Sunday 30 December 2012

When you are faced with trouble

When you are faced with trouble
Where can you possibly turn?

it is said act but do not re-act.

we come with expectations
as to how a situation should turn
and how people will be attuned to our words and feelings
because wishing for the best for them
we think they are in our mind
and happy to follow the way we traced into our mind

BUT it is not so
they come with their own mind and mood
and are not cognisant of your intend

they have free will
and you have yours

if their will happens not to match ours
then, on the spot we feel a sort of hit
be it a surprise or a deeper astonishment
and you feel that your belly has stopped to breathe

and then, in the second following it,
how do you re-act?
actually you are in a state of amnesia
as you always are
you are on the spot as if you had never been taught anything
nor had ever encountered conflictual situation
and have gathered no wisdom whatsoever

and what do you do?
you re-act.

but here,
we have the time and the space,
the Grace to remember
that the only solution
is the one of the state of meditation

WATCH the scene
breathe
re-center, re-align yourself
by putting attention on top of head
and
LET
for God sake,
LET the Divine Energie guides you to new ways
to be experienced

why do you absolutely need
to think over and over again
about what happened?

Remember?
Where attention goes, there goes the Energy...

so unless you wish the Divine Energy to feed your trauma
again and again
that is really a sadistic approach : )
and is rather for those who do not believe in another way than of the suffering
hey that is also a choice,
but NOT mine

so,
you better watch the energy which is your personal helper and compagnon

and at some point,
you will spontaneously know what to do next.

so, summing up:
WATCH
LET GO
ATTENTION on top of head/on the Divine Energy.

Let the waves (situations) rise and fall.



Do not fight it
Do not shove it unto the carpet
Do not react to it

JUST watch it rising and falling.
then you will not feed it
while you keep feeling the energy
with your attention on top of head.


Because what you see is your own mind in action :


Once Buddha was walking from one town to another town with a few of his followers. This was in the initial days. While they were traveling, they happened to pass a lake. They stopped there and Buddha told one of his disciples, “I am thirsty. Do get me some water from that lake there.”

The disciple walked up to the lake. When he reached it, he noticed that right at that moment, a bullock cart started crossing through the lake. As a result, the water became very muddy, very turbid. The disciple thought, “How can I give this muddy water to Buddha to drink!”
So he came back and told Buddha, “The water in there is very muddy. I don’t think it is fit to drink.”

After about half an hour, again Buddha asked the same disciple to go back to the lake and get him some water to drink. The disciple obediently went back to the lake.
This time too he found that the lake was muddy. He returned and informed Buddha about the same.

After sometime, again Buddha asked the same disciple to go back. The disciple reached the lake to find the lake absolutely clean and clear with pure water in it. The mud had settled down and the water above it looked fit to be had. So he collected some water in a pot and brought it to Buddha.

Buddha looked at the water, and then he looked up at the disciple and said,

See what you did to make the water clean. You let it be…. and the mud settled down on its own – and you got clear water. Your mind is also like that! When it is disturbed, just let it be. Give it a little time. It will settle down on its own. You don’t have to put in any effort to calm it down. It will happen. It is effortless.”

Source: http://www.spiritual-short-stories.com/spiritual-short-story-746-Buddha%E2%80%99s+Advice+to+Calm+a+Disturbed+Mind.html]

Star dust and the prayer of Light






"Nous sommes des poussières d'étoiles"
-Hubert Reeves


« C’est mon histoire qui est racontée : ce sont les mêmes forces qui organisent l’infiniment grand et l’infiniment petit, les cellules de mon corps comme les gigantesques amas de galaxies. Je fais partie d’un tout, je suis…. POUSSIERES D’ETOILES» Hubert Reeves



Imaginez que nous sommes des étoiles qui vagabondent dans le très large univers…  Des fois, nous passons au loin de galaxies, fonçons à travers des nébuleuses, nous écrasons sur une Lune (avec des séquelles éventuelles)…
Nous pouvons entrer dans le champs gravitationnel de planètes ou d’étoiles plus grosses que nous : nous sommes alors accélérés ou freinés, et quand le phénomène est particulièrement agréable, nous pouvons nous mettre en orbite autour de ces corps célestes pour un certain temps.
On a tous traversé les turbulences d’un champ d’astéroïdes, ou fréquenté un trou noir dont il a été difficile de se dépêtrer…
Notre vie n’est qu’une succession d’illustrations de la théorie des chocs avec la réalité, des lois gravitationnelles autour de personnes rencontrées, de la relativité absolue (encore un oxymore !) et parfois, de la loi du chaos. Le reste du temps, on navigue comme on peut, avec notre boussole, qui pointe vers le nord de notre vocation ou de nos aspirations.

source : http://pilarlopezsophrologue.wordpress.com/2012/07/30/changer-pour-rester-soi-meme-48-le-sens-de-la-vie-enfin-revele/



when one is meditating
and attention is on top of the head
we are swinging between images and stillness

images are what we must let go
for we are not them
we do not block them
nor stick to them
they are part of the manifestation of life
but we watch them
rising as waves rise on the oceans
then we let the waves go
these images are like the trail of dust of stars,
still shining
and catching our attention
yet they are no more
for we are the Present
still going on, moving on
to our Home

then, we bring simply our attention back
to the energy we are feeling on top of the head
on the sahasrara
that is so much more honorable to recall

the energy there
shall purify your attention
like a power removing the rust from your mirror
or like the Hand of God removing the veils that darken your vision

till Light Be






so when you swing back to your place of stillness
and let the energy purify you
you align yourself to the straight path within
and you let her do the job for you
i.e. to purify you

and your mind is indeed being polished
sharpened
and shines
blur is removed
and light increases
like the intense light of the particle of dust entering into the Earth's atmospher
shining more and more while reaching its destination
and leaving behind its trail of light

Light upon light
the Being of Light behind the light

An-Nour







Tabarakta Ya Noor Al-Anwar
Nawar Qalbi Maarifatik
Ya Allah Ya Noor Ya Haqq Ya Mobeen

Bless be You O Light of lights
Enlighten my heart with the knowledge of knowing You
O Allah O Light O Truth O The Clear One


Prayer of Light of the prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him)


O God! You are light, and from You is light. Place light in my heart and on my tongue and in my eyes and in my ears and in front of me and to the right of me and to the left of me and behind me and in my presence. Place light in my nerves and in my bones and in my flesh. Make me live in light; grant me light; give me light; make me light.


 O Allah, place light in my heart, light in my tongue, light in my hearing, light in my sight, light behind me, light in front of me, light on my right, light on my left, light above me and light below me; place light in my sinew, in my flesh, in my blood, in my hair and in my skin; place light in my soul and make light abundant for me; make me light and grant me light.



Christ with me,
Christ before me,
Christ behind me,
Christ in me,
Christ beneath me,
Christ above me,
Christ on my right,
Christ on my left,
Christ when I lie down,
Christ when I sit down,
Christ when I arise,
Christ in the heart of every man who thinks of me,
Christ in the mouth of everyone who speaks of me,
Christ in every eye that sees me,
Christ in every ear that hears me.


source : http://www.ourcatholicprayers.com/st-patricks-breastplate.html

Here mistake me not...

Jesus peace be upon him equals not to Christ

Christ is the Light that is in all... The Light of God
and that is the True message of Yeshua (pbuh)

This is the light of your consciousness purified, as exemplified by Jesus.

You are the Light within
The Christos Light

When the waiting one
was the awaited one...

this is why the wait was so long
for it ended only
when the waiting one becomes one
with the awaited one

you are the witness to your own coming.
and Truth sets YOU free.



Under Water

This music is being played by Anoushka the daughter of Ravi Shankar,
who is a great indian musician. He was a realised soul.
And he departed recently, on the 11th of December 2012.


Ravi Shankar, KBE (Bengali: রবি শংকর, IPA: [ˈrɔbi ˈʃɔŋkɔr]; 7 April 1920 – 11 December 2012), often referred to by the title Pandit, was an Indian musician and composer who played the sitar, a plucked string instrument. He has been described as the best-known contemporary Indian musician.[2]





source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ravi_Shankar



Sitar is for me the best instrument i ever heard.
one string produce so many notes,
it resonates so richly.

it is filled with so many harmonics
so many that one feels that it is a voice that is speaking.

in the following extract,
it feels indeed an inner voice that rises from within
and relates its own story
with its own emotions
while only ears to listen are needed to echo
what is being shared.

the voice is the soul turning its face towards the Spirit.





Smile

: )

in times of peace
it is so easy to smile
it is like nothing else exist
except the smile

you don't know why you smile
but you know it has all the meaning of the world in it

in times of distress
we can make all crazy promises
to try to fix and repair a situation
which has gone out of hand

but it is impossible to ever repair
it is a lie
when a friendly relationship is broken in two
there is no bad no good
there is only a separation and each one goes on his way

and in this fine and invisible line of separation
lies embedded a new life, a new face to meet
if there had not been the separation,
there would not have been this new meeting

true, separations are hurtful
because we are bundle of energies
which have exchanged streams of energies
so the you is in me and the me in you
separation brings you to accept the loss of this identity

so you lose the certitude that you were the other.
whatever the mistake you committed
life is not teaching you to learn to feel guilty
though it is inevitable to feel so
but it teaches you not to reiterate it
to grow from it

a new chance is given
while you could have bet your very life
that it is impossible to ever live again

the new chance is given
not for you to find yourself in another
but to find yourself within

others are graciously being a mirror to you
the more they have polished it to know themselves
the more you can see your self in them
and hopefully remember
that you are what you are seeing in the mirror


so the separation was never in the first place
the fault of one or the other
but it was the natural outcome of a relationship
and there is no evil in that
unless you see evil in it
there is no accusation against the other
unless you set your mind on it
and there is even less solitude
when you know that you already are
and it is what you keep forgetting.







and yet, you still need the other
to feel your own harmony within
you need the mirror to see your self

because it is what brings peace within
to see Truth within without.

and as Truth knows it,
and you too learned your lesson
from past separation
you need no more pain to experience peace
but you happily and silently
feel contented
and smile
even if you know not why.

you stay then in peace.


Thursday 20 December 2012

The Fresh breeze

After the morning meditation,
the fresh breeze is blowing

no clue from where it comes or where it goes
it is like an invisible power
and i think she likes it
for it is right now blowing even stronger

as it is said : method+time+effort+discipline = result
and the result is Grace
O God, hopefully i sustain it over the next few days : )
for none is going to realise it inside of me, except me.
as God knows what i aim for,
it cannot be that i stay that old me for so long

once the pattern is set for the day
hardly do i sit for meditation at the end of day
that the cool breeze starts flowing
amazing
it has never happened before
it is falling
like a fountain
from top of head on the rest of the body
and going out of the foot

Of spreading branches.
Which then of the bounties of your Lord will you deny?
In both of them are two fountains flowing.
Which then of the bounties of your Lord will you deny?
In both of them are two pairs of every fruit.



None of your favor do i deny my Lord, : )
Ameen.

the fresh breeze
purifies the air around your face so much
that it feels like you have opened the windows
and fresh, healthy, renewed air from mountain is entering your dwelling
and it brings it with other gifts
such as nice sweet scents in your mouth

and your lungs feel healthy
and you eat sweets and are sort of fed by an invisible hand
giving sparkles of sweets on your tongue

and the atmospher itself becomes crispy light






for we are no more a corpse dying every second
and emitting smell
but a new creation of God
which is being rejuvenated...

as nature is !
by the autonomous power of divine Love.

and the nature surrounding
is indeed
crispy
clear
healthy
ever renewing itself, as if young forever
and so goodly perfumed...




Tuesday 18 December 2012

The Song of the Soul






 


That is such a pure music from this chinese flute
it feels like it is a voice rubbing, while ascending, through the body walls (from belly to the throat)
and then it breathes its soul out on top of its head


and it opens up like a thousand petals flower, blossoming to show its opening

and it calls, it calls to show it is here, here in the garden and spreading its beauty
all around.


the piano establishes the realm of where the soul lives
and tells its story
sooo happy the soul is

the chinese flute confirms its enjoyment there
violins comes in to back it up
establishing the field where both souls live

and the orchestra goes on, one step higher,
upgrading their rythm to the flute's one
which is an ascending one

and makes the melody so honorably high and rich
only because more instruments/voices are joining in.
All in One Fabric, and the Fabric expanding.

That is what an Ummah is.
Ummah means Community in islam,
this arabic word has its root word "Umm",
the same root than in "Ummi".

Ummi is used for the prophet muhammad (pbuh)
to say he had not been taught in religious schools, and yet is
knowledgeable.For he received knowledge through a Divine Power within.

Umm refers to the word "mother".
Ummi would also be translated as "my mother".

the power of God within has a nourishing characteristic
similar to a mother who gives milk to his children and wean them,
likewise the nourishing power of God
nourishes souls of human beings.
purifies them
and made them grow.

Did He not find you (O Muhammed) an orphan and gave you refuge?" (93:6)


hence hearing the sentence "being brother and sister in religion/faith/humanity" is hinting at a common Mother
linking us all.

As creation has been created to POINT AT man's condition
and not carve similitudes to God

the motherly power within man is the nourishing power of Allah within, the power of Ar Rahman  to which when one submits, one is being nourished by it, purified and freed from slavery to other than God's Power.


there was a woman among the prisoners who was searching (for her child). When she found her child she embraced him and put him to her breast. The Messenger of Allah said to us, ‘Do you think that this woman would throw her child in the fire?’ We said, ‘No, by Allah, not if she is able not to.’ The Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) said, ‘Allah is more merciful to His slaves than this woman is to her child.’”
(Al-Bukhaari, 5653; Muslim, 6912.)


God has no likeness to His creation
but His manifestation is seen through His beautiful names
that man strives to make his
as the prophet assimilated them in him
(hence the 99 qualities of the prophets which are similars to
those of 99 names of God)

For he mastered these qualities and led and showed the Path made of these qualities leading to God, The One and only.

This is how a TRUE Ummah, Community is,
it is threading the Path of those beautiful names
and making them theirs as much as they can.

but how could one use his own mind to integrate these qualities?
only the motherly/loving power of God can gracefully gift you these.

look at the face of the flutist so much IN, so much attuned
to the melody inside
so that his attention to his instrument's music does not stop at his blowing in his instrument
but he literally goes away with the melody once it is out of his flute...


and the pianist is literally swinging with the melody he is playing,
such a peace on his face. his face is such an apeased one,
clean one.


and then the first bird nightingale on the violin speaks, calls,
it feels like her voice comes out of her heart, as if the strings of the heart/of the violin are being pulled,

an answer comes in a louder tone, like an echo to the first bird's call, the male bird answering the female one now.

back again the feminine one singing her happiness to have been heard.

what an amazing story this Ummah is,
it is the field
where souls meet through the Power of God
where they communicate
and experience Life through the eyes of each other
and share their own vision of Life

sharing their life...such a beautiful image.

two souls can meet each other in this physical world,
in this dream realm, only because of the power within
who enables them to MEET each other for the purpose of SHARING

so that joy be increased by comm-union, by this common exchange

As Yanni the greek pianist said before the concert starts, about the nightingale he was listening to :
"what a pity that we cannot communicate"
and now here he is, communicating with a chinese audience in the newly learned language, the language of the soul, oups, the language of the nightingale.

once you and i lie in our grave, we are souls separated from this power and are like ghosts without the means to be master of our life

unless

soul meets its spirit
hold firmly this Rope of Allah
the central channel within

this is the self realisation
the soul realising that its origin is from the spirit within
the breath of God, the power of God

then
its journey of purification may start
and its growth be a means of joy for him and the others

the Ummah, the Community then is truly a Community
for it has in common this motherly loving power of Ar Rahman (The Merciful)
and on this BASE it can understand each other, share with each other, and increase individual joy (the one of each soul) and build more in the Kingdom of God (common joy reflected by the state of the Community)

Know thyself and you shall know God.
Ameen.




Finally, look at the pianist face at the end
so full of blissful embedded peace.






Saturday 15 December 2012

My Story




Writing my story? There is no story, for it is my life, my whole life testimony of seeking Truth, of WHAT for do i exist.

As far as i remember, on the first day i entered into the nursery,
while walking towards of the entrance of the door, i had apprehension, feeling heavy in the belly,
for i was entering into life, without remembering what for i came here. Yet it was important.
How could you start a project without having a plan?  I had forgotten my purpose...
and to reassure myself i said  " it is ok, i still have time, don't worry".

When i entered my teens, my father used to tell me, the stories of the prophets,
how they were sent to humanity to warn people and give those who heeded their warning
glad tidings of salvation.

La ilaha illa Allah Muhammad Rassoul Allah, he said. If you say it believing it with your heart, you enter into
heaven.
so i said it. and I was expecting to be on the spot transported into heaven, up there.
into the Kingdom of God.
i watched myself, and the surrounding, I was still there...
why living life to play roles in it, while i could enter heaven right now and enjoy!  : )
For i wished to know how earth, no how universe has been created, i wished to ask God, for He knows all, everything,
from dinausor era to this period of time where Giants were on Earth and built such immense buildings in Egypt and also all kinds of
other secrets veiled from me. For i wished to knew all and everything that has been created. For if it HAS BEEN created, then it HAS a valid purpose, created to fit
a GREATER plan, a beautiful plan that i wish to peep into.
hey, yes! in heaven you have all you wish for. So why am i still there and living a limited life? to keep up apparences? have i been created to "keep up apparences?"
what a waste of time while the heart yearns for greater things. Yes, i was aware of my heart desire so why should i shove it under the carpet as if it is impossible?
No, if i became AWARE of it then it SHOULD been fulfilled at one point or the other. This is the most honorable thing for which i have been created.
To honor, and GIVE LIFE to MY HEART DESIRE.


When i grew up, i read in the Holy Quran :

And (remember) when thy Lord brought forth from the Children of Adam, from their reins, their seed, and made them testify of themselves, (saying): Am I not your Lord? They said: Yea, verily. We testify. (That was) lest ye should say at the Day of Resurrection: Lo! of this we were unaware; (Surah al-A’raf, 172)

So Allah asked the souls: “Am I not your Lord?” and we ALL replied: “Yes.”

So i wondered why do i remember it NOT? i used to walk down in the street, see people face, and no one seemed to have this light in the eyes, saying yes i do remember.
all their looks were blank.
i felt such a love story of creation it is, i remember that i remember not. so now it is in in God's Hand to make me remember. But again, remember what?

Funny, the other name of quran is  "Az zikr", which means "Remember".
So, true, it does mean that i have to remember something i have been taught "before" and that i forgot now. So i have my task, to REMEMBER
so that i may fulfil my heart desire and enter into the Kingdom of God.


but remember what? hmmm. That is another headache.
Then, i completed my studies with a Master degree. And when i looked ahead, how my future could be,
i saw routine. I saw people going to work, coming back tired, raising a family while facing issues like any other casual person
same livelihood related issues as the former generations of ours. This depressed me! NO, i was sure it is NOT the life i wished for.

Life has more to give. I had more to give to LIFE. But living like this into a closed movie, repeating over and over again
the same tasks, while life is so full of creativity, it is not normal!

I was so happy, when i had walks in nature. I had no thoughts, it was like i enter into heaven, and i, this mind, body,
my past or any plans of future, exist not. Nature is so healing. Making you forget what you are, a bundle of issues with some pinches of joy here and there,
but not fully in bliss, as i was in nature. totally feeling light and happy.

Like when a baby is born, naturally she draws towards it like a magnet everyone's around and they all smile!

and it struck me a saying of the prophet muhammad  (peace be upon him) who said : each child is born on the true religion, but his parents corrupt it.

true, after we all grow up, we lose that light from our face, that beam of light, which used to naturally attract all joy around us and to us.
so i wished back my innocence. Can innocence be given back, when one has an adult mind? For our mind is like a record, it remembers pain
how could i then erase everything and get back that innocence and glitter on the face?

When back at home, i was going into a room when i heart on tv, surah Ar Rahman from the Quran, where Allah was so kindly
speaking about all of what He has created, pointing at only Goodness in His creation, goodness upon goodness, it was all pointing
to the Grace of Nature. and each time after a gift of Grace was enumerated, it was saying, dear ones wake up,  I am pointing you to my favors,
but you "which of my favors will you deny?"

when i heard this i got frozen.

so beautiful it was, and so beautiful and sincere God is towards His creation. Never ever had i ever seen such sincerity.
To give just out of pure joy without expecting in return, except for us to see Him, and see His Favors and be joyful again. 

But then, i wondered what can i do? God is up there, and i am here, a mere human being. What is the link?
It is said in sufi tradition, Allah said :
"I was a hidden treasure and I loved to be known; so I created the creatures and made Myself known to them; so they knew Me."

But how? How could i know God?
and in dream, i got the answer i prayed to God "Give me Knowledge" and i saw myself going into a library looking for books,
and when i opened one, there was intead a note in it, which said "Know thyself"

Indeed, Sages have said "Know yourself, and you will know God".
Who am I? Well, it is easy,
I am Maryam, living in France, studied there, have a family and had such and such a past. What more is need to know? I Know who i am.

Yet, I knew not God...
I had said La ilaha illa Allah Muhammad Rassoul Allah, and was still not in heaven. Right NOW. I wanted Truth RIGHT NOW.
For if it is God Promise that Kingdom of Heaven is here, then why am i not in?
God said so kindly 'which of my favor will you deny?'
and answered "i deny none".

But then, i realied how could I (= a sum of thougths and past experiences and future expectations) may with this personality near God?
So if i was Nature or a baby, I would be into this Kingdom of God.
So, how to purify myself? It is said in the scripture "Surrender to God". But how do i surrender? where is God? to find Him, it is said, i have to know myself,
and to know myself i have to purify myself. For how could an insincere person could purify herself? it is like using mud to clean mud.
To purify, to clean, you need water.

Then, i sought in quran that it says
"when We designated for Abraham the site of the House, [saying], "Do not associate anything with Me and purify My House for those who perform circumbulation 4and those who stand [in prayer] and those who bow and prostrate."

This House of God, Temple, Kaaba is our OWN body, it is ourself!

Indeed, when i decided to read again the story of Abraham, who had FOUND his Lord, when he was seeking Him.

He looked at the sun, at the moon, at the stars, yes : ) even at the statues created by men's hands that they worshiped, and concluded for each of them, they are NOT lasting. they canNOT be The Lord
when he rejected all of this, all of this was OUT of his self,

how can one be dependent upon a power that itself needs its rest, set or is not there when one needs it? 
even less an object to which we GIVE power such as status....or thoughts, or past experience or future plans of ours that is such a waste. 
to give importance to that which we have created!
Yes i got it! I had created an IMAGE of myself, by equalling myself with my thoughts, of past and future.

So i should purify myself of this!

Thus did We show Abraham the kingdom of the heavens and the earth that he be one of those who have Faith and certainty.

So WHERE DID ABRAHAM TURN once he turned outside and rejected everything and found God?
INSIDE.

that was the answer!
Then, i was reading the quran with the hope of finding a clue about surrendering to God within,
yes this is all i wanted to find CERTAINTY that God give me the assurance, the PROOF, the SIGN
that i am HIS.

and i found the verse in the quran saying :
2.138
"The (religious indelible) marking (of the believers) of Allah. And who marks better than Allah? And for Him we are worshipers."

Yes, when i read that, yes, it is this! i want that, i want this mark of Allah upon me and be safe and happy and be myself and fulfill my desire
and be purified, in brief i wished for relief to accomplish my honorable purpose of being alive.

and suddenly, this day i felt such a rush of coolness going out of my left arm.
and it started again and did not go away. while there was no window open, and the rest of my body was normal
but then cool breeze was there, on my left arm and then it enveloped the next day my heart, the heart was all cool inside
as if it has been put into cool waters.

it was an intelligent moving coolness, which reappered the next day.
so i sought on the internet, what this cool breeze was and its relation to this verse, so i typed the word "sibghatullah" (the mark of God) and "cool breeze",
and i found out a website speaking of Shri Mataji who explained that it is the holy spirit from within...
I was in awe, for i was feeling it inside of me!

Then, i suddenly remembered, that two years ago, i was meditating in my room under the care of my sufi teacher,
and when i pronounced the word "Ruh ul Quddus" i had felt a cool breeze passing by softly on my face.

and Ruh ul Quddus means the Pure/Holy Spirit in english.
So i understood that all the way, it was there, in me, i just had to desire for it, to get it!

Indeed, i used to see that household appliances, all have their manual , ready to use, to make them work
and i, a human being, such an elaborate creation, i had none delivered when i was born?

As a human being,  we use our mind to copy on nature and create beautiful appliances,
French engineers studied femur bone structure to create Eiffel tower, so that it crumble not on its weight...

so all of this world i live in is man's creation,
but man itself knows itself NOT!
so all secrets must be WITHIN.

And the cool breeze, the Ruh of Allah, the Holy Spirit is the one who is there to purify me from my thoughts of past and futures
which are limiting me to bring me on a path which sets me free to reach my goal of not only accomplishing my pure desire but also of receiving
the Kingdom of God and His Face ultimately once i am thoroughtly purified.

Indeed, in islam, when we pray :
You (alone) we worship; You (alone) we ask for help.
Show us the straight path,
The path of those whom Thou hast favoured;
Not (the path) of those who earn Your anger nor of those who go astray.

And sahaja yoga website showed the three channels which exist in human body,
the left channel contains all of our past
the right contains the future (our thoughts for the future)
once both are purified, we are forgiven all of our "sins"
and the middle channel, is the straight path upon which are showered the favors of God...

leading to His Kingdom, which is the sahasrara on top of head.
as said by Shri Mataji  :

"Lastly, the seventh centre, the most important centre is the
Sahasrara which has got, according to Sahaja Yoga, a thousand
petals. Actually there are a thousand nerves and if you cut the
transverse section of the brain you can see that all these
petal-like structures of the brain are forming a lotus of the
thousand petals. This centre of a thousand petals covers the
limbic area of the brain before Realization like the closed bud
of a lotus. Above this covering is the balloon-like structure of
ego and superego. As the brain is covered completely when these
two institutions join and calcification takes place on top of
the head; that is how we become a closed personality. At the
time of our awakening, of our second birth, this egg-like
personality breaks at the top of the head."

and i could from thereon understand my own scriptures speaking of Purification and Victory :

Chapter of Victory - Holy Quran :

Indeed, We have given you a clear conquest
That Allah may forgive for you what preceded of your sin and what will follow and complete His favor upon you and guide you to a straight path

You can reach the goal of Salvation, which is the biggest Victory
by being forgiven your past sins (all left channel purified) and those to follow/the future (all rigth channel purified)
and once you have freed yourself of your "mondane" way of thinking who you are, you have acquired this mastery, this vicegerency of God on Earth, as spoken of in all
holy scriptures that i all love with all of my heart, then you KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

and this TRUTH sets your FREE.

Indeed, I do not worship anyone else as God, for Allah/God is The Source who has breathe into me, into all of us His Spirit, whose manifestation is the cool breeze/the shakti who brings me back to His Kingdom WITHIN :

"He began the creation of man from dust. [...] Then he made him complete and breathed into him of His spirit and made for you ears and eyes and heart." (Qur'an 32:7-9)

Since, then i keep meditating, so that i may be thouroughly one day purified by the Grace of God to receive His Face.
and this is the way to surrender to the Victory.

And i follow the way Abraham followed. He was named "the upright", for he was on the middle path, the middle channel, which is straight and upright.
And never i could have found the right way to Allah, except by by His Grace :
of literally speaking, taking the "upright way" of which, as my father told me me, the one that ALL prophets have given glad tidings of Victory for those who took it.

So i thank Shri Mataji wholeheartedly for having transmitted this awakening within to the masses.
For without, this Motherly Power, this Very Grace of God, I would have never felt the cool breeze.
And NOW, it is UP to each one of us, to reach the Face of God WITHIN.

All Praise be To God,
Truth sets you free,
indeed.

Tuesday 4 December 2012

Ending the descent and Returning to the Sea






Filled with dark and light
My heart takes flight
Not sure where to be
So I return to the sea
kaygirl2016 1 year ago 





 Return to the Sea

The last page of a fairy tale
has been re-written and changed into tragedy.
Even for one person"s heart who believed in it, it"s been lost.
Love and dreams are nothing more but a sandcastle
that"s short-lived, and breakable, even if you didn"t wish it so.
But even now, I can"t forget
of that song you always used to sing.
It echoes in my chest, and I feel as if I might return to that day
Definitely I can return to it, but right now all it"s been is a chain surrounding me that I will shake off.
Our two worlds are linked together by the blue sea.

"Definitely..."
"Love will conquer all, "
"The constellations that decide fate can be changed."
should completely vanish. All it is, is a cowardly lie.
Like a jewel, the sea which shines bright as it"s nursed
Engulfs everything with kindness and love, and gives seven lives birth and dreams to gaze at.
So I"ve come back here.
I won"t lie to myself any longer.
I have my people to protect, and a world to protect.

Definitely...
The invisible distrust between another is a weakness
to a love with no shape that I want to believe in
Until I can finally feel the love within my grasp.
On a bed of ripples, on the morning you woke up
Everything ended and began again.
Engulfed in the warm, quiet light
my hopes matured, and returned to the sea.
The bell of happiness rings out as the seven seas shine forth.
A miracle of love that it causes is what I love most, and as we want to gaze at each other
we gently kiss

Return To The Sea Lyrics - http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]




Wednesday 21 November 2012

River flows in you

: )

The first time i named what i felt being a river,
was when i was reading the story of Mary Magdalene, disciple of Jesus (peace be upon them)


but what i felt by then, when i read the story
was that true believers were bold without making the effort to be so
for in the latter case, it would be acting and why act (however SINCERELY), when you can be it?
that is the difference between a life led by ego (however sincere its claim be) and a life supported by divine presence;
between claim and truth, between struggle/fight to possess and Kingdomship
between slavery and Freedom

these inner states are then reflected outside in our relationship and so in the world.

these believers' life was different though
they were free without ANY planning of their own
they were doing what they felt they had to do
by just going with the inner flow of guidance.

That is how it felt.

they were going through life, exploring it, like a river creating its bed in a foreign dry soil
and while passing by, their grace is spread all over,
like the dust left by shooting stars behind them
or like the sprouting flowers when soil is watered

and yet, they never planned such miracles, with their mind
no pre-planning
they just, it seems, followed their own inner call,
a river flowing in their own self
unseen to others
yet existing
themselves, they were mere followers of their own river
just trusting it
taking turn when it took turns
though it may seem inappropriate behavior to lower minds

it seems they were in love with an unseen power and following it
like trains of clouds harnessed to some chariots of wind
a power which was nearer to themselves more they could be near to their own self
and that same power was the most further away from outside eyes
because those eyes had not uncovered it into their own self
while trying to make the true believers deviate from it.

because they could not believe that freedom from suffering exist
they could not stand seeing example of "embodied freedom"
while themselves they had lived so far a life of struggle
"what? has then all my life been hard for nothing?"
"were all of our forefathers wrong?" did they wonder
instead of taking the passing Grace and enter into the Kingdom of God
too. simply.
they made their livelihood to prove that only suffering exist as a way of life
to give a meaning to their past life. to the past life of their forefathers, which they had inherited.whose customs they have inherited.

instead of inheriting from the prophets : )
and thus inheriting the Kingdom of God, this very vicegerency spoken of in the holy scriptures.
the freedom of being their own master.

is it not said, only the meek will inherit the earth?

yes, it is very hard to admit that we have lived so many years in hardship,
toiling.
while easiness has always existed as an alternate way of life
but we had never seen it. we kept missing it.
it demands humbleness to surrender and implicitely it means to acknolwedge
that yes we were wrong, the lifestyle was devoid of grace.

How could it be otherwise ?
does Grace presence manifest suffering in our life
or does it make us gleam with ease, peace and joy ?
as flowers do, as nature does? as any new born does ?

it is just hard to accept to change
because it is dead hard to let go of so many years, even of centuries 
for everything lose its meaning
and we are left with nothing

except Grace

and yet as Grace is a total new territory to be discovered
that the mind knows it not
we are afraid of it
and thus very few are those who accept to trust IT.

So, was i baffled when i read the story of Hajar (peace be upon her)


Ibrahim woke up one day and asked Hajar to prepare herself and the new born Ismail for a long travel. 
Ibrahim and Hajar kept walking, crossed a fertile land followed by barren mountains till they arrived at the Arabian desert. Ibrahim brought Hajar to a high hill called al-Marwa, made her and her son sit under a tree, placed a bag of dates and some water near her, and set out homeward. 


Hajar ran after him and said: "Are you going to leave us in this desert where there is no one to keep us company?" 
She repeated this many times but he would not look back at her. 
She asked: "Has Allah ordered you to do so?" 
He said yes. 
"Then He will not neglect us." She said. 

Ibrahim walked away until he got out of their sight, he raised his hands and prayed Allah: "O our Lord! I have made some of my offspring dwell in a valley with no cultivation, by Your Sacred House, in order that they may offer prayers. So fill some hearts among men with love towards them, and provide them with fruits, so that they may give thanks."

I was struck. SO BEAUTIFUL.
people do not understand. these are not stories of the past. closed and not to be dwelled upon.
these are total real, to be repeated over and over. but into our own life.

i said to myself when i read it the first time,
there was no blaming from hajar, nothing at all, no accusation, no ill-thinking
while women are so bent on doing so, no backbiting, no criticising of circumstances
while so much could have been said.
not forgetting that Abraham first wife was sarah (peace be upon them all)
and it was hard on her to see hajar and her son, while she had none ...

YET, the only reference and the only concern was "is it from Allah?"
i love that.
and same, Abraham answer was only on that which was true and not on side questions/issues.
for they would be taken care of by Allah,once they have taken the first step to believe it would be so.

and that very desertic place has become a place of pilgrimmage and so on.

But the symbolism, in even the name Hajar and the event that followed the departure of the Prophet
is even deeper but it would take another log entry to speak of it.

Just the purity of thoughts, and a ready mind to adjust to new circumstances
and the readiness of both, of Abraham and Hajar, of just following God's guidance
made them enter into new stages in life, which effects are seen even centuries after.

Deeds supported with Grace keep growing even after people are gone.


and so believers faithfully followed their inner river
themselves they became, they embodied this river
and their likeness in the earth
was that of a river watering desert lands
parched lands, needing so much this very water of Life.

Hence, when Abraham left Hajar and Ismael,
the water started to flow ...

Hajar went on nursing Ismail and drinking from the water until it was all used up. She became very thirsty and the child was crying. She left him on the al-Marwa hill and hurried to the nearest hill, as-Safa. She stood there and started looking at the valley keenly so that she might see somebody, but she could not see anybody. She descended from as-Safa, crossed the valley running and reached al-Marwa hill. She stood and started looking but could see nobody. She kept running between as-Safa and al-Marwa seven times. When she reached al-Marwa for the last time, she was exhausted, she sat next to the baby. Then she heard a voice. She stood up and said: "O whoever you might be! Have you got something to help me?' She saw an angel, Angel Jibreel, digging the earth until water flowed ! She built a little basin around it. She scooped water with her hands, drank, filled her water-skin, and nursed her baby. The place from which water flowed was Zamzam. 

Muslims till this day drink from the holy water of Zamzam, and during Hajj they walk between as-Safa and al-Marwa seven times to commemorate this event.

Some Arabs traveling through Makkah saw birds flying around alMarwa. "They must be flying around water." They said. When they arrived at the water, they found Hajar and asked her: "Would you allow us to stay with you, and use the water from your well?" She agreed and was pleased by their company. The people sent for their families, settled there and became permanent residents. 

 source : http://www.islamicity.com/media/ancmts/docum1.htm

What happened "outside" with this flow of water, is a testimony/metaphor/sign (=ayah)/evidence
pointing at what happened "inside" of hajar and her son. At the reward earned, at the transformation they underwent by following inner guidance and receiving the water of life INSIDE.
The outside is JUST a sign for others, who came seeing the sign of the presence of water/sign of Grace outside, to come near it. yes to near themselves and humble themselves, ask for permission to receive that Grace. Grace cannot be given from one person to another, but the beginning of Grace is that the path/conditions are made easy for them to turn inwards so that they too learn to overcome their OWN inner obstacles and then enjoy that River of Life that shall sprout in themselves too.



Our Lord! and raise up in them a Messenger from among them who shall recite to them Thy communications and teach them the Book and the wisdom, and purify them; surely Thou art the Mighty, the Wise.

And who forsakes the religion of Ibrahim but he who makes himself a fool, and most certainly We chose him in this world, and in the hereafter he is most surely among the righteous.

When his Lord said unto him: Surrender! he said: I have surrendered to the Lord of the Worlds.

The same did Abraham enjoin upon his sons, and also Jacob, (saying): O my sons! Lo! Allah hath chosen for you the (true) religion; therefore die not save as men who have surrendered (unto Him). 

Or were ye present when death came to Jacob, when he said unto his sons: What will ye worship after me? They said: We shall worship thy god, the god of thy fathers, Abraham and Ishmael and Isaac, One Allah, and unto Him we have surrendered.

This is a people that have passed away; they shall have what they earned and you shall have what you earn, and you shall not be called upon to answer for what they did.  

And they say: Be Jews or Christians, then ye will be rightly guided. Say : Nay, but (we follow) the religion of Abraham, the upright, and he was not of the idolaters.

(holy quran 2:129- 135)
source : http://www.usc.edu/org/cmje/religious-texts/quran/verses/002-qmt.php

See? NO ONE can earn Grace for you. You have to get it for your own salvation.yourself for your self.
why is it so? because you have to SURRENDER, to that Grace, which signs is that it PURIFIES you, and makes you UPRIGHT.
this Grace is the Gift that Purifies you, and is the True Upright religion, if religion should be called.

what purifies/cleanes dirt? Water.
what is upright? Inner Guidance - Straight Path

That Inner Water of Life
Follow an Upright  Path (not crooked - literally speaking STRAIGHT)
Purifying you from man-made customs accepted as true by your mind which have brought you down to a life of suffering/slavery to them

so that mind too becomes filled with Light- Enlightened.




Smile, be happy, there is too much to be alive for to be drenched in depression
Listen to the beauty of the winds, the intensity of the warm sun, the hearkening beating heart
As golden eyelashes bat away the rays of the bright clarity of the inferno above, 

we beam ourselves

The deep and dark pupils of eyes, understanding and knowledgeable, take in this luminous light
We raise our arms to the white, glacier like formations overhead, taking in its chill within ourselves
Become one harmony, love


River of spiritual life force energy and Conscious Intelligence.

Wednesday 7 November 2012

God's Ways



I always wondered why God does not walk down the hall making sound,
"Here am I coming, so all of you watch my doing : I am going to make this flower grow,
I am going to make this child grow, I am going to give life to so and so.

Or I am going to make these petals of the very flower you are watching open little by little."

Because He is well entitled to that! Hey it is God.


It is never like that. It just happen.
In silence, with delicacy and with the right proportion of water, sunlight, minerals the flower opened, not more nor less. Too much of any elements and the seed rotten, too less and it goes dust, and yet it works!

And same for the baby, he grew up magically in the womb of his mother without her caring an inch for it to take its form!

Yet I never saw Him claiming attention to that coming miracles.


Even for the first time, when i read a comment about religion, it was said
"Look at this flower, it is from God's work, it is His sign."
and i was, sincerely wondering, hoping to get the sincerity of that writer pointing at the sign of God, for i knew not why he was talking of a sign of God, that is SO CASUAL to see a flower.

Where is God work in that?

Yes, i can admit this and say it, out of blind belief, because i do, mentally, believe it.
But HONESTLY where on earth it is written it is God's work? Or were there a trumpet which had been blown to tell me this is from His Hands?
I heard no one saying so, nor saw any preparations prior to this work, which would have caught my attention. Why could i not know, i am well worthy to know, for i am worthy enough to wonder about God's Presence, no?

Yet, i could NOT explain where this discrepancy was coming from.

While, yes, a human being, will do ALL the noise it is possible to do to catch attention,
like taking a stick and hitting a frying pan to call everyone to witness his great work.

Yet, it is not so with God, why?

It just happen, independently of anyone paying attention or not.
But it happens.
Why?

Because it is honestly a generous Love.
As this extract refers to it :


When the question comes, 'How much do you love me, and how much do I love you?' it has come to be a trading in love. 'I love you, but you do not love me' is as much as to say, 'I have bid so much, and I expect a return of love'. This is trading in love, and trade cannot lead anywhere, because it makes one think of the self, and love is beyond that. 

To love is to give; it is not to take at all. The true lover never speaks of what he has done for his beloved, for he loves for love's sake, not for the sake of a return.

source : http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/VII/VII_9.htm
Commentary by Pir-o-Murshid Inayat Khan


This is why it is so SILENT !

It is like an invisible servant which comes and set the setting of your dream, with everything perfect, when you will enter that dream world. But you are not seeing the Settler of the affairs.

 If you wish to learn true love, then for sure, Only God has it.

So instead of looking for the Settler of the dream, we get lost in the dream itself! : )))

 The nature of life on earth is illusory and in the Sanskrit tongue it is called Maya or illusion, and every soul having the spark of the divine love, forgets the use and the purpose of that spark and begins to love itself most.

By a keen study of human life, man will find that as a rule, when he claims that he loves, in reality he loves himself, he loves his own benefit in life, he loves another for the help that other gives, for his goodness, for his kindness, for his service, but in all this he surely loves himself, and it is for himself all the while he thinks he loves another.

It is a very high stage in the path of love when man really learns to love another with a love that asks no return, when he does not seek love for the sake of love in return, then love becomes pure, the lover gives, and gives and gives, but even that is not the purpose of life, it is still greater. 


The Perfect One who is the source and origin of the whole creation, is the Perfection of Beauty. All beauty on earth or in heaven belongs to Him, and the purpose of the creation of every soul is to progress in the path of love until the soul arrives at a stage where it may find the Perfection of Beauty.source: http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/archives/cupid.htm
Commentary by Pir-o-Murshid Inayat Khan

 But how can one get it? Especially when we have always lived, whatever denial we may put here and swear that we love our family, it is NOT true love, unless we have learned the way of God, the one sanctioned by His Grace.

And its effect are then upon us :

To what does the love of God lead? It leads to that peace and stillness which can be seen in the life of the tree, which bears fruits and flowers for others and expects no returns, not even thanks in return. It serves, and cares for nothing else, not even for appreciation. That is the attribute of the godly.

source : http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/XIII/XIII_9.htm


Stillness and Peace. That is such an honorable presence. And when it emanates from a human being, it is as if this person has no features of its own. No trait of character that you could ----pinpoint.
It is most probably like trying to pinpoint which drop of water that i poured into the sea is mine.

The Merging in the Divine and be colored into His color, has certainly brought with it a new form of creation:

“Were We then wearied out with the first creation? (No) Yet they are still in doubt about a new creation”
(holy quran, surah Qaf, verse 15)

What is this new creation spoken of? This transformation that we undergo when His Grace showers Itself upon us?
What is This Grace? A Power? An Energy?
How to receive it?
How to be SURE it is a trustworthy power?