Sooo helpful people!

Indeed our day reflects
our meditation in the morning

is incredible

here is my today's experience

well is not incredible eventwise
but humanity-wise

i was shopping today
and once i paid
i realised i bought a frozen item by mistake

so i asked to just change it
and well it was impossible
and i tell you also that i could not at the end exchange it lol
so no suspense

but what was incredible
was the utter kindness of the first cashier
for she was all smiling
while i tell you
try to shop at 6pm in paris
is a drama there! hahaha
impossible to even get time to smile and chit chat
given the crowd
and despite themselves,
the cashiers grow grumpy

then, out of nowhere
the head of the store
who was leaving for home
saw me
while i have not EVEN asked him anything
and he wanted to solve my problem
taking literally the ticket out of my hand
i was astounded

especially when it is 6pm
and you are leaving your work place
usually you don't care for customers
especially if they bring you their problem lol

so here was contrary
he came by himself
while he was supposed to leave his job place
and took upon himself to solve my issue

but could not
why ?
because once you buy frozen stuff
they can't proceed to exchange
is the rule

anyway
i was about to leave
and a third person came from behind
a woman
and she stopped me saying
"may be i can buy you your article"

i could not believe that
finally she could not
as she was very very very bio oriented lady

but i was literally amazed at her kindness
and i told her
whether you buy it or not
i really find it very kind from you

and she said
well i heard you
and thought if i were in your shoes
i would love someone to do so to me

wow
i tell you
this lady's kindness and attentive care
for someone literally a stranger
to consider her as her own self
is never seen
first time i ever see this with me

and again
i conclude
that indeed
if ourselves we purify our energy
then we open new doors in ourselves
and as we are a universe in us

the universe out
ONLY reflects the state of the inner

so in times of such Grace and Kindness
i thank God
for that is exciting new experiences
of seeing that it works!
purification works!

and equally
but with delay
obstacles in life are also means of wonder
and with the right attitude of excitement

to see
HOW GOD is going to CHANGE your surrounding
your obstacles
your lacks
your sorrow
your worries
your sadness

into its oh so long awaited happiness

but what happens
is
that we reject all of the obstacles
onto others
which is normal
for the other too is at fault somehow
BUT
as a spiritually aimed person
who wishes for personal evolution

after the natural human judgement
at others
one should learn to MOVE ON

and the moving on
can only happen

IF we use
this golden opportunity to FEEL our OWN sadness
and bring it to the altar of God within
and to let it be flown over
by his/her vibrations

and in this very emptiness
the obstacles are transformed
so are the people around

never one can change someone
is like the matrix spoon
trying to bend the spoon
one should bend/bow within
so that the spoon outside bow too
for we are the spoon

why?
for the spoon out is the universe
that is in us
and we are this whole universe within

hence all is indeed one

ah ! feeling so much better
after having written it!

Blue Tara

another experience when i was meditating

my intention was this time
to clean all the remainder of any right vishuddhi blocages
for we better settle stuff on this earth
than to store them in our body
and get reincarnated in weirdo life scenario hahaha

indeed,
for i felt a very light prick on the right finger
and i decided the above

which is very very much illusive
to say "light" prick

for i tell why

my intuition says
when it is light
it is not necessarily minor
it means just it is deep down
and the kundalini is working it out
to bring it to the surface
and purify it

for remember
any "small" matter
can easily cause a catastroph
as much as getting you reincarnated
so is never a small or light matter
as one may thing

but the "light" prick
does mean that it is not a stuck blocage
in deep mud lol hahaha

so i stayed at this chakra
and hold it loooooooong
during my walking meditation
remember?
the walking one is way more efficient
in terms of purification

and yes i hold it
till i felt it all cool
till this coolness spread to all other fingers
and whole hand too

and guess what happened
as hardly as i sat down
and closed eyes for the sitting meditation

i saw myself standing
near a group of people
and my head stretched itself to the far away group
and asked them
"why don't you see me?"

it was like the me of this vision
was as the spirit identity
who was bewildered
that that which is present - as my true identity- i.e. the spirit
is not seen, while is so obvious

and lo! it was no more my head i was seeing
once it came back
it was all blue!
a female head with beautiful eyes carved like in stone statue
wide open
and such a nice smile on her face
i would call it a serene smile mixed with wisdom
for it has such a self knowledge/control

then after meditation
when i was going to start my day
i felt lots of rain drops! on my back
at the right side of it - near the right heart level
so i said to myself
neh, is for sure the cool breez no rain lol
so no need to verify by touching

and yes each time when i challenge
lol it puts me in doubt
so it became so intense
that i literally thought droplets were falling
and that at this very place my shirt was WET
lol so i HAD to touch it to check
and of course! i lost my challenge  i had to verify!
hahaha

anyway
it happens again after
at the right ribs

so later came the knowledge
that this is the right vishuddhi which got purified
from any old resentment i had
and i bet it was related to 5 years ago
for it was the very first time i learned
that people could be betraying
in a way you can say was my first betrayal experience


for you see
the thing is
if you don't purify it
then you experience your NEXT experience
through this VERY filter of betrayal
and hence you cannot "let go" on the spot
and after you NEED to use meditation

to purify it
but this requires adequat discipline
and persistence
for it to be healed for good.

all praise be to God!
i am so happy it is healed!

how so?

well,
when we have experiences with people
negative one from our perspective
what happens
is that once the matter is over
this trauma and "negative" energy
REMAINS in us
in our ki channels

and UNLESS and UNTIL
we purify it
by bringing them INTO the emptiness
we cannot heal ourselves from future "bad" experiences

so the emptiness heals these left over unbalanced energies
in us
and this is HOW one is healed and balanced and acquires NEW
qualities
which are not NEW
but only were clouded by this past trauma

hence the numbnuts who says
"well meditation is not everything,
you gotta develop qualities"

i tell them
you are already the pure spirit within
what qualities you have to develop?
you want to force a pooh out of yourself? hahaha

and pretending having such qualities?

you just have to CARE for yourself
instead of caring for the ass of the other
if he or she is doing well or not
is NOT your affairs
your affairs are YOUR OWN SELF

once you clean yourself
really
you do a favor to the others
by shining more purity
and being less a pain in their ass
and creating more compassion thereby for them

true compassion
is not the one in word or in deeds
for they are meant to be an extention
of the essence of this compassion in you
which is this spirit
and you can only let it shine compassionately
if yourself you are compassionate to yourself
by treating your blocages
in order to let emptiness absorb this trauma you had

and then
may be one day
make your presence so lovable
that one can see this cool and soft gracious energy
overflowing from you

i think it is how we have standards
we see beauty
like this light for me
and it suffices to see people after
and you can on the spot tell
where they are in their evolution
as regard to this light

it is nothing bad to be
on different level of evolution
this is what makes the beauty of Life
and i love it

but that which is bad and sorrowful
is to remain STUCK to a level
for it means one refuses evolution
and that is sad
for oneself
and for the others

and how do you know that you are stuck?
when you are not letting go of your past "bad" experience
and you keep repeating it like a disk even months after!
so much that even months after it is "sticking in your throat"
lol
this idiom exist not for nothing
it means you have to purify your clogged throat chakra
and of course the agnya as you can't let go

for life thrives only when we are in movement
let it be an ascending one.

and for the wet rain
lol as if a rain could be not wet
but i call it so
it was situated at my right channel
so indeed it was linked with the right vishuddhi purification

and the blue face
was the one of the blue tara

hm, is very beautiful
to be given such gifts after meditation
it is like kids who get mark after their school work
they want more so they work more
is rewarding


and yes color blue of the face
for the vishuddhi color is blue.

:)

kiss:x
ps :i know not much of blue Tara
but will have a look


Tara
Though Tara & Kali are same yet their complexions are different. Kali complexion is dark whereas Tara complexion is blue. Tara killed the demon 'Hayagreeva'. She has Lord Shiva lying under her feet like a corpse. Her bluish complexion's beauty is magnified manifold by her three eyes, which appear like a blue lotus flowers. In her four hands she has a scissors, a head (skull), a lotus flower and an axe. She wears tiger's skin on her body, and has a necklace of skulls around her neck. She is considered to be very violent in nature, but her eagerness to shower blessings on the devotee is infallible too. So she is the most merciful. Tara or Ugratara is worshipped for the attainment of powers of speech, pleasures and even salvation. She is also worshipped for the destruction of enemies. Tara is worshipped in the night and is an another appearance of Shakti. She is considered to be the ruler and presider of miraculous effects and accomplishments.


source : http://www.freewebs.com/jaidurga/informationonmataji.htm

Lovely shots! fell in love with them:x
and i love the mantra and the devote singer voice too
was told that when she was still in her mother womb
her father used to recite her this mantra nearing the womb
every day. :)

Beautiful cool light

:)
ah that is soo cool!

let me start so
it is like a cool, slow and lightly moving ray of light

oh so beautiful it is!

thing is i see it more and more often now
it comes out from my laptop screen
i noticed it is when i asked myself a question
and am working on it
and then this cool sun ray appears

is so beautiful
i feel mesmerised watching it
ah so beautiful
i have tears in my eyes

the other day
i got up for the early meditation
and i was wondering about why i have found this sun ray
so beautiful

so i was focusing on its light
and the feeling that it gave me

the feelings associated to
the description above
was "kind" " and "soft" definitely

and its slow moving
makes me feel
now i can say
like a cloud moving

and by then
it hit me
i said it is "gracious"
this is why i love it

so i wondered
why it was so different from
the light of the day, of the sun

because the sun light is
very heated, strong

while this light
was very cool, and eeric

the former is
Glorious

the latter
is Beautiful serenity

like sun
and moon
lights


in islam
the attributes of God
are divided in two groups
Jalal and Jamal
Jalal is the Glorious heated energy in those attributes of God
and the Jamal is the Cool beautiful ones


and suddenly
when i thought of the word
that fit it most
"Grace-ful"

suddenly,
i saw Mother mary
she was sitting in a bent way
and in its place
i saw after a foetus in a womb
with a dim cool light
reflecting on it
so that i see it

so i said to myself
it is the same light of Grace
the one out of my laptop screen
is the same than the one on this foetus


it was a foetus in its very early stage
enlightened by a dim light

just like this :

Playing

I was in the metro
and suddenly someone grabbed my hand
lol
it was a kid
hhehehe

he was actually in his push chair
and all of a sudden he grabbed my hand
and then my finger
and the guy standing next to me
lol himself got surprised that he watched my face
to see my reaction

well
i was laughing
and sure ended up playing with the kid
ah so cuteeeeeee he was

it is about the innocence
the child recognised the shakti in me

hence the grabbing and the smiling and the playing

of course,
i know if i have no discipline for morning meditation
then i have nothing

oh God,
is my plea
please make my meditation
truly disciplined ray

ameen!and so be it
as one says lol

The Feeling of True Humanity

:)

i had a very meaningful dream
i had been told once
that part of dreams we have are like our past lives coming at the surface
and we only have to let go

very easy cleaning :)

but true, at times if you have nightmare
it won't be that easy
i can guess

anyway
in my today's dream
it was about some life of mine in middle age
of which i saw détails
precise détails that were blocking me
and instilling fears
in this very life

hm can't really go in détails now
as myself i have to work this out

but main point is
there was the Healing!

which took place in the dream
and that i felt in real
while i was sleeping

i saw a woman and she was from her forehead
emitting a ray
and this ray was showing this past life trauma
to a guy
from forehead to forehead
i must say very precise and fast way to transmit info!
and is true
it exists!

anyway, this very guy who was my good helping friend
saw the issue i got in the past
and somehow in the dream i was this middle age lady seeing
this current scene too

so odd now i write it
it is like the past was witnessing a present
the past : the middle age lady with her in the "now" trauma

and the present : the guy and the lady with the current knowledge and Healing
at hand

you see the past middle age lady
she was actually just in the "now with her past"
because she was reliving , i feel, constantly this very trauma again and again
like a tape

and me the true actual person in this very life
was not knowing this
and was thus with a background noise
which was this past tape
just living it again and again too
BUT without knowing it
and without knowing the solution, the Healing
and thus being tied up to it
and not being free of following my own flow

my feeling is this lady transmitting from her forehead
was my Higher Self

for i already got this experience
far before my self realisation
and i know how true it is
this forehead to forehead info
and i had been told already
that this very lady was me

and somehow there was happiness in the air
but as by then i had no clue
of vocabulary such as Higher Self
i guess it would have had been of no help to me
to know that

anyway
back to this very dream

how the Healing took place

so in the dream
my old self
was crying out
how she could NOT be free of a certain trauma
that it was impossible for her
for she was tied by this certain person impact
and could not get rid of this hurt
let's call it so

and in the second scene
my Higher self was transmitting
this very past self scene to a guy
lol let's call it my knight lol
for it was his role
to help me be free

and there was the actual me
the one sleeping dreaming
and witnessing all this
and now writing it

beautiful play
when one think of it
very astute
Life is a real mysterious engineer
i tell you now lol

now the beautiful thing happened!
the Healing

the guy who was witnessing the very info
by the mental transmission
was also reliving my life context
in which this hurt happened

so he knew truth
truth here
was to know the hurt in its context
that is life

and while he was witnessing it
he was also KNOWING the feelings
that i was feeling

therefore
he developped "empathy"
and all the way he was holding my hand
during this past life transmission
and in my very own heart
i was feeling that this very empathy
was Healing me
because there was no interruption
by some judgement, question, laughs
and so on
as people do in this very life

it was plain EMPATHY

ah !
even writing it
i feel so good and happy

and in the very dream
when i realised that empathy feeling
i realised that it is the key to Healing

that the human touch
the skin to skin contact
with real empathy

is a Healer in itself

you know why?
because it is REAL
the skin to skin contact
even by holding hand
is an act of PRESENCE

the present BELONGS to you
and in it
you are thanks to the correct, SINCERE, attitude
of EMPATHY

just making space for the other
which is in hurt
to let her know that you know
and that you are there
and so she can too let it go

of course she can let it go
why?
because you being there
= you as LIFE you prove you are there
and you have to do nothing
the error is to be in the judgement
the judgement kill all of our dreams
and add load to the past hurt/karma

one just need to be there
for the other
to feel our presence
(for she had forgotten the present as she was only reliving the past
so she only needed room to be made for her to have the opportunity
through the empathic silence = which is a bridge
from past (thanks to the role of the feeling) to the present (hence the ABSOLUTE
need of SILENCE, SO THAT this transition HAPPENS for her to come back from her
coma to the present!)

and i mean it
our pure presence
will provide this SPACE, ROOM

to enable her to FEEL the PRESENT , the NOW
for the person was STUCK in some PAST without knowing it

so you JUST need to be PRESENT YOURSELF
so that she too MAY BE PRESENT
like waking up from a coma

there is no other solution
than

THE KNOWLEDGE OF THE HURT
+
THE EMPATHY ONLY (no judgement for ROOM is needed for the person asleep to transfer herself from past to present this lost part of her soul.***)
+
and the most essential one for the transmission of this Healing
THIS HUMAN SKIN TO SKIN TOUCH

i guess i just learned
what is TRUE HUMANITY

ah bring me tears in my eyes
so beautiful it is


***a soul is lost
because it is not in the light
and is like a soul has different parts/lifes it had in the past
and one by one
you have to integrate them to the light of the spirit
this is HOW soul remembers that it is only the Light

and indeed
in the end of the dream
i saw how slowing
the bits of my heart who were black
i.e. in darkness
i.e. in ignorance of its present light

were shining

and that is
when awakening takes place
bits by bits


pps :
this is WHY when people JUDGES the others
now it makes me laugh
for NOW i KNOW
they are FAKE

why?
because they are ONLY projecting
their OWN inner limitation, hate and frustration to the other
"Under pretext" of wishing the other an improvement that he or she is not doing

Life works NOT like that

jugement is the PROOF
of your OWN VERY OWN UNRESOLVED INNER ISSUES
and you use the pretext of SERMONING the other
to CONTROL him
INSTEAD of settling your OWN issue

as for me
i learned a few days ago
how some people had
let's say it plainly sex out of marriage

i give this very example to be concrete and plain

on the spot
i judge it
for i am human
and i said is very wrong
for it is NOT my standards

BUT
after i stopped judging
and let it go

the reason?

because it is NOT my affair
if i had gone further
it would have meant
my initial judgement which was human
(because i was merely applying my own life standard to see the other's life
through the lense of mine)

would have been transformed into a dictatorship over the other
by keep judging him by my standards

here the key word is KEEP judging

where is the let go?

the KEEP judging
transform a natural human judgement into a dictatorship
a controlling attitude over the other
for some inner personal gain that one harbor in a hidden way
that one admit it or NOT
is ALWAYS this.

so up to you
to let go
if you want Healing in yourself to take place :x

have a nice day!

ppps

and if you really wants to help to improve
the state of someone that you deem is lacking a quality
is not by judging
or sermoning in a dictatorial way

for that is FAKE
not for the other
but you are doing it for yourself
even if you are not aware of it

but true help
is through empathy
and you can do this
only
if yourself you have the correct and sincere attitude
with yourself
than
you just KNOW how to apply it to the others too