Leap of faith and orbs of lights

Yesterday night
i dreamt that i - as a personality
using my free will
i threw myself into the ocean

while doing this
i said to myself
i should be crazy
who risks its life like that


and it was all dark around

as soon as i did it!

i saw that i had a ball of light
that is my inner light

and that light sent instantly
offshoots
like ropes of lights
to the other balls of lights
who were still on the shore
because the light is One
so it creates connections

that was tremendous
especially when i understood its meaning

that was the vision of higher astral realms
where realised souls appear as balls of light

the balls of lights
are the realised souls
from higher astral planes
and once you take this leap of faith
and surrender to the Shakti within
then it is the way of real surrender

now i understand
why is fearful to surrender
because you surrender to that which is unknown
total Unknown
**goosebumps time**
lol

no
actually even in the vision
i had not time to fear
but i was calling myself real crazy
usually one aims at safety of a routine
but i was aiming at discovering something new
totally new

because you can't limit yourself
with fears
you need to breakthrough
really

few people can do it
to break through their last fears
that's when blessings and grace of the Spirit
are the only support and guidance left

and is also the final realisation.
that's why also advanced yogis are needed


and that Ocean is the Shakti.
Mother of Creation

ahh i feel good
really

and yes
i also realised
at times you do see in news
or "paranormal" activities
orbes of lights described in skies, isn't it?

to my own amazement
that vision taught me
that those orbes of lights
are these realised souls from higher planes
who travel and reach our lower planes
and are caught at times on camera
those little balls of lights :)

so these advanced spirits
are kind of playing as they want
in the 10 realms :)

and imagine
i felt so much coolness in the whole right channel
and especially JOY in the right heart

usually i feel joy in the belly
or in the left heart
but never ever ever
i would spot joy in the right heart
is so unusual place to spot joy

yes for they are from higher planes
and JUST below are the demi-gods
sugoi isn't it?!
and they do this
because they are STILL wanting to experience
hmm this gives you the meaning and thirst of Life
Experience it while being realised
is just the cherry on top of the cake

by the way
it means there are infine possibilities
when one play on these 10 realms
hohoho
IMAGINE the play ground?!
ah but that is the peeping sight of Tomorrow's Land, neh?

ok i will see

anyway demi gods or not
even them they forget the source
so is most important to always remember
the Source within

i feel just happy for it
i guess

sugoi!
so this is WHY
it explains many things

and yes UFO exist

kiss:):x
ps : and i got that vision
which was from my soul
as to the answer i desired the day before
that was special peaceful day
cf preceeding post


so special appreciative
thank you to my soul
to my inner light
ameen.

kisssi:x

I hear Your Voice

Yesterday
i was very much with attention within
my own company was so peaceful

since a very long time
i did not feel like this
like when you get used to noise
and develop impatience
instead of appreciating how everything around you
has been playing its role

so yesterday innerly
i was in touch with my self
really very much
thing is when you are in touch
you don't know you are in touch
because you are in the flow

so if you know
is like you use thoughts to know
which takes you out of the flow

so is only today
that i really realised how much
in the flow i was with my soul

:)
and i know now
the conditions that led to it

when you have noise in your head
that you are not even aware of
due to some routine
you need a trauma
to break everything in your routine

which leads you for sure
to choose
between mess and silence with your self

i went through both
total mess first lol
that is my emotional side
yes being a woman means you have to catch yourself
when you are emotional
and then with time
this time will reduce
when you are caught within
to end up like to be able to choose on the spot
between being emotional or joyful swim on your path

but when i caught myself
i made the conscious choice
to be in touch with myself

this means not to expect
something from myself
even less from anyone

this means not to find
my needs
nor what is expected from me
also to be done

what it means
is to find your true desire

so i remembered that word
and when i turned within
i just realised
that i should be constant with that single-minded focus

this meant not to expect
an answer from my soul
as per my time/space condition

when i realised that
i also felt that when i had that kind of expectation
towards myself
then
i had a sort of anger within me
which is not known to us
when we do stuff
but it is there
and is well hidden
and we are not conscious of it

this is why
if something happen
we would feel bothered
irritated and angered

because we had that nonesensical expectation
why nonesensical?

because if you are truthful
if you really wish to hear the voice of your soul
and to know where you are
and where you are heading
if you want in brief an answer from God

then,
you should let the path open
for God to answer you
so i had created a channel to communicate with God
by remembering and sticking to my pure desire
single-mindedly without confusing it
with some need or request or expectation
for me or from others

once i created that highway
i had forgotten that to hear the reply
i had to let it unblock
with no roadbloacks

and that is not to leave
any feeling of anger
or more subtly
of space/time timing

most important is the What i wish
the How and When is up to God s timing

then i let it go
by promising myself to be in touch
and just remaining open and aware to the reply

and is the funny thing
when you get the reply
you don't even know
because is so much in the flow

and if the person who witnesses it
is also in the flow
there how can you know?
how can you know finally is there?
as you are with the reply at the same time
a bit like one moment
but not two?

because to know what you see it
you need to be a moment apart from the reply moment
and you are two

but when you are the witness of the moment of the reply
then you are the same moment
and there is no two
but one only

and very funnily
i was watching a very beautiful drama
of course korean drama

they are just soulful

and guess what that very drama
name is
"I hear your voice"...

is only today i realised the coincidence

and during it
in a vision
i saw the vision
of a white lady
mother mary
she represents the pure desire
and in nostalgy
she was passing by slowly
near the desk
and lingering her finger on it

i found that very nostalgic
really
and sad too

even know while writing it
i do feel the throat tightening

it is because
when you feel the presence
of the divine
then is normal you feel so
as it is the pure desire itself

i guess
it is what lacks here

a few days back
i realised that
why i was so knowing
of where i was going till the end of my studies?
is because i was in system that protected innocence
of children and students till they graduate

but once you are out of it
you are into another system
and there
there is not really anymore protection
for the innocence

often i said to myself
why they give us rules during school time
if it is to break them all once you work?

anyway,
after it,
when i was just going in my day
or touching stuff
was like i was hearing and talking
to that voice
that was very faint
but i was conversing
without using tongue
 and i could hear
without hearing a real  voice

like even if i touched
a kitchenware
it was as if it was speaking to me
first i thought the kitchenware
as it is an element
may be it is its voice?
but at same time the reply too
was from same level
but was from within

so the voice was the same
so wherever i looked
it was flowing
a flowing voice
a continual communication

that is very calming

anyway i recommand korean
drama
especially this one
so much to say about it
but the major actors say it all
so beautiful life teaching drama it is

and especially that soundtrack is
really lovely
yea i am in love with that soundtrack
especially the beginning! :)

this dram is about hate/love
choices in life
justice/law
retaliation/forgiveness
transformation of people

except for rare american movies
korean drama are the ones
for those  that are really well made
who make me cry most
so beautiful they are