Today i met new people
when they were talking
i could feel their emotions
those that were hidden
it startled me
because i felt them strongly
i think i never felt people's emotions so strongly before
most of their feelings were filled with sadness
for one there was hidden anger and frustration
on top of that
i felt sad for them
i was sad because i knew they were sad
though it was hidden
and wished to tell them
"don't be sad"
and i was also frustrated,
because i knew how they could be so awesome
but as they don't know they could be so awesome,
i felt like they were cheated by life, by their ignorance of their potential,
of themselves.
really even now i feel for them
it is like you could see someone turning in circle
like in a jail
and you know that this condition won't change
unless he changes his ways
and you know also that never he will change his
people are very strange
they expect change without willing to change their usual ways
if you have no success with your current method
then drop it
and try a new one
this simply means your method failed when you tested it with your life
but it is like people become amnesic
once they tested it
why they do not move on?
it is like they know they are testing life
don't they say that "it is a test from God"
but they forgot the meaning of "test".
they think it is a continual test from God.
like a fatality
but if the test has a beginning, it has an end too.
and you decide of its end
as you decided of its beginning by allowing yourself to be as you have been
now allow yourself to be otherwise...to end it:
by concluding "ok the method tested failed."
be honest with life
as soon as you admit this conclusion to yourself
you will see
life will be challenged
and will bring you a new method to be tested with.
(by the way, when you can say that
it proves already a certain degree of detachment
you feel it when you say it?)
it is what happened with me.
ok it is a test
but now once you get the result of the test
YOU decide your test is over
and you seek for a new one
which will be successful, no?
WHY they forget to acknowledge the result?
and MOVE ON?
no they have to standstill and blame others and pity themselves till they die
instead of moving on.
now, i am really feeling angry at them.
i know why they get amnesic,
it is because they become so identified with the method
because remember,
we put our life in it
time, effort, emotions,
and that defines us
this is our ego
part of it
and you need to label it as "failed"
who would like to hear that his past 30 years
resulted in a "failed" mention? who?
it is like you hear your death sentence
like one day someone comes
and tells you
sir, you wasted 30 years of your life.
well don't be sorry
success will come despite that
trust in the unknown wisdom of God
which lies in your (ego) death.
he will laugh at you,
after having slapped you lol
and yet in this simple step
i am sure lies the Mercy of God
whoever honestly surrender his ego to God
means
he should admit that his method failed,
and he surrender to a new method
he has no power upon
and which will be from God
an "infaillible" method
and this "infaillible" method
will become the new life of his
i found this now so beautiful
for i just understood
why the shia call their imams
the "infaillible" ones
they are the descendent sons of the prophet
in leadership
i bet these were all realised
but they are infaillible not because of their own knowledge
or some inheritance of prophethood as we can naively understand it
they are infaillible
because of the "path" / method they followed
which is a path that bears the weight of the test
a path that is unshakable whatever the test is
so, i don't understand
why people don't come to this logical decision?
if only they would, then they would be alert and thus open
for new God given methods/helps
if you know that Life is a Mercy from God
then, why you don't open to more of His Mercy?
why you cut life in two :
with one area which is yours and is temporarily lacking blessings
(so you wait and wait and wait while not changing)
and the other which you consider not yours and thus you suppose it is unblessed
and you remain closed to it.
therefore, you just keep regressing in receiving blessings from life
till there are no more
and you think that God left you
but in truth
it is you who stubbornly remained separated from the Whole, from God
by separating your life in two or more groups
with one sacred and the other not
with one useful and the other not
with one blessed the other not
with one higher and the other not
by extension
it is what we do with our relationship
with anyone
everyone thanks to his spirit within
if it has crossed your path
has been bringing you
the opportunity to unify your vision of Life to One Part
i find that beautiful
of course is hard
because we get amnesic
and we cling onto our emotions
instead of letting them go
but as long as we KNOW
we have to "return to God"
inna lilahi wa inna elahi rajeoun
to God we belong to to Him is our return
then, we cannot forget, nor fail.
the thing is muslims only remember this sentence
at the time of death
but it is about the death of ego
at each moment when you encounter suffering
and like this bits by bits
you get ready
somehow
for the Great Remembering
of your true nature
of who you are
finally, on the spot, while listening to them,
i chose deliberately
to listen superficially
i mean i did not keep my usual deep focus when they were speaking
because i just felt too sad already
