Meditation Journey

i got lots of nice experiences 

since i started my trip out of paris 

first we went to central france 

la chaise dieu is the name of the place

then i arrived to cabella in Italy.

if i don t look at my notes

and just rely on my memory for the intense moments

i would say that i learned that experiences 

help us to build our souls

so without experiences we have not lived life

my friends in this regards is an amazing soul builder

even though she knows not english or italian 

she gets each time what she has set herself as a goal 

she amazes me in this regard.

her strong qualities that i loved :

she knows what she wants in the moment

she does it

clearly remembering her goal 

not forgetting it or diluting it or losing it for someone else s desire, or lack of help

amazing girl she is 

in this regards she is a great soul builder

the limit of it 

is when you built your kingdom

you forget to remember your source

in this regards 

i have a great inner helper 

who tells me when i forget my ultimate aim 

which is to KNOW that i am the BEAUTY inside 

i.e. the pure awareness within

the realisation that i am the source of the creation all around me

this is the goal towards which i should aim

for i met yogis that by rank/social ties are considered highly realised to the masses let s say

and i learned they are not even realised in truth

shocking !

why? 

because they do not cultivate

and true when i looked at their face 

they appeared dead to me 

i was shocked 

how come within two years they lost so much of their light

i can t believe it

others i learned their shield is so widespread that 

one can call them as highly realised people

but even a highly realised person can become lost 

this too is shocking to me

why ?

because each time we think we arrived

that's it i got it!

as my friends would say 

'i got God by its balls' lol

this is when you would start your loss

loss of what ?

of knowing you are the source of the creation around you

that you are this pure awareness

therefore 

though highly realised this lady's progress towards this goal is impaired

for she thinks that she arrived to bliss

while in heaven there are many other levels of bliss

and one can never be stable in bliss either we progress till we know it is truth

or we regress

even if we are highly realised 

for only decision in the present counts and determine our sailing

therefore i learned 

that to protect such people who lost their aim 

by getting deluded to their arrival

they experience trauma in life 

like by the loss of what is dear to them

for this loss 

make them suffer

and until there is not suffering 

one does not realise that there are higher level of bliss

so if there is suffering 

then we have not yet arrived

to the pure bliss within.

therefore suffering is the indication

that one has not yet arrived to the pure bliss of the self inside

the pure bliss within of the awareness that we are the creators.

arrived to her true self 

which is pure bliss inside

well i write this 

as my inner learning taught it to me

but i have not yet arrived 

i can only progress if i do 

each morning my two hours of walking meditation 

which helps to open more petals

so why in cabella i feel so good?

it is associating a place to God that to think it is due to the place

the mecanism is so

the place is blessed because of is highly advanced yogi

who as a collective help me to get purified 

but they are not the source

the source is within me

and unless and until i find it 

i only sail to some levels of bliss 

that s all

but main point is not to mix up Source with the collectivity

the latter is a support to realise, self realise, innerly realise the former.

i experienced of course miracles during my stay 

for i wished for them

hence the importance of being our own master

what does it mean?

it means to use our strong pure intent 

once we intent it 

the power within us make it happens according to the right timing of God

by memory

one of my intent was to find something valuable

and the next day when i was not feeling well

i found a metal pendent with shri mataji face

very symbolic

that is valuable finding of my life indeed
that that which of the Divine Mother Within awakened :)

another day i was going for dinner

and on my way i clearly knew what i wished 

and that is to have a nice comfy place to stay 

for i had enough of camping and tent and so on

and right two minutes later 

a nice lady offered me to stay in her house for a week 

for she will go to her city 

hmm later i learned she did it on purpose for me to stay in her place 

so kind of her

i love her for her genuine empathy 

and also precise intuition

i learned that a camping oven would be a best gift to give her

but in this village not sure to find one

second choice is a rose plant

this i will offer her

what else 

how could i forget 

the miracle of the miracle 

my pic!

my friends and i were arguing on my changed ways 

for she found me too much speedy among other things

i told her it is normal

it is the place which purifies us from our imbalances

it is like a lake where you throw a stone 

and the muds come up

so you need to let it go

not to oppose it nor to soften it

just to let it appear on the surface and let it go 

like for meditation

lol her attention span is so short 

that she did not get it i am sure

anyway later on 

on the feel 

i asked her to take a pic of me 

so that i send it to my annoying fiance 

who is getting so much erratic in his organisation

that i wish to punch him in the face at times;)

and what happen is 

that on the pic 

we saw light coming out of my belly 

like a sun rays coming out of the nabhi

which is the center of self mastery

so the pic was so well timed

it showed us that i was using my guru principle 

lol

i got congrats for having become a guru lol

official diploma in hands

now how i use it

this is my new challenge

let s see

hmm

i wish for red flowers

a purple sari 

with gold embroidery

for a nice true meeting with a few new friends 

who be sincere in their meditation

i wish we may meditate together every morning earnestly

hmm

i wish for getting rich and buy this new house  to my parents 

lol 

they will realise that i could do it

so far they think i can only fit in their conditioned programming 

of housechores and limited life of a woman as they had been taught by their culture and society around them

let s see how i shatter their world 

for the best!

hmm

i wish to do celtic dance

so annoying! many times they did it !

during the festival of the spirit here in cabella

but gosh i missed it each time!

oh yes i want to do stick dance too!

lol

i took part in the Art Academy

i did indian fusion dance - contemporary dance it is

wow i loved it 

people thought i used to do dance

but it was my first time

hmm apparently i m gifted at learning things first hand

oh yeah my teacher said i was gracious 

you will see the music is just beautiful 

ah jesus 

one thing i won t regret from all my trips 

it is BEES!

they keep doing even now 

des raides aerien on my face!

how you say it in english 

please use google translator lol

i did also sufi qawali

to be honest i was expecting more

and i guess i am very much passionate

for all of this sufficed me not

i need a new teacher once i come back in paris 

that is my desire

hmm sitar is so beautiful

but i must admit

it makes me sleep in its start

for i learned it is an instrument which brings you in meditation

you should have seen me

half sleeping half in meditation

jesus so much torturing!

except for the end when its rhythm goes up with tabla

i just loved it!

i guess i love dynamic and passionate music

finally i did aikido

the teacher is just amazing

i need to do a whole post about his teaching.

good news i lost weight

when i expected it not

i ate too much pasta, pizza and ice cream

till overdose

but lost weight

how

because i did this dance

and i loved it

so for sure unless you do what you love

you can t expect blessed results in your life

love bears unexpected fruits 

and unexpected things are the best

for they come as a miracle into your life.

ah kiss:x