Thursday 8 January 2015

Brain muscles massage :)

Ah thank you to God for His Good Grace

i feel sooo good now

a few days ago
i was laying down in bed
and suddenly felt such a strong downpour of wind
ouf of my fontanel area

that i stayed literally scotched
to my bed and
my attention scotched to my fontanel
soooooooooooooo pleasant it was
soooooooooooooo relaxing too .... ah so good it was

i REALLY relaxed
ENTIRELY
(well nearly)
but most than usual

at the very beginning
i could only feel coolness here and there
let's say hands and/or head

now i am happy to say
after a semester
i could feel it flowing on both arms
till inside of hands
and feet too

after a year
i could literally feel
at times
not always
a whole shield
from head to toe

but now
even during the intensive meditation period
i felt "bored"

well i knew not why
but i felt bored
even though i was still feeling this coolness
all over body
and in the best times
as a unified field of oneness from head to toes

but i felt "bored"
no clue why
but yes bored
should i say it again?
BORED! :)))

now i know why!
it is as i read it
it is because ....
i wanted more lol
and because more joy exists
then this stagnation was starting to bother me

so when i felt this strong wind
out of my fontanel area
really
i was all relaxed
and yes
how can i forget writing that
sooo much relaxed
that i was BREATHING THE VERY COOL BREEZE
THAT WAS COMING OUT OF MY FONTANEL
right into my nose
hahaha

sooooo heavenly time it was
this is true relaxed meditation
and joyful state DURING it !

ah soo cool
and right NOW
twice i felt same
while i was working
so cool
that i stopped what ever i was doing
and just stayed with it

ah
and yes it was as strong as the one
when i was laying down
may be a little less
but what was GOOD
and this i NEVER felt so before

LITERALLY SPEAKING
i felt as if my INSIDE BRAIN MUSCLES
WERE BEING MASSAGED

ah God!
hahaha
ah ! i am wanting more

imagine!
we feel so good when we get a massage right?
well i rarely get one
but you get my point

and imagine!
brain is THE PART of body
which is ALWAYS working
EVEN WHEN SLEEPING

and how COME
this muscle NEVER gets a massage?

ah my Good GOD!
i GOT an INSIDE BRAIN MASSAGE
that was VERY pleasurable

that i can say is
my DAY 1 of really PLEASURABLE MEDITATION
MARK THAT DAY
DAY ONE OF BRAIN MASSAGE

yes,
i am trying to practise the attention
in such a way
that first when i feel the energy UNIFORMLY
from head to toes (shield)
then
i try to observe it from afar even more
till result be an empty body

to be honest
i am trying to get the hang of it
so not much on this today
once i really get it

point is
once we feel THAT joy
and THAT unified field
and THEN we put our attention
on events that are so dire like in France nowadays

THEN we can send LOVE
to such criminals
and situation, circumstances
so that it CHANGES for the GOOD

ok
it is SO contrasting
from my anger and hate of yesterday
but it is because i MUST be HONEST
with myself if I WANT TO SEE CHANGE

and we canNOT change something bad into good
UNLESS we PINPOINT IT
and for this you NEED to admit it

anyway
we are human
anger is ok
but the AFTER is most important

so those who laugh at angry yogis
well i laugh at their uptight ass lol
hahaha
and i laugh all the more to angry yogis
ie to myself too
for the times i was angry
and DID NOT follow up ENOUGH
to change anger into LOVE

NOW
LOVE
don't GET WRONG ideas
it is NOT what YOU call love

it is
ah i feel like saying
"celestial love"
"Love born from God grace"

this means
you do not control it
you cannot make it born

remember
like He begets not nor He is begotten?

same here
Love
God IS LOVE
so LOVE comes from HIS GRACE

before
i used to wonder
well how to attract this Grace

and now
yes this COOL WIND
IS THIS OUTER PROOF of
HIS AWAKENED GRACE

for Grace NEEDS to be MANIFESTED
to SHOW us that IT exists, right?

ONCE we feel it
it is ONLY the SIGN that
LOVE within you HAS AWAKENED

BUT
it does not means that
you can FEEL LOVE
for still your hearts needs to open more

BUT it is there
so VIBES are ONLY PROOF of this INNER LOVE
which is PRESENT IN YOU
and ONCE your shield is UNIFIED
then SOMEHOW
WHERE you PUT your attention
THEN
this LOVE follows

and as God Grace
is NOTHING except LOVE and COMPASSION
this very Energy of LOVE
will TRANSFORM the object of your attention
into more love filled being/behavior etc.

because i learned
that hate is NOT a power
it is  the choice of your personality
in terms of behavior

but on the power level
only LOVE is (the power-the transformative power)

and a criminal
you cannot change it with hate
nor you (as personality) can "love" his acts or him lol
that would be insane from you and me

but you as BEING OF EMPTINESS CAN LOVE him

yes!
while writing i got it
LOVE , divine LOVE comes from our Being of Emptiness
which is us, on the upper plane (divine plane)

but we as individual being/manifested being/personality
are not a being of emptiness but a body with thoughts etc.
and from this plane we can NEVER
and besides should NEVER love such people
well unless you be insane

so
if i sum up
Divine Love is Power
and this Power can ONLY stems from us
WHEN we are a Being of Emptiness

and we can be it
ONLY when our field is UNIFIED
from head to toes
THEN our whole body is EMPTY

hm,
anyway for the moment
i say :)

Praise be to God
for my SO GOOD BRAIN MUSCLES MASSAGE
HEAVENLY! :)