i felt that i like testing people who are on spiritual path
for i wish to see if they are true
before i knew not what kind of truth in them i was searching
then, it dawn on me,
it is about them where do they STAND?
for if it is appearance only
then, just irritate the person
and he WILL get irritated
because he is standing in his false self
so when negativity hit, it hit fully
for it finds its counterpart in the person
and one can do that,
because the face, where the character of the person is reflected
is telling the other
here are my limits
and so you push the button out of the limit of the person
and see, he reacts.
but very rare, are those i met
and tried that
and they DID NOT get irritated when i was expecting them
and even never as long as i was trying and was allowed to try ; )
now i know
it is because they were standing in their TRUE self
and when one stands in the true self
as it is just AS It IS
it is true
it is not conditioned to any border
so the person inside is actually a very WIDE person
which sort of break barriers or transcend his individual body/or his perception
of what one usually identify ourselves with
body, name, old scenes of past experiences
yes people let themselves being defined by others
it suffices that one thing be repeated thrice or many times be referred to
that it solidifies into our thinking pattern
and becomes a truth
like ok ACQUIRED
and it is ME now
for i GAINED that state
ONLY because it has been repeated by MANY
and MANY TIMES
so in a way,
success and fame is dangerous for it makes you stick to an image
that you start feeling comfy with
yet, success and fame could be so FUN
as long as it is used as sharing the common feeling ON THE SPOT
and ONLY on the spot
for on the SPOT you SHARE your light and others are happy to benefit from your sun rays
but after lights went off
so if you remain there rehearsing an old play
you are totally dephased
no,
you have to use it like for adrenaline
to enter into NEW projects or UPGRADE yourself
use this self confidence and support you felt
to TRANSCEND in another area
and become WIDER
this latter one is still to be practised though.
let's see.
