Is not the End that counts but the Journey

Is strange for me to say
what i am going to say
but i only realised it now that i changed...

I used to look at people as a whole
and think why they bother to decorate their house
and invest so much energy to set things
when they know they will eventually age and die

For me was puzzling behavior
i found it being useless, pointless
and because was purposeless eventually
the behavior was childish and even stupid to me
..seen from above..

After 10 years,
only now
i realised

is not the death that counts
meaning people don't live to die

but they live to experience those moments of life..
because they are precious

though i had lived life
because i happened to be alive

time was not precious to me
i just lived cultivating myself,
doing what i had to do
studying mostly
on my own

most on my life
i lived it on my own

and funnily
all this time i never felt i was alone

is only recently
when i experienced that me too
am mortal

that life for me started
and that i could sense that
all this time i had been lonely

but i could not have possibly realised that before
as only opposites teach us the existence of duality
of what is company
once is removed
what is loneliness

so in the past
i used to observe for a second, life
and just saw pattern
people are born, race to live
against time - like a time war - lost in advance
squeezing a boring routine in their schedule
they call life

and die.

but now...
i realised
while myself i immerged myself in It :
we don't live to die

but to experience these important moments

so in a way..
Death or being mortal is a blessing

as it helps you value those moments,
and each moments if you are lucky in keeping such awareness

and my second conclusion
i wonder ... looking back at myself

Am i an alien?

trying to understand human behavior
because i often feel i try to understand social behavior
that are a given for most people
but for me is not

as i feel i am not part of it

Kisses above the Clouds

..Above the clouds...and ready to crash in the ocean...but so beautiful clouds!...it was worth it !

I often wondered am i seeing clouds or ocean waves ... incredibly mesmerizing!

Evil Eye - Energy of Love and Hate

Evil eye exists
and here it is what it is about
roughly speaking :

A person does not consciously
says ok i wish harm to that pretty stuff you are wearing or possessing

is just she will look at it
and you or your stuff will get spoilt

like once i wore a nice pearly brand new bracelet
the girl looked at it
it broke down on the spot! LOL
and pearls scattered all over the floor
was brand new!

same i was wearing my brand new Bordeaux colored handbag
as soon as a girl slowed her pace to check it
and paff scratched!

third
wearing my brand new
navy blue heals
so impressive
the girls just went behind me LOL
to have leisure to check them
of course i was hearing their comments
and paff! on spot it got unsew

snif..

but today was dangerous

i told a friend
to call me later
as i was driving

already had a list of such experience
with her
but today was too dangerous

was the car ..
i was about to have an accident!


on LAST MOMENT Divine power helped me
cause in NORMAL SCENARIO  i was done!
i just got saved..
cause i literally felt my car being pulled back
and the car in front had the "luck" to intuitively move on left
as he was trying to quickly take over other cars
and i had the lucidity to turn car on my right

but clearly
if i had NOT felt that being pulled back
as my car HAS BEEN MOVED ASIDE
i was done!

so thank you Spirit...

but this friend ...
not her fault
but is her residual
hateful and unconscious energy

here is how evil eye works :

Imagine some past traumas
which happened to you
those are recorded as images
and have some energy
now
the evil eye as we call it
is about projecting the energy
from the past trauma -without the images-
on someone

so is her energy projecting without the images

so i had to purify the car
which was affected by negative energy
as i felt just floating in it
no stability
and felt not clear headed
nor well

As everything is made of God energy
because GOD is everywhere
so God/Love means unity or working together ..see?
so all of sudden the car
good energy left
there was an energy of hate
which was dissonant with mine

no love = no unity= no work together
and indeed no more harmony nor unity
so atmopsher in car changed all of sudden after that conversation


So i was being rejected by my car
which was now full of NON LOVING energy

Everything is made of GOd energy
God is even in inanimate object

so i had to purify the car
i just went out
and put my hand on itand said it like 10 times
i love you car

then i felt GOOD
and could drive it with no more incident
and rather felt so comfy driving it again..

and the amazing dynamic i understood today

is that when stuff works
is because you are one with the object
and that is Love
not an emotion
but the unity in action
see?

all of sudden
my car was filled with hateful energy
just because i drew someone's attention on it
what we call evil eye
again is not a conscious stuff that my frind did
but is just her trauma affecting my car  and me

once i said those words
it stopped the hate from the other which she put in the car


same if you have a stuff you love
just say to it often you love it
so it ll prolonge its life with yours
same for people
say it to yourself
i love you so and so
no need to tell them
and it will prolonge their ties with you

and that working together will last longer

incredible learning

if you SEND LOVE to objects
they will be WORKING with you

and another thing i learned is that Love and hate
are both needed
as Love alone without challenge is no point for universe to exist
and hate without love
there would be no Grace

so another lesson for me
Love and Hate co exist for universe to exist as it is



so yes evil eye is not intentional
but it sucks!

 Love to Hate
and by the way

We are never getting older LOL
lol i should start hiding my age
people think i was 24 while i am 34
but now i was told i am looking 16... twice..
luckily i don't need to show my ID card to buy cosmetics hahaha

kiss
Enjoy the song

The Chainsmokers - Closer

Celebrating the 30 000th Blog Viewing

30 000th pageview was today!
Round figure ! ;) Caught my eyes :)

Today i came to a very profound self realisation

Is  not a thought, nor an opinion, nor a theory
is something i learned and i can count it as a means which has changed my vision of life

Since long
i had the impression
to be holding myself back

waiting for the ideal moment
waiting to improve and be even more perfect
so that i may be -finally- understood by some people

is like i took on me the burden
to be up to their image they wanted me to be
in a word trying to please them

but that was like always holding back my breath

today
after discussing a dream i had with a friend
i realised
there are some people we cannot save

at some point
i had started to please them
so i put on a burden which was not mine
this burden made me harder

exemple
is like when you have a rock on your back
and you are ascending a mountain
so even if the person next to you wants to chat with you
you will snap at him
as you are so much burdened already

so no time for such small talk
nor lightness

one day i heard
that enlightenemnt fruit
is also to realise
that actually
whatever happened in your life
was ok
things are just as they are

and they are good like that

trying and hoping hard to change people
are to bend ourselves to their cherished image they have projected on you
and what they want you to be

is something which is the real burden

if you let go of it
in a way
if you let go of trying to save them
or change them for their own good

then
you are happier
and you can chit chat with them
and just do the small talk they want
on a day to day basis

in a way
you surrender to the idea
that you can't do anything for them
you stop battling for this

because at some point
when i think about the fact
that we all die
what remains at this very time?
at your death bed?

is regrets
ah i should have been more loving
i should have been more kind
i should have been more lenient
and i should have let them be ignorant kids
at least i would have not wasted time from lack of human warmth
from lack of familial warmth
from lack of friendship warmth

cause in reality
a world is made of so many different people
if you try to be so picky
or if you try to shape them in your image
or if you let yourself being shaped into theirs

either you end up with a sour face
and a hardened heart

or

you become stupid ape
mimickeing all they want you to be

to be able to find the middle way
is to live among them
without being part of them

just to be able to Feel Life Warmth itself..

and of course the love we have for them
resurfaces
after we put it on hold..till we became better

so is best to forgive
and send them love

as i feel so much pity for them being ignorant
yet i know is like speaking to walls
they are -in a loving and non judgemental way- ignorant
impatient, and very much weak in truth

so the best thing you can do for a weed
is to give it love

Marrying a non realised person

If i can give a word of advice..
never ever a yogi woman should marry a non yogi

cause at some point
her shakti won't be able to compensate
for his non realised state

at best if she meditates
everyday and more than prior to her marriage
it ll stay AT BEST stable


but living
with a guy who meditates not
even prevent you to go to meditation group
or like not incense etc.

she will lose it within 2 or 3 years
and wonder why she married

well to statisfy her comfort zone
ok i know this guy since long
so let's marry and time to have kids

yet

all that counts when you die
is THE STATE in which you die

one better die
with a better state than prior to one coming into this world..

otherwise you will be slave to your dying state
and reincarnate
just worse
in most of cases

is tough for women
especially their friends should give the right advice

Girl i am your friend
and i advise you not to marry a guy who is not meditating
and if you married
and regret
well God will provide you for a better husband

but don't let your spirituality go down the drain

With Love
Petals

paris meditation - final

Yes now about my meditation
daily with a friend

we used to wake up at 630 every day
and get it right

the very first day
i felt a wind wooshing out of my head
was at the place of the limit between scalp and forehead
i was told is the virata

was amazing sound it made
wooshing out
like a fountain

the next days we did same

i even managed to feel so cool
that i had to take a shower to warm up...
feeling cool in winter time
i abhooooorr it

with indian blood
i have to move to south
or some warm country

can't get so coolnes topped with winter time


was great disciplined
maintained during a week


FIRST TIME EVER
I meditated with a yogi in morning
at a set time

EVEN when i lived in an ashram
NOT EVEN ONCE it happened
i was always meditating all alone

people should care for this GOOD old lady
she met mataji
and meditated by herself for SO LONG
30 years or so of meditation is NOT nothing

so some RESPECT SHOULD BE GIVEN TO HER

BUT most people make fun of her
WHICH IS REVOLTING TO ME

anyway
i had a GREAT TIME with her
meditation wise
otherwise she is a sincere lady
and has like anyone some ups and downs
but is her private life
not to be told here

anyway
a friend who was being bullied
by a group of singer
told me her hard time

so while was saying me this
i imagined she was singing on stage
and her kundalini shooting up

so much that light was emitted
and her so called singer ladies friends
saw it
and shut up

LOL
guess what next day she calls me
and say
hey you know what happened
a singer lady saw my kundalini while she was performing

hahaha
this is when i explained her
about the power of master
your life is liek a book
your erase what you want
and write what you want

call it my moment of insight!

ah yea
this morning as i was meditating
with my fiancé
aboutr 1h
i saw in vision at mid way of meditation
 that an angel all golden
was having an arrow pointed at the moon
and i looked at moon
then he moved clockwise to the starts and i followed it
and at the end he pointed at me

wowhahahaha

LATER
i realised hey !
is like abraham story
he looked at moon and stars seeking god
and at the end he found it!!!!
was INSIDE


HEY WHO KNOWS
I WILL FIND MY OWN FULL ENLIGHTENMENT SOON!!!



kiss

paris meditation - part 4

Basically
in first talk i heard at the ashram
was about the 21st sahasrara day or so

where shri mataji said to yogi
enough about cool breeze
is only the start

now COUNTS YOUR POWERS

you should count them...

to know WHO you are

well despite that
such conditioned yogi
still thought is just about innocence powers...

is the very moment
i wanted to slap them

you are dumb
or what??

POWERS
are that WHICH is MANIFESTED

the power of a nuclear plant
will give you POWER aka ELECTRICITY
which YOU as ENGINEER of your LIFE
will MANIFEST as a CREATOR
into LIGHT BULB, TV, micro wave

THAT IS POWER to be manifested

BUT AS SOON AS FEW yogis talk
about their powers
others say

yea yea
or wait is it some magician
or ah it is some show off

AS LONG AS YOU ARE EXPERIENCING
YOUR OWN POWERS
as token of your meditation practise

which are verily SUSTAINING YOU
IN YOUR OWN MASTERY

WHY on earth
you want others to SHUSH IT???

sick to the bone
is due to envy, jealousy
and till they didn't do it
it has to be shushed

this is WHY
out of million of seekers of truth

only may be 1 in a million
might have developped powers
and among them only a handful few
must have become mahayogi

but again.... NO ADVERTISING PLEASE
this is why the only thing you hear of it in this yogi group
is COOL BREEZE
CHAKRAS
AND YEAAAA FOOT SOAK!!!

cause you know
without salt
let it be a handful salt in your bassin
cause if you put a pinch of salt
as is the case of the concentration of salt in the sea
you may be NOT doing PROPER foot soak
let you empty you packet of salt once a week
just to be sure you put enough salt in it...

so that woman
whom i told i NEVER EVER do foot soak
may be once or twice a year
just to relax with some lavender oil

hahahaha

thought i was weird

and yet... i am the one who has progressed
see?
while she has some blocages

why?

cause as i told her
as foot soak cleanse you from your three first chakras

my walking cycles
method
cleanse you from ALL YOUR CHAKRAS

but dear...
is not mataji method...

is ALWAYS what i hear
see your conditioning??

unable to be your own MASTER
the yogi guy at center said
"tell us a creative method to purify ourselves
and his old yogi patriarch recentered him"

why??

as long as you purify yourself
and its FRUITS ARE SEEN
why are you AFRAID to use it???

cause is about putting others down
as they progressed
over your lack of mastery
and creativity

cause is all about you still sucking your Mother breast
and TIRING HER not by not becoming your OWN master

isn't it?

so when i said
my friends who did my method
felt her petal opening in her swadhistan

she used my method
not because i am her GURU
yea in  case some numbnuts think that
but because i TELL WHAT WORKS FOR ME

and you are just FREE TO TEST IT
AND DO THE EXPERIENCE
as per the SPIRIT OF your yoga taught by mataji

you WILL SEE THAT IT WORKS
and purifies you even MORE than some footsoak...
on a wider scale...

oh well...
next in the next day talk
Mataji said..  once your SPIRIT gets IMBIBED into your nervous system

you will TRANSFORM
and become a SUPER HUMAN

I WAS IN LOVE with THIS VERY SENTENCE

nothing like sour ears
never hearing what she says
and sticking to just cool breeze

beyond cool breeze
which is ....HELLO.....
MERE MANIFESTATION OF SPIRIT

YOU HAVE TO REALISE YOU ARE THE SPIRIT

AND SPIRIT IS BEYOND COOL BREEZE

and once you ARE that SPIRIT
do you THINK you are the SAME HUMAN
with same capabilities and skills?

or are you a superhuman

advising that arab girl
to may be put some cream in her butt
as it ll itch less??

cause is nice to send me a certificat
but it is not the one of your ring
her move was ONLY to look superior to me
by showing off a 10 euro ring being a 10 000 euro one

you will see within few months
she will change ring
why?
cause she needs one which is 
one more expensive than 10 euro

HAHAHAHAHA

anyway i love that girl
is the only one who helps me make abdos
just that move of showing off a fake ring was too hilarious for me
i even asked her to send me a certificate for her made in china clothes

so obedience she is..hahahaha
REMEMBER I RULE YOU!
I AM YOUR JUDGE

please...no more abdos...
ah laughing too much tires my belly now
need to calm down...hehehehe