There are dreams, where it is water color scenes on the screen of my mind.
There are also real dreams; where my senses, are partly or fully engaged, i tend to call them visions so real they look.
And there are visions; while i am awake and see it happening, day dreaming?
Yesterday it had a vision, in which i saw Shri mataji sitting on a golden chair, i was facing her and the exchange was telepathic.
I saw that she sent a beam of vibrations , you know like when you hit a gong? just using her mind intent and it hit me on top of my head and i felt both balloon resonating to the vibration hitting on them.
I can still recall the feel. It is really like you hit a gong and it vibrate at the impact of the stick.
I felt them shivering to the vibes.
Then She said "Now let it go".
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That was quite real. today i was thinking about it and when you realise that emotions are stuck into our system, as they are unseen, if you are being hit, it is to help you see them in you. to help you see even there location in your body, where they are still stuck.
The hit, helps you locate the stuck emotions, this pressure point is called pain.
And then you let it go, it is your liberation.
If you keep making a drama out of it, it is your choice, but it serves no purpose than you experimenting what next as part of the running drama, well it is a fun for a time. You like to be the victim, you like revenge, you like the satisfaction of going through a wide range of emotions, experimenting them blaming here and there, such and such and inside enjoying the whole process.
But then you end up believing that the drama is real and you can't let go.
Enjoy, experiment and let it go.
Body should be full of running energy, fluid. Stuck up emotions just stagnate there and you don't know they are still there, your system becomes clogged and it starts putrefying, attitude and manners change, you traits become rough and your behavior grosser, you develop eventually disease and you believe it is human fate.
It is not, you can be a perfectly higher being. You can be full of living stream, running rivers of pure water in your body, imagine what new fruits these running water can bring to you?
Like Bruce Lee said - Be like water my friend.
Sometimes just a beautiful word said to your friend, make them shine with beauty, because their spirit inside them was happy to be seen, recognized.
Everything beam, respond, resonate to its alikeness. Spirit resonate to Beauty.
This is why people beam with joy if you say nice words to them.
There is no need to make it specially a method, a social convention or a management practice, but just to time it when you feel it, it is what it makes it real.
I am resuming blogging after i recall now quite a few years, even though i feel it has just been yesterday i had blogged.
Truth is i look back and see how a wonderful life i have had, beautiful and unique experiences and people i met. Yes i was very little versed in human being social behavior, sounds funny to say this. But it is true.
I have learned a lot about how a human being functions. For the sake of the experience i chose to dwell on some unexplored emotions that i had never tried before; such as understanding the why of certain behavior, digging into it till its bone marrow and getting to understand why so and so did what they did, why they had these feelings, why they acted the way they did.
I realized it is good for me to understand the mechanics of how human being feel and act on their emotions when alone and when in social settings.
For a while it taught me a lot, but overall the only conclusion i came to each time at the end of the experiment was that only Love solves everything it; only love is the only working option, and love is not an emotion, love is above your thoughts to start with, but love is intelligent, love is not an emotion, but it is a power that moves mountain of complexities around you.
Love is independant, it is well rooted in your sacred chakra and it takes it time, the time it takes it takes, to grow through you. Like a seedling , then this seedling becomes a plant, and a young tree, and its bark become as thick as it can get, till you realise you have been nursing a tree inside you, that has spread all over your nervous system, these nerves are its branches.
The more you let the sap flow into it, the more it cleanses, unclog and bring nutrients to its leaves and when it rises above your brain, when it break through the marasm of your thoughts, as it is said, "higher powers take over" vs the power of your thoughts.
God is Great, greater than what your thoughts, than the power and scope of action of your thoughts.
You wish and you let it go. Then you wait and see what Gift life will bring back to you. As the whole Universe conspires to nourish a seed with its nutrient, so does Life for your wishes.
Life itself is a metaphor, babies are born to remind the parents of their own lost heavly state of innocence. The baby birth to its growth all is a metaphor about your own soul.
Your soul is this unknown treasure within you, asleep, once it wakes up by the Grace of the kundalini, only a tiny portion of it awakened. Even this tiny portion needs to be nutured in your nabhi, start its ascension, growth and breakthrough your sahasrara and connect to the whole.
Its connexion to the whole make all the other be like your extended self, though i do not feel it so, i do see how at times the universes conspire knowingly or unknowingly into helping me, by gathering all the elements i need for things to work out.
Finally, learning to celebrate and feel the joy by doing any simple task, is i learned the reality.
Being anxious for the next step, behind stuck in past pain, none of it has light, as it is just no more nor will be. But that celebration in the present, that joy is the only moment that transform your past pain, submit them to the natural state of joy and like a river it will flow its course, you have to do nothing.
The path flowing is itself a living river that follow its natural course. Future is also created without you doing anything, except feeling your desire fully in the present.
As my friend danny, reminded me,
Attention is the only thing you have.
It is true.
Where is your attention, and what you do of it, how you focus it, how you purify it, how you train it, all of this matter.
Where attention goes, energy goes, so imagine, the quality of your attention, the more refined it is, the more wonderful the sparks it'll create as soon as Energy is laid upon it.
