Thursday 17 November 2016

Celebrating the 30 000th Blog Viewing


30 000th pageview was today!
Round figure ! ;) Caught my eyes :)





Today i came to a very profound self realisation

Is  not a thought, nor an opinion, nor a theory
is something i learned and i can count it as a means which has changed my vision of life

Since long
i had the impression
to be holding myself back

waiting for the ideal moment
waiting to improve and be even more perfect
so that i may be -finally- understood by some people

is like i took on me the burden
to be up to their image they wanted me to be
in a word trying to please them

but that was like always holding back my breath

today
after discussing a dream i had with a friend
i realised
there are some people we cannot save

at some point
i had started to please them
so i put on a burden which was not mine
this burden made me harder

exemple
is like when you have a rock on your back
and you are ascending a mountain
so even if the person next to you wants to chat with you
you will snap at him
as you are so much burdened already

so no time for such small talk
nor lightness

one day i heard
that enlightenemnt fruit
is also to realise
that actually
whatever happened in your life
was ok
things are just as they are

and they are good like that

trying and hoping hard to change people
are to bend ourselves to their cherished image they have projected on you
and what they want you to be

is something which is the real burden

if you let go of it
in a way
if you let go of trying to save them
or change them for their own good

then
you are happier
and you can chit chat with them
and just do the small talk they want
on a day to day basis

in a way
you surrender to the idea
that you can't do anything for them
you stop battling for this

because at some point
when i think about the fact
that we all die
what remains at this very time?
at your death bed?

is regrets
ah i should have been more loving
i should have been more kind
i should have been more lenient
and i should have let them be ignorant kids
at least i would have not wasted time from lack of human warmth
from lack of familial warmth
from lack of friendship warmth

cause in reality
a world is made of so many different people
if you try to be so picky
or if you try to shape them in your image
or if you let yourself being shaped into theirs

either you end up with a sour face
and a hardened heart

or

you become stupid ape
mimickeing all they want you to be

to be able to find the middle way
is to live among them
without being part of them

just to be able to Feel Life Warmth itself..

and of course the love we have for them
resurfaces
after we put it on hold..till we became better

so is best to forgive
and send them love

as i feel so much pity for them being ignorant
yet i know is like speaking to walls
they are -in a loving and non judgemental way- ignorant
impatient, and very much weak in truth

so the best thing you can do for a weed
is to give it love