later, the individual one only need to feel its own call/passion within and respond to it
so once the ablution is done,
offering still remained to be done
and it is up to each one of us, up to each individual to do it
i love his eyes in the beginning of the video
once his inside has literally been beaten up (as you will see it throughout the video)
it is like this was necessary for him to go through all of this
for his eyes to find the softness and innocence of a fragile new born one
and only lovable one is , in truth
so is the power of divine love
which is compared to the Mercy of a Mother
cannot bear to see his children
go through the rough path
while they could go through the easy one
sometimes
human nature is so
that they cannot learn the easy way
they want to try the stick before
on individual level it is called tragedy
on the mass scale world wars
yet, humanity needs not to suffer
nor to reach the pitless bottom to learn to love
or find back the never lost innocence
it just requires humbleness to make space for it
and for once, listen to it
for it has been always there.
and it just wait for us
in silence
to receive it
to welcome it
for it will never force itself upon you
so good mannered it is
thus yesterday night,
i suddenly felt a sort of rush of wind
on the sole of my feet
i realised that it was intelligent for it was trying to move up inside
this woke me up,
for i did not realise what was happening
and then, suddenly the room went dark
this is when i realised that it was a cloud of light
and it never forces itself on you
yet you have to attune yourself with it.
Few months ago, i was afraid
and just rejected it.
This time, i was still afraid, for i was not expecting it
but did not rejected it, i kept observing
Lol,
if we go to sleep expecting nothing
then for sure if something good happen
we are scared
for we are unprepared
but if we go to sleep
expecting Grace
if something good happen
we can attune to it
so this is the state into which i will sleep next time
expecting good
and observing the sensations or watching what i see.
it is all about choice
and we are to choose
and then, let it happen.
somehow,
these past few days were very blessed with these continuous meditation spots
day after day
and it ended up the whole "trip"
with a, what i call, "angel in disguise",
at least it is the impression that this "beggar" gave me
in the metro,
he was playing his small piece of music
and as over the past few days,
all i see and feel repulsion for
i pinpoint the feeling inside of me
so that on the spot i envelop it with love
so when the beggar was playing of his instrument
and i felt a bit of irritated because it was not really a beautiful music sound
and it was so much noisy with the metro
i used "i love you" mantra inside of me upon the disagreeable sensation i was feeling inside
at the end,
the beggar who was near me
said Hallelujah
Lol which wake me up
whenever i see people interested with some religious behavior
i am curious as to their way of seeing life
for i was expecting some misery coming from him at the end of the song
like the previous beggar i heard
but he was praising God
which really attracted my curiosity
and then, he turned towards me
and gave me his hand
so that i shake it
lol : )
and as if i was in dream,
well, who knows, i am in dream,
i was shaking his hand
LOL
then, he pointed his finger to the sky
and said, are you christian?
to which i said yes
then, he said,
then, you are ok
then, he left and resumed his work
of asking people the money for his music
while i was expecting him to do same with them.
so this made me think,
this is a very exciting meeting
when we meet each other
and speak to each other on unsaid words
and then, wear again our mantle of daily chores
as if nothing happened.
it is like our light
shines for a second
before we go back consciously or unconsciously to amnesy.
for him, i wonder, which one was it,
the conscious or unconsious one?
we are all like that,
it is just that we are deeeeeeeeep asleep.
