Giving and Receiving gifts

i like making gifts to people around me
because when you make a gift
it is a token of yourself that can be seen
in the eyes of the receiver

so in a way you materialise yourself
to the other in a way that matches his level
while when you are a whole person lol
it is so funny to write it
but when you are a whole person
you can't really be seen as you are

so gifts bring people closer
so that they be able to see each other

second, it makes me feel fulfilled in the belly
when i can create the dreamt reality of the other
that gives me real joy
that they can believe in their dreams
and verify their belief

this is appreciativeness
which is always  there for the observer
be he the giver or the receiver

but when this becomes a habit
a tradition
an expected order
then it is no more sincere,

because it is no more appreciable
yes you do not have anymore the SPACE
to create your joy ahead of time
while preparing the gift
nor you have the joy to receive it
because you have lost the value of it
and you only expect it your right to have it
so when you already know
being the receiver or the giver of the gift
then, there is no more joy

so the key is in being free
free of giving and receiver whenever you wish
based on this simple rule
it can change greatly yourself

not only in terms of "material" gifts
but also a word, a behavior, an attitude
all of these are gifts to the other
on a more subtle plane

so if one follows this rule to the end
just this one
it makes one automatically see
that life is a challenge

for this will lead you
to go against your own
tradition, societal rules and so on

and your life can change
as quickly as you are ready to change
just to follow up one rule

to give gifts
only when it serves your joy

:)

Exodus : Gods and Kings

Very cool interpretation of Exodus

Luckily i had read a review before going
otherwise i would have been bewildered by the movie

which is a interpretation, re-adaptation of Moses and the Pharaohs story

what i liked :

- No magic as a naive mind would believe it
naive, is to think that magic is something you acquire and show off to surprise weak minded people
while magic is to be able to SEE magic all around you
ONLY because

-you developed faith in YOURSELF
so the development of the personality of moses
was his self work
his capacity to be honest to himself
reflected by his application to be upfront with others
like not to say what others expect you to hear
but stand on your own feet, be grounded enough to speak your truth

-this leads to the interpretation of magic
which is in other stories too far away from our reality
which means our mind attribute the God's help in such a disassociated way
with our own deeds and environement

that this movie gave back credit to the "scientific' explanation of the seven curses
BUT
this is as i say the HOW
not the WHY of the WHAT
which is not treated except referred to as being Moses God

so i deepen here the WHY saying that this is because
Israelis and the Egyptians consciousnesses were linked
and was in struggle
hence is the balance of fairness and justice is broken
then curse comes

and YES it is from God
as we are ALL bearing God light within
YES it is centralised by the Supreme God light
which is like a Living Intelligence Overpowering fights of two group of consciousness

which leads me to the personality of Moses once again,

-as he said to his people
you honored me with your trust
i honor you with my faith

before asking them to follow his order to cross the sea
for people were rebelling in doing so, implying they are no more slaves

literally speaking,
till they cross not the sea they remain slaves
because Pharaohs army is coming from behind

and symbolically,
as our body is indeed the recorder of the WHOLE history of Mankind
the sea is the nabhi which once crossed BRINGS YOU TO YOUR MASTERY

sure,
slaves still talking of being free makes no sense to Moses ears
but it was nicely put in this movie
this focus, zoom on Moses personality
not only in terms of rhetorical effect
but in terms of TRUTH

freedom comes only when you are no more in fear
and cross this sea of illusion
then you can really speak of Mastery

-i loved the embodiment of God in a child
totally unexpected
again i don't say i would agree strictly speaking that God is a child

but as much as God is not a fire
lol
HE is not a child as well
but it was pointing at the symbol of Innocence

or again the Child in Us that we call so in westernised way

though i would say the child was a brat child lol
for he wanted to see Pharaohs on their knees begging for his mercy

God to me is a Loving God
not a brat like angry God
so to me this part of the child speech more refers to the israeli consciousness of that time
than the Glory of God itself which is Shining Peace for me.

back to the miracles lol
yes the scientific rendering is cool
because it enables you to see that what you may find as coincidence is a miracle
when it happens with the right timing for you

but what is the probability that you encounter miracle in your daily life?
very few
so even less when it is a question of life and death on a mass scale

which means
when miracles occur
then let's have eyes to acknowledge the SOURCE/WHAT after having acknowledge the HOW
the WHAT gives APPRECIATION to the HOW

and appreciation is all that is needed for a blessing to remain
without it,
well you end up like the pharao : with no more blessings (no more family, city, army ...)

-the far sightedness of Moses
when he says his people won't remain united
as they were only because so far they had a common goal
which was to run away from Pharaohs
and once they fly away from him, then?

very wise saying of his
which myself i realised
yogis are united in meditation
but then, small groups can be identified because of our own common goal/centers of interests/level of consciousness
which is like this France Rally

only because the COMMON WISH for PEACE in the country
all people gathered together under the flag of the Republic

despite the diverging level of consciousness
so the clear lesson is that

thanks to these moments of COMMON GOAL
people gather together
and it enables for HUMANITY consciousness
to get A STEP/'pallier' forward

and once it is done
everyone is back to his own center of interest
this is power struggle after


and only a few go on with the realisation of this STEP taken
to take it further up.

this is why Moses is a Messenger
to his people
because he had enough insight
for himself
to live his truth

that he could lead/guide them (not order)
and show them that mastery of SELF INDEED leads to FREEDOM

TILL the time they, or part of those who have eyes to see
start too
themselves
on an individual basis
seeking for their TRUTH WITHIN
their OWN light of GOD

to gain this very mastery.

hence
Kings and Gods

Thumb up for this movie
again
in few words that i may jot down to describe it :

Realistic though Magic

Moses a Self Realised Man vs Pharaohs a self Made man
God vs King

and yes i always thought
when i learned about the God within
then what is the difference between a guy who knows that God light is within
that he is God within
and a guy who calls himself God like Pharaoh
why one is divine and the other the ego

well timely lol
let's call it a miracle
i learned in a saying of krishnamurti

when you SEE yourself as you really are with all your defects
and try NOT to be better
then this VERY observation of them
will TRANSFORM them
and you will BE beautiful

so he said
truthfully THE key word :

just TRY NOT to be someone else
BE YOURSELF

and that is EXACTLY WHAT the moses personality
painted here did

it simply showed that Moses was HIMSELF

ps : when i write i just jot down strong key moments
so for all the not so english wording and mistakes
and lack of clarity please don't mind

Brain and elongation

Good news

well for me,

yesterday night,
as i could not sleep
i just kept doing the cycles
on the different chakras
each time when i woke up

and suddenly
as i was sleeping
i felt a sort of tube
right in the brain
that was just keeping elongating itself

so much that i woke up
and lol even wondered if
i will get an elongated skull

i guess it is the inside muscle of the brain
that moves
when they are being pushed by the kundalini?

Brain muscles massage :)

Ah thank you to God for His Good Grace

i feel sooo good now

a few days ago
i was laying down in bed
and suddenly felt such a strong downpour of wind
ouf of my fontanel area

that i stayed literally scotched
to my bed and
my attention scotched to my fontanel
soooooooooooooo pleasant it was
soooooooooooooo relaxing too .... ah so good it was

i REALLY relaxed
ENTIRELY
(well nearly)
but most than usual

at the very beginning
i could only feel coolness here and there
let's say hands and/or head

now i am happy to say
after a semester
i could feel it flowing on both arms
till inside of hands
and feet too

after a year
i could literally feel
at times
not always
a whole shield
from head to toe

but now
even during the intensive meditation period
i felt "bored"

well i knew not why
but i felt bored
even though i was still feeling this coolness
all over body
and in the best times
as a unified field of oneness from head to toes

but i felt "bored"
no clue why
but yes bored
should i say it again?
BORED! :)))

now i know why!
it is as i read it
it is because ....
i wanted more lol
and because more joy exists
then this stagnation was starting to bother me

so when i felt this strong wind
out of my fontanel area
really
i was all relaxed
and yes
how can i forget writing that
sooo much relaxed
that i was BREATHING THE VERY COOL BREEZE
THAT WAS COMING OUT OF MY FONTANEL
right into my nose
hahaha

sooooo heavenly time it was
this is true relaxed meditation
and joyful state DURING it !

ah soo cool
and right NOW
twice i felt same
while i was working
so cool
that i stopped what ever i was doing
and just stayed with it

ah
and yes it was as strong as the one
when i was laying down
may be a little less
but what was GOOD
and this i NEVER felt so before

LITERALLY SPEAKING
i felt as if my INSIDE BRAIN MUSCLES
WERE BEING MASSAGED

ah God!
hahaha
ah ! i am wanting more

imagine!
we feel so good when we get a massage right?
well i rarely get one
but you get my point

and imagine!
brain is THE PART of body
which is ALWAYS working
EVEN WHEN SLEEPING

and how COME
this muscle NEVER gets a massage?

ah my Good GOD!
i GOT an INSIDE BRAIN MASSAGE
that was VERY pleasurable

that i can say is
my DAY 1 of really PLEASURABLE MEDITATION
MARK THAT DAY
DAY ONE OF BRAIN MASSAGE

yes,
i am trying to practise the attention
in such a way
that first when i feel the energy UNIFORMLY
from head to toes (shield)
then
i try to observe it from afar even more
till result be an empty body

to be honest
i am trying to get the hang of it
so not much on this today
once i really get it

point is
once we feel THAT joy
and THAT unified field
and THEN we put our attention
on events that are so dire like in France nowadays

THEN we can send LOVE
to such criminals
and situation, circumstances
so that it CHANGES for the GOOD

ok
it is SO contrasting
from my anger and hate of yesterday
but it is because i MUST be HONEST
with myself if I WANT TO SEE CHANGE

and we canNOT change something bad into good
UNLESS we PINPOINT IT
and for this you NEED to admit it

anyway
we are human
anger is ok
but the AFTER is most important

so those who laugh at angry yogis
well i laugh at their uptight ass lol
hahaha
and i laugh all the more to angry yogis
ie to myself too
for the times i was angry
and DID NOT follow up ENOUGH
to change anger into LOVE

NOW
LOVE
don't GET WRONG ideas
it is NOT what YOU call love

it is
ah i feel like saying
"celestial love"
"Love born from God grace"

this means
you do not control it
you cannot make it born

remember
like He begets not nor He is begotten?

same here
Love
God IS LOVE
so LOVE comes from HIS GRACE

before
i used to wonder
well how to attract this Grace

and now
yes this COOL WIND
IS THIS OUTER PROOF of
HIS AWAKENED GRACE

for Grace NEEDS to be MANIFESTED
to SHOW us that IT exists, right?

ONCE we feel it
it is ONLY the SIGN that
LOVE within you HAS AWAKENED

BUT
it does not means that
you can FEEL LOVE
for still your hearts needs to open more

BUT it is there
so VIBES are ONLY PROOF of this INNER LOVE
which is PRESENT IN YOU
and ONCE your shield is UNIFIED
then SOMEHOW
WHERE you PUT your attention
THEN
this LOVE follows

and as God Grace
is NOTHING except LOVE and COMPASSION
this very Energy of LOVE
will TRANSFORM the object of your attention
into more love filled being/behavior etc.

because i learned
that hate is NOT a power
it is  the choice of your personality
in terms of behavior

but on the power level
only LOVE is (the power-the transformative power)

and a criminal
you cannot change it with hate
nor you (as personality) can "love" his acts or him lol
that would be insane from you and me

but you as BEING OF EMPTINESS CAN LOVE him

yes!
while writing i got it
LOVE , divine LOVE comes from our Being of Emptiness
which is us, on the upper plane (divine plane)

but we as individual being/manifested being/personality
are not a being of emptiness but a body with thoughts etc.
and from this plane we can NEVER
and besides should NEVER love such people
well unless you be insane

so
if i sum up
Divine Love is Power
and this Power can ONLY stems from us
WHEN we are a Being of Emptiness

and we can be it
ONLY when our field is UNIFIED
from head to toes
THEN our whole body is EMPTY

hm,
anyway for the moment
i say :)

Praise be to God
for my SO GOOD BRAIN MUSCLES MASSAGE
HEAVENLY! :)

Living Being in me

as i was waking up this morning
i learned something

it was not a voice talking
and it was not thoughts
it was not from outside

but i feel kind of saying
that my inside Energy Intelligence
was TRULY awakened
at this very moment
and when i say awakened
i MEAN IT
like in the word : ALIVE
and that my senses were listening
to her

and this energy was not talking
let's say
that the energy awakened presence
itself was a talk
an intelligent talk (may be it is why it is called Life)
that the five senses were at the same time
the audience
and could testify each with their own properties
of hearing for ears,
seeing for eyes
feeling for skin

to live
yes is the right word
to live that talk

let's say an interactive cinema lol
but inside of you

so i wanted to write down the precise
sensation i had
first so that i remember

second,
the content by itself

said like this
it will not ring a bell to the reader
but to me it does

because its weight and worth
are in the reason/fact that I AM THE ONE
who perceived it
so as i perceived it
i know it was TRUE

AS IF I COULD TOUCH IT

usually we touch life with our thoughts
because we filter experiences
with our past thoughts

but here it was like a brand new discovery
in this sense it was PURE and POWERFUL
and TOUCHABLE for me
yes these are the impressions

now
that i wrote down the impression

the content by itself is quite simple
which is why i remember  now
that truth is simple
but it is complicated to go
from our loaded mind to a simple one

in brief
i felt first
that it was saying and showing
and the mind was witnessing it

by feeling it
incredible
how can mind feel it?

yes it means the mind
was no more dead
this is why it could feel it

dead is when it is stuck on image
and alive
is when it can see the movement!
thus the context

see we can manipulate an image
and interpret it
but no more when it is in its context
and the context is a thousands of other images
but ON THE SPOT


the mind was feeling
that the all life around me
was a residual fine rain
and the key word is residual
and that in it
all people were satisfied of it
and were nourishing themselves of it
as if it was the EVERYTHING

like you fight for the 1%
where there is 99% of provision hidden
somewhere else
see?
that kind of feeling

so i KNEW
on the spot how worthless the life was
here

which means not that Life is worthless
it means when you live a narrow minded life
as most do
taking this life they choose not
as Life
then it is worthless
for they are only like hungry people
fighting over a tiny morsel of food to eat

and then
i felt down in me
may be in the belly
at the other end of the mind, Life
which i sensed was REAL
in the sense
that i could with it
use POWER to live the Life
ALWAYS WHILE BEING IN MOTION
AND CREATION

yes like an erupting volcano
and this was showing me
or shedding light in my mind
so that i may witness this fine rain
where i live in

that was the real feeling that i could touch
and its meaning
and there was the real BEING
and Presence of Myself as Life

but upthere
in that fine rain 
it was misery
like a robot world

that's it
i wrote such a long post
to detail what i got
may be
in a 3 second time

have a nice day

ps : i HAVE to say
it was a very TINY part of power i felt
it was soft
nonetheless POWERFUL presence
because i felt as if it was containing itself
so that it adjusts itself to me
if it has been fully powerfully awakened
i think i would have been afraid a lot
to say the least

Godly advice or karma

i learned a very valubale thing today

Godly advice or karma.


i have been trying
to do my best to give advice

and as for me, i advised myself
to give advice in the most clear, sincere and ON THE SPOT
way i can

so that myself i have no regret
of not having adjusted
to the listerners' level of understanding

and not reproach to myself
for not having delivered
in all trust
the piece of advice needed
by the others
so that they may start life on a good basis

so ONCE i have done this
in my belly i feel FILLED UP
which means i did good
really
my best

and then,
i can let go
and i know
if they don't follow the advice
it is about their own mastery

it means
they are choosing
the hard way
the long painful way
to get the learning from life
to grow wisdom for making decisions

the result is same
mastery
they develop either mastery
the soft way

it means
you listen to the advice
and you take it gracefully
and THEN once you see the result
you know you did right decision

this is mastery in the soft way

or
you refuse the advice
you test
life is, i call it, with boomerang effect
you see later
if you have eyes to see
why it failed
of course you learn it the hard way
anyway at least you feel the hard way of life
learning it is another thing
because in the meanwhile you will forget
you have anything to learn lol

it is for those who remember
mastery the hard way

otherwise it is just the hard way fullstop
without any learning.

so once you give advice to them
in the most precise, clear and sincere manner
then, let them choose
if they listen not
then
i learned
it is their karma which is choosing for them.

so when i learned that
i felt no more sorrow for them
because i know
it won't come from my lack of efforts
but it will come from their own freedom
to choose
between godly way or the one of their karma.


and then
oen should leave it to the Silence

Kundalini Mild Arising

meditation result of today

there was a happening with someone
that i was trying to help out
and as most people
this someone was not sincere with herself
so she thought i was doing to herself what she was doing

lol

so silly details are not needed

so on the spot,
i felt really angry and bitter
and sad
for this lack of intelligence
well lets' say it for this stupidity
and lack of trust

for i think the person still gets it not
i JUST wish to help out because she ASKED me for it
and because i care
not because i have any gain from it
i just feel restless when i see people making uninformed  choices
i prefer to tell them
and THEN they can decide
then i don't care for it is THEIR choice
and i have no regrets
for i would have done my job IN ALL TRUST.

but when a person ask me for help
and then change mind in the middle of the path
just because of her own fear
and then ask me not to tell what is true
this i find it aberrant

luckily
i said her what i am writing here
and she got it
no more tension
and the RIGHT information reached the RIGHT person
who WILL BE IN ALL KNOWLEDGE
able to make HIS choice

of course, that is the MAIN goal of mine
to give the people i care
the RIGHT info so that they make INFORMED choices
and yes thereby have the best life opportunity

i feel sorrow otherwise
to see them starting their life on wrong basis
at same time i never impose
because i know decision is theirs
but i want always to make SURE
i explain as clearly as i could
for their own benefit

my weak point for now
is my anger
i am really not diplomatic when angry
hahaha
to say the least

but at least
i see it
and i can correct it:)

and i did !
today,

here is the point of my post

after i felt so much angry ...
i said to myself raising my kundalini and meditating is a MUST

the other times
i KNEW i should do it
and i did not
because i wanted to settle the matter
by my mind
by my emotions
why?
because it felt MORE REAL
i could see the effect of my reaction
on the person or i could anticipate the effect of it on them

while meditating
on the moment gives you NO effect
on the VERY situation past.

but if you meditate
ON the SPOT
it calms you, brings you peace
because it purifies your emotions and mind
thus your both channels and mind too
then as this energy transforms
its effect will be seen LATER
when you will TEST it
when you encounter the very persons

with time
i learned to meditate on the spot
but what i did was meditating 30min at best

but that is not the key
the key is to meditate TILL I calm down
because this means the kundalini would have ABSORBED my tension

second key is to meditate WHILE walking

the walking part has nothing to do with the sitting
it is WAY more powerful in purification

which by the way i never managed to teach it to yogis in paris
i hardly taught the sitting part
that i realised they are so conditioned lol
yea

if you say you teach a new method
they think
oh it is NOT what mataji told us

and if you show them it is IN LINE
with her OWN TALKS
they say
well nothing new

see?
on one hand the conditioning?
on the other hand the uselessness of their perception?
and in the FIRST PLACE
do i ASK you to COMPARE?
i ask you to TEST it for yourself
do you feel cool breeze MORE than usual?
do you FEEL IT DEEPER than usual?

if YES
then,
stop it with your comparison
apply it
and progress you too.
that's all 

if i wanted to explain
which i don't care
because for me a sincere person say it in front of me
to get a clear answer
but when hidden
it means "i don't care"
neither do i lol

so,
point is
till you do not go over your OWN conditioning
you will never integrate bits of yourself into this light
so sahaj yogi are conditioned by their "own" thoughts of what should be or not
as meditation.

for the story
i met a french sahaj yogi in Italy
and there all people in the castle mediated with me
on this method
and were enthused
why?

because they tried it
tested it
noticed it worked
stronger vibes than usual
on the spot effect
for a tcheque girl even had an amazing experience
of feeling a downpour of light on her sahasrara
yes eastern yogi are very much devoted

and the french guy told me
once an indian yogi
had a new method of meditation
he said a bit like yours
he showed it to shri mataji
and she validated him
saying
but do not teach it to all
they won't have the level to understand it

in brief,
you are a true sahaj yogi
you are open to any method of meditation that makes you progress
and you know it is true
for you can test it
and see if you feel stronger vibes
more deeper silence
you see if the person teaching you is progressing

and then you conclude

but concluding before trying
is judgemental
and sheer conditioning

second,
if i may add
once you feel cool breeze
you do not get self realisation FULLY
only 0.00000000000000000000000000001% of it

so while after 10,20,30 years most of sahaj yogi i met are STILL
on that level
having ONLY entered the gate of heaven and this NOT in an ESTABLISHED connection/way either
which means permanent

others i can say are RUNNING into heaven
having passed the door entrance since LONG
and are ascending higher and higher
and of course
their learning will seem different from shri mataji

but in no way the former can benefit from the latter
due to their conditioning
because they are stuck on ABC
and try to judge MNOP by the standards of ABC

had not shri mataji asked them to meditate
in more intensive way
very early
and every day?

YES
so when the base is not there
why do they judge those who are advancing
when themselves they have not established their connection
as others did.

back to my walking meditation
i was doing it
and when i started
of course
my mind was full
attention everywhere except on vibes

so i used intent
i intended to give up on such people
not to care anymore for them if themselves they decide not to care for their own self
i realised that only i can trust what is in the NOW
and that is this cool breeze
so my attention went back to it
and i stayed with it
and i walked so
and suddenly i felt my kundalini arising in my back of the head
it is the back agnya
where the conditioning about society is stored
and

THE KUNDALINI
MILDLY
BUT SURELY
raised my head!

this MEANS
i did NOT
usually when we meditate we straighten our back
spine, head
to HELP KUNDALINI to ARISE

so we USE a self conditionement
to INDICATE to kundalini

we are ready 
by mimicking AHEAD of time
HER work
and tell ok you can pass there lol

and indeed
this time
She arose midly
and i felt my back of head straightening up
as if an exterior hand would do it!

so i was happy
coolness increased
and i went on with my walking meditation


here it is :)
i have found much more about my black out experience in dream
that i wrote in the precedent post
but would write it in another post another time.

yes let's call it so
black out experience
lol is strange the black out happened when i was sleeping hahaha
kiss:x

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015! - Path of Enlightenment

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015

so i woke up at 3am

and could not sleep again

so i lit  candles and intended to start meditation

and of course

i got asleep

deep sleep :)))

in dream

at some point

i was talking to some yogis

to tell them openly in their face

how ridiculous they are 

because the rule was

to say everything right now in their face

and NOT behind their back

after hearing it they do what they want

and me too i can move on

and it turned out to be a "moment of Truth"

so much that so many people gathered around me

so many there were that i had to stand on a chair to be able to talk

and see them or be seen

up there i saw some guy who was on the branch of a tree

and was about to fall

so i kind of quickly calculated how he could be saved

and how people could draw matelas to soften his fall.

instead

oh my gosh

some numbnuts brought a small truck

he fell into its mechanic

and was being worked out into pieces

like charlie Chaplin in his mechanics

if you saw this one

oh i just fell on my bed

and cried my heart out

because i got a nervous break down

how come it worked not out to save him

as i planned

then suddenly

a voice and the presence said

"do you still hang on the form?"

as when the voice said that

it was referring in telepathy to this accident

that i could see it again happening in my mind

so when i heard it

in all honesty,

i gathered all my mental force to say yes

because i could hear in my own mind

all the forms that exists

like bricks of consciousnesses

that one can manipulate

to make life better and save people

words of "economy, politics, religion ..."

and so on

came into my mind

so as they existed in my mind

i use them to think

to THINK of how to MOVE them

for my necessity

to HELP out

and soften the fall of a person

but i realised it was not true
because despite my hard work
he FELL horribly


then i struggled and was about to say yes again that
forms exist
but then, i surrendered and fell crying on the bed
and admited it is Formlessness
which is behind the fall of this young guy from the tree
and letting it goes mashed into the mechanics of this word

because it is not the forms
that can be powerfully present behind to move stuff
to save him
but only formlessness is that powerful living fabric encompassing him
and all that is (even this fall)

ah yes remember, when in a hadith God says even the falling of a leaf is in my awareness?
i guess this is what this very fall of the guy refered to when i finally admitted "only formlessness
is behind this".

but then,

the voice said 

this time was a sort of different voice

like voice of a collective group of people

of a far off place i belonged to

"once upon a time"

(i guess i feel like calling it home)

that you are from that far off place

(i forgot the name ? anyway is a far off place )

and the people on earth are from this far off place named so and so

and they are all now on earth which is the place where people called so and so have been living

and that i should transmit the message

of the formlessness

then

bham!

all my mind

my attention

or my vision

was FILLED of a HUGE GREAT DARK (like in black, not negative connotation)

SILENCE

as if

that silence

was a HUGE LIVING BEING IN ITSELF

AND IT WAS SO HUGE

AND I WAS JUST FILLED IN VISION BY IT

and i saw a fine rain

falling on a white mist

which was filling up this Huge Living Being of Utter Silence/Darkness

which was filling up this HUGE SPACELESS LIMITEDNESS

FORMLESSNESS

i got afraid 

because of how

so powerfully limitlessly and namelessly "Here" it is

so powerfully being ONE it was PRESENT

with nothing else 

(la sharika la = and HE has no associate - this is the meaning of the testimony of Oneness by muslims that they AIM to reach. but comprehend not in reality HOW TO. as they think they are ALREADY there. think if you were already there as in the experience, not as in theory, for in theory you are there. but you can't be there unless you REALISE you are there. lol makes sense?)

and the fear

existed

because i felt inside

i knew it is here (like all do)

but on purpose i was doing all to not remember

because

who wants to remember its origin

which is this HUGE POWER

because i feel

the limited ego/personae (ego here is not negative, it points at the individual effort

to assert himself and exist as individual)

is afraid

to realise, know, remember

that it came from that Overpowering Oneness

and even now
when i try to remember this "Bham Silence One Powerful Being"
i feel it is very living Being
but could not comprehend

and now i do 

it is dark because it's not seen..by itself!

spirit vibrates billion times a second

only in manifesting is it ,,seen,, that's the need of creation

so if it is so fast in sound it is silence to ears

because beyond ear range

and for ears is unheard - hence the silence

 yes..it sounds like silence..yet is the source of everything

and beyond eyesight range

i felt like it was abyssal BEING of Silence

yes this is the right word

with no edge

no limit

thus no form

the sound of silence,, remember the song?..lol

ah! it makes sense now!

i used to wonder why the word "sound" for the silence 

because it is A HIGH RATE OF VIBRATION of SOUND

AND NOT A LACK OF SOUND 

in a way it is a lack of sound in our LOW RANGE of sound 

because ear cannot hear it due to its LIMITLESS

and i got on net you know..Richard Rose had the same experience as mine?

when he got enlightened

he passed out

he saw himself on top of a mountain

and then saw so many people and among them himself!

trying to go up this mountain

so it struck him 

but if this guy over there is me, 

who is the one who is seeing him!

it is his attention who shifted out of his body

so he could see his body and others too

the true self..!

and later he got his enlightenment!

and he got this vision

after he got a trauma

because he found out his girlfriend was a lesbian

got back home

started meditation 

and got this  vision

later enlightenment

so he learned it the hard way

with TRAUMA

this is WHY suffering HAS ITS USE

it FORCES YOU to turn inside and meditate

but if we wait to be OK 

then no BREAK THROUGH of kundalini

what yogi forgets 

play in manifestation

trying to beautify it  by manifesting their spirit of Love

is ONE THING

and is JUST PLAY

an agreeable one but nevertheless PLAY.

of joy of up and down 

of power play

of who is the "precious" group over the less important group

who is the "old" yogi over the "new" yogi

and so on

funny to LIVE as PLAY in MANIFESTATION realm (dunia as we call it)

call it heaven on earth in its best version

but TEMPORARY (hence dunia word)

but the ETERNAL BEINGNESS

is MORE GLORIOUS 

WHEN YOU FIND YOUR TRUE ORIGIN WITHIN

that you are the LIGHT OF GOD WITHIN

so after play

there should be equally if NOT MORE

the serious desire and DRIVE to meditate intensively

alone AND in group

which sorry to say exist not at least in France

second

yogi confuse it(this goal) with the spirit at heart level, 

which manifests ONLY LOVE

it is a lower level

then once the spirit ASCENDS

ABOVE heart

ABOVE mind

and is at the SAHASRARA level

THERE

the spirit is THE TRUE SILENCE

PEACE AND ALL

is THIS THAT A TRUE YOGI SHOULD AIM AT

it is MORE THAN THE PLAY  

AND 

wait

when i woke up 

i was in that total silence

like in meditation

incredible impression of that power in which i was/am

and then

i remembered 

when i used to be a student

once i dreamt 

a gift box was laying down for me

inside i saw a dark space 

when i put my hand to grab it 

it was like a dark void

i could not touch it 

it was just like space

and around it was a wrapper

with all the beautiful names of God on it

and a wind came and took that wrapper off away

and i started to run behind to fetch it back

then later on

i realised

as imam ali said in his Book of Eloquence

do not confound God/Allah/He who is

with His Attributes/beautiful name

for his Essence is Formlessness

(roughly it is how he said it)

yes very true

i was by then, 

being shown in the gift box

this TRUE ESSENCE OF GOD

OF THE SPIRIT

which is dark because It cannot see Itself

and eyes cannot see due to Its high rate of vibrations

and this formlessness is the gift promised to me:)

and by then, i was running after the beautiful qualities of the spirit

manifesting the beautiful Names of God/Allah

another vision i remember
once during that same period of time
i was praying (doing the salah)
and reading the verse of Sincerity (surah Ikhlas)
it is called the chapter of Sincerity
and it speaks of He WHO IS
THE ETERNAL ONE

and again
i got the vision
that i was being in the presence
of a Living Breathing
Dark Wall

imagine
by then i knew not
but now,
all fall together
and it makes sense

finally.

so yes :) i am happy

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015 

I AM ON MY WAY TO ENLIGHTENMENT 

:))) 

 

ah! incredible
look at the first words
SONG sound of silence
featured on the album "wednesday 3am"!

ah! can we make it more coincidential than that!
in the night of wednesday to thrursday at 3am too! i got my Sound of Silence Vision


hehehehe
tooo cool!
kiss:x;)