Organize vs Organic

There are some people
who are attention seekers
Power hungry

they feel excitation
in managing people
as if they are playing chessboard

There is a time when a person seems "useless"
to them
so they didn't want to be colored by her color
say qualities, fame, money, power etc.
were - in apparence - lacking in her
then,
of course, let's make fun of her

but if ... all of sudden
some USEFULNESS is seen
let's say some mass self realisation at muslim level is FEASIBLE
then let's organize meetings and ORGANISE all of that

under a NAME

cause you know ORGANIZING
is so much more SELF-GRATIFYING

I see You
Remember it

I say
Be colored in the color of God
is way better than trying to dye yourself like a cameleon
with someone else's light/color
find your OWN

and remember
What matter is to follow your Inner Gut feelings
and give self realisation be it in mass or not
be it in group or alone
yet it MUST BE
TRUE TO YOURSELF

so if your GUT feelings say
Meet people who have a PAST PROVEN record of SINCERITY
then honor them
but if they are on a Power Trip of self-importance
then let them be happy as they are in their own world

cause it is not yours...

...Mine is filled with Organic Guidance
not an Organized one

Nature is Organic
not Organised :)

Organization? no thanks! I am my Own Successful, Richly Guided, and already Celebrated Organizer!;)

Kissi:x

Free Will vs Slavery

How much of Will is Yours?

When you can FEEL your will behind an action
or even before meeting someone
when you can FEEL it

then is your Will

But if you go and meet a person or an event
with a blank mind
you won't obtain anything
except what your "luck" is

determined by your subconscious
fear, limitation, love or expectations

hence you will be like an empty vessel
which is thirsty for experiences
but let itself being filled
by the Will of others

this is how you can assess
how much FREE Will you have

Look at the actions of yours
how much of intent attached to them is actually felt by you as being Genuinely Stemming from YOU?

if you can't feel it and tell it
if you don't even know about this
then, you are unconsciously a slave to others' will

Just you don't know it yet.
Realising it
is becoming self-realized

Kiss;)

Lahore

Sharing my impression about my trip to Lahore...

there,
people are alive
everything is in movement
nothing is still
nor frozen nor rigid

everything flows

here if it rains
traffic jam and everything blocked

there people and the country as a whole thrives..
despite the constant blackouts and all kinds of pollution issues

Brave people they are

True Fighters for Life

is like they have some inside battery in their bodies
and they keep going on
doing multiple jobs and following their passion
and succeeding ...

is a pleasure to see life thriving

Sun is the Power
that sustains their energy

they are more in touch with nature
though they are more and more racing towards
western models of success

i hope earnestly they keep in touch with Nature

there i felt like swimming in a bubble of water
like walking in a dream
easy peasy

we have all kind of servants
for nearly everything

personal driver
hop and go
personal maid
the new trend is 3 maid per houses

Houses are like luxury hotels
Amazing to sleep in King Size beds

Wardrobes...Awesome
should i speak of Orgasm at this point? hahaha

women are real queens there

and i enjoyed so much
SHOPPING
EXTASE

all kinds of worldwide items at hands
so many colors
1200 colors in one shop
for the customers to find matching clothes...

and still if you are unlucky not to find
the matching thread to sew
they will order YOUR COLOR from India ...
and you have no HUGE costs for such demands

Life is soooo easy to serve you and your desires..

I just had to desire something
not to say it
not even to mention it
but to desire it in my heart

that next day i was brought where i wanted to go...

I was for instance
on a ride
and saw Pak Tea House
and i thought ah i want to go there

next day i met a cousin
and he spoke of the hyped place to go
where journalists or literature lovers go and discuss

and guess what ?! was that Pak Tea House
with a century long story

and third day... another cousin
who did not even know about it..
brought me there
without me mentioning it

same ...
i desired a Jewel set
forgot to buy it

my aunt
God knows how she guessed it
not only bought it for me
but customized the pearls to the color of my dress

i felt truly like ME there
natural respect and honor given to you as  a HUMAN BEING

not like an item

here by contrast
i see how people uses you
as if you were an item

but there
is so OBVIOUS
that you are YOU
and are treated as such


Lahore
i love the trees there
is like light falls from them
each time i go there
i feel i am in a dream
in a bubble where time exists not

my family is very special
i have so many innocent girl cousins

they are of my age range

you see innocence oozing from them
some kind of purity
you don't see here in western countries

is a combination of natural good manners embeded in you
without any artifical mannerism
and an inner glow of light
which makes you feel sweet
looking at them

people living in the moment
and being with you
not chatting with you and thinking about how to use you
or chatting with you with a pre-plan in mind

no
is very much in the moment
is what makes it clean
and Alive

cause is not mental dependent
of some past manipulative plan
or some future profit they could get from you

even...when a few had such intent
their behavior flashed out to me
as it was against the natural glow of others
they were obvious to me when they had some manipulative ideas

but was rare and childish

but in europ
people are like living in a dark cloud of past or future
hanging on top of their head..
no covering all of their head till down their shoulders and more..

not in the light air of the present

which makes their movement slow
hard
like you cut throw mist to live there

over there you are flowing in the current of light
and have smooth flying to your destination

hahaha about destination
my life was in God Hand
people doesn't drive there...
they play video games....

If there is Life and Harkat (Movement and dynamics infused from sun light in you)
the extrem is the MESS!! hahaha
but even that is a joyous mess i would say

here is perfect in terms of discipline
you obey the law
and you are on the motorway of life
you know where you are and where you go

but there is no surprise
no fun
is just motorway of life
where all is frozen
you can't move from left to right
you have to follow rigid rules all the time
and become rigid as well

Nature is "disciplined"
in the way it follows some patterns
mathematical patterns as you know

yet is flowing
and brings you surprise
thanks to its Creativ-ness

Here is what i miss...

we are not riders of Life
but Laws of life ride us
and we are more like donkeys bearing weight of our life

than Masters of our Life riding donkeys..

In Lahore i also had many good experiences
one of which is to have visited the Medical College where Mataji did her Medicine Studies

again i feel time exist not there
everything is like there as a Given Life in Eternity

I loved most the soil there
the nice smell of it
as i said the light falling from trees
and their special surely special leaves
i loved seeing so many pets and animals there too
the magic of desire and all of them being fulfilled
just because i wished for it

Kun Faya Kun!
Be and it IS

Yes... so many saints graves and shrines
i went to a College and it had a shrine in there!
Amazin
i went to a garden
again a saint
i went to an old Fortress
again a century old famous saint shrine

i think the country is still alive and thriving
despite all the issues be it economics, politics, hygien
it is still there and fine...may be thanks to the saints, shrines
which are as much alive place as any other lively café or tea houses

even the cemetry... it is all shiny and emitting light
is so peaceful...

here cemetries feels like doomed and sad and all grey

Jesus is another world there
there is beauty everywhere
Beauty increases when you see it


I miss Beauty

Is not the End that counts but the Journey

Is strange for me to say
what i am going to say
but i only realised it now that i changed...

I used to look at people as a whole
and think why they bother to decorate their house
and invest so much energy to set things
when they know they will eventually age and die

For me was puzzling behavior
i found it being useless, pointless
and because was purposeless eventually
the behavior was childish and even stupid to me
..seen from above..

After 10 years,
only now
i realised

is not the death that counts
meaning people don't live to die

but they live to experience those moments of life..
because they are precious

though i had lived life
because i happened to be alive

time was not precious to me
i just lived cultivating myself,
doing what i had to do
studying mostly
on my own

most on my life
i lived it on my own

and funnily
all this time i never felt i was alone

is only recently
when i experienced that me too
am mortal

that life for me started
and that i could sense that
all this time i had been lonely

but i could not have possibly realised that before
as only opposites teach us the existence of duality
of what is company
once is removed
what is loneliness

so in the past
i used to observe for a second, life
and just saw pattern
people are born, race to live
against time - like a time war - lost in advance
squeezing a boring routine in their schedule
they call life

and die.

but now...
i realised
while myself i immerged myself in It :
we don't live to die

but to experience these important moments

so in a way..
Death or being mortal is a blessing

as it helps you value those moments,
and each moments if you are lucky in keeping such awareness

and my second conclusion
i wonder ... looking back at myself

Am i an alien?

trying to understand human behavior
because i often feel i try to understand social behavior
that are a given for most people
but for me is not

as i feel i am not part of it

Kisses above the Clouds

..Above the clouds...and ready to crash in the ocean...but so beautiful clouds!...it was worth it !

I often wondered am i seeing clouds or ocean waves ... incredibly mesmerizing!

Evil Eye - Energy of Love and Hate

Evil eye exists
and here it is what it is about
roughly speaking :

A person does not consciously
says ok i wish harm to that pretty stuff you are wearing or possessing

is just she will look at it
and you or your stuff will get spoilt

like once i wore a nice pearly brand new bracelet
the girl looked at it
it broke down on the spot! LOL
and pearls scattered all over the floor
was brand new!

same i was wearing my brand new Bordeaux colored handbag
as soon as a girl slowed her pace to check it
and paff scratched!

third
wearing my brand new
navy blue heals
so impressive
the girls just went behind me LOL
to have leisure to check them
of course i was hearing their comments
and paff! on spot it got unsew

snif..

but today was dangerous

i told a friend
to call me later
as i was driving

already had a list of such experience
with her
but today was too dangerous

was the car ..
i was about to have an accident!


on LAST MOMENT Divine power helped me
cause in NORMAL SCENARIO  i was done!
i just got saved..
cause i literally felt my car being pulled back
and the car in front had the "luck" to intuitively move on left
as he was trying to quickly take over other cars
and i had the lucidity to turn car on my right

but clearly
if i had NOT felt that being pulled back
as my car HAS BEEN MOVED ASIDE
i was done!

so thank you Spirit...

but this friend ...
not her fault
but is her residual
hateful and unconscious energy

here is how evil eye works :

Imagine some past traumas
which happened to you
those are recorded as images
and have some energy
now
the evil eye as we call it
is about projecting the energy
from the past trauma -without the images-
on someone

so is her energy projecting without the images

so i had to purify the car
which was affected by negative energy
as i felt just floating in it
no stability
and felt not clear headed
nor well

As everything is made of God energy
because GOD is everywhere
so God/Love means unity or working together ..see?
so all of sudden the car
good energy left
there was an energy of hate
which was dissonant with mine

no love = no unity= no work together
and indeed no more harmony nor unity
so atmopsher in car changed all of sudden after that conversation


So i was being rejected by my car
which was now full of NON LOVING energy

Everything is made of GOd energy
God is even in inanimate object

so i had to purify the car
i just went out
and put my hand on itand said it like 10 times
i love you car

then i felt GOOD
and could drive it with no more incident
and rather felt so comfy driving it again..

and the amazing dynamic i understood today

is that when stuff works
is because you are one with the object
and that is Love
not an emotion
but the unity in action
see?

all of sudden
my car was filled with hateful energy
just because i drew someone's attention on it
what we call evil eye
again is not a conscious stuff that my frind did
but is just her trauma affecting my car  and me

once i said those words
it stopped the hate from the other which she put in the car


same if you have a stuff you love
just say to it often you love it
so it ll prolonge its life with yours
same for people
say it to yourself
i love you so and so
no need to tell them
and it will prolonge their ties with you

and that working together will last longer

incredible learning

if you SEND LOVE to objects
they will be WORKING with you

and another thing i learned is that Love and hate
are both needed
as Love alone without challenge is no point for universe to exist
and hate without love
there would be no Grace

so another lesson for me
Love and Hate co exist for universe to exist as it is



so yes evil eye is not intentional
but it sucks!

 Love to Hate
and by the way

We are never getting older LOL
lol i should start hiding my age
people think i was 24 while i am 34
but now i was told i am looking 16... twice..
luckily i don't need to show my ID card to buy cosmetics hahaha

kiss
Enjoy the song

The Chainsmokers - Closer

Celebrating the 30 000th Blog Viewing

30 000th pageview was today!
Round figure ! ;) Caught my eyes :)

Today i came to a very profound self realisation

Is  not a thought, nor an opinion, nor a theory
is something i learned and i can count it as a means which has changed my vision of life

Since long
i had the impression
to be holding myself back

waiting for the ideal moment
waiting to improve and be even more perfect
so that i may be -finally- understood by some people

is like i took on me the burden
to be up to their image they wanted me to be
in a word trying to please them

but that was like always holding back my breath

today
after discussing a dream i had with a friend
i realised
there are some people we cannot save

at some point
i had started to please them
so i put on a burden which was not mine
this burden made me harder

exemple
is like when you have a rock on your back
and you are ascending a mountain
so even if the person next to you wants to chat with you
you will snap at him
as you are so much burdened already

so no time for such small talk
nor lightness

one day i heard
that enlightenemnt fruit
is also to realise
that actually
whatever happened in your life
was ok
things are just as they are

and they are good like that

trying and hoping hard to change people
are to bend ourselves to their cherished image they have projected on you
and what they want you to be

is something which is the real burden

if you let go of it
in a way
if you let go of trying to save them
or change them for their own good

then
you are happier
and you can chit chat with them
and just do the small talk they want
on a day to day basis

in a way
you surrender to the idea
that you can't do anything for them
you stop battling for this

because at some point
when i think about the fact
that we all die
what remains at this very time?
at your death bed?

is regrets
ah i should have been more loving
i should have been more kind
i should have been more lenient
and i should have let them be ignorant kids
at least i would have not wasted time from lack of human warmth
from lack of familial warmth
from lack of friendship warmth

cause in reality
a world is made of so many different people
if you try to be so picky
or if you try to shape them in your image
or if you let yourself being shaped into theirs

either you end up with a sour face
and a hardened heart

or

you become stupid ape
mimickeing all they want you to be

to be able to find the middle way
is to live among them
without being part of them

just to be able to Feel Life Warmth itself..

and of course the love we have for them
resurfaces
after we put it on hold..till we became better

so is best to forgive
and send them love

as i feel so much pity for them being ignorant
yet i know is like speaking to walls
they are -in a loving and non judgemental way- ignorant
impatient, and very much weak in truth

so the best thing you can do for a weed
is to give it love