The Feeling of True Humanity

:)

i had a very meaningful dream
i had been told once
that part of dreams we have are like our past lives coming at the surface
and we only have to let go

very easy cleaning :)

but true, at times if you have nightmare
it won't be that easy
i can guess

anyway
in my today's dream
it was about some life of mine in middle age
of which i saw détails
precise détails that were blocking me
and instilling fears
in this very life

hm can't really go in détails now
as myself i have to work this out

but main point is
there was the Healing!

which took place in the dream
and that i felt in real
while i was sleeping

i saw a woman and she was from her forehead
emitting a ray
and this ray was showing this past life trauma
to a guy
from forehead to forehead
i must say very precise and fast way to transmit info!
and is true
it exists!

anyway, this very guy who was my good helping friend
saw the issue i got in the past
and somehow in the dream i was this middle age lady seeing
this current scene too

so odd now i write it
it is like the past was witnessing a present
the past : the middle age lady with her in the "now" trauma

and the present : the guy and the lady with the current knowledge and Healing
at hand

you see the past middle age lady
she was actually just in the "now with her past"
because she was reliving , i feel, constantly this very trauma again and again
like a tape

and me the true actual person in this very life
was not knowing this
and was thus with a background noise
which was this past tape
just living it again and again too
BUT without knowing it
and without knowing the solution, the Healing
and thus being tied up to it
and not being free of following my own flow

my feeling is this lady transmitting from her forehead
was my Higher Self

for i already got this experience
far before my self realisation
and i know how true it is
this forehead to forehead info
and i had been told already
that this very lady was me

and somehow there was happiness in the air
but as by then i had no clue
of vocabulary such as Higher Self
i guess it would have had been of no help to me
to know that

anyway
back to this very dream

how the Healing took place

so in the dream
my old self
was crying out
how she could NOT be free of a certain trauma
that it was impossible for her
for she was tied by this certain person impact
and could not get rid of this hurt
let's call it so

and in the second scene
my Higher self was transmitting
this very past self scene to a guy
lol let's call it my knight lol
for it was his role
to help me be free

and there was the actual me
the one sleeping dreaming
and witnessing all this
and now writing it

beautiful play
when one think of it
very astute
Life is a real mysterious engineer
i tell you now lol

now the beautiful thing happened!
the Healing

the guy who was witnessing the very info
by the mental transmission
was also reliving my life context
in which this hurt happened

so he knew truth
truth here
was to know the hurt in its context
that is life

and while he was witnessing it
he was also KNOWING the feelings
that i was feeling

therefore
he developped "empathy"
and all the way he was holding my hand
during this past life transmission
and in my very own heart
i was feeling that this very empathy
was Healing me
because there was no interruption
by some judgement, question, laughs
and so on
as people do in this very life

it was plain EMPATHY

ah !
even writing it
i feel so good and happy

and in the very dream
when i realised that empathy feeling
i realised that it is the key to Healing

that the human touch
the skin to skin contact
with real empathy

is a Healer in itself

you know why?
because it is REAL
the skin to skin contact
even by holding hand
is an act of PRESENCE

the present BELONGS to you
and in it
you are thanks to the correct, SINCERE, attitude
of EMPATHY

just making space for the other
which is in hurt
to let her know that you know
and that you are there
and so she can too let it go

of course she can let it go
why?
because you being there
= you as LIFE you prove you are there
and you have to do nothing
the error is to be in the judgement
the judgement kill all of our dreams
and add load to the past hurt/karma

one just need to be there
for the other
to feel our presence
(for she had forgotten the present as she was only reliving the past
so she only needed room to be made for her to have the opportunity
through the empathic silence = which is a bridge
from past (thanks to the role of the feeling) to the present (hence the ABSOLUTE
need of SILENCE, SO THAT this transition HAPPENS for her to come back from her
coma to the present!)

and i mean it
our pure presence
will provide this SPACE, ROOM

to enable her to FEEL the PRESENT , the NOW
for the person was STUCK in some PAST without knowing it

so you JUST need to be PRESENT YOURSELF
so that she too MAY BE PRESENT
like waking up from a coma

there is no other solution
than

THE KNOWLEDGE OF THE HURT
+
THE EMPATHY ONLY (no judgement for ROOM is needed for the person asleep to transfer herself from past to present this lost part of her soul.***)
+
and the most essential one for the transmission of this Healing
THIS HUMAN SKIN TO SKIN TOUCH

i guess i just learned
what is TRUE HUMANITY

ah bring me tears in my eyes
so beautiful it is


***a soul is lost
because it is not in the light
and is like a soul has different parts/lifes it had in the past
and one by one
you have to integrate them to the light of the spirit
this is HOW soul remembers that it is only the Light

and indeed
in the end of the dream
i saw how slowing
the bits of my heart who were black
i.e. in darkness
i.e. in ignorance of its present light

were shining

and that is
when awakening takes place
bits by bits


pps :
this is WHY when people JUDGES the others
now it makes me laugh
for NOW i KNOW
they are FAKE

why?
because they are ONLY projecting
their OWN inner limitation, hate and frustration to the other
"Under pretext" of wishing the other an improvement that he or she is not doing

Life works NOT like that

jugement is the PROOF
of your OWN VERY OWN UNRESOLVED INNER ISSUES
and you use the pretext of SERMONING the other
to CONTROL him
INSTEAD of settling your OWN issue

as for me
i learned a few days ago
how some people had
let's say it plainly sex out of marriage

i give this very example to be concrete and plain

on the spot
i judge it
for i am human
and i said is very wrong
for it is NOT my standards

BUT
after i stopped judging
and let it go

the reason?

because it is NOT my affair
if i had gone further
it would have meant
my initial judgement which was human
(because i was merely applying my own life standard to see the other's life
through the lense of mine)

would have been transformed into a dictatorship over the other
by keep judging him by my standards

here the key word is KEEP judging

where is the let go?

the KEEP judging
transform a natural human judgement into a dictatorship
a controlling attitude over the other
for some inner personal gain that one harbor in a hidden way
that one admit it or NOT
is ALWAYS this.

so up to you
to let go
if you want Healing in yourself to take place :x

have a nice day!

ppps

and if you really wants to help to improve
the state of someone that you deem is lacking a quality
is not by judging
or sermoning in a dictatorial way

for that is FAKE
not for the other
but you are doing it for yourself
even if you are not aware of it

but true help
is through empathy
and you can do this
only
if yourself you have the correct and sincere attitude
with yourself
than
you just KNOW how to apply it to the others too

My Beloved cousin

I have some very funny encounter


I was going out to cinema with a long no see cousin
he came from abroad
like a sun arising

lol as mom said

anyway,
the very night
i received a phone call
of a very curious couple
who asked me what 's up

and as i am quite a sincere person
i told the surprising encounter i had today

but you see
the lady was NOT expecting me
to speak of it
for

she and her friend
expected otherwise

especially because
they happend to see me at the cinema
with that guy

lol
that they were
trying to categorise

why?
why is it so important to categorise a he?

what the challenge is here at stake for them?

when i see one of them
with some other guy or girl
do i categorise their 'partner'

so they calculation went
as such
a brother?
no way too old
a father?
let's see no, not old enough

a secret lover?
you mean another one than her fiancé?!


bingo!
this is how human mind works
PROJECTION

we project on others
OF WHAT WE ARE

if our mind is unclean
due to our OWN weirdo
experience of crossing limits of morality
then we are SUSPICIOUS of the other

indeed
for we suspect from the other
the worse
especially if we don't EXPECT
the other in a new situation 

why?
because it reassures their inner guilt :
oh yea!
then i am not the only one
to have a "romantic affair" after cinema

hahaha

so that is what they were thinking

ONE ALWAYS PROJECT ON THE OTHER
ACCORDING TO ONE'S OWN LIFE HYGIENE
MORALITY
AND ETHICS
SPIRITUALITY IN ACTION

and so on

remember the story of the saint and of the sinner?

two guys at night time met
one was a sinner going to night club to have some "romantic affair" after lol
and the other a saint going to some prayer retreat

the latter seeing the other
thought
"what a good guy,
look at night time going to pray to God"

and the sinner
look at the other
said
"lol, look at him
playing the saint,
i caught you
are you are no more worthy than me
you are planning to chase women
in a hidden way
under your priest garb"

see?

same here
world is a mess
because of the JUDGEMENT of people
which most of the time is ERRONEOUS
and ONLY a projection of their OWN

life ethics, hygiene, moral and low level of spirituality

on the spot
i laughed
after i was seriously angry at such a behavior
but after i remembered
me too i would be judging if i linger on that feeling

therefore i chose to laugh them and let go

so what count for me
is that i had a fun time with my sun
my dear beloved cousin
not seen since so long

he was so happy from me and my family warm welcome
that he invited me to join him
whenever i plan to

you bet my dear cousin
you touched my heart with your heatfelt thanks email
for you are one of the rarest person
whose heart is touched by feeling of appreciation

for very few people
have the ability to receive that which is below the surface/the material
that which is deeper
and that is called a loving feeling of the heart

just to be able to FEEL
this warmth from the other
this ability
to catch the feeling and care

secondly, to admit being touched by it 
and to appreciate it
and merely thank the person

is one of the most beautiful gift of sincerity i have ever received lately

because THAT IS AN AUTHENTIC RELATIONSHIP

such people
when they will get their self realisation
will be WAY further than those who have it lately
why?

because they cultivated below the surface
by using heart for authenticity
than for just being material
under PRETEXT of imposing high standards to others
while themselves being low in spirituality
and even fearing its deepness
due to their western conditioning

the LAST will be the FIRST :x

The Giver

THE GIVER

Wonderful movie!

here for the synopsis : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Giver_%28film%29

Plot :
In the year 2048, after a war, the community has decided to get rid of different races and feelings. All the citizens have had their memories erased; except for the Receiver of Memory. Since the Receiver of Memory is the only individual in the community who has the memories from before, he must advise the Chief Elder, and the other Elders, on the decisions for the community.
Jonas is a 16 year old teenager who is anxious about the career he will be assigned (along with everyone else). He has two best friends: Asher and Fiona.
On the day of graduation, everyone is assigned a career. Jonas is briefly skipped, as he has not been assigned a career. Instead, Jonas is to become the next Receiver of Memory, and progressively receive memories from the past receiver, The Giver. Upon assuming his role as The Receiver, Jonas learns of the Giver's past and of his child, Rosemary. She preceded Jonas as Receiver of Memory, and was so distraught from the memories that she committed suicide, by what the Community calls releasing. They regard its nature as mysterious; the audience learns that it is death by lethal injection. Jonas begins to teach his findings to his friend Fiona, with whom he decides to share the idea of emotions. Fiona, who is unable to fully comprehend the idea of emotion, is unsure how she feels. Jonas then kisses Fiona, an action which is antiquated and unknown to the community, which Jonas gained through memory.
Jonas also shares his memories with the baby his father brought home to their house, Gabe, and develops a close relationship with him after discovering he shares the same mark on his wrist Jonas does, the mark of a potential Receiver of Memory. Jonas decides that everyone should have the memories of the past and eventually, the Giver and Jonas decide that the only way they can help the community is to go past the border of what they call Elsewhere, beyond the community, therefore releasing the memories back into the community. Jonas sneaks out at curfew, and decides to get Gabe at the Nurturing Center, who is to be released due to his general weakness. Asher, his other longtime friend besides Fiona, tries to stop him before he leaves the neighborhood, but Jonas quickly punches him. Asher lies on the ground, stunned, and Jonas rides his bike to the Nurturing Center. He tells Fiona his plan and wants to take her with him, but she refuses and instead helps him retrieve Gabe. Before he leaves, she kisses him and helps him escape.
Meanwhile Jonas's mother and Asher, go to the Chief Elder to tell them Jonas is missing. Guards are sent to contain Jonas, who they say has become "dangerous", but Jonas gets one of their motorcycles and drives off the cliff near the Giver's dwelling into "The Elsewhere". Asher is assigned, by the Chief Elder, to use a drone to find Jonas and "lose" him but when Asher finds Jonas stumbling through the woods, he captures him with the drone. After Jonas implores Asher to think that if he ever cared for Jonas to let him go, Asher drops him into a river, setting him free. Jonas stumbles through the land of Elsewhere, while Fiona has been condemned to be "released" for helping him. Just as she is about to be released by Jonas's father, the Giver steps in and stalls the Chief Elder with memories of his daughter, Rosemary, trying to call out the Chief Elder, in which she succeeded. Jonas's mother begins to cry starting to understand the feeling of love. Eventually, Jonas finds a sled like one he rode in a memory from the Giver and makes his way beyond the border of Elsewhere, releasing memories and color back into the community and saving Fiona because Jonas's father realizes what he was really doing. Jonas and Gabe return to the house of his memories, where people are singing Christmas carols, and his voiceover says that back in the community, he swears he hears music too, or possibly just an echo.

End of wiki quote.



i am in LOVE with maker of such movies
FIRST time in my life that i have so much wondered about the movie maker
DURING the movie

beautiful people who had this soul passion
of sharing their TRUE love for humanity
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Giver_%28film%29
very symbolic
the guy had to reach the far off limit of "human memory"
so that the "awakening" of the humanity happens

of course is very "terrestrial" of reaching a border

but the symbolism is there!

means WHEN you as an individual CONSCIOUSNESS reaches the limit of the mass consciousness
of where you live
then automatically like the monkey group stories
everyone else get easily this awakening each according to his limits

and in the movie
the "wannabe sages" lol it reminds me some "wannabe saints"
think to know truth
but instead of like in the old times using murder and killing
now they use the word of "someone is lost"
meaning they killed someone

so manners, methods changed
but the VERY ACT of EVIL
which is to take someone's life remained

and the hero
like other people, each morning had to get his "injection"
which was to make people forget their emotions
and be only mental people

see this movie showed
that ignorant masses when they behave in an evil way
are forgiven in the hero consciousness for they are being evil (killing people) without knowing it is a killing

you know as the saying goes
God forgive them for they know not

they only know it is the "élargissemnet/widening"
you see calling a murder with another word
just to remove the negative image of the word murder
makes not a murder less evil
but the doers in the movie knew not that it is "evil"
just because they are brainwashed with this other name.

and so it is all ok in the consciousness of the doer

but the one who awakened to his past memories
of who he is
KNOWS that it is AGAINST life and thus evil.

that is TRUE caring for someone's evolution
it is not JUDGING
it is ONESELF evolving
so that one subtle level the other may evolve too

but poor people in spirituality
are like jésus said

you see the straw in the others' eye and not the pillar in yours

very true
most people knows not that when they judge another person
they are actually of no use to humanity
and this is why you see their life is just STUCK
and they turn in cycles months after months
doing the same repetitive things
and Inside having a deep sadness and thirst of a desire for something
they will NEVER get

how sad for them

but true seeker of truth
knows how to LET GO
because they are the ONES who are the evolvers
and by their own evolution
on a subtle levels they give to others
the possibility of having the same FREEDOM and SPACE to evolve TOO

here the hero Jonas
learned
and i had tears in my eyes at the end of the movie
HOW PERSONAL experience
is LIFE

and the movie makers are so wonderful people
imagine
you can make such a movie
only if you have something to pour into it as a message!

nowadays people
do stuff
work,
events

but once is over
what is the gain?
SAME cycle over and over again

because they have NO personal heartFELT message to pour in

they have LOST their OWN identity
while running after the self made illusion.

in this movie
the teacher of jonas
teaches him
HOW TO FEEL
HOW TO ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS OF LIFE
such as colors, music, touching, smell and all

teaches him what strength is?
no theory
hand in mud, it was illustrated by some sky diving
or a guy standing in front of a char

see?
there is this feeling of TRUE LIVED life
is ALL IN ALL in YOUR OWN experience

and whatever people say
for they are BOUND to be narrow minded
except very few
you are in truth
if you are REAL

ENJOYING your life
and having fun

this is HOW humanity is selected by God
it is by the choices people do for themselves
when they EXPERIENCE life FOR itself
then they FEEL ALIVE

but when they do what they are conditioned to do
they just have sour face lol

Cool shining sun rays

wow Kazakhstan!

i felt like writing a bravo to the kazakhstani readers of this blog!
so far reaching thanks to a blog nowadays


i love new countries!


back to essential

i was browsing through web
and again 'by chance' i ended up on a webpage
which was speaking of self mastery
of how to find your soul passion

and follow the guidance of your inner being
for one is helped by other beings of light
which are all around us
and these are here to help you return to your true self
for that your soul MUST find his goal and passion
so that you build up experience

and on the spot
i tried
from heart i believed and prayed to know if is true
can one have such beings of light like NOW all around?

guess what!

Glory of glories!
i saw sun rays coming ouf of the left handside screen of my laptop

you see on the spot it was not as exciting as i am NOW writing it
for on the spot
i felt this light very eery
very light
and yes like a living sun rays
shining sun rays

ah ! **sigh of restfulness**
that is SOOOO pleasing

i tried to touch it
or cup hands to receive it
so cool a light in its glory it was

ah is so eeric

am so happy

imagine
if that is only a spot like moment like this
what could be on a huger scale or on longer time ?

lol was like in cartoon
light shining out of some object

guys i tell you!
LIFE IS FUN !

there is much more beauty than eyes can behold
for sure
in times like this i thank my luck
otherwise if one had to rely on "humanity" lol
one would go to a depression center

hahaha

this is in moments like these
that i can see when i meet people
their real intent

i have realised how i changed
now, i can very quickly read a person interior

and that is way too fun
because the person knows NOT that i KNOW
and they appears so ridiculous

mwhahahahaha


there are other people
that are soooo wonderfully innocent in their search of truth
that they are just lovely without them realising that i found them lovely

indeed pretenders and authentic people
are NOT alike

today i thank the spirit light
for being with me
for without it
i would have since long depressed
at the wannabe saints!

;)

White Tara the Milky beauty

woa
yesterday i did some recording

woa incredible
how one can discover stuff about our own self
as BRAND NEW
while it was all there all the time

i did not recognised my voice!
lol i kind of fell in love with my voice
it was the voice of a child

anyway
do i really sound like a kid when i talk?
unless it be the recording
but it hit hard as if it was a new aspect of mine i had not known

anyway it put me in tender mood about myself
hahhaha


but then it is may be linked
for that night as i was going to sleep
in a vision

i saw such a beauuuuuuuuuuuuutiful lady
i call it an eeric lady
she was all white like milk

her face was bright shining white
her clothes too
her face too
her hair too

all like bright shining milk

she was so awesomely beautiful
when she turned her face to me
just for a few seconds

actually she was standing in a cave
her face turned towards the front

when she turned back
i was stunned by her beauty
and we hugged

she has an ingrained peace in her
a well grounded and solid peace

this reminded me of this quote :

Beauty is truth's smile when she beholds her own face in a perfect mirror.

Rabindranath Tagore

she was perfect beauty indeed

ah there is more to it

but i don't know 

i love her

anyway

i learned she is called "white tara" 

and i read this part : 

Myth of the 1000 White Taras
When the 1000 White Taras are named the tone of the planet will shift from one of fear to one of compassion, of love. It is something like the Durga myth. When the world was on the brink and the Gods threw their hands up in surrender and called on Durga to save this world, Durga came. She cut away greed and avarice and restored harmony. The Gods asked her to stay and be our goddess but she said , "No, that wasn't the deal I signed onto, but if you need me again you can call on me". And so we are. We are calling her to cut away avarice and we are calling on White Tara to remove the fear, thus allowing this to happen, through compassion... through love.

The myth of the White Tara began when she showed up as the tear of Avalokiteshvara, also known as Chenzering, who the Dali Lama is a reincarnation of. She appeared when Avalokiteshvara, the Buddha of all Buddhas, moved into a state of compassion... when his mind and his heart met in wisdom... and the suffering he saw because the the lack of this balance, made him cry. Then he could see Her... or it is said she appeared. For that is who she is, the compassion expressed in that tear. It could be said the tear cleared the eye to see her. She is the expression of compassion. It is time to let the waters flow... let our tears cleanse and nourish... let it dissove fear in all its manifestations especially hatred. Like the water thrown on the Wicked Witch of the west... melting, melting... let the fear melt as we see we are one with all.

When the 1000 White Taras are named, acknowleged and joined... the force will be so great it will spread quickly. Like the 100th monkey theory, when a critical mass changes, the whole will change. The naming has begun...

 

source: http://whitetara.com/myth.html 



Very true
you know i met a friend who taught me yoga posture
incredible
one is called the prayer of the sun
it is nearly same as the muslim prayer
such a fine teaching

indeed all postures and rites
are about balancing your body
and then your subtle body
to get this yoga UNION

and guess what
she warned us
saying
this posture will bring up tears
and you won't know why

to be honest
i did not believe her
i said to myself why i would have tears
especially one always have a reason to cry

well that very night
and for no reason
and the day too
tears where indeed falling from my eyes

and now BY CHANCE i read about these tears in this article about
the white Tara
it is no randomness
but yet is very timely

and about tears and compassion
i end up on this quote which came to my mind :

"We entered the house of Abu Saif - the blacksmith - with the Prophet (pbuh). Abu Saif’s wife was the wetnurse of his son, Ibraheem. The Messenger of God (pbuh) lifted his son Ibraheem, and smelled and kissed him. After a while he went and saw his son again - he was dying. The Prophet (pbuh) started to cry. Abdurrahmaan b. Auf said: ‘O Prophet of God, you too cry!’ The Messenger (pbuh) said: ‘O Ibn Auf, this is a mercy’ - the Prophet (pbuh) shed more tears and said: ‘The eyes shed tears, the heart is saddened, and we only say what pleases our Lord, and we are saddened by your death, O Ibraheem!" (Bukhari #1241)


indeed 
i feel 
the tears clean the agnya 
and hence is the mark of compassion 
of God to you
and of you for your self. 

Glorious universe

:)
i had a very strong dream-vision,
i always call vision
when i know i am more near to awareness
than glued into the dream passively

in vision, is like alive state
you are either the witness or in control.

here this morning,
right before my meditation time

i saw a man who was from some order
that is not importan to mention here

and was showing me the plan of a roman house
the domus
and showed me how the central part of house
the vestibule was representing the most important part
of our own body the womb
and he spoke of some latin words in the roman house
which were refering to the body
like the perineum

lol i had to watch on net what this word means

and he asked me to search and learn 
a bit on the roman traditional homes.

and how people of his order
speak in words which may seem casual to people
like about the roman architecture
but are in truth deep secrets
not for nosy people

then,
while he was refering to the past story of the universe
the scene changed
and it is where i saw part of the universe
yes was wide
he referred to two planets
the first one i forgot which one
but the second one was Venus

and he said these two

ok i stopped to meditate for a few minutes
so cool it felt in the head
it was like the head was cut in two horizontally
and the below part of it was cool air/water
more air ok
let's not say water in case it be false lol

so he was saying that these two planets got destroyed
by darkness
this is why they are as they are now

then,
i saw / he showed me the earth
and the earth was
now all covered by a thin,
but very uniform layer of darkness
all around it
and i could only see a few spot of lights
here and there
less than 10 surely

but he said
it is still thin
so understand that not yet thick
to the point of total unreturning point

then,
the voice of the spirit said to me
"are you deserting meditation?"

believe me
when i heard it
i woke up and went straightly meditate

because i had not heard my alarm
and you know yesterday
before sleeping i talked with my spirit
to show me what i should know about myself

now with some distance
i remember it
and it is his answer

i was slacking in my morning meditation
to be honest, it is so cold
that in winter i like not to feel even colder with the cool vibes

and also after meditation
i feel so empty
that i forget to desire stuff
so that even if i have important stuff to work for
vital and joyous stuff
i get so empty? or forgetful rather
that i just forget to do them
and i edge boredom

so this time
after meditation
i remembered to pray
to the spirit
and ask what i desire
and yes :) i felt happier and filled with my daily schedule
and more enthusiastic

it is with some delay
that i understood the dream

that the earth
is also being covered by darkness
due to this nuclear treat
and past planets have been destroyed
because LOVE were no more

writing it feel sad in my heart
but then,
i remembered that this outer universe
is my own inner universe

that i have been created for it
for this very power is in me as is in you
and in all of us
and if we remember to purify our selves
then we purify our inner universe
and this will in turn EFFECT the outer universe
by way of resonance

when i realised that
i felt indeed
that

i have a glorious power within
and so much worthy is this life within

for it beautify and purify the outside surrounding too.

GLORIOUS

that is the word i learned its real meaning today
and felt it too

so it gave me back my smile
after i started to feel sad about the earth

it just suffice to know
that within is our microcosm
which when purified
effect and manifest itself in the macrocosm

this FABULOUS universe so great it is!
and incredibilty awesome it is that it starts within me :)

now that i see such a beautiful sun shining through my window
i wish you a shiny, cute and comfy coming week end!

kiss:x

ps : some reminder to myself :

we meditate to become the watcher or the spirit and the cool breeze is the holy spirit power
since meditation is actually witnessing the witness
we just do it,and let the shakti get us there(like a boat)
imagine your attention/chit rides some horse..that horse is energy.

since I AM as a microuniverse..the projection of the BIG universe 
as i get more love/power..i can irradiate it to the BIG universe! 
so this is a great power
the GLORIOUS power
and i am the microcosmos of IT!  

imagine that!..the glory of glories!
and IS all in my body/chakras
this is why i felt this morning it was glorious:)

so my  vibes WILL go up and down..but the witness never will
and my job is to STAY with those sensations and be that witness


to echo the glory of glories...
imagine, 

by purifying the vibes (using cycles..then resuming silent meditation)..i PURIFY the whole world!
so GLORIOUS it is !

 
 is a BIG responsability!
 and all i need is to fix it in myself :)

is always about ME ..as spirit.. 
same for YOU!


  
  

The one i was waiting for...

   i just got a dream 2:30 am :) 

   i woke up so i write it here

   so special it is

   i had a number of packets on my hands like horizontally disposed

   and i put them on a table when i arrived

   they were all mutlicolored

   and is like i knew all of them were gifts packets

   and there was this same voice of a woman

   the same i had in vision yesterday who was showing me some future stuff

  

   and now it is like she was answering a question of my dream

   about myself

   like an unspoken question

   like i was seeking an answer

   and she said

   "it is you, you, YOU, the person you are waiting for"

    

   and each time she said you

   i felt it being hammered on my heart

   and i believed it on the spot at the third time she said you

   and i felt my heart warm and opened with love

   warm love

   and at the third time there was one packet who was like unknown to me and became known

   it was special dream and vision

   becausei felt it in real on my heart 

    this is why i am up now writing it

   also in dream i felt warm opening of my heart

   with love

   like i remembered

   and i accepted gracefully it is ME

   yes i felt a spoof of warm love at the heart

   and i welcomed the me

   it is like i remembered the question and got the answer

   both at same time i was aware of both

   but now that i am writing it i only remember the effect of the answer

   i forgot the real question behind

   and will forget once i wake up

   dream started with unspoken but convened question

   but i knew not

   the answer

   then i got the answer

   and i knew the unspoken question

   as if i was waiting for someone

   adn that very special person awaited was me

   and then now, is like the question is fading away

   but i know the answer

   at the third you

   i felt like i opened my heart to it

   and i accepted it warmly

   and i felt this warmth in my heart

   and joy in the belly at same time

   i just know right now

   that i am happy that it is me

   though i now forget who i was seeking for

   or waiting for more exactly

   it is so strange...

   right now, i know, i was seeking for someone, but i forgot who; but i know now, that it is me

   i forgot who = like the role of this who

   i can't word it

   it is like someone who should arrive

          but i know it is me, like the me for which my heart felt warm love and joy

end of impression on dream,

          this is what is called  pinnacle of wisdom
          to know that The One one was waiting for is me
          

good timing to copy paste this here :

to say that one is spirit and joy
is not true
till one does not experience it 
like in this real dream and happening

because by then, i really felt entirely i am the one
and was just -wholly- happy

and doubt, now i know, 
is when you know not -wholly- that you are the one
and to know it is to feel it entirely
and to BE it 

it is not a mimecking of what one knows what love is
or what a loving action is
but is the I

right now, i know, i was seeking for someone, but i forgot who; but i know now, that it is me

and i learned, that 

At this very moment, one can see through the one who sees through..

 yes, it is true, 
 i, the answer, could see through the other i, the question, 
 that it was me all the way
 the question and the answer 

 were one 
 and could see each other
 and that is full and complete belief 

 it is like in the book i read, 
 i need to write the proper reference 
 from Alain Danielou

 who said, 
 that most people knows not
 that Mind Bliss is when the passion of the Heart is removed, 
 so that you can see your own soul felicity 

 this is why he said people 
 think the other is his or her love
 for they see their soul light
 and are in love with his soul light

 like in the story of yousuf 
 when all the ladies are literally ready to rape the young youssef 
 who is not yet a prophet

 same there
 if you see the other soul light
 you are in love with it 
 and naturally you wish to enjoy it in 3D
 this is stuff is ALL OK 
 PROVIDED you KNOW 
 that what you are in love with is not the other
 but you
 as spirit

 that is the true love
 where indeed
 as sufi says 

 the love and the beloved are one

 may be more could written by me right now on it
 but so far so good
 as it is intuition based
 and not mind 

 as soon as effort is there to recall
 even if words seem true
 it is no more true to me


 kiss:x 


 ps : 

oh..holy of hollies..I have searched for your god's name everywhere..and now I know your name..It is Homer Simpson...and it always was...(from Homer Simpson cartoons)

or..I have searched for God everywhere.,..and now that i found it..I realized that was me all the time..Homer Simpson? 

This cartoon is great

truth given right in the middle of the mud :)) 

aren't lotus from mud?

thanks to this real vision, i got it, i was seeing myself (the i as question that i forgot) through myself the i as answer that i realised.

to SELF REALISED 
is that !
is to see different SCATTERED and DIVIDED part of your soul
as  INTEGRATED AS ONE in the spirit 

well i guess :)