Belly and its power

power everyone has it
this is why everyone has a life

but difference is about the use of it
unconscious vs conscious use

ok if i use the word power
is nothing surnatural
is about the "conscious use of it"
in my own vocabulary

so anyone thinking
is some supernatural thing
is weak minded
for i already defined it

plus is my blog
so i write as my daily introspection
flows :) kiss:x

so since a few days
i noticed
that very minimally
but surely
i kind of use my belly power
as if it is a sphere of energy
that you can project outside
and from there like a net
and you attract what you wishes

imagine a sphere of light expanding
whatever comes in
is part of this sphere
so is one

does not mean that you are
the stuff it englobes
but energetically you are that

it started
with the trees a few days ago
as i was in the car
all the trees on the road were aligned
and for some of them
it felt like they were more advancing
towards me
or with a real presence
they were really standing out
of the alley compared to others

and i learned
that trees too are very loving
in fact ...

-and this touched my heart
even now,
while writing it
lol feeling soft spot
in my heart -

... that very little attention
appreciation
and love is given to the trees

and if we do give them love
and touch them
to show them our appreciation

then we can imagine
how happy and really deeply
touched they would be
even though they have
a very faint consciousness

to their core
they would be really touched

imagine yourself,
if you are never given attention
and are invisible to everyone

and some day
someone sees you
and show you its attention

wouldn't it bring you to tears?
it would make you feel very soft
and alive

and definitely
you would love this person
who was the only one
to give you such attention
from all of your heart

same for the tree
the tree when loved
will love you really loads

actually
you would be loved by it
more than by any human being ever

because it does give
unconditional love
and in an ever present way

is very trustworthy
and faithful
because it just respond to your
own love

what you love
indeed loves you back

so, is as if they come to you
to somehow mark themselves out
that is faint but real impressive

yesterday
i was just in my mind
wishing to see and hear
some documentary
about this aspect of trees
like a loving entity

beware
as soon as i switched on
a channel
i stumbled about
a movie

which first words were

"a long long time ago,
there was a tree and
a young man who loved the tree.

everysingle day he came to the tree
and collected all falling leaves..."

believe me or not
it struck me!

the second AFTER
i wished for that
it was indeed coming
on TV!

that is SUGOI !!
lol
i have to use this word
FORMIDABLE
but in japanese
that really comes from the belly!
hahaha

but this time
unlike the other time
i was not shocked long
as to how come
i got exactly
the story i wanted

this time
is a bit like in vision
i saw that

it is indeed
like a sphere of magnetic light
it goes out from your belly
prompted by your wish
and is sent out

a bit like a letter
you send out

or
you know like
when you send
an air balloon
with a message
to the unknown
and yet someone answers you

well,
it is exactly same
on the spot
as soon as i switched tv
i got it back!

plus
i also learned
that if you placed yourself
above the message you expect to
receive from a source

and you kind of merge
your sphere
with the sphere of theirs
then at the merging
if your wish is conscious
enough
you know that your letter
has been delievered
then the excitement
is to wait for the answer

the difference i noticed
is now
just a bit more consciously
i wish
and just a bit more consciously
i know the letter is delivered

and i also feel
this grant more peace
for is a bit like
you sit in a comfy sofa
and send out your letter
to a very well chosen receiver
and once your energy blends with
the group consciousness of it
depending on God's will
you get the right feedback

at first
i guess it is a bit hectic
you remember
you forget
you remember
and so on

but once it get established
it becomes very natural

and from the belly
is your soul connection
to the "outer"
this is how you know
you are taking care
of your real needs
soulwise is most important
you are authentic
and less wandering blindly

and you feel a bit more fulfilled

this is why
5 years ago
i had dreamt
that i was very hungry

is about your soul
being hungry

and indeed
soul is in the belly

as present science
tells you
in the belly are
your emotional neurones

everything is linked
and interpreted according
to each field vocabulary

most important
is to find this space
between two busy-ness/thoughts
that you are stucked in
and to dwell on that

so that the very silence
feeds you

for the silence is not just
nothingness
is actually FULL

somehow
but i can't yet really tell
as i know not more

but for sure
is more fulfilling
than ever

kiss:x 

Being in the collectivity?

is the noise made by those who are most empty?

this is what i have been told
and i am trying to see life from this perspective

there is a yogi who died a few months back
and he was called to be a no-collective guy
while himself he never spoke in negative terms of others
but was more broken hearted about them

which is very sorry
for he had a lot
to teach and share
in his own soulwise way
he used to teach tales, legends of all spiritual traditions

the day he died
i saw he integrated fully the spirit

see?
while those who died after him
and that i heard of
none of them integrated the spirit
even were on the verge of becoming demon
due to temporary lack of light
given the condition of their inner state
at the death time

though these very people
have been most active in terms of collectivity
from the mind realm and superficial point of view
they were called "collective"

but from spirit realm
they were just not near it...

if people could see others
in the reverse way
they would transform
i feel
the invisible into visible

what i mean by reverse way
is to challenge norms

if norms tell me that guy is not collective
then i prefer to see
as i did for the story teller
how much in the spirit he is

and this i tell you
heart lies not
the flow and ease emanated from him
lied not

so, i came to conclusion
that the physical realm
make see, only visible stuff
and that is the dumbest of people
will be able to fill space with more idiocy
and most people will believe and follow

while the wisest
are filling up the invisible space
which is not visible per say
and how could it be otherwise?

subtler things are settled
only behind the gross
behind the physical eyes

it is only the eyes of the heart
that can see true people
while foul people can only hang on
superficial assumption
and lose their time in patronising others

but is normal
for what rules in visible realm
is personality power
and personality has to exist

but the divine being
which is in the invisible realm
has to thrive and grow
quicker than the personality in the visible one
otherwise one is at loss at death time

so, what is "being collective"?

is not a physical presence in a group
if it were so
the tales teller guy would have been an outcast
would have been so in his after life too neh?

instead he is the most advance of all i know here
YET
nearly no one benefited from him
very few meditated with him
even less appreciated him
and on the contrary
spoke ill behind his back
assuming he was not collective
assuming he 'gave up' collectivity

why?
because they saw him not tagging with them
and to their events

is so superficial knowledge they have
had they have real connection with the spirit
they would have known he joined the spirit
once he died
and better than that
WHILE he was alive
their heart would have felt HOW IN-the SPIRIT he was

YET
none of them saw him
except very few people
and most labelled him as "out of collectivity guy"

so my guess is
those who put themselves in charge of
labelling who is 'in' and 'out' of the "collective"

they should care more about their own self
for at their death time
if they go on like they do
they won't even be near as he was
to integrate the spirit

second,
collective in the mind realm
as they know it

has NOTHING to do with
the subtler realm

on the subtler realm
a "collective" being
exists not as they think

on the subtler realm
he is IN-spirit realm
and serve humanity

like
even in dreams,
or while living his own life
he is serving and helping others

while the "so called collective" guys
are just good enough to create
groups they call collectivity

but is just a physical group
to fulfill superficial
and most of them physical needs

but the subtler life is unknown to them
because very very few are advanced enough

among those i know
two ladies are advanced
to one i already told
the other is obvious the most advanced
she is like the tales teller guy who died

made fun of

yet she is a very sincere and fine lady
ok a bit out of norms
but the most advanced in the whole "collectivity"

hahaha
sorry but the word collectivity makes me laugh

as long as such people are alive
they should be honored
not in mannerism
but truly honored by joining with them
in their meditation

for during the meditation
the highest one present help the others
yet if no "leader" is defined
the collectivity level is brought down to the lowest denominator

this is why is paramount
in a true ashram
to have a leader in meditation
who sets the daily meditation 
and the leader should be the most advanced one
so that the others level may be raised

nothing to do with ego or personality
but with petals opening
as simple as that

if this is not done
the lowest person
will bring down all the others
to its level
not by will
but by vibrational rules

So, role of collective
is to "keep you on the path"
everyone in it should abide in silence
during meditation

done.
collective role is to keep you on the path.

now if you join the collective
provided you do abide in silence
who on earth is to say
you are in or out of the collective?

numbnuts.

this being said
if i ever hear
someone putting itself in charge
of pointing at who is or not in collectivity

i will start punching its nose
hahahah
kidding....
hmm? may be not ..

kiss:x

Average meditation lesson

some people at meditation center
are real weirdo

my weekly experience
:))

i arrive
lesson starts
and the guy
speaks speaks speaks speaks
45min later still speaking...

and after :
let's start now speaking of Shri mataji biography
speak speak speak
no speak speak

1hour later since beginning of our lesson ... :

ok let's balance ourselves.

let me fall from my chair
right now
imagine me falling from chair!!

will he EVER EVER EVER
say
let's MEDITATE

for i expected meditation
to start there
at least
please...

no balancing is just starting now
when meditation starts?
5min before the end?

lucky me
during all his speak time
i was meditating

yet,
as appalling as it may be
there is everything except meditation

for the person could ask us
to raise our energy
and then talk
like this we would have something activated

meditation had not even started when i had to leave
yea well you see at quarter past an hour of a speech
i presume that people want to meditate at some point no?

i have quota of fun - FULL great!
my quota of individual meditation - FULL great!
yet qualitywise quota of collective meditation is far from full


hmm,
 
oh but wait,
i see hope in the horizon ...

To the Spirit in you and me

I am so happy that Shakti exists
i was so ignorant of Her being in me
and Life pain pushed me to receive Her in gift

I was still ignorant how to properly cultivate Her in me
and you the Spirit
taught me what i knew not

so that me too today
and yesterday
i realised
that one day i will indeed Receive the Full Face of God
in all Its Glory
and it will beam out from me as it beams out from you

is just that i knew not
and how can i knew?
can a dead mind know anything new?

never in any life times

you taught me
that if i turn my full attention, my full face
on my Shakti within
then, She too will turn Her full attention, full face on me

for,
you and me
are God within

yes,
you are god within, but you must watch it, in order for him(or her) to watch you back
for...
what YOU LOVE..always LOVES YOU back

and i saw in vision
that the turning of our full face towards Her

was like
a seed that was turning its full face towards the sun
and AS me,  the seed, was watching the sun rays
this allowed the sun rays to sink in me
and nourish me
and this is the Sun watching me back

for
what i love, always love me back

and this is how
the seed opens up its petals
not by a hand that would have made it dust
this is the human way to force things to open

but by the divine Hand
who opened up the petals

had the seed remained face turned on its own
thoughts of "how to"
it would have never turned its Full Face towards the sun
and would have never been nourished

and it is so
that you, the Spirit,
showed me that for sure
this is the way

to  be given the Face of God
and that God is already within
and no mind form, can indeed realise it
only a fresh new mind divinely shaped can
and this is the beginning of enlightenement
sinking from the mind from head to toes
showering you as if you were one piece of a wet clothe
wearing one clothe is the path to the Unity within

wearing patched clothes is associating thoughts as your masters
above the One and Only Master that is the Spirit within
and Spirit clothes you in One Garment from head to toe

if i ever have to give one advice
is to be honest with yourself
this is how you will learned from Life
and as Life will teach you
and if you are an honest good student of Life
then, you too when you will share your experience
will be teaching others
and only those who have set the Spirit as Goal
will be pleased by your teachings
and not bothered

for you are meant to be pleasant
but not pleasing people

you are meant to teach
not because you are a teacher
but because you were a good pupil from Life who is your teacher
and a good pupil
when he shares
without effort and fluently
his words feel like teachings to others
while they are just honest testimony of his or her Life

i am honest and the only thing i expect is respect
there is no respect
means there is no sharing, no teaching
which will be gracefully accepted

i value the teaching of the Spirit
and will keep sharing it
because that is true sharing is for

generosity starts from heart
and heart is the center of your Life experience
what experience your heart gather
is what it is willing to pour out
so that it may be filled again anew

Life is so sacred
how can one demand to a student of Life
to be less of a teacher?
are you asking him to be less of a student?

for remember
only good students, make good teachers

and the seed is not even conscious of itself
being a student or a teacher
it just follows in all honesty its path
of turning her face to the Shakti
and at her tur the Shakti will give her
when the time will come
the Face of God

for this is my aim
this is why i life for
has never been a lip service
and will never ALLOW myself to please others

i am pleasant but not pleasing
i am honest and i expect to share
if this sharing becomes a teaching
so be it

but never try to usurpate Life Itself
and teach me HOW i, as a seed, should grow
capish?

seed grows and opens up her petals
by the divine Hands of God
not by human hands

otherwise seed will become dust
and if seed dies not, its petals opened by hands
will be spoilt
and the flower will die

Live the Life for your OWN Glory
for you are ALL the Glory of God within
and really writing it
it pains me to feel
how much imitation is around
and no authenticity

do not try to look or be "perfect"
perfection emanates from you when you are natural

be natural
lovingly, spontaneously, smilingly share your OWN life experience
just be yourself

do not assume attitudes
what works for one does not work for another
this is why is paramount to be yourself

concern with yourself
not with others
be honest

you are in charge of no one but you
from personal experience today
i saw how life is short

is funny
since i got self realisation
i never had met so many people myself included
on the verge of death

i always knew
that is not death that afraid me
is if i would be saved after death

and for people that i love
is not their death which afraid me
but is being unable to ever meet such loving people again

for their spirit shines
so much :)
that i am in love with that and got used to it

and yes i know
what i love in them, is the part of me that i am seeing in them
so they and i are like one
this is no for nothing
that i had seen my own face in the other

but if such good loving people die
my mirror would disappear
and i would never ever be able to see such love again

because very rare are those who are superior to you by Love
because they have realised it they are Love
this is enlightenment

so how can one not be ambitious enough
to wish for full self realisation
for full enlightenement
for full Love

as it produces such beautiful Loving people?

me too i want to be like these
me too i am
is just that i know it not ...yet :)

Sun rays width changed

as i was working
again suddenly
i saw these very sun rays coming out
from front of me, more
from my left handside

this time the rays
were of a 3 cm width

they have changed size
before they used to be 1cm

i am so much writing
nowadays
i don't have time to update the blog everyday
i need a software which translate into text what i say
hmm, a reliable one
may be will be quicker

i had one
but of no use
a stubborn app
which knows not when to start
when i wish it to start lol
hope to find a decent one

have a nice summer? day lol
i feel already in summer

kiss:x