Butterflies

Today, we went to the park,
and we all just slept on the grass and did some of sunbathing lol.

may be had i meditated before,
i no longer remember,

but suddenly when i watched the sky
it was all purple and green like butterflies flying
like being aspired upwards
billions of it
everywhere

then, later i watched the grass
and it was same kind of vibrations or pulses
this time it was like a white mist of it

like a whole sky vibrating
and the whole earth vibrating

this is how i realised they are alive
and always changing / moving upwards.

i tried to look at human being
but i just saw solid forms
so, i realised may be it is either they are lacking vibrations
or because i cannot see multicolored vibrations.

Love is always there

i did not know what love was
i felt always insecure
for i knew not how to integrate all that i met into oneness

so i imagined
that love
is the capacity to always be there
despite all of my excess
it HAS to stick there
otherwise how i could feel protected and reassured?

feeling of insecurity
could have been laughed at
for very strange reasons

may be the reasons
were just laughing at me
for not seeing that I AM that Truth inside

but on the spot
it was of no help to my ignorance
actually it was felt as being cruel

therefore,
i imagined love
love to be fully integrating all that was evil in me
always patient and forgiving and especially, still after all my blunders,
be loving

so that shamelessly
i feel confident enough
to keep improving

why should one cover one's defects
when one is meant to be transformed into something more beautiful?

so first one should face our own defect
see what could be laughable
and accept that
and never think that it made love to forsake you
just this thing is sufficient
to know that love forsakes not

so that at some point
you have by this choice
made and accumulated enough space
for transformation to happen

love is always there
but you just need
to be lenient with yourself
to give the required space
for the alchemy to take place.