Friday 2 September 2016
Lao Tse
A week ago
as i was resting
i saw in vision the face of a chinese traditional scholar
i had no clue whom he was
given his face and the feel i knew was a scholar
after i saw two students walking under rain
the scholar smiled
and i saw his moustache and smiling lips
was told is Lao Tse :)
and the rain was the Shakti
felt really happy to see him smiling
so was encouraging me in my practice :x
The White Elephant
Yesterday
by sheer luck
i saw some broadcast about marriages
being done among yogi
as spirit told me
one INDEED got matched with a woman from Holland
and she is nearing her 50s lol she cheated somehow on her age
i was awe struck
to see that was SO PRECISE
it happened as i was told
i wish i can develop such awareness
while being awake
this is TRUE POWER OF WITNESSING of Spirit
but for now is just in dreams or visions
not in "real" when i am awake
for the other people
i won't make comments
is their destinies
but for sure
those who match them
they should really really be great in checking vibes
cause they have destinies of people in their hands...
so sad affairs.
after i got asleep
in dream i saw a white elephant
who was standing like for some show case
in middle of yogi crowd
and he was in a way "jailed"
as his paws were put in some glasses of water
so that he stays there and moves not
at some point he fell trying to free himself
the people around got afraid
of him racing them..
and disorder came
people started to race all over
i was not affected by it
i was just not understanding their fears
and in dream the spirit told me
the white elephant is the Innocence which will be lost...
the white elephant is the spirit
and this was about the marriages taking place
somehow
the Innocence is being lost
is not auspicious
Wednesday 10 August 2016
Looking back at my life
I have to write
some Praise about Spirit
from my experience
again as i was flipping through old files
i realised
all that GOOD PRECIOUS GEM
MY NEW LIFE is
ALL THAT WAS BAD IN MY PAST LIFE
hardly nothing at first
except when i arrived by the end of the road
and could not see anything else
to help me grow spiritually
then
PAIN started
the pain of knowing something BEAUTIFUL exists as new world
but there is NO ONE WILLING TO HELP ME
the pain of
KNOWING THE SOLUTION IS THERE
even guessing is inside
YET BEING UNABLE TO GET IT
then
the emotions of pain
RECORDED IN CITTA/ in my consciousness
that kept popping up
every day
and even stronger
and making me ill to death
only God knows
how ill inside i was
as He healed me later
and then the pain
of knowing that FAMILY see the pain
but they think they are helping
by wanting you to be like them
YET THEY WERE JUST
IGNORANTLY BEING SELFISHLY UNCARING
cause is what you are
when you want others to look like you
in truth.
and what was GOOD
when SPIRIT POPPED UP IN MY LIFE
I gained health
I got saved from pain, and painful memories
cause i experienced how even strong spiritual teachers
are human being after all
and according to their selfishness they are not matching
what only your own SOUL can match
and that is TRUE SELF LESS CARE
i had realised how selfish a person could become
i realised how the HUGE issue of sufi was the EGO
speaking of Ego and yet not telling you that nothing is bad about ego
except that you are just missing the reality of your own true nature that is Spirit
and that could be revealed and remembered by you in a gentle way
instead of being mocked at
or creating some inside group elitism
illness that i also saw in the so called yogi organisation
rule of thumb organisation is a plea
stay away from it
once spirituality gets organised
be sure it will become some sort of sect at worse
and hold much limitation to your progress at best
groups and a teacher
YET are MOST important to create a GOOD ATMOSPHER
AS an INSPIRATIONAL GUIDELINE
cause it is what i partly miss nowadays
now my current limitation is
spirit does let you FREE
with your FREE WILL
but what i miss most
are real guidelines to feel inspired day by day
so that the next day i become a better version of myself than the day before
i feel i am missing
that motivation to wish for more
as i feel quite broken by what i saw so far of people behavior
what people most lack
is honesty, sincerity and the willingness to give others some space to be themselves and shine their own light
but truthfully speaking
i have no more wish to shine my light
cause i can let it shine
but no one really sees it
nor partake in it
at least
i am grateful that i have a good vision of myself when i look back
at what i was and what i am
now
Ameen.
Past and yet near
Time is a very bizarre experience
As i am doing some Spring Cleaning
lol better call it Summer cleaning now
and i was seeing all my past reminders of experiences
reports, writings, travels etc.
i realised is soooooo old
as if was another life time
and yet
when i think of my past
like school, college years, even 3 years ago
it is like was yesterday
Time is really a weird stuff
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