listen to it well,
Neat and clean :
Ego is the self we imagine to BE. : ) right now it makes me smile, for if I AM how can i imagine what i am, as it is PRESENT in front of me? so it simply means i do not have yet eyes to see, for my eyes/sight/attention is diverted/veiled by some other seeing, with which i identify myself with.
so any seeing is not me, for in truth I AM that true self born with when i was a baby.
Ego : is when we catch someone's attention and the reflection we get from his reaction constitutes our identity then. Ego is just the reflection of the outside world (absorbed in us).
Role playing, we all have this acute sense of role playing, our rhythm of being, reaction and automatic responses and manners of beings are different from family to school to friends' setting. this is why students are "shy" in front of classroom. not because they are shy people by nature, hell no way, they are the ones that bully you in the school lol. no, they go shy because they see Inside the discrepancy between their way of acting in group and now they are standing in front of their same peers and have to play the role of a student. so it clashes with their former identity.
and also this is why they laugh and giggle without reason it seems.
but no, it is just that they sense it, and as the guy say in the video, no one tells them it is because you are right to SENSE the gap in your roles switching, and NOW turn Inside.
instead the teacher will laugh at their oddities and the friends too and finally the poor student performing in front of the classroom will too find himself quite silly to perform.
it is like i feel, in life, at times, only foolishness exists (in the sense of everything is done in excess) and there is hardly ever anyone who cares to tell you
where sanity lies.
it is not about judging, but it is about showing you boundary,
not for the sake of rules or severity, but for the sake of helping you to turn Inside.
unless this someone exists, you can't remember ... and it is most probable that this someone exists in your daily life, and you have been the one who has been so far blind to give him/her credit.
I liked the part about the dead leaves dropping,
they drop, for it is simply into the Absolute Awareness of it falling,
you do not have to do any effort for it to fall lol,
but just to be aware of it falling.
that is pure awareness
without association.
that is purity of faith.
of witnessing.
which brings you back to what you ARE.
so just let it fall.
just see it falling
for in any case it will fall,
do not make effort
you know it is bound to fall no?
so just see it, for ONCE, in your life,
simply fall.
