Transform your Fear into Fun

lol
i kept saying to my friend
since a few weeks
let's go tree climbing !

of course
routine habit is so much tenacious
that he never makes it out...

today
my desire was so strong
that i just say
let's go!

and we were out on our way...

now...
lol!
when i arrived there!
i was hitting my head
in my imagination
saying to myself
"dear! what happened to you?!!
you are the ONE who brought us there!"
i said this
when i realised how HIGH the trees were...

and i saw complications...

is very funny
when you have desire
you have magic sand thrown on your eyes
and you ONLY see the beauty of it
ahead of its time

and somehow
once you are in front of the very stuff
you desired so much
it felt like swerving for a split of a second
and footstep a bit shaky lol
and innerly
wishing to strangle myself
ahead of time
before EVEN having tried it

why?
because was ALL new
because was TALLLLL trees
because i had NOT imagined how it would be in terms of fears...
and only saw FUN

so desire/fun led me there
and then i discovered fear

actually when i looked around me
there were adults and kids
all mixed up
doing this tree climbing
and in each and everyone lips and minds
the word FEAR was placarded!

so i felt a waft of fear there!
lol but mixed with fun/success/ and
the STRONG conviction
and so dearly admitted
"YES there is fear
and NEXT there is FUN"

it felt so
this double FF hit me
like a waft
lady prepare yourself for Fear and Fun!


and guys
it was like that !

i had more Fun than Fear
actually i realised i have NO vertigo
and i sat on top of trees 10 to 20 m from the ground
legs hanging in the air

the hardest was to
bear my own weight for some activities
by the end of day
my arms felt like mashed potatoes lol

the activity i loved it!
i realised
that i had great balance
especially when i had to jump from
one moving to another moving wooden plateform
soooooo great it was!

initially
i was so paralysed
that my OWN feet was feeling LIKE glued
to the wood
i could NOT move it
even when my mind ordered it
it felt i was weighting 200pounds!

and then
i looked keenly at a kiddo
she was just directing her gaze
and her feet went where her gaze went to

and she kept doing it
and it felt so easy peasy looking at her!

and i could feel her excitement
for the next step
and for the oh-so-waited arrival!

so!
i just looked at her
and i imbibed myself from her state of mind
and i realised
what i think is what i experience
just like that!

and as i was thinking of fear and hardship
so it was what my body/experience of the game
was giving me back
heaviness and stiffness...

so, one i imbibed myself
of that girl state of mind
then, i did it!
while my friend had still hard time doing it

but as far as i was concerned, this time
i just progressed as if i was walking
on plain ground
my feet felt light
and so my body regained agility
and i did great split with my legs lol!

so yes...
ALL is in the mind
if your mind think is hard
then it gets hard

literally speaking
hard means heavy
and your feet BECOME heavy
and GLUED
and you can't move!

or if you manage to move
is like you are doing huge effort

so as i got the hang of it
everything in the mind
i imbibed myself from the lightness and fun
of the moment
and just made the whole circuit so FUN!

then,
two girls around 10 year of age
joined me
one said to me
while reassuring herself
"see, in this game,
there are moments we are afraid
and others were it flows"

jesus!
so refreshing this girl was!
ah! in countryside
i tell you kids are full of wisdom
and maturity and lightness

in paris
even the best of them
lack this freshness
and most of time look like crippled in their manners
cause they absorb too much from the environement around
which is so..

and was such a pleasure to chit chat with her

and now
even when i watch tv
or do anything at my job
it is like that
is LIKE the VERY scene is SPEAKING to me
TEACHING me
is so much hammer like wisdom hitting!

so when this girl said that
it felt such a deep wisdom
as if Life is saying me
"see dear?
Life is like that game
at times you are afraid
and at other time it just flow.."

beautiful!

there i was philosophing about life
while 15m in the air hanging between two trees
and swinging to reach my arrival spot lol!


ahahhaha

there was a SCARY moment
when i was there
cause had NO CLUE
of how to move ON

see?
that was funny
on this place you have to FACE
your fear
no way out!

a little boy was up high
and could not move
her mother told him
"see? you can't go back
just move on
you are safe"

again
this hit me
first i praised that mother
in myself
how good education she is giving to his son
through that game

then i praised that game
for there is no way backward
you are OBLIGED to MOVE FORWARD
either you do it or you die/lol of shame
cause you CAN'T just give up!

you HAVE to Face your Fear
no one can come and take you back
and there is no emergency exit
no dogging
face it or die(of shame) lol!

so when i arrived to the next circuit
there i was standing on the edge of tree
and 20meters away from me was the next landing spot
a huge net!
and inbetween nothing

there i said to myself
HOW on EARTH am i supposed to LAND there?

hahaha
actually was SO easy!
the rope was on the other side
so the girls helped me to slide it towards me
and then
she said
'now be brave'

hahaha
i laughed hard
cause i was so happy
to hear so much straight forwardness
i miss so much this kind of honest talk

and her maturity was just astonishing!

and then
i got the rope
and had to land on the net 20meters away from me
so i said to myself
"dear, think NOT!
just THROW yourself in the air"!!!!!


hahahahhaa
i did it!

and landed on the net
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cooooooooooooooooooooooool!
mwha:x


and then
everything was easy peasy!
the BEST moments were when i had to do such long sliding
from one tree to another on a rope
just FAB!

see?
Life taught me clearly that lesson this day
"if you follow your desire,
then you can face your fears"

see?
before going
i had no awareness of my fears
sure i have no vertigo
but the unknown is a fear
not knowing is a fear
doing stuff you never did is a fear
not knowing how to use your body is a fear
cause you have to go out of your known comfort zone
and face your limits,
your untold and undiscovered fears

only the moment on earth
in 3D reveal them to you
and your experience
yes your very experience heal them
and then you transform your fears into FUN!

Flooding

The day i wrote my last post
while going asleep
i was meditating
and saw the vision of a place
with many small size dams

and suddenly from above
i could see that water
started to overflow
so much that
the dams resisted not

once the vision ended
i thought not much of it
i had no bad feeling
rather i saw was may be
some spiritual meaning

may be was a metaphor
about vibrations which
once unlock at some barriers
could start again to flow
without encountering any resistance

in dream
i was told
it is about flood
and i remember
to have said
"no no there is no flood
anywhere where i live"
"plus i don't felt bad
during the vision"

and today
i heard on news
that south of france
got some flood issue

still it hit me not
till i watched the news
and heard of the lethal implications
and the amazing images of road split open

that's it
i felt i owed the post
to the vision i could not make sense for it

and passing by
usually i look at the feeling
i have in the dream
or vision

but this time
i wonder why i had no
"bad" feeling of it

i was just admiring
the beauty of the water
how it was overflowing
and running so freely
from above


i guess
there was no bad feelings
because i was not involved in it
nor warned as a person
but i was seeing it
more in a state of witness

for the bad feelings
means the soul is involved
and thus is in danger

ah i got it
is the difference
i see now
between soul
and spirit

in terms of "involvement in experience" vs "witness state"
cf article below

More than a dozen die in French Riviera flash floods

By Associated Press

October 4, 2015 | 11:31am

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ANTIBES, France — Flash flooding around the French Riviera has killed at least 16 people, some drowned in a retirement home and others trapped in cars and campsites. Torrents of muddy water inundated buildings, roads and railway tracks, disrupting movement along the Mediterranean coast Sunday.
Residents of the picturesque and touristy region, stunned by the ferocity of the brief downpour Saturday night, described it as the worst flooding they’d ever seen. It was so dramatic that it prompted President Francois Hollande to pay an emergency visit Sunday to promise government aid for victims.
Helicopters patrolled the area and 27,000 homes were without electricity Sunday after rivers and streams overflowed their banks and fierce thunderstorms poured more than 17 centimeters (6.7 inches) of rain on the Cannes region in two hours Saturday night. That is the equivalent of two months of rainfall for the region, local radio France Bleu-Azur reported.

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Hollande said the overall death toll by midday Sunday was 16, with three still missing. Government officials had given conflicting reports about casualty figures earlier in the day.
“It’s not over,” Hollande said, visiting the flood-stricken retirement home in the town of Biot and meeting with emergency workers.
He expressed condolences to families of victims and urged residents to remain cautious, especially on the region’s roads, many of which remained impassable Sunday. He promised aid for residents hit by the flooding and lamented serious damage to local stores and other businesses.
Some residents criticized authorities for not doing more to prevent flood damage in the region. Local firefighters and meteorologists said the amount of rain was unusual for the region this time of year, but were especially shocked by the intensity and speed of Saturday’s storm.
People were found dead in the towns of Cannes, Biot, Golfe-Juan and Mandelieu-la-Napoule in the southeast, the president’s office said.
Three elderly people were killed in the retirement home, Hollande said. Three others were found dead in their car after entering a flooded tunnel, authorities in Golfe-Juan said. Interior Ministry spokesman Pierre-Henry Brandet said the dead included victims who had been trapped in a parking lot and campsites as well.
Winds and rain whipped palm trees along the famed Croisette seaside promenade in Cannes in images shown on BFM television. Some cars parked near Cannes shore were swept away and overturned by high waves.

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In nearby Antibes, campsites along the Brague River were suddenly inundated with muddy water. Cars overturned and roads were slick with mud.
Several trains were stopped because of flooded tracks, and traffic remained stopped along the Mediterranean coast between Nice and Toulon on Sunday morning, according to the SNCF rail authority. Several roads in the region were closed, including those reaching Cannes, which was particularly hard hit.
The flooding also disrupted a French league soccer match in Nice, forcing the stadium to shut down in the middle of play.
Hundreds of emergency workers were involved in rescue efforts, helped by clear skies around the region Sunday.
Pope Francis offered his prayers for the victims during his weekly Sunday blessing from St. Peter’s Square.
“We express our nearness to the hard-hit populations, including with concrete forms of solidarity,” he said.
The ANSA news agency said that several trains that were halted by the floods were carrying hundreds of Italian pilgrims to or from the shrine at Lourdes. The Italian group Unitalsi, which transports the sick to the shrine, said all the pilgrims on board were fine.


Source :  http://nypost.com/2015/10/04/more-than-a-dozen-die-in-french-riviera-flash-flood/

Podium of childishness vs true spirit love

such an incredible night dream i had

where to start?

actually is a very long conversation
i had with the spirit
while i was asleep

as you know
in sleep is very quick
but once you write it
it becomes like so long

plus you can't miss
my sidesnotes, neh?
lol

anyway


first
i have to praise the spirit
well is a repetition
as Spirit is Praise itself

let's go into the crux of matter

as i was sleeping
the spirit showed me
lol how some people
were as a group checking my vibes
lol

spirit chuckles
lots
it said

"i like not when they check me"

"it is childish"


i come to the point why it is childish
and pointless
cause i got my wisdom
from that dream explanation

and sometimes
i wonder
me who entered meditation
since only three years
is me who keeps understanding stuff
by Grace of God

but people
who since childhood
or since 10s of years are meditating
are not still getting the point
except for a very few ...

so is so...

when you check vibes
of a person
first you should be yourself PURE
if you are not
then you are projecting your own vibes

second,
this is infantile and childish
to check someone else vibes

because you are putting yourself
into the "judging" position
"ok this person is lost"
"she is no more a Mother worshiper..."

and another time
you check vibes of that person
and end up saying
"wow! such a bucket of cool vibes"

and add up after
"ah! she came back on the path"!

:)))

if you could hear
how the spirit laughed at that


is because everything is false!

from the logic to the bottom line
of the "essence" of the checking...
everything is false!

condition one : Be pure - it means a very much advanced person can do it
condition two : as a collective this will boil down to the "lowest denominator" of that group
condition three : know that vibes are NOT stationary state
as they EVOLVES
if there is no "low" vibes at times HOW on earth can you purify yourself
to get that BUCKET of COOL vibes after?

example : it suffices that a person be stuck in a traffic jam
or obviously for a girl that she be on her period
and you check her vibes
what will you get ? hot vibes dear.

now....
if your logic is SOUND
when you check her again
and see she has EXTREMELY good vibes
what SHOULD your SOUND logic commands you to?

"ah! she never lost the path
actually she is doing pretty good!
she has been EVOLVING
PURIFYING herself
PRETTY GOOD
and this, while she was
ON HER OWN...."

this is what the SOUND logic commands you to say..

YET,
some numbnuts
will have no ability to make the link
one day they will "judge" a person being "out of the collectivity"
and the other day "coming back to the path"????!!!!

hello?
is there ANY sound guy there?
yes .. one at least
whose thought changed, spirit told me
and that person realised
that i was all the way long.... on the path


i even saw the face of that person
and blink and kiss that person ;):x

for that.

the rest of them
bunch of infantile behavior
racing for the podium of judgement
assuming one is "very pure" is the culprit

as it leads them to pass judgement
wasting their blessings and
never understanding
the SPIRIT factor
only gluing themselves to the vibes

do you know guys?
that vibes are very pure divine tool?
if you keep judging others
instead of judging yourself
you will get a very harsh hit back by the divine?

so just beware.

spirit likes not such kind of vibes checking
check vibes using WISDOM
and NOT by empowering yourself
over the destiny of others
of WHO is or NOT in collectivity

and while some are stuck on
some "physical group/collectivity"
others EVEN alone
manage to EVOLVE and get ever improved vibes
ONLY by keeping faith in the spirit
and by NOT judging others
YET by only concerning herself
with her OWN cultivation

this being said
may be some wisdom
may one day sink
into some self righteous
and self improvised "yogi" judges

now,
what is the wisdom of the vibes?

once you are sure you are PURE - very advanced
and are part of a group where you are conscious of the lowest denominator

then, know that 
vibes are showing the state of your chakras
which can switch as swiftly as your surrounding conditions

these are NOT a permanent state
these are temporary

now,
when you see "bad vibes"
well i NEVER EVER check my vibes even less others vibes
why?
because is self obvious to me
that when i get angry or hyper
then this is THE VERY SIGN that there is STUFF to be purified
and AS i am SOUND

i USE spirit
by saying "i forgive you (to the bugger that is nerving me)
i love you, please forgive me"

why?
because  my ego will never do that
but my spirit CAN and WILL do that to the SPirit in the OTHER
and NEVER to the ego of the other guy
oki?

so once
i use the spirit
then,
i can be pretty sure
followed with meditation
i would EVOLVE
and do my SHARE to be purified
capish?

YET
if the vibes checking show only "static vibes"
HOW on EARTH could i evolve?
never.

this is why vibes checking is useless
you just need to use forgiveness, love, and meditation
and healing takes place

so does evolution.

so vibes show
chakras state as PUMPS
how they are PUMPING

lol
how can you on this basis
judging someone's PATH? and EVOLUTION
which is safeguarded BY the Spirit?hmm?
enlighten me..

so when you use the "please forgive me"
from (your) spirit to (the other) spirit
so on the spirit level you heal your vibes

ONLY if you do so
you are ON the path
and this NO ONE can judge you
Except the Spirit Who knows
if you are or NOT in the spirit realm
oki?

so these mantra of forgiveness
are NOT the chakra
they are the Pure spirit
that let go and love stuff
is powerful
and Far ABOVE vibes

Spirit is Above
vibes
vibes are like a boat
leading you to the Spirit


so in my dream
the spirit said
that "vibes checking behavior is very immature"
"chakras are just pumps of energies.
they are not static"

so the vibes checking meaning
is :
"ok.. where the chakras are pumping now"

assuming that vibes are static
and on that assumption
passing judgement on others
is totally not a dharmic way
lol

has not jesus said
beware what you judge will judge you back?
and the irony is
that when you are judged back by your OWN judgement
and that evil touches you
you don't realise
why and where it is coming from...

so i remember well the last words of the spirit
"really, they are immature
instead of forgiving as jesus said
they do what they do..."

see when i write this
i even feel the sadness of it

i feel like
there is a great potential on those yogis
but that is left uncovered
because of their odd immature choices...

if they uses more spirit
and less deform the vibes purpose
they would not need me as a "muslim" advertisement
for other muslims ;)

because Truth shines by itself
and It attracts by its light and love that it emits...
it needs no advertising
nor self applauding
of how many muslims one managed
to make into hindus yogi hahaha

Truth sets you free
from ALL rituals
cause is the Real YOU.


and i know spirit loves me
and i love it too:x
and if you cannot see it
know that It sees you

kissi :x

Promises made, promises broken

i was passing by
and heard that music
that just mesmerised me

and i just stood there
stuck listening to it

this song is so melodious
is a heartfelt message ...
so well timed.

once i heard it
i felt so odd
is like everything speak to me
and really everything is alive
with messages that communicate with you
right after you ask a question

before
my answers were
delivered in dream

so it was delayed

but now
answers come
just like in the very moment
while i am awake
and right the corner..

is true
because
question and answer
are two sides of the same coin


now, 

this song is beautiful
because if you hear it well
it says to you

that promises is not about who promise you something
but when you promised to yourself something
have you ever went through it?
till the very end?

if you just do
keep ONE promise
and went through it
then it became that rose
that the song speak of

literally
a rose structure
is that one
of ascending curves

and the rose is 
describing your path
that you kept threading
because you kept your promise

all this
made up that rose
once you look back
you saw you become that rose..

where lies
your liberation...

Song : "Promises" from the movie "The Music in Me"
Sung by : Debbie Gibson

Lyrics - that i corrected :

"Promises"

Promises made, promises broken
That was my song
Only song that I knew
I never kept one
My heart was not open
No but now, you see me new

The rose beyond the promise
Is all I've come to be
Because I kept that promise
Though none made to me

Promises made, promises broken
No that is not who I am
Now its all in
What is unspoken
And all can believe once again

Rejoice, rejoice
We are one song one voice
And we are free
Just sing
Sing strong
We know where we belong
No one can never break you
When you see the promise through

Promises made, promises broken
The only song
I ever knew
Now we're all in
And here with hearts opened
Standing in what's true

The rose beyond that promise
Before you, yeah that's me
And I'm delivering
Eternally 


source : http://www.lyricsbox.com/debbie-gibson-lyrics-promises-gp2vg97.html


ps : had i said i hear and see piano everywhere? :)))

it is Me, it is not me - part 2

and then
when i went back
every bits came back like a puzzle
and i realised that there were signs
but i could NOT SEE those
only once it was over
and his mask fell off
i realised but everything was already there
for me to see
but i was just blind to it

you know why?
because we choose to be blind
as i dislike very much treachery
i shoved it out of my life

but doing so
i ended up being blind to people
who are treacherous
so much that it shocks me
that such fraud
on such professional level
may exist

and this line might be shocking
to read
but one should love treachery

it does not mean
that i say woa cool let be like that
or how this should be promoted lol
i am not insane

no
to love
is to love unconditionally
it means to acknowledge its existence
and not shove it away
as if it is not part of creation

treachery and any other negative stuff
which are obviously bad are bad and remain bad
that's it

BUT
i should learn to acknowledge their existence
cause they are there
so that i may see them

this is why i repeat
this is why
i could not see the signs

how something will show itself to you
and thus protects you
if you refuse to see it
and acknowledge it?
it can't connect with you
as you refuse the connection
and its very existence

see?
if i had acknowledged the existence
of such bad stuff
like treachery etc
then i would see their signs
all pointing at them

and once i see these signs
then i could let them be
and move on

while moving on
i can save myself from much
headache and fraud
by getting caught in the very thing i reject...

second point about this love
and that one forget
is that it transforms...
this treachery
once i acknowledge its existence
i can see it
once i see it
i can let it go
and literally move on
(go out of the office
as if i had fire on my ass lol!)

and once i let it go
then that light transforms
the ugly face of treachery
which then disappears from my life

this is why Love is IN-clusive
is not EX-clusive

likewise
when people think of separation
is because of fears of something they reject
cause they find it ugly, unacceptable

of course
is ugly
of course is unacceptable

but then what after?
you are only required to acknowledge its existence
once you do
then you can move on
let it go

and LIGHT
on its own
do the rest of job for you
it transforms this very ugly thing
and this is why it is gone

cause you saved yourself
by yourself
from it

you are
you become your own savior

is so true
if the word savior exists
is because of the danger that exists
but if you hate so much the danger
that you don't want to acknowledge its existence
then
how can you use the word savior?

once when i was in uk
i remember
i was waiting at the bus stop
and i asked a question to myself
and my self answered to it
saying
the question and its answer 
both are the same coin
is just the two faces of same coin.


danger and savior
are two faces of the same coin
you can't get one without the other

and why this ?

lol
i start thinking
i had a very fruitful day

is funny
cause i got this answer i am about to write
to a question that i am asking only now
again it proves to me
all answers are given to us
but we do not see them on the spot

is only later
if we are lucky
we realise
we got the answer

so why this?
why getting that weird duality?
of danger and its savior?
well

as i was driving
i got that answer to that question
i did not even ask lol

actually
i was driving
and saw my bracelet
which was on arm


and when i saw it
i said to myself
when i bought it
i was so enthralled by its refined designed
that i connected myself to its heart
this is why it stood out from all the other stuff
in the store

and i saw in the bracelet
that it has its own heart/light
a core
and as i connected to it
and liked it
my attention is IN it

but when i saw my arm
first i saw my shirt
and as my eyesight went from the shirt
down the way to the bracelet itself
i saw for the first time
the beauty of it as a whole
not just the beauty of its core
but the whole impression/atmospher it creates
when it is worn

see?
then i realised on the spot
this is why God sent his light
in multitude
in so many hearts of people

is to be able to see Himself
from another point of view
so that He may perceive Its own beauty

'cause if He had just remained
on His own
HE would have known only His core essence

but as HE dispatched his light
in every single thing
then He could use the Perspective of One
to see the Other

this is why in sufism
this saying is well known
"I was a hidden treasure
and wanted to be known"
(this is why He created creation)

this is how i ended up
seeing the whole beauty of a bracelet
when i was seeing my arm

but when i was jsut seeing my bracelet
i could only see its core beauty

and then i realised
this is why in business
for i had always wondered
finding it strange
that business who are specialised in selling a product
WHY do they require market study?

if you love a product
then why asking a third party view?

normally
your love of a product
should bring you so close to it
that you need not an outer perspective see?

then i understood
cause the company is so much engrossed
by its core business
that it NEEDS a third party to SEE
the general stuff
to get an overview
to see stuff from another perspective
to gain another global view of its product

cause attention is One
and if it is STUCK IN
then it is engrossed
and it cannot detach itself
raise higher to see the whole picture

but if attention is ABOVE
then it can rise above
and get that whole picture
and take decision more wisely

finally
why this duality?
we need duality to see each other
without danger
there is no savior
because of the danger, the need of a savior arises

and without savior
there is no danger
because the very existence of savior, points at the existence of danger

likewise
creation has been created
to be able to mirror the existence of the other
once this existence is acknowledge
then Light/Love Power can transform it

otherwise bad remains bad
and even get worse
for the one who keeps denying it.

and i just understood
that line of quran
that i NEVER EVER made sense of

this is in 55:43
"this is the hell that the guilty one/wrongful people deny"
then the line, immeditately responding to it :
"which of the favors of God, will you deny?"

see?
i never quite understood
what the favors were about
bad is bad
that's it


is because bad becomes even worse in our life
when we keep denying its existence
so it is precisely this bad stuff that will hit us
as this frauder
and this is the hell you kept denying

to be honest
if i try to acknowledge to myself
that all the bad stuff DO exist
then there is a certain work colleague
that i want to butt his ass
cause he is a real lazy coworker

i just dislike laziness
because it makes you break your word
and put other people in trouble
and made them hanging onto you
is so unfair

but right now
my inner self
i feel it revolting itself in my chest
hahaha
and saying no no
no way
jsut butt his ass no love for him
hahahaha

i can HEAR my self
saying it
and even see her
crossing her arms
and pouting
and shaking her head
"no no no"
"no way! just butt his ass!"

hehehehe
is funny
but i have to be honest

so the solution
should be that i should acknowledge to myself
that what i start hating
i.e. his total lake of commitment at work
and sheer laziness
EXIST

that i canNOT change them
so i should not be oblivious to them
they are there
that's a fact

and then
just let it go.

if the Power of Love
find is the right timing
then It would change his ass
but i can't lose precious time
and get even worse results with such a colleague

i can console myself
thinking, 
who knows may be he got a lobotomy?
hence his absent-mindedness?
but in truth,
he does it on purpose
i hope then he will get what he deserves.

because my inner self
is still rebellious!
nah!

;)