i was saying
Shri Mataji knows that i am doing GOOD in meditation
as i see her now and then

so i saw her  
she was pushing with her both hands up from shoulders
doing it several times
from neck to up 
2 or 3 times 
like you lift something?    

So she was actually 
confirming about the cycles
that i do

First you need to make SURE
your raise your shoulders
and open them wide 

indeed
once you do the cycles
you know what i talk about if you read my blog
then right AFTER you straighten your spine

and to help spine to be really aligned
you need to raise your shoulders 
so that SPACE be made to let Shakti Arise

Capish?

and if you are a good girl and boy
you will see me soon 
or not ;)

remember
I SEE YOU

and now remember me like that song...

 

Plato's Cave and Samadhi out there

Tonight
my voice
ie. the voice of my subconscious

told me
a metaphor
about my progress

and later i learned
the cool stuff
that actually
the message is given by a demi-god

and the transmission of it
is done through the image selected by
my subconscious

it is how it works

isn't it cool?

anyway,

so i was given
the metaphor of a worm underground
that is how the meditator is

he is like a worm underground

and i was told
that there is only darkness

true, when you are underground
there is no light

and the voice told me
it took me one whole year to open one eye

and i thought
gosh! i put so much effort
and only one eye opened
and it is for what? to only see darkness around?

but spirit told me after
that it is the beginning of awakening

for awakening you need to get
your both eyes open
and of course when you open your eyes
then you realise what?

you realise where you are

and so i remembered
is like Plato cave

when you are living in there
you do not know that there is light out there
see?

and as people are satisfied
with the way they live life
they think is all this about life

but there is more

only if you read Plato cave
you can get the meaning of that worm metaphor

so Spirit told me
is good cause most people do not know
the reason behind cultivation
see?

this is why
once they feel cool breeze
they just get stuck with vibes
that's all

and they NEVER EVER
think of reaching out for more
such as going out of that Plato's cave

again, only if you read it
you will get why people don't seek for more

and if you see for more
lol as i do
i will be told
"She left meditation
she is no more worshiping
she is leaving collective
she is so and so
she is blablabla

she is all that they are projecting actually
from their own dark mind

do i waste my time
thinking of what they are doing or not?

so give me a break

only Time will show
who succeed in meditation
and who get full enlightenment
capish?

so i am doing good
i KNOW the reason for cultivation
and BECAUSE i know it
i know what they do not know
and have the bubbling feeling in heart to wish for more
and go out for more bliss

my best achievement
was that of 2 weeks ago
when i felt the First Samadhi

do current yogi feel samadhi?
hmm?
so only ignorant "yogi" can label me as having left meditation

how can i leave something i never left?

but i see they never left their backbiting
is ok suits their level of refinement
hehehe

 i believe in karma
what you send out to others
is what you get back..

Prophet Muhammad prayer

On First day of Ramadan
in dream i saw the prophet muhammad

actually the voice
was telling how people/muslims of now
do not proper cultivation to grow

It was said
instead of giving out money as donation
and thinking they are ok now

they should do proper cultivation
do proper prayers

lol it reminds me of some arab muslims
who never fast
and get a medical ordinance
for ramadan
saying they are ill
while the whole year they party
and eat food whenever they want

so they give donation
thinking is compensating
their lack of fasting

anyway
in dream
the voice told me
that many century laters
muslims are so stuck with some wrong methods
in doing their salah/prayers

that even if you tell them now
they won't be able to change it
(habits are hard to change see?)

so the wrong stuff
is when they end salah
they do salam on right and left

but is not proper way

they should end if with face straight
and do salam so

and the angel
told me
is just a few times / rarely
the prophet did the right and left "salam"
cause actually people mistook it
thinking it is the way to do salah

while the angel showed me with close up
that Gabriel was talking to the prophet
so as he was listening to him
he moved his head right and left
while focusing on his talk

so i saw the prophet
doing his prayer
at the beginning he stood up
and his back was straight
(which people fail to straighten up now)

then i saw the end of it
he was in sitting position
and his back was straight
(again people fail to keep it straight)

and while he said salam
with his face straight
i saw the cool breeze / breath of life
coming out of his mouth

so that is the proper way to do salah

and of course
as the angel said to me
as centuries have passed
people won't believe it
as habits are hard to change

The Light that makes you feel light

In dream
i was sitting in a cave
and was holding a baby

then i passed my hand over his face
and it started to beam light

then
as it started to attract attention
and people around started to approach me
with bad intentions

the angel who was a man
approached and passed his  hand again
on the face of the baby
so that it hides the light
for the time being

apparently
is about timing

in all cases
from my feel
the baby is the soul
that shines when it gets connected to the spirit

this is the metaphor
about Mary and Jesus
who came to explain what is to be born again

so,
when i woke up in the morning
i felt so much rested
i never felt so good
since may be months

this is actually a light
that regenerates you

i felt like i had no burden
from the head to the shoulders

is like you are used to your burdens
so that you do not feel the weight you are bearing

but when it is removed
then you realised
all along you were carrying weight..

see?

so i remained in bed
and took time to feel
how come  i feel so different

cause i was feeling very light
from head to shoulders / neck
the real meaning of feeling GOOD

and then i could enjoy the surrounding
sun rays entering room, birds chirping, or the wind in trees

i think we can enjoy
only if we feel good

is abheration to seek for joy
from a place of stress

Noticeably TRUE

One
basic
truth can
be used as
a foundation for
a mountain of lies,
and if we dig down deep
enough in the mountain of lies,
and bring out that truth, to set it
on top of the mountain of lies; the entire
mountain of lies will crumble under the weight of
that one truth, and there is nothing more devastating to a
structure of lies than the revelation of the truth upon which
the structure of lies was built, because the shock waves of
the revelation of the truth reverberate, and continue to
reverberate throughout the Earth for generations to
follow, awakening even those
people who had no
desire to be
awakened
to the
truth.



Delamer Duverus

The Void

AHAAAA!!!!


is the extract of the article i was reading :

The importance of recognizing a particular void

If he aspires to free himself from the prison of his tiny, illusory mental world, the seeker must arrive at recognizing in himself a very particular Void — which, contrary to what the common run of humankind can imagine, is not nothingness, but constitutes, in fact, his Primordial Essence —, so that, after long and tenacious meditation practice as well as spiritual exercises carried out in different life situations, he succeeds to remain in this state after his physical death, without dreading this condition of being in which he is going, inevitably, to find himself at this monumental instant.

Because of its major importance for the aspirant, it is necessary to return once again to the fact that this Void, or “Shunyata” as it is called in India, consists in fact of a very particular form of consciousness which has no common measure with the ordinary consciousness in which human beings generally pass their life. It is an Immaculate Consciousness of the highest subtlety which constitutes the very Essence of all beings, as well as an inviolable sanctuary in which the seeker can take refuge, not only during the time allowed him to live in this turbulent world, but also after his corporeal death.

Physically, it is impossible for him to escape from the force of gravity which, from his birth, has not ceased to be at work, pulling him ever downwards, until the day when, by an inexorable law which governs the whole of the manifest world, he finally loses his body. But, as previously said, he can escape psychically from this descending force — in so much as he dedicates his life to this end.

Since this form of existence is destined from the outset to be only temporary, should not one in this case infer that it is precisely what awaits the human being after the dissolution of his earthly body that proves to be the most important thing? 

 source : http://www.meditation-presence.com/en/articles/bardo-thodol

THAT IS THE VOID or SPACE as i called it 

i had seen in my dream when i was finishing my studies

i had seen 
that i was giving a Gift Box

and the dark blue wrapper in it 

had on it the Beautiful Names of God/Allah

and it was being rolled by the Wind

and i was going after it 

and IN THE VERY GIFT BOX

i put my hands 

and is something i could not touch 

it was LIKE A DARK MIST

LIKE SPACE

OR VOID

something you cannot touch

but was immense or profound

though contained in a gift box

the Sufi at that time

was very happy when i told him 

about this

of course 

he could not manage 

to tell me something i could not 

grasp about my own Essence 

i suppose

hence i had still no interpretation 

but the second dream i had 

and had shared as well on this blog

was about the Emptiness that i dreamt of 

a good 6months ago

and which was not empty actually

but FULL

these both aspects 

i find are being hit on the nail

in this article

great writer

plus i love his explanation of Gravity

that you cannot escape it

to the extent of your upward effort 

i.e. to ascend

is just terrible 

even the numbnuts i meet

are making all efforts 

for all kinds of stuff 

EXCEPT FOR SOME ASCENDING STUFF

anyway 

may be i was born 

by mistake on this Earth

or may be i came at a real bad timing 

cause REALLY 

STUPIDITY AT ITS HIGHEST

i see 90% of time 

in those who call themselves 

spiritual 

ahhh... so frustrating

anyway

always refreshing to read such article

at least 

i get reassured

there are some good guys

kiss

Personal Note..

PERSONAL NOTE..

NEVER ever
and i SAY EVER

SHOLTEEEEE!! go for a walk
when it rains!!!

unless i want to catch cold ...

Magic

There is no stronger magic than longing

Agnya

it just hit me!

when the agnya expands
actually.. it is dissolving
as it is no more tightening the both channel passage there

no?

in that case

is good!

as agnya has taken such a bad connotation

now if i say
agnya expands
prejudice lead you to think
ok the ego is getting worse

no..actually
if agnya , which is an ENERGY center, EXPANDS

then it is dissolving the individuality into a greater space
like universe etc

i think  this is right

Synchronicities today

hmm i am assaulted with synchronicities
today it seems

in the new city i moved to
i happened to think
about horse riding

and guess what?
right 2min after
behind a bush
i saw the tail of grey horse

i blinked eyes
many times to be sure
am not hallucinating

cause was the city
and a horse near car park
is a no no

LOL
so i quickened the pace
and saw it was indeed a GREY HORSE!!!

likewise
there were such small occurances today

but the one now i saw
is that i received a mail
with the jewellers name
being
"BLUE PEARLS"

while i was again thinking
5 min ago
about the Blue Pearl

it is popping out
of an invisible web
and saying "hello! am there"

is funny?!

i even thought
the horse popped out of
a parallel reality
breaking out the web
hahaha

actually ... i should have asked hm?

update : and now i received an email
from a Blue Star?? what's the heck there?

Giving Birth to your Soul

Again
today i switched on TV
and again it hit me
as it was confirming my own thoughts...


cause lately as i was remembering
about soul

i remembered to have seen in a vision
4 years ago
how Soul was a ball of light in my belly
and if necessary practice was not done
it just get drawn ..

like in black seas

actually
this is how i understand
even better Quran
which is mostly about such metaphors

and with the awakening of kundalini
i understood that
actually my soul
arises
as said in Quran too
"Arise"

through It
and join back the Spirit
its Source

so as i remembered
patchworking my visions about soul

i remembered to have seen
as if i was being born
remembering the stage of delivery

so lately
i realised  innerly

that is like my soul
is the baby to be born
and that is actually what i want

people do have children
but is not what i want
what i want is to give birth
to my Own Soul

as if it was a baby
and actually it is
this is what is to be born again

and shockingly
is what i concluded out of intuition

but as soon as i switched on TV
in a movie!
the guy was saying

"i feel the true message of Jesus
is that life after life when we reincarnate
we learn to give birth to our soul..."

Jesus!
i said!

is the TV a human being?
it starts chit chatting with me now? hmm?

actually is the best confirmation i ever get
cause is like you give birth to Eternal Life
when you decide to give birth to your Soul
for Real

and when you think about it
Mary giving birth to Jesus
was exactly this very action
to be taught as a metaphor
for human being

that
you are giving birth
to your own divine Light

and is nothing about God in flesh to be worshiped
or to worship some photo
or some statue
or some imaginary God

is about completing your trust
that God has given you
as your True Light in your soul
to which you give the Right to be born

is to actualise your divine Nature
then you become a Real Human Being
who becomes Immortal
i feel

The Blue Star

Yesterday
after meditation
i saw in a vision
the universe

in the outer space
i saw a bunch of blue shining stars

and the Voice of Spirit said
"I will show you the most beautiful stars"

and right after this vision
i (not my mental but was the real me)
answered by word and in image

"I let go"

and the image of it
was the wind that was taking away
the pink cherry blossom petals
swaying them away

the last vision represents
the temporal nature of things
which are born and die
like waves of sea arising and dying again

so is only on the spot
that you occupy yourself with
the new situation
after you let go

and you start a new life
afresh

yes...so nostalgic of my movie
it is what it was also teaching in it

i think is the most complete movie
about Life i have ever seen...sigh..

and like in my movie
i saw a blue star shining
i was fascinated by it

and that vision followed up
later the spirit told me
that the stars are realised being
that are alive
and have their own consciousness

see now even TV and movies talk to me..
once were birds
when they were chirping
i was hearing them speaking as a human being

by the way
this is the secret of languages

is not languages that are incomprehensible
is the shrinking of our consciousness that made us divided
and not understanding the others' language/dialect

cause the life that is running in your vein
is just your consciousness expanded there..

imagine
the day your consciousness expands so much..
that you can actually not only see outer space
like i did in my vision as a token of certitude
but you can INFUSE other creation and stuff
with your consciousness...

imagine, the possibilities...
this is not magic or witch power lol
is ignorant people who fear who say that

it is merely your own consciousness expanding
and when you infuse
say
the mountain over there
with your consciousness
you can make it move..

HOW?

as much as
you can make your arm move..
cause it has been infused with your consciousness

so the body of human being
is just meant to be a starting point
for experiencing life outside of it
by letting it go
outward
and expand

back to the Blue Star :

 the Blue Star represents the Blue Pearl of the Agnya
which expanded and allowed you to see the vision of the Universe for real

and i had indeed no clue about Blue Pearl
i was just getting in touch with my Soul after meditation

and this is what i found about it :
Following article source : http://www.newcenturyfoundation.org/blue-pearl-the-jewel-of-enlightenment/

The Blue Pearl ~ the Jewel of Enlightenment

[The following is one of three short talks delivered by Lao Gan Ma at The Phoenix Rising Experience on September 11, 2010 in Marin County. Each talk served as an introduction to the performances that followed.]

The Jewel of Enlightenment

A long time ago, the Divine Mother proph­e­sied that a time will come when two dragons battle each other for supremacy in the world: the Black Dragon whose nega­tive energy emanates anger, fear, doubt and greed, and the White Dragon whose posi­tive energy emanates faith, courage, wisdom, compas­sion and Pure Love.
It will be a time when deliv­ering real dharma is extremely difficult.
It will be a time when many things are on fire.
It will be a time when the Divine Mother appears in the form of the Phoenix – the Garuda – and flies through the world holding the auspi­cious Blue Pearl – the jewel of Enlightenment – in its beak — bringing peace, hope and joy to a reborn and healed world.
That time is now – the 21st Century.
So, what is this Blue Pearl, this Lan zhenzhu?
Wher­ever there is the union of purity and depth we find the color blue. The oceans are blue. The sky is blue. The largest animal, the blue whale — a messenger of ancient wisdom, is blue. The Medi­cine Buddha is blue. Krishna, Vishnu and Rama are blue.
The Blue Pearl is the power of infi­nite Love and infi­nite Compassion.
Love that is Pure and unconditional.
Compas­sion whose foun­da­tion is wisdom. Compas­sion without wisdom is simply kindness.
Awak­ening the Blue Pearl releases nega­tive emotions and opens our heart to the energy of Enlightenment.
In Chinese the words “busy” and “angry” are each made up of two char­ac­ters. “Busy” trans­lates as “heart-dying” and “angry” trans­lates as “heart-enslaved.” Think about that.
Though the Blue Pearl’s Love and Compas­sion are infi­nite, it is wise to remember that time is finite. There­fore, we should always keep the lesson of imper­ma­nence close to our heart – there is no time to waste.
The Blue Pearl is the Most Precious Jewel.
To the Divine Mother — Guan Yin – who holds the Blue Pearl – the Soul of all sentient beings — We are the Most Precious Jewel. How pure, how magical, how beau­tiful. This is a Divine Blessing.
The Blue Pearl is the vehicle of Guan Yin’s teach­ings. To Guan Yin, all crea­tures, even those we perceive as the most nega­tive, have Buddha nature within. The Blue Pearl is a reflec­tion of our Inner God Nature – our Enlightenment. When our forms pass away, the Soul becomes a blue light – a Blue Pearl.
Always remember who you are.
The Blue Pearl has Magical Power.
The Magical Power of the Blue Pearl is not super­sti­tious. It is the Magical Power to see through illusion.
Once our Blue Pearl conscious­ness is aroused, so too is our own magical poten­tial. We can mani­fest what we need into our lives — health, wealth, happiness.
All Divine Masters have Magical Power. We don’t recog­nize ourselves. But the Divine Masters recog­nize our magical Inner Nature – our Enlightenment.
Be open to the Magic; it reminds us of who we really are.
The Blue Pearl comes from Emptiness.
Empti­ness is beyond the 3 dimen­sions. Empti­ness is the essence of every­thing we can see, hear, smell, taste and touch. Empti­ness is form and form is emptiness.
This is the highest wisdom. When you really know this, there are no longer walls or obsta­cles. This is Freedom.  This is Enlightenment.
Most of us have a purpose – always searching, always wanting some­thing. We don’t like the term empti­ness. We prefer abun­dance — but this is illusion.
There should be no wanting. Between each inhale and each exhale is Empti­ness. And in that moment a drop of the “nectar of being” can enter our conscious­ness, revealing that Empti­ness is Abundance.
Today, the Black Dragon and White Dragon of the prophecy are strug­gling, and like the posi­tive dragon, the nega­tive dragon has a Divine Nature as well. The essence of both is the Blue Pearl. We too, have both dragon ener­gies inside us, and the Blue Pearl deep in our heart.
Now is our time to surrender to the awak­ened Blue Pearl – the jewel of Enlightenment – balance the ener­gies, raise our aware­ness, become One with the Divine Mother and help heal the world.
Guan Yin holds the Blue Pearl in her hands.
The Phoenix holds the Blue Pearl in its beak.
We hold the Blue Pearl in our hearts.
Om Mani Padme Hum
A long time ago, the Divine Mother, Guan Shi Yin Pu Sa, the Bodhisattva of Compas­sion, observed and heard the “cries of the world.” Assuming her male form — Aval­okite­shava in Sanskrit, Chen­rezig in Tibetan – she paid a visit to the Himalayan Moun­tains. There, in the Land Of Snows, she gave the people of the world a precious gift – her sacred magical sounds, her heart sutra – “Om Mani Padme Hum.”
She promised her “chil­dren”, “If you hold my heart mantra in your heart, you will always be in my vibra­tion, you will always be connected to me and you will always have my blessings.”
In the mantra “Om Mani Padme Hum” – which means “the precious jewel atop the lotus” – “Mani” is the precious jewel and “Pedme” is the lotus.
The Blue Pearl is this precious jewel – the “Mani.” Within it is the compas­sion and wisdom of Guan Yin. It is also a metaphor for all the esoteric teachings.
Here in the West, it is a different kind of “money” that is the most precious. We often hear the mantra, “Oh money buy me a home.” Would we not be better served counting our bless­ings rather than our money?
The lotus is a metaphor for the exoteric teachings of Enlightenment.
Why is the lotus consid­ered a holy flower? The reason is because it grows out of the mud. Mud is a metaphor for our world. Just as the peacock — the progeny of the Phoenix — has the ability to trans­form the poison seed that it eats into the beauty of its magnif­i­cent plumage, so too, the Blue Pearl can trans­form the “mud” of the world into the beauty of the lotus for all sentient beings.
“Om Mani Padme Hum” beseeches us to fall in love with the mud, to fall in love with the Blue Pearl. The way of the Blue Pearl is not the human way.
By reciting the mantra “Om Mani Padme Hum” every day, we are reminded that during these diffi­cult times, we must shed our fear, our anger, our doubt and our judg­ment. We must remain calm in the face of disaster, and mani­fest the quality of the lotus, emerging from the mud pure and without stain.
The 21st Century is the century of the Divine Mother. It is the time when the femi­nine energy of Enlightenment will assert itself throughout the world.
A tran­scen­dent Master of the Dakini lineage once imparted the following wisdom to her beloved granddaughter:
“Life throws rough circum­stances towards us, and only wisdom can resolve their meaning. When we are tested by Heaven, there is a reason. Whether we can view each obstacle as a blessing, whether every “bad” person we encounter is a messenger, depends on whether our hearts are with the Dao, and whether our love truly reaches high and deep. We can retrieve some­thing worth­while out of karma, but only if we make offer­ings in spirit, even to forces we perceive as nega­tive. We should give thanks for the wonderful oppor­tu­nity to be tested, which enables us to develop patience and compassion.”
It is a common misun­der­standing to think that when we recite her mantra, we glorify Guan Yin. Rather, it is Guan Yin who glori­fies us – the precious Blue Pearl inside each one of us – our true Inner Nature, our Enlightenment.
“Om Mani Padme Hum.”

The Movie ...

and the name of the movie .... remains your luck if you find it...

is your destiny :)


Here is the most significant comment
i had to share :

a guy said it...
it says once translated :

"I was so affected by it, i cried in every line , every scene the acting . . .the story really brings me a damage . . i cant eat coz the maybe one of the essence is Love .. I really recognize both actors ... they're both great and lovely of their roles and the way they performed .. ."

Magic Love part 2

and how could i forget to tell this
am sure most viewers had not even notice it in the last scene
from all the feedback i read

but you see
all through out the movie
a plant was either drying out or blooming

and this plant/tree
was reflecting the actual
Life in the person

was the person inner Life healthy or not?

meaning reflecting the health of
the inner Tree of Life

....

and in the very last scene
the couple was surrounded by thriving plants and trees of the same specy

so actually...
all the way they took care of that tiny square of vegetation in their loft

and by the end
they were SURROUNDED and shaded by these very blossomed trees and vegetation

so much that they were the ones
whom the trees were actually taking care of

because
they were now that tiny square surrounded by the trees and vegetation

while in the beginning
they were the ones taking care of that tiny square of vegetation

awesome zoom in and out

incredible movie
really

and even more feeling warm
from knowing that it exists

in the consciousness of the initial writer
and even more incredible was grasped so fully
by the very video maker

and all the team

for is not easy to share this stuff
and make all go in this direction

and then the viewers

not all get it all the way

but to the least most of them surely loved it