Wednesday 18 May 2016

Everlasting Beauty


There are moments in life
where you realise
that everything is a teacher

actually most of time
i could say i can see myself learning
is like the teacher is an event, or even a movie

which are speaking to me

it is like it was customised
and created to answer to my questions
see?

Remember?
when i wrote once
about a TV commercial
when i switched on tv
it was answering my very question
i had in mind about some coffee brand


now, is same
during the day
there were a LINE of events
one after the other
that were -LITERALLY speaking- talking to me

an outsider would think is just an independent conversation
that i am witnessing between two people

but in truth
in my self
i felt as if both people
were answering to my questions
without them knowing it consciously

is an amazing feeling of closeness

moreover
it was like they were acting my own life
was so strange
cause most of the details were matching my life
and as the conversation was very deep

it was 100% customised for me

Purposely i am not going into the details of it

but i could feel a very warm feeling
in the belly
and it rose up till the heart

and i felt satisfied
it made me feel also more grounded
and peaceful

because it is like an outer confirmation
of what i was feeling inside
and it felt warm to know that
if someone else could put words to it

then it already exist
and if it exists then is beautiful to witness

because i always felt
that if i can witness beauty
then i would feel real rich inside

as if i am somehow collecting it in me
and it won't perish
or as if it is stored forever in me
or as if i lived it for REAL 
i.e. lived it and KNOWING that i am living it

(cause most of time
we live without knowing consciously that we are living a life
is like we live a life unconsciously
that does not leave in you a feeling of sth alive
rather it is empty from Life , is  neutral at best
it does not add to your experience/i.e. it does not nourish you)

and this creates a feeling of satisfaction
or of fulfillment

because i KNOW this Beauty exists
and i am witnessing it
and if i am witnessing it
then it is in me
and it is for me
stored for ever
in me